"Well, not yet," said Victoria soothingly. "I"m going to see an agent."
"Oh, that"s all right," said Miss Briggs with ghoulish relief. "Hope yer"ll get a job," she added as confidently as a man offering a drink to a teetotaller. At that moment a fearful clattering on the stairs announced that Hetty and the pail had suddenly descended to the lower landing. Liquid noises followed. Miss Briggs rushed out. Victoria jumped up and slammed her door on the chaotic scene. She returned to the _Telegraph_. The last six weeks in the Castle Street lodging house had taught her that these were happenings quite devoid of importance.
Victoria spread out the _Telegraph_, ignored the foreign news, the leaders and the shocking revelations as to the Government"s Saharan policy; she dallied for a moment over "gowns for debutantes," for she was a true woman, and pa.s.sed on to the advertis.e.m.e.nts. She was getting quite experienced as a reader and could sift the wheat from the chaff with some accuracy. She knew that she could safely ignore applications for lady helps in "small families," at least unless she was willing to clean boots and blacklead grates for five shillings a week and meals when an opportunity occurred; her last revelation as to the nature of a post of housekeeper to an elderly gentleman who had retired from business into the quietude of Surbiton had not been edifying. The "Financial and Businesses" column left her colder than she had been when she left Mrs Holt with nearly thirty-seven pounds. Then she was a capitalist and pondered longingly over the proposals of tobacconists, fancy goods firms, and stationers, who were prepared to guarantee a fortune to any person who could muster thirty pounds. Fortunately Miss Briggs had undeceived her. In her variegated experience, she herself had surrendered some sixty golden sovereigns to the persuasive owner of a flourishing newsagent"s business. After a few weeks of vain attempts to induce the neighbourhood to indulge in the news of the day, she had been glad to sell her stock of sweets for eighteen shillings, and to take half a crown for a hundred penny novelettes.
Victoria turned to the "Situations Vacant." Their numbers were deceptive. She had never realised before how many people live by fitting other people for work they cannot get. Two thirds of the advertis.e.m.e.nts offered wonderful opportunities for sons of gentlemen in the offices of architects and engineers on payment of a premium; she also found she could become a lady gardener if she would only follow the courses in some dukery and meanwhile live on air; others would teach her shorthand, typewriting or the art of the secretary. All these she now calmly skipped. She was obviously unfitted to be the matron of an asylum for the feeble-minded. Such experience had not been hers, nor had she the redoubtable record which would open the gates of an emporium. An illegible hand would exclude her from the City.
"No," thought Victoria, "I"m an unskilled labourer; that"s what I am."
She wearily skimmed the agencies; as a matter of habit noted the demand for two companions and one nursery governess and put the paper aside.
There was not much hope in any of these, for one was for Tiverton, the other for Cardiff, which would make a personal interview a costly business; the third, discreetly cloaked by an initial, suggested by its terseness a companionship probably undue in its intimacy. The last six weeks had opened Victoria"s eyes to the unpleasant aspects of life, so much so that she wondered whether there were any other. She felt now that London was waiting for her outside, waiting for her to have spent her last copper, when she would come out to be eaten so that she might eat.
Whatever her conceit might have been six months before, Victoria had lost it all. She could do nothing that was wanted and desired everything she could not get. She had tried all sources and found them dry.
Commercialism, philanthropy, and five per cent. philanthropy had failed her. What can you do? was their cry. And, the answer being "nothing,"
their retort had been "No more can we."
Victoria turned over in her mind her interview with the Honorary Secretary of the British Women"s Imperial Self Help a.s.sociation. "Of course," said the Secretary, "we will be glad to register you. We need some references and, as our principle is to foster the independence and self-respect of those whom we endeavour to place in positions such as may befit their social status, we are compelled to demand a fee of five shillings."
"Oh, self help, I see," said Victoria sardonically, for she was beginning to understand the world.
"Yes," replied the Honorary Secretary, oblivious of the sneer, for his mind was cast in the parliamentary mould, "by adhering to our principle and by this means only can we hope to stem the tide of pauperism to which modern socialistic tendencies are--are--spurring the ma.s.ses."
Victoria had paid five shillings for this immortal metaphor and within a week had received an invitation to attend a meeting presided over by several countesses.
The B. W. I. S. H. A., (as it was called by its intimates) had induced in Victoria suspicions of societies in general. She had, however, applied also to the Ladies" Provider. Its name left one in doubt whether it provided ladies with persons or whether it provided ladies to persons who might not be ladies. The Secretary in this case, was not Honorary.
The inwardness of this did not appear to Victoria; for she did not then know that plain secretaries are generally paid, and try to earn their salary. Their interview had, however, not been such as to convert her to the value of corporate effort.
The Secretary in this case was a woman of forty, with a pink face, trim grey hair, spectacles, amorphous clothing, capable hands. She exhaled an atmosphere of respectability, and the faint odour of almonds which emanates from those women who eschew scent in favour of soap. She had quietly listened to Victoria"s history, making every now and then a shorthand note. Then she had coughed gently once or twice. Victoria felt as in the presence of an examiner. Was she going to get a pa.s.s?
