Yes, and she was sweating, something I"d never seen before. Also, she looked as if she"d lost weight. Not a good thing for a lady who had no pounds to give away.
Sitting in my living room with big gla.s.ses of iced coffee-me in the easy chair, she on the couch-Mimi gave her opinion. "I enjoyed the stuff about the killer dressed up as a clown. Call me twisted, but I found that deliciously creepy."
"If you"re twisted, I am, too."
She smiled. "I"m sure you"ll find a publisher for it. On the whole, I liked it very much."
I felt a little hurt. The Murder Place might have begun as camouflage, but it had become more important to me as I got deeper into it. It was like a secret memoir. One of the nerves. "That "on the whole" stuff reminds me of Alexander Pope-you know, d.a.m.ning with faint praise?"
"I didn"t quite mean it that way." More qualification. "It"s just that . . . G.o.ddammit, George, this isn"t what you were meant to do. You were meant to teach. And if you publish a book like this, no school department in the United States will hire you." She paused. "Except maybe in Ma.s.sachusetts."
I didn"t reply. I was speechless.
"What you did with Mike Coslaw-what you did for Mike Coslaw-was the most amazing and wonderful thing I"ve ever seen."
"Mimi, it wasn"t me. He"s just naturally tal-"
"I know he"s naturally talented, that was obvious from the moment he walked onstage and opened his mouth, but I"ll tell you something, my friend. Something forty years in high schools and sixty years of living has taught me and taught me well. Artistic talent is far more common than the talent to nurture artistic talent. Any parent with a hard hand can crush it, but to nurture it is much more difficult. That"s a talent you have, and in much greater supply than the one that drove this." She tapped the sheaf of pages on the coffee table in front of her.
"I don"t know what to say."
"Say thank you, and compliment me on my acute judgment."
"Thanks. And your insight is only exceeded by your good looks."
That brought the smile back, dryer than ever. "Don"t exceed your brief, George."
"Yes, Miz Mimi."
The smile disappeared. She leaned forward. The blue eyes behind her gla.s.ses were too big, swimming in her face. The skin under her tan was yellowish, and her formerly taut cheeks were hollow. When had this happened? Had Deke noticed? But that was ridic, as the kids said. Deke wouldn"t notice that his socks were mismatched until he took them off at night. Probably not even then.
She said, "Phil Bateman is no longer just threatening to retire, he"s done pulled the pin and tossed the grenade, as our delightful Coach Borman would say. Which means there"s a vacancy on the English faculty. Come and teach full-time at DCHS, George. The kids like you, and after the junior-senior play, the community thinks you"re the second coming of Alfred Hitchc.o.c.k. Deke is just waiting to see your application-he told me so just last night. Please. Publish this under a pseudonym, if you have to, but come and teach. That"s what you were meant to do."
I wanted badly to say yes, because she was right. My job wasn"t writing books, and it certainly wasn"t killing people, no matter how much they deserved killing. And there was Jodie. I"d come to it as a stranger who had been displaced from his home era as well as his hometown, and the first words spoken to me here-by Al Stevens, at the diner-had been friendly words. If you"ve ever been homesick, or felt exiled from all the things and people that once defined you, you"ll know how important welcoming words and friendly smiles can be. Jodie was the anti-Dallas, and now one of its leading citizens was asking me to be a resident instead of a visitor. But the watershed moment was approaching. Only it wasn"t here yet. Maybe . . .
"George? You have the most peculiar look on your face."
"That"s called thinking. Will you let me do it, please?"
She put her hands to her cheeks and rounded her mouth in a comic O of apology. "Well braid my hair and call me Buckwheat."
I paid no attention, because I was busy flicking through Al"s notes. I no longer had to look at them to do that. When the new school year started in September, Oswald was still going to be in Russia, although he had already started what would be a lengthy paperwork battle to get back to America with his wife and daughter, June, with whom Marina would be pregnant any day now. It was a battle Oswald would eventually win, playing one superpower bureaucracy off against the other with instinctive (if rudimentary) cleverness, but they wouldn"t step off the SS Maasdam and onto American soil until the middle of next year. And as for Texas . . .
"Meems, the school year usually ends the first week in June, doesn"t it?"
"Always. The kids who need summer jobs have to nail them down."
. . . as for Texas, the Oswalds were going to arrive on the fourteenth of June, 1962.
"And any teaching contract I signed would be probationary, right? As in one year?"
"With an option to renew if all parties are satisfied, yes."
"Then you"ve got yourself a probationary English teacher."
She laughed, clapped her hands, got to her feet, and held her arms out. "Marvelous! Huggies for Miz Mimi!"
I hugged her, then released her quickly when I heard her gasp. "What the h.e.l.l is wrong with you, ma"am?"
She went back to the couch, picked up her iced coffee, and sipped. "Let me give you two pieces of advice, George. The first is never call a Texas woman ma"am if you come from the northern climes. It sounds sarcastic. The second is never ask any woman what the h.e.l.l is wrong with her. Try something slightly more delicate, like "Are you feeling quite all right?""
