A very sharp lady. She knew more about my book than I did.
"That"s right. So I decided to try Dallas. I think it"s the right place, but . . ."
"But you wouldn"t want to live there?"
"Exactly."
"I see." She picked at her piece of deep-fried fish. Deke was looking at her with a mildly poleaxed expression. Whatever it was he wanted as he went cantering down the backstretch of life, she appeared to have it. Not so strange; everybody loves somebody sometime, as Dean Martin would so wisely point out. But not for another few years. "And when you"re not writing, what do you like to read, Mr. Amberson?"
"Oh, just about everything."
"Have you read The Catcher in the Rye?"
Uh-oh, I thought.
"Yes, ma"am."
She looked impatient at this. "Oh, call me Mimi. Even the kids call me Mimi, although I insist they put a Miz with it for propriety"s sake. What do you think of Mr. Salinger"s cri de coeur?"
Lie, or tell the truth? But it wasn"t a serious question. This woman would read a lie the way I could read . . . well . . . an IMPEACH EARL WARREN billboard.
"I think it says a lot about how lousy the fifties were, and a lot about how good the sixties can be. If the Holden Caulfields of America don"t lose their outrage, that is. And their courage."
"Um. Hum." Picking plenty at her fish, but not eating any that I could see. No wonder she looked like you could staple a string to the back of her dress and fly her like a kite. "Do you believe it should be in the school library?"
I sighed, thinking how much I would have enjoyed living and teaching part-time in the town of Jodie, Texas. "Actually, ma"am-Mimi-I do. Although I believe it should be checked out only to certain students, and at the librarian"s discretion."
"The librarian"s? Not the parents"?"
"No, ma"am. That"s a slippery slope."
Mimi Corcoran burst into a wide smile and turned to her beau. "Deke, this fellow doesn"t belong on the subst.i.tute list. He should be full-time."
"Mimi-"
"I know, no vacancy in the English Department. But if he sticks around, maybe he can step in after that idiot Phil Bateman retires."
"Meems, that is very indiscreet."
"Yes," she said, and actually dropped me a wink. "Also very true. Send Deke your references from Florida, Mr. Amberson. They should do nicely. Better yet, bring them in yourself, next week. The school year has started. No sense in losing time."
"Call me George," I said.
"Yes, indeed," she said. She pushed her plate away. "Deke, this is terrible. Why do we eat here?"
"Because I like the burgers and you like Al"s strawberry shortcake."
"Oh, yes," she said. "The strawberry shortcake. Bring it on. Mr. Amberson, can you stay for the football game?"
"Not tonight," I said. "I"ve got to get back to Dallas. Maybe next week"s game. If you think you can use me."
"If Mimi likes you, I like you," Deke Simmons said. "I can"t guarantee you a day every week, but some weeks there"ll be two or even three. It will all average out."
"I"m sure it will."
"The subst.i.tute salary isn"t much, I"m afraid-"
"I know that, sir. I"m just looking for a way to supplement my income."
"That Catcher book will never be in our library," Deke said with a regretful side-glance at his purse-lipped paramour. "Schoolboard won"t have it. Mimi knows that." Another big bite of his p.r.o.ngburger.
"Times change," Mimi Corcoran said, pointing first to the napkin dispenser and then to the side of his mouth. "Deke. Sauce."
17.
The following week I made a mistake. I should have known better; making another major wager should have been the last thing on my mind after all that had happened to me. You"ll say I should have been more on my guard.
I did understand the risk, but I was worried about money. I had come to Texas with something less than sixteen thousand dollars. Some was the remainder of Al"s stake-money, but most of it was the result of two very large bets, one placed in Derry and one in Tampa. But staying at the Adolphus for seven weeks or so had eaten up over a thousand; getting settled in a new town would easily cost another four or five hundred. Food, rent, and utilities aside, I was going to need a lot more clothes-and better ones-if I was going to look respectable in a cla.s.sroom. I"d be based in Jodie for two and a half years before I could conclude my business with Lee Harvey Oswald. Fourteen thousand dollars or so wasn"t going to cut it. The subst.i.tute teaching salary? Fifteen dollars and fifty cents a day. Yeehaw.
Okay, maybe I could have sc.r.a.ped through on fourteen grand, plus thirty and sometimes even fifty bucks a week as a sub. But I"d have to stay healthy and not have any accidents, and I couldn"t bank on that. Because the past is sly as well as obdurate. It fights back. And yes, maybe there was an element of greed involved, too. If so, it was based less on the love of money than on the intoxicating knowledge that I could beat the usually unbeatable house whenever I wanted to.
I think now: If Al had researched the stock market as thoroughly as who won all those baseball games, football games, and horse races . . .
But he didn"t.
I think now: If Freddy Quinlan hadn"t mentioned that the World Series was shaping up to be a doozy . . .
But he did.
And I went back to Greenville Avenue.
