"So much the better chance for you."
"And I am eighteen, Polly is about ten."
"You will have to become a little child if you would enter her."
"I don"t like it. What is the alternative?"
"To remain without in the darkness till you come to a better mind. And now, Gwen, no time is to be lost; you must pa.s.s into Polly Finch"s body before it grows cold."
"Well, then--here goes!"
Gwen Venville turned, and her mother accompanied her down the path. The girl moved reluctantly, and pouted. Pa.s.sing out of the churchyard, both traversed the street and disappeared within a cottage, from the upper window of which light from behind a white blind was diffused.
I did not follow, I leaned back against the wall. I felt that my head was throbbing. I was a little afraid lest my fall had done more injury than I had at first antic.i.p.ated. I put my hand to my head, and held it there for a moment.
Then it was as though a book were opened before me--the book of the life of Polly Finch--or rather of Gwendoline"s soul in Polly Finch"s body. It was but one page that I saw, and the figures in it were moving.
The girl was struggling under the burden of a heavy baby brother. She coaxed him, she sang to him, she played with him, talked to him, broke off bits of her bread and b.u.t.ter, given to her for breakfast, and made him eat them; she wiped his nose and eyes with her pocket-handkerchief, she tried to dance him in her arms. He was a fractious urchin, and most exacting, but her patience, her good-nature, never failed. The drops stood on her brow, and her limbs tottered under the weight, but her heart was strong, and her eyes shone with love.
I drew my hand from my head. It was burning. I put my hand to the cold stone bench to cool it, and then applied it once more to my brow.
Instantly it was as though another page were revealed. I saw Polly in her widowed father"s cottage. She was now a grown girl; she was on her knees scrubbing the floor. A bell tinkled. Then she put down the soap and brush, turned down her sleeves, rose and went into the outer shop to serve a customer with half a pound of tea. That done, she was back again, and the scrubbing was renewed. Again a tinkle, and again she stood up and went into the shop to a child who desired to buy a pennyworth of lemon drops.
On her return, in came her little brother crying--he had cut his finger.
Polly at once applied cobweb, and then st.i.tched a rag about the wounded member.
"There, there, Tommy! don"t cry any more. I have kissed the bad place, and it will soon be well."
"Poll! it hurts! it hurts!" sobbed the boy.
"Come to me," said his sister. She drew a low chair to the fireside, took Tommy on her lap, and began to tell him the story of Jack the Giant-killer.
I removed my hand, and the vision was gone.
I put my other hand to my head, and at once saw a further scene in the life-story of Polly.
She was now a middle-aged woman, and had a cottage of her own. She was despatching her children to school. They had bright, rosy faces, their hair was neatly combed, their pinafores were white as snow. One after another, before leaving, put up the cherry lips to kiss mammy; and when they were gone, for a moment she stood in the door looking after them, then sharply turned, brought out a basket, and emptied its contents on the table. There were little girls" stockings with "potatoes" in them to be darned, torn jackets to be mended, a little boy"s trousers to be reseated, pocket-handkerchiefs to be hemmed. She laboured on with her needle the greater part of the day, then put away the garments, some finished, others to be finished, and going to the flour-bin took forth flour and began to knead dough, and then to roll it out to make pasties for her husband and the children.
"Poll!" called a voice from without; she ran to the door.
"Back, Joe! I have your dinner hot in the oven."
"I must say, Poll, you are the best of good wives, and there isn"t a mother like you in the shire. My word! that was a lucky day when I chose you, and didn"t take Mary Matters, who was setting her cap at me. See what a slattern she has turned out. Why, I do believe, Poll, if I"d took her she"d have drove me long ago to the public-house."
I saw the mother of Gwendoline standing by me and looking out on this scene, and I heard her say: "The Black Ram is run out, and the key is forged."
All had vanished. I thought now I might as well rise and continue my journey. But before I had left the bench I observed the rector of Fifewell sauntering up the path, with uncertain step, as he fumbled in his coat-tail pockets, and said: "Where the deuce is the key?"
The Reverend William Hexworthy was a man of good private means, and was just the sort of man that a bishop delights to honour. He was one who would never cause him an hour"s anxiety; he was not the man to indulge in ecclesiastical vagaries. He flattered himself that he was strictly a _via media_ man. He kept dogs, he was a good judge of horses, was fond of sport. He did not hunt, but he shot and fished. He was a favourite in Society, was of irreproachable conduct, and was a magistrate on the bench.
As the ray from the keyhole smote on him he seemed to be wholly dark,--made up of nothing but Black Ram. He came on slowly, as though not very sure of his way.
"Bless me! where can be the key?" he asked.
Then from out of the graves, and from over the wall of the churchyard, came rushing up a crowd of his dead parishioners, and blocked his way to the porch.
"Please, your reverence!" said one, "you did not visit me when I was dying."
"I sent you a bottle of my best port," said the parson.
"Ay, sir, and thank you for it. But that went into my stomick, and what I wanted was medicine for my soul. You never said a prayer by me. You never urged me to repentance for my bad life, and you let me go out of the world with all my sins about me."
"And I, sir," said another, thrusting himself before Mr. Hexworthy--"I was a young man, sir, going wild, and you never said a word to restrain me; never sent for me and gave me a bit of warning and advice which would have checked me. You just shrugged your shoulders and laughed, and said that a young chap like me must sow his wild oats."
"And we," shouted the rest--"we were never taught by you anything at all."
"Now this is really too bad," said the rector. "I preached twice every Sunday."
"Oh, yes--right enough that. But precious little good it did when nothing came out of your heart, and all out of your pocket--and that you did give us was copied in your library. Why, sir, not one of your sermons ever did anybody a farthing of good."
"We were your sheep," protested others, "and you let us wander where we would! You didn"t seem to know yourself that there was a fold into which to draw us."
"And we," said others, "went off to chapel, and all the good we ever got was from the dissenting minister--never a mite from you."
"And some of us," cried out others, "went to the bad altogether, through your neglect. What did you care about our souls so long as your terriers were washed and combed, and your horses well groomed? You were a fisherman, but all you fished for were trout--not souls. And if some of us turned out well, it was in spite of your neglect--no thanks to you."
Then some children"s voices were raised: "Sir, you never taught us no Catechism, nor our duty to G.o.d and to man, and we grew up regular heathens."
"That was your fathers" and mothers" duty."
"But our fathers and mothers never taught us anything."
"Come, this is intolerable," shouted Mr. Hexworthy. "Get out of the way, all of you. I can"t be bothered with you now. I want to go in there."
"You can"t, parson! the door is shut, and you have not got your key."
Mr. Hexworthy stood bewildered and irresolute. He rubbed his chin.
"What the d.i.c.kens am I to do?" he asked.
Then the crowd closed about him, and thrust him back towards the gate.
"You must go whither we send you," they said.
I stood up to follow. It was curious to see a flock drive its shepherd, who, indeed, had never attempted to lead. I walked in the rear, and it seemed as though we were all swept forward as by a mighty wind. I did not gain my breath, or realise whither I was going, till I found myself in the slums of a large manufacturing town before a mean house such as those occupied by artisans, with the conventional one window on one side of the door and two windows above. Out of one of these latter shone a scarlet glow.
The crowd hustled Mr. Hexworthy in at the door, which was opened by a hospital nurse.
I stood hesitating what to do, and not understanding what had taken place. On the opposite side of the street was a mission church, and the windows were lighted. I entered, and saw that there were at least a score of people, shabbily dressed, and belonging to the lowest cla.s.s, on their knees in prayer. There was a sort of door-opener or verger at the entrance, and I said to him: "What is the meaning of all this?"