"Are you?"
"Why wouldn"t I? I"m getting married."
At first I couldn"t match this particular zig with a corresponding zag. Except the grave look in her eyes suggested she wasn"t zigging at all. She was circling something. Probably not a nice something, either.
"Say "Congratulations, Miz Mimi.""
"Congratulations, Miz Mimi."
"Deke first popped the question almost a year ago. I put him off, saying it was too soon after his wife died, and it would cause talk. As time pa.s.ses, that has become less effective as an argument. I doubt if there would have been all that much talk, anyway, given our ages. People in small towns realize that folks like Deke and me can"t afford the luxury of decorum quite so much once we reach a certain, shall we say, plateau of maturity. Truth is, I liked things fine just the way they were. The old fella loves me quite a lot more than I love him, but I like him plenty, and-at the risk of embarra.s.sing you-even ladies who"ve reached a certain plateau of maturity aren"t averse to a nice boink on a Sat.u.r.day night. Am I embarra.s.sing you?"
"No," I said. "Actually, you"re delighting me."
The dry smile. "Lovely. Because when I swing my feet out of bed in the morning, my first thought as they hit the floor is, "Might there be a way I can delight George Amberson today? And if so, how shall I go about it?""
"Don"t exceed your brief, Miz Mimi."
"Spoken like a man." She sipped her iced coffee. "I had two objectives when I came here today. I"ve accomplished the first. Now I"ll move on to the second so you can get on with your day. Deke and I are going to be married on July twenty-first, which is a Friday. The ceremony will be a small private affair in his home-just us, the preacher, and a few family members. His parents-they"re quite vigorous for dinosaurs-are coming from Alabama and my sister from San Diego. The reception will be a lawn party at my house the following day. Two P.M. until drunk o"clock. We"re inviting almost everyone in town. There"s going to be a pinata and lemonade for the little kiddies, barbecue and kegs of beer for the big kiddies, and even a band from San-Antone. Unlike most bands from San-Antone, I believe they are able to play "Louie Louie" as well as "La Paloma." If you don"t favor us with your presence-"
"You"ll be bereft?"
"Indeed I will. Will you save the date?"
"Absolutely."
"Good. Deke and I will be leaving for Mexico on Sunday, by which time his hangover will have dissipated. We"re a little old for a honeymoon, but there are certain resources available south of the border that are not available in the Sixgun State. Certain experimental treatments. I doubt if they work, but Deke is hopeful. And h.e.l.l, it"s worth a try. Life . . ." She gave a rueful sigh. "Life is too sweet to give up without a fight, don"t you think?"
"Yes," I said.
"Yes. So one holds on." She looked at me closely. "Are you going to cry, George?"
"No."
"Good. Because that would embarra.s.s me. I might even cry myself, and I don"t do it well. No one would ever write a poem about my tears. I croak."
"How bad is it? May I ask?"
"Quite bad." She said it offhandedly. "I might have eight months. Possibly a year. a.s.suming the herbal treatments or peach pits or whatever down Mexico way don"t effect a magical cure, that is."
"I"m very sorry to hear it."
"Thank you, George. Expressed to a nicety. Any more would be sloppy."
I smiled.
"I have another reason for inviting you to our reception, although it goes without saying that your charming company and sparkling repartee would be enough. Phil Bateman isn"t the only one who"s retiring."
"Mimi, don"t do that. Take a leave of absence if you have to, but-"
She shook her head decisively. "Sick or well, forty years is enough. It"s time for younger hands, younger eyes, and a younger mind. On my recommendation, Deke has hired a well-qualified young lady from Georgia. Her name is Sadie Clayton. She"ll be at the reception, she"ll know absolutely no one, and I expect you to be especially nice to her."
"Mrs. Clayton?"
"I wouldn"t quite say that." Mimi looked at me guilelessly. "I believe she intends to reclaim her maiden name at some point in the near future. Following certain legal formalities."
"Mimi, are you matchmaking?"
"Not at all," she said . . . then snickered. "Hardly at all. Although you will be the only teacher on the English faculty who"s currently unattached, and that makes you a natural to act as her mentor."
I thought that a gigantic leap into illogic, especially for such an ordered mind, but I accompanied her to the door without saying so. What I said was, "If it"s as serious as you say, you should be seeking treatment now. And not from some quack doctor in Juarez, either. You should be at the Cleveland Clinic." I didn"t know if the Cleveland Clinic even existed yet, but just then I didn"t care.
"I think not. Given the choice between dying in a hospital room somewhere, stuck full of tubes and wires, and dying in a seaside Mexican hacienda . . . that is, as you like to say, a no-brainer. And there"s something else, as well." She looked at me unflinchingly. "The pain isn"t too bad yet, but I"m told it will be. In Mexico, they are far less apt to strike moral poses about large doses of morphine. Or Nembutal, if it comes to that. Trust me, I know what I"m doing."