"I do not say that we cannot do anything for you, Mrs Fulton," she said, "but we have so many cases similar to yours."
Victoria had bridled a little at this. "Cases" was a nasty word.
"I"m not particular," she had answered, "I"d be a companion any day."
"I"m sure you"d make a pleasant one," said the Secretary graciously, "but before we go any further, tell me how it was you left your last place. You were in the . . . in the Finchley Road, was it not?" The Secretary"s eyes travelled to a map of London where Marylebone, South Paddington, Kensington, Belgravia, and Mayfair, were blocked out in blue.
Victoria had hesitated, then fenced. "Mrs Holt will give me a good character," she faltered.
"No doubt, no doubt," replied the Secretary, her eyes growing just a little darker behind the gla.s.ses. "Yet, you see, we are compelled by the nature of our business to make enquiries. A good reference is a very good thing, yet people are a little careless sometimes; the hearts of employers are often rather soft."
This was a little too much for Victoria. "If you want to know the truth," she said bluntly, "the son of the house persecuted me with his attentions, and I couldn"t bear it."
The Secretary made a shorthand note. Then she looked at Victoria"s flashing eyes, heightened colour, thick piled hair.
"I am very sorry," she began lamely. . . .
What dreadful things women are, thought Victoria, folding up the _Telegraph_. If Christ had said: Let _her_ who hath never sinned. . .
the woman would have been stoned. Victoria got up, went to the looking-gla.s.s and inspected herself. Yes, she was very pretty. She was prettier than she had ever been before. Her skin was paler, her eyes larger; her thick eyebrows almost met in an exquisite gradation of short dark hairs over the bridge of the nose. She watched her breast rise and fall gently, flashing white through the black lacework of her blouse, then falling away from it, tantalising the faint sunshine that would kiss it. As she turned, another looking-gla.s.s set in the lower panels of a small cupboard told her that her feet were small and high arched. Her openwork stockings were drawn so tight that the skin there also gleamed white.
Victoria took from the table a dirty visiting card. It bore the words "Louis Carrel, Musical and Theatrical Agent, 5 Soho Place." She had come by it in singular manner. Two days before, as she left the offices of the "Compleat Governess Agency" after having realised that she could not qualify in either French, German, Music, Poker work or Swedish drill, she had paused for a moment on the doorstep, surveying the dingy court where they were concealed, the dirty panes of an unlet shop opposite, the strange literature flaunting in the showcase of some publisher of esoterics. A woman had come up to her, rising like the loafers from the flagstones. She had realised her as between ages and between colours. Then the woman had disappeared as suddenly as she came without having spoken, leaving in Victoria"s hand the little square of pasteboard.
Victoria looked at it meditatively. She would have shrunk from the idea of the stage a year before, when the tradition of Lympton was still upon her. But times had changed; a simple philosophy was growing in her; what did anything matter? would it not be all the same in a hundred years?
The discovery of this philosophy did not strike her as commonplace.
There are but few who know that this is the philosophy of the world.
Victoria put down the card and began to dress. She removed the old black skirt and ragged lace blouse and, as she stood before the gla.s.s in her short petticoat, patting her hair and setting a comb, she reflected with satisfaction that her arms were shapely and white. She looked almost lovingly at the long thin dark hairs, fine as silk, that streaked her forearms; she kissed them gently, moved to self-adoration by the sweet scent of femininity that rose from her.
She tore herself away from her self-worship and quickly began to dress.
She put on a light skirt in serge, striped black and white, threading her head through it with great care for fear she should damage her fringe net. She drew on a white blouse, simple enough though cheap. As it fastened along the side she did not have to call in Miss Briggs; which was fortunate, as this was the time when Miss Briggs carried coals. Victoria wriggled for a moment to settle the uncomfortable boning of the neck and, having buckled and belted the skirt over the blouse, completed her toilet with her little black and white jacket to match the skirt. A tiny black silk cravat from her neck was discarded, as she found that the fashionable ruffle, emerging from the closed coat, produced an _effet mousquetaire_. Lastly she put on her hat; a lapse from the fashions perhaps, but a lovable, flat, almost crownless, dead black, save a vertical group of feathers.
Victoria drew her veil down, regretting the thickness of the spots, pushed it up to repair with a dab of powder the ravage of a pod on the tip of her nose. She took up her parasol and white gloves, a glow of excitement already creeping over her as she realised how cleverly she must have caught the spirit of the profession to look the actress to the life and yet remain in the note of the demure widow.
Soho Place is neither one of the "good" streets nor one of the "bad."
The police do not pace it in twos and threes in broad daylight, yet they hardly like to venture into it singly by night. On one side it ends in a square; on the other it turns off into an un.o.btrusive side street, the reputation of which varies yard by yard according to the distance from the main roads. It is dirty, dingy; yet not without dignity, for its good Georgian and Victorian houses preserve some solidity and are not yet of the tenement cla.s.s. They are still in the grade of office and shop which is immediately below their one-time status of dwellings for well-to-do merchants.