I told myself that all those straw-hatted punters I"d seen standing out in front of Faith Financial (Where Trust Is Our Watchword) would be betting the Series, and some of them would be laying down serious cash. I told myself that I"d be one among many, and a middling bet from Mr. George Amberson-who"d claim to be living in a nice converted-garage duplex on Blackwell Street right here in Dallas, should anyone inquire-would attract no attention. h.e.l.l, I told myself, the guys running Faith Financial probably don"t know Senor Eduardo Gutierrez of Tampa from Adam. Or from Noah"s son, Ham, for that matter.
Oh, I told myself lots of things, and they all boiled down to the same two things: that it was perfectly safe, and that it was perfectly reasonable to want more money even though I currently had enough to live on. Dumb. But stupidity is one of two things we see most clearly in retrospect. The other is missed chances.
18.
On September twenty-eighth, a week before the Series was scheduled to start, I walked into Faith Financial and-after some dancing-put down six hundred dollars on the Pittsburgh Pirates to beat the Yankees in seven. I accepted two-to-one odds, which was outrageous considering how heavily favored the Yankees were. On the day after Bill Mazeroski hit his unlikely ninth-inning home run to seal the deal for the Buckos, I drove back to Dallas and Greenville Avenue. I think that if Faith Financial had been deserted, I would have turned around and driven right back to Jodie . . . or maybe that"s just what I tell myself now. I don"t know for sure.
What I do know is there was a queue of bettors waiting to collect, and I joined it. That group was a Martin Luther King dream come true: fifty percent black, fifty percent white, a hundred percent happy. Most guys came out with nothing but a few fives or maybe a double sawbuck or two, but I saw several who were counting C-notes. An armed robber who had chosen that day to hit Faith Financial would have done well, indeed.
The money-man was a stocky fellow wearing a green eyeshade. He asked me the standard first question ("Are you a cop? If you are, you have to show me your ID"), and when I answered in the negative, he asked for my name and a look at my driver"s license. It was a brand-new one, which I had received by registered mail the week before; finally a piece of Texas identification to add to my collection. And I was careful to hold my thumb over the Jodie address.
He paid me my twelve hundred. I stuffed it in my pocket and walked quickly to my car. When I was back on Highway 77, with Dallas falling behind and Jodie growing closer with every turn of the wheels, I finally relaxed.
Stupid me.
19.
We"re going to take another leap forward in time (narratives also contain rabbit-holes, when you stop to think of it), but I need to recount one more thing from 1960, first.
Fort Worth. November sixteenth, 1960. Kennedy the president-elect for a little over a week. The corner of Ballinger and West Seventh. The day was cold and overcast. Cars puffed white exhaust. The weatherman on KLIF ("All the hits, all the time") was forecasting rain that might thicken to sleet by midnight, so be careful on the highways, all you rockers and rollers.
I was bundled into a rawhide ranch coat; a felt cap with flaps was jammed down over my ears. I was sitting on a bench in front of the Texas Cattle Raisers" a.s.sociation, looking down West Seventh. I had been there for almost an hour, and I didn"t think the young man would visit with his mother much longer than that; according to Al Templeton"s notes, all three of her boys had gotten away from her as soon as they possibly could. What I was hoping was that she might come out of her apartment building with him. She was recently back in the area after several months in Waco, where she had been working as a ladies" home companion.
My patience was rewarded. The door of the Rotary Apartments opened and a skinny man who bore an eerie resemblance to Lee Harvey Oswald came out. He held the door for a woman in a tartan car coat and blocky white nurse"s shoes. She was only shoulder-high to him, but solidly built. Her graying hair was scrooped back from a prematurely lined face. She wore a red kerchief. Matching lipstick outlined a small mouth that looked dissatisfied and pugnacious-the mouth of a woman who believes the world is against her and has had plenty of evidence over the years to prove it. Lee Oswald"s elder brother went quickly down the concrete path. The woman scurried after and grabbed the back of his topcoat. He turned to her on the sidewalk. They appeared to argue, but the woman did most of the talking. She shook her finger in his face. No way I could tell what she was scolding him about; I was a prudent block and a half away. Then he started toward the corner of West Seventh and Summit Avenue, as I had expected. He had come by bus, and that was where the nearest stop was.
The woman stood where she was for a moment, as if undecided. Come on, Mama, I thought, you"re not going to let him get away that easily, are you? He"s just half a block down the street. Lee had to go all the way to Russia to get away from that wagging finger.
She went after him, and as they neared the corner, she raised her voice and I heard her clearly. "Stop, Robert, don"t walk so fast, I"m not done with you!"
He looked over his shoulder but kept walking. She caught up to him at the bus stop and tugged on his sleeve until he looked at her. The finger resumed its tick-tock wagging. I caught isolated phrases: you promised, and gave you everything and-I think-who are you to judge me. I couldn"t see Oswald"s face because his back was to me, but his slumped shoulders said plenty. I doubted if this was the first time Mama had followed him down the street, jabbering away the whole time, oblivious of spectators. She spread a hand above the shelf of her bosom, that timeless Mom-gesture that says Behold me, ye thankless child.
Oswald dug into his back pocket, produced his wallet, and gave her a bill. She stuffed it in her purse without looking at it and started back toward the Rotary Apartments. Then she thought of something else and turned to him once more. I heard her clearly. Raised to shout across the fifteen or twenty yards now between them, that reedy voice was like fingernails drawn down a slate blackboard.