Based on what had happened to Al Templeton, I guessed that was true. I put my arms around her, this time hugging very gently. I kissed one leathery cheek.
She bore it with a smile, then slipped away. Her eyes searched my face. "I"d like to know your story, my friend."
I shrugged. "I"m an open book, Miz Mimi."
She laughed. "What a crock of s.h.i.t. You say you"re from Wisconsin, but you showed up in Jodie with a New England drawl in your mouth and Florida plates on your auto. You say you"re commuting to Dallas for research purposes, and your ma.n.u.script purports to be about Dallas, but the people in it speak like New Englanders. In fact, there are a couple of places where characters actually say ayuh. You might want to change those."
And I thought my rewrite had been so clever.
"Actually, Mimi, New Englanders say it a-yuh, not i-yuh."
"Noted." She continued to search my face. It was a struggle not to drop my eyes, but I managed. "Sometimes I"ve actually caught myself wondering if you might not be a s.p.a.ce alien, like Michael Rennie in The Day the Earth Stood Still. Here to a.n.a.lyze the natives and report back to Alpha Centauri on whether there"s still hope for us as a species or if we should be exploded by plasma rays before we can spread our germs to the rest of the galaxy."
"That"s very fanciful," I said, smiling.
"Good. I"d hate to think our whole planet was being judged by Texas."
"If Jodie were used as a sample, I"m sure Earth would get a pa.s.sing grade."
"You like it here, don"t you?"
"Yes."
"Is George Amberson your real name?"
"No. I changed it for reasons that are important to me but wouldn"t be to anyone else. I"d prefer you kept that to yourself. For obvious reasons."
She nodded. "I can do that. I"ll see you around, George. The diner, the library . . . and at the party, of course. You"ll be nice to Sadie Clayton, won"t you?"
"Nice as pie," I said, giving it the Texas twist: pah. That made her laugh.
When she was gone, I sat in my living room for a long time, not reading, not watching TV. And working on either of my ma.n.u.scripts was the farthest thing from my mind. I thought about the job I"d just agreed to: a year of teaching full-time English at Denholm Consolidated High School, home of the Lions. I decided I had no regrets. I could roar at halftime with the best of them.
Well, I did have one regret, but it wasn"t for me. When I thought about Mimi and her current situation, I had regrets aplenty.
6.
On the subject of love at first sight, I"m with the Beatles: I believe that it happens all the time. But it didn"t happen that way for me and Sadie, although I held her the first time I met her, and with my right hand cupping her left breast. So I guess I"m also with Mickey and Sylvia, who said love is strange.
South-central Texas can be savagely hot in mid-July, but the Sat.u.r.day of the post-wedding party was d.a.m.ned near perfect, with temperatures in the upper seventies and lots of fat white clouds hustling across a sky the color of faded overalls. Long shutters of sun and shadow slipped down Mimi"s backyard, which was on a mild slope ending at a muddy trickle of water she called Nameless Crick.
There were streamers of yellow and silver-Denholm High"s colors-strung from the trees, and there was indeed a pinata, hung temptingly low from the jutting branch of a sugar pine. No child pa.s.sed near it without giving it a longing glance.
"After dinner, the kids"ll get sticks and beat away on it," someone said from just behind my left shoulder. "Candy and toys for all the ninos."
I turned and beheld Mike Coslaw, resplendent (and a little hallucinatory) in tight black jeans and a white open-throated shirt. A sombrero on a tug-string hung down on his back, and he wore a multicolored sash around his waist. I saw a number of other football players, including Jim LaDue, dressed in the same semi-ridiculous manner, circulating with trays. Mike held his out with a slightly crooked smile. "Canape, Senor Amberson?"
I took a baby shrimp on a toothpick, and dipped it in the sauce. "Nice getup. Kind of a Speedy Gonzales thing."
"Don"t start. If you want to see a real getup, check Vince Knowles." He pointed beyond the net to where a group of teachers was playing a clumsy but enthusiastic game of volleyball. I beheld Vince dressed up in tails and a top hat. He was surrounded by fascinated children who were watching him pull scarves out of thin air. It worked well, if you were still young enough to miss the one poking out of his sleeve. His shoe-polish mustache gleamed in the sun.
"On the whole, I prefer the Cisco Kid look," Mike said.
"I"m sure you all make terrific waiters, but who in G.o.d"s name persuaded you to dress up? And does Coach know?"
"He ought to, he"s here."
"Oh? I haven"t seen him."
"He"s over by the barbecue pit, gettin hammered with the Boosters Club. As for the outfit . . . Miz Mimi can be pretty persuasive."
I thought of the contract I"d signed. "I know."
Mike lowered his voice. "We all know she"s sick. Besides . . . I think of this as acting." He struck a bullfighter pose-not easy when you"re carrying a tray of canapes. "Arriba!"