Victoria entered Soho Place from the square, so that she was not too ill impressed. She walked in the middle of the pavement, unconsciously influenced the foreign flavour of Soho. There men and women stand all day in the street, talking, bargaining, quarrelling and making love; when a cab rattles by they move aside lazily, as a Neapolitan stevedore rolls away on the wharf from the wheels of a pa.s.sing cart.
Victoria paused for a second on the steps. No 5 Soho Place was a good house enough. The ground floor was occupied by a firm of auctioneers; a gentleman describing himself as A.R.I.B.A. exercised his profession on the third floor; below his plate was nailed a visiting-card similar to the one Victoria took from her reticule. She went up the staircase feeling a little braced by the respectability of the house, though she had caught sight through the area railings of an unspeakably dirty kitchen where unwashed pots flaunted greasy remains on a liquor stained deal table. The staircase itself, with its neutral and stained green distemper, was not over encouraging. Victoria stopped at the first landing. She had no need to enquire as to the whereabouts of the impresario for, on a door which stood ajar, was nailed another dirty card. Just as she was about to push it, it opened further to allow a girl to come out. She was very fair; her cheeks were a little flushed; a golden lock or two fell like keepsake ringlets on her low lace collar.
Victoria just had time to see that the blue eyes sparkled and to receive a cheerful smile. The girl muttered an apology and, smiling still, brushed past her and lightly ran down the stairs. "A successful candidate," thought Victoria, her heart rising once more.
She entered the room and found it empty. It was almost entirely bare of furniture, for little save an island of chairs in the middle and faded red cloth curtains relieved the uniform dirtiness of the wall paper which once was flowered. One wall was entirely covered by a large poster where half a dozen impossibly charming girls of the biscuit box type were executing a cancan so symmetrically as to recall an Egyptian frieze. The mantlepiece was bare save for the signed photograph of some magnificent foreign-looking athlete, nude to the waist. Victoria waited for a moment, watching a door which led into an inner room, then went towards it. At once the sound of a chair being pushed back and the fall of some small article on the floor told her that the occupant had heard her footsteps. The door opened suddenly.
Victoria looked at the apparition with some surprise. In a single glance she took in the details of his face and clothes, all of which were pleasing. The man was obviously a foreigner. His face was pale, clean shaven save for a small black moustache closely cropped at the ends; his eyes were brown; his eyebrows, as beautifully pencilled as those of a girl, emphasized the whiteness of his high forehead from which the hair receded in thick waves. His lips, red and full, were parted over his white teeth in a pleasant smile. Victoria saw too that he was dressed in perfect taste, in soft grey tweed, fitting well over the collar and loose everywhere else; his linen was immaculate; in fact nothing about him would have disgraced the Chandraga mess, except perhaps a gold ring with a large diamond which he wore on the little finger of his right hand.
"Mr Carrel?" said Victoria in some trepidation.
"Yes, Mademoiselle," said the man pleasantly. "Will you have the kindness to enter?" He held the door open and Victoria, hesitating a little, preceded him.
The inner room was almost a replica of the outer. It too was scantily furnished. On a large table heaps of dusty papers were stacked. An ash-tray overflowed over one end. In a corner stood a rickety-looking piano. The walls were profusely decorated with posters and photographs, presumably of actors and actresses, some highly renowned. Victoria felt respect creeping into her soul.
Carrel placed a chair for her before the table and resumed his own. For the s.p.a.ce of a second or two he looked Victoria over. She was a little too conscious of his scrutiny to be quite at ease, but she was not afraid of the verdict.
"So, Mademoiselle," said the man gently, "you wish for an engagement on the stage?"
Victoria had not expected such directness. "Yes, I do," she said. "That is, I was thinking of it since I got your card."
"My card?" said Carrel, raising his eyebrows a little. "How did you get my card?"
Victoria told him briefly how the card had been thrust into her hand, how curious it was and how surprised she had been as she did not know the woman and had never seen her again. Then she frankly confessed that she had no experience of the stage but wanted to earn her living and that . . . She stopped aghast at the tactical error. But Carrel was looking at her fixedly, a smile playing on his lips as he pulled his tiny moustache with his jewelled hand.
"Yes, certainly, I understand," he said. "Experience is very useful, naturally. But you must begin and you know: _il n"y a que le premier pas qui coute_. Now perhaps you can sing? It would be very useful."
"Yes, I can sing," said Victoria doubtfully, suppressing "a little,"
remembering her first mistake.
"Ah, that is good," said Carrel smiling. "Will you sit down to the piano? I have no music; ladies always bring it but do you not know something by heart?"
Victoria got up, her heart beating a little and went to the piano. "I don"t know anything French," she said.
"It does not matter," said Carrel, "you will learn easily." He lowered the piano stool for her. As she sat down the side of his head brushed her shoulder lightly. A faint scent of heliotrope rose from his hair.