"And call me if you hear from Lee again, hear? I"m still on the party line, it"s all I can afford until I get a better job, and that Sykes woman from downstairs is on it all the time, I spoke to her, I gave her a real piece of my mind, "Mrs. Sykes," I said-"
A man pa.s.sed her. He stuck a theatrical finger in one ear, grinning. If Mama saw, she took no notice. She certainly took no notice of her son"s grimace of embarra.s.sment.
""Mrs. Sykes," I said, "you"re not the only one who needs the phone, so I"d thank you to keep your calls short. And if you won"t do it on your own, I may have to call a representative of the telephone company to make you do it." That"s what I said. So you call me, Rob. You know I need to hear from Lee."
Here came the bus. As it pulled up, he raised his voice to be heard over the chuff of the air-brakes. "He"s a d.a.m.n Commie, Ma, and he"s not coming home. Get used to it."
"You call me!" she shrilled. Her grim little face was set. She stood with her feet planted apart, like a boxer ready to absorb a blow. Any blow. Every blow. Her eyes glared from behind black-rimmed harlequin gla.s.ses. Her kerchief was double-knotted beneath her chin. The rain had begun to fall now, but she paid it no mind. She drew in breath and raised her voice to something just short of a scream. "I need to hear from my good boy, you hear?"
Robert Oswald bolted up the steps and into the bus without replying. It pulled away in a chuff of blue exhaust. And as it did, a smile lit her face. It did something of which I would have thought a smile incapable: it made her simultaneously younger and uglier.
A workman pa.s.sed her. He didn"t b.u.mp or even brush her, as far as I could see, but she snapped: "Watch where you"re going! You don"t own the sidewalk!"
Marguerite Oswald started back toward her apartment. When she turned away from me, she was still smiling.
I drove back to Jodie that afternoon, shaken and thoughtful. I wouldn"t see Lee Oswald for another year and a half, and I remained determined to stop him, but I already felt more sympathy for him than I ever had for Frank Dunning.
CHAPTER 13.
1.
It was seven forty-five on the evening of May 18, 1961. The light of a long Texas dusk lay across my backyard. The window was open, and the curtains fluttered in a mild breeze. On the radio, Troy Shondell was singing "This Time." I was sitting in what had been the little house"s second bedroom and was now my study. The desk was a cast-off from the high school. It had one short leg, which I had shimmed. The typewriter was a Webster portable. I was revising the first hundred and fifty or so pages of my novel, The Murder Place, mostly because Mimi Corcoran kept pestering me to read it, and Mimi, I had discovered, was the sort of person you could put off with excuses for only so long. The work was actually going well. I"d had no problem turning Derry into the fictional town of Dawson in my first draft, and turning Dawson into Dallas was even easier. I had started making the changes only so the work-in-progress would support my cover story when I finally let Mimi read it, but now the changes seemed both vital and inevitable. It seemed the book had wanted to be about Dallas all along.
The doorbell rang. I put a paperweight on the ma.n.u.script pages so they wouldn"t blow around, and went to see who my visitor was. I remember all of this very clearly: the dancing curtains, the smooth river stone paperweight, "This Time" playing on the radio, the long light of Texas evening, which I had come to love. I should remember it. It was when I stopped living in the past and just starting living.
I opened the door and Michael Coslaw stood there. He was weeping. "I can"t, Mr. Amberson," he said. "I just can"t."
"Well, come in, Mike," I said. "Let"s talk about it."
2.
I wasn"t surprised to see him. I had been in charge of Lisbon High"s little Drama Department for five years before running away to the Era of Universal Smoking, and I"d seen plenty of stage fright in those years. Directing teenage actors is like juggling jars of nitroglycerine: exhilarating and dangerous. I"ve seen girls who were quick studies and beautifully natural in rehearsal freeze up completely onstage; I"ve seen nerdy little guys blossom and seem to grow a foot taller the first time they utter a line that gets a laugh from an audience. I"ve directed dedicated plodders and the occasional kid who showed a spark of talent. But I"d never had a kid like Mike Coslaw. I suspect there are high school and college faculty who"ve been working dramatics all their lives and never had a kid like him.
Mimi Corcoran really did run Denholm Consolidated High School, and it was she who coaxed me into taking over the junior-senior play when Alfie Norton, the math teacher who had been doing it for years, was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia and moved to Houston for treatments. I tried to refuse on the grounds that I was still doing research in Dallas, but I wasn"t going there very much in the winter and early spring of 1961. Mimi knew it, because whenever Deke needed an English sub during that half of the school year, I was usually available. When it came to Dallas, I was basically marking time. Lee was still in Minsk, soon to marry Marina Prusakova, the girl in the red dress and white shoes.
"You"ve got plenty of time on your hands," Mimi had said. Her own hands were fisted on her nonexistent hips: she was in full take-no-prisoners mode that day. "And it pays."
"Oh, yeah," I said. "I checked that out with Deke. Fifty bucks. I"ll be living large in the hood."