"The world"s one big East End," snapped Victoria.
Betty shivered. Farwell might have said that.
"You"re sweated if you get two pounds a week," continued Victoria.
"You"re sweated when you buy a loaf, sweated when you ride in a bus, sweated when they cremate you."
"I don"t understand," said Betty.
"All profits are sweated," quoted Victoria from a pamphlet.
"But people must make profits," protested Betty.
"What for?" asked Victoria.
"How are people to live unless they make profits?" said Betty. "Aren"t our wages profits?"
Victoria was nonplussed for a moment and became involved. "No, our wages are only wages; profit is the excess over our wages."
"I don"t understand," said Betty.
"Never mind," said Victoria, "I"ll ask Mr Farwell; he"ll make it clear."
Betty shot a dark blue glance at her.
"Vic," she said softly, "I think Mr Farwell. . . ." Then she changed her mind. "I can"t, I can"t," she thought. She crushed the jealous words down and plunged.
"Vic, darling," she faltered, "I"m afraid you"re not well. No, and not happy. I"ve been thinking of something; why shouldn"t I leave the Club and come and live with you."
Victoria looked at her critically for a moment. She thought of her independence, of this affection hovering round her, sweet, dangerously clinging. But Betty"s blue eyes were wet.
"You"re too good a pal for me, Betty," she said in a low voice. "I"d make you miserable."
"No, no," cried Betty impulsively. "I"d love it, Vic dear, and you would go on reading and do what you like. Only let me be with you."
Victoria"s hand tightened on her friend"s arm.
"Let me think, Betty dear," she said.
Ten days later, Betty having won her point, the great move was to take place at seven o"clock. It certainly lacked solemnity. For three days preceding the great change Betty had hurried away from the P.R.R. on the stroke of nine, quickly kissing Victoria and saying she couldn"t wait as she must pack. Clearly her wardrobe could not be disposed of in a twinkling. Yet, on moving day, at seven o"clock sharp (the carrier having been thoughtfully commanded to deliver at five) a tin trunk kept together by a rope, a tiny bath muzzled with a curtain, and a hat box loudly advertising somebody"s tea, were dumped on the doorstep. The cart drove off leaving the two girls to make terms with a loafer. The latter compromised for fourpence, slammed their door behind him and lurched down the creaking stairs. Betty threw herself into Victoria"s arms.
Those first days were sweet. Betty rejoiced like a lover in possession of a long-desired mistress; stripping off her blouse and looking very pretty, showing her white neck and slim arms, she strutted about the attic with a hammer in her hand and her mouth full of nails. It took an evening to hang the curtain which had muzzled the bath; Betty"s art treasures, an oleograph of "Bubbles" and another of "I"se Biggest," were cunningly hung by Victoria so that she could not see them on waking up.
Betty was active now as a will o" the wisp. She invented little feasts, expensive Sunday suppers of fried fish and chips, produced a basket of oranges at three a penny; thanks to her there was now milk with the tea.
In a moment of enthusiasm Victoria heard her murmur something about keeping a cat. In fact the only thing that marred her life at all was Victoria"s absorption in her reading. Often Betty would go to bed and stay awake, watching Victoria at the table, her fingers ravelling her hair, reading with an intentness that frightened her. She would watch Victoria and see her face grow paler, except at the cheeks where a flush would rise. A wild look would come into her eyes. Sometimes she would get up suddenly and, thrusting her hair out of her eyes, walk up and down muttering things Betty could not understand.
One night Betty woke up suddenly, and saw Victoria standing in the moonlight clad only in her nightgown. Words were surging from her lips.
"It"s no good. . . . I can"t go on. . . . I can"t go on until I die or somebody marries me. . . . I won"t marry: I won"t do it. . . . Why should I sell myself? . . . at any rate why should I sell myself cheaply?"
There was a pause. Betty sat up and looked at her friend"s wild face.
"What"s it all mean after all? I"m only being used. Sucked dry like an orange. By and by they"ll throw the peel away. Talk of brotherhood! . .
. It"s war, war . . . It"s climbing and fighting to get on top . . .
like crabs in a bucket, like crabs. . ."
"Vic," screamed Betty.
Victoria started like a somnambulist aroused and looked at her vaguely.
"Come back to bed at once," cried Betty with inspired firmness. Victoria obeyed. Betty drew her down beside her under the horsecloth and threw her arms round her; Victoria"s body was cold as ice. Suddenly she burst into tears; and Betty, torn as if she saw a strong man weep, wept too.
Closely locked in one another"s arms they sobbed themselves to sleep.
CHAPTER XXIII
EVERY day now Victoria"s brain grew clearer and her body weaker. A sullen spirit of revolt blended with horrible depression was upon her, but she was getting thinner, paler; dark rings were forming round her eyes. She knew pain now; perpetual weariness, twitchings in the ankles, stabs just above the knee. In horrible listlessness she dragged her weary feet over the tiled floor, responding to commands like the old cab horse which can hardly feel the whip. In this mood, growing churlish, she repulsed Betty, avoided Farwell and tried to seclude herself. She no longer walked Holborn or the Strand where life went by, but sought the mean and silent streets, where none could see her shamble or where none would care.
One night, when she had left at six, she painfully crawled home and up into the attic. At half-past nine the door opened and Betty came in; the room was in darkness, but something oppressed her; she went to the mantlepiece to look for the matches, her fingers trembling. For an eternity she seemed to fumble, the oppression growing; she felt that Victoria was in the room, and could only hope that she was asleep. With a great effort of her will she lit the candle before turning round. Then she gave a short sharp scream.
Victoria was lying across the bed dressed in her bodice and petticoat.
She had tucked this up to her knees and taken off her stockings; her legs hung dead white over the edge. At her feet was the tin bath full of water. Betty ran to the bed, choking almost, and clasped her friend round the neck. It was some seconds before she thought of wetting her face. After some minutes Victoria returned to consciousness and opened her eyes; she groaned slightly as Betty lifted up her legs and straightened her on the bed.
It was then that Betty noticed the singular appearance of Victoria"s legs. They were covered with a network of veins, some narrow and pale blue in colour, others darker, protruding and swollen; on the left calf one of the veins stood out like a rope. The unaccustomed sight filled her with the horror bred of a mysterious disease. She was delicate, but had never been seriously ill; this sight filled her with physical repulsion. For her the ugliness of it meant foulness. For a moment she almost hated Victoria, but the sight of the tin bath full of water cut her to the heart; it told her that Victoria, maddened by mysterious pain, had tried to a.s.suage it by bathing her legs in the cold water.
Little by little Victoria came round; she smiled at Betty.
"Did I faint, Betty dear?" she asked.
"Yes, dear. Are you better now?"
"Yes, I"m better; it doesn"t hurt now."
Betty could not repress a question.
"Vic," she said, "what is it?"
"I don"t know," said Victoria fearfully, then more cheerfully,
"I"m tired I suppose. I shall be all right to-morrow."
Then Betty refused to let her talk any more, and soon Victoria slept by her side the sleep of exhaustion.
The next morning Victoria insisted upon going to the P. R. R. in spite of Betty suggesting a doctor.
"Can"t risk losing my job," she said laughing. "Besides it doesn"t hurt at all now. Look."