Elsa had said nothing at the time. That same imagined blow on the head had also deprived her of the power of speech. Fortunately Irma talked so loudly and so long that she paid no attention to her daughter"s silence, and presently ran out into the village to gather more news.
And Elsa remained alone in the house, save for the helpless invalid in the next room. She washed and dressed herself quickly and mechanically, then sat down on her favourite low chair, close beside her crippled father"s knee, cowering there like some little field mouse, attentive, alert, rigidly still, for very fear of what was to come.
Irma did not come back for two or three hours: when she did it was to bring the exciting news that Leopold Hirsch had been found hanging to a beam in his back shop, with the knife wherewith he had killed Eros Bela lying conspicuously on a table close by.
Elsa felt as if the weight of the world had been lifted from off her brain. All through these hours the thought of Andor having committed such an abominable crime never once entered her mind, but nevertheless when her mother told the news about Leopold Hirsch, and that the police officers had already left the village, she was conscious of an overwhelming sense of relief.
Fortunately her mother was busy all day gossiping with her cronies and Elsa was allowed the luxury of sitting alone most of the day, silent and absorbed, doing the usual work of the house in the morning and in the afternoon busying herself with carefully putting away the wedding dress, the veil, the wreath which would not be wanted now.
Late in the evening, when there was a chance of finding the street deserted, she ran out as far as the presbytery. Fortunately the night was dark: a thin drizzle was falling, and it spread a misty veil all down the village street. Elsa had tied one of her mother"s dark-coloured handkerchiefs over her head and put her darkest-coloured petticoat on the top of all the others. She had also wrapped her mother"s dark shawl round her shoulders, and thus m.u.f.fled up she was able to flit unperceived down the street, a swift little dark figure undistinguishable from the surrounding darkness of the night.
Fortunately the Pater was at home and ready to see her. She heaved a sigh of relief as she entered the bare narrow little hall which led on the right to the Pater"s parlour.
She had been able to tell Pater Bonifacius exactly what was troubling her--that sense of peace, almost of relief, which had descended into her soul when she heard that she never, never need be Eros Bela"s wife.
Since this morning, when first she had heard the terrible news, she had not thought of his death--that awful fate which had so unexpectedly overtaken him--she had only thought of her own freedom, the peace which henceforth would be hers.
That was very wrong of course--a grievous sin no doubt the Pater would call it. She shed many tears of contrition, listened eagerly to a kind homily from the old priest on the subject of unnecessary and unprofitable searchings of conscience, and went away satisfied.
Strangely enough, after this confession she felt far more sorry for poor Bela than she had done before, and she cried her eyes out both before and after the funeral because, do what she would, she always saw him before her as he was that last day of his life--quarrelsome, dictatorial, tyrannical--and she remembered how she had almost hated him for his bullying ways and compared him in her mind with Andor"s kindness and chivalry.
And now she cried with remorse because she had hated him during the last hours of his life; she cried because he had gone to his death unloved, and lay now in his coffin unregretted; she cried because her heart was full and heavy and because in the past week--before her wedding day--she had swallowed so many unshed tears.
And while she felt miserable and not a little forlorn she didn"t want to see anybody, least of all Andor. Whenever she thought of Andor, the same remorse about Bela gnawed again at her heart, for when she thought of him she not only felt at peace, but it seemed as if a ray of happiness illumined the past darkness of her life.
Once or twice during the last day or two, when she had sat st.i.tching, she caught herself singing softly to herself, and once she knew for certain that she had smiled.
Then the day came when Andor called at the house. Irma fortunately was out, having coffee and gossip with a friend. No doubt he had watched until he was sure that she was well out of the way. Then he knocked at the door and entered.
Elsa was sitting as usual on the low chair close by the sick man. She looked up when he entered and all at once the blood rushed to her pale cheeks.
"May I come in?" he asked diffidently.
"If you like, Andor," she replied.
He threw down his hat and then came to sit on the corner of the table in his favorite att.i.tude and as close to Elsa as he dared. The eyes of the paralytic had faintly lit up at his approach.
"Are you quite well, Elsa?" he asked after a long pause, during which the girl thought that she could hear the beating of her own heart.
"Yes. Quite well thank you, Andor," she replied softly.
"No one has seen you in the village this past week," he remarked.
"No," she said, "I am not very fond of gossip, and there was a deal too much of it in Marosfalva this past week to please me."
"You are right there, Elsa," he rejoined, "but there were others in the village, you know, those who did not gossip--but whose heart would have been gladdened by a sight of you."
"Yes, Andor," she murmured.
We may take it that the young man found these laconic answers distinctly encouraging, for presently he said abruptly:
"Perhaps, Elsa, it isn"t right for me to begin talking to you . . .
about certain matters . . ."
"What matters, Andor?" she asked ingenuously.
"Matters which have lain next to my heart, Elsa, for more years now than I would care to count."
"Perhaps it is a little too soon, Andor--yet--" she whispered under her breath.
Oh! She could have whipped herself for that warm blush which now covered not only her cheeks but her neck and bosom, and for that glow of happiness which had rushed straight at her heart at his words. But he had already seen the blush, and caught that expression of happiness in her blue eyes which suddenly made her look as she did of old--five years ago--before that wan, pathetic expression of resignation had altered her sweet face so completely.
"I don"t want to worry you, Elsa," he said simply.
"You couldn"t worry me, Andor," she said, "you have always been the best friend I had in the world."
"That is because I have loved you more dearly than anyone ever loved you on this earth," he said earnestly.
"G.o.d bless you for that, Andor."
He leaned forward, nearer to her now: his gaze had become more fixed, more compelling. Since he had seen that look on her face and that blush he was sure of his ground; he knew that, given time and peace, the wheel of fate, which had already taken an upward turn for him, would soon carry him to the summit of his desires--the woman whom he loved was no longer unattainable and she had remained faithful throughout all this time.
"Do you think, Elsa," he asked more insistently now, and sinking his voice to that whisper which reaches a woman"s ear far more truly than the loudest beating of drum, "do you think that, now that you are free, you could bring yourself to . . . to care . . . to . . . ? You were very fond of me once, Elsa," he pleaded.
"I am fond of you now, Andor," she whispered in response. "No, no," she added hurriedly, for already he had made a movement towards her and the next moment would have been down on his knees with his arms around her, but for the gently-restraining touch of her hand, "it is too soon to talk about that."
"Yes--too soon," he a.s.sented with enforced calm, even though his heart was beating furiously; "it is too soon I know, and I won"t worry you, Elsa--I said I wouldn"t and I won"t. . . . I am not a cur to come and force myself on you when you are not ready to listen to me, and we won"t talk about it all . . . not just yet." . . .
His throat felt very dry, and his tongue felt several sizes too large for his mouth. It was mightily difficult to keep calm and to speak soberly when one"s inclination was firstly to dance a war-dance of triumph and of joy and then to take that dear, sweet angel of a woman in one"s arms and to kiss her till she was ready to faint.
"When do you think I might speak to you again, Elsa?" he said, with a certain pathetic hesitancy, "about . . ."
"About what, Andor?" she asked.
"About our getting married--later on."
"Not just yet," she murmured, "but . . ."
"No, no, of course I understand. There are the proprieties and all that . . . you were tokened to that blackguard and . . . Oh! All right, I am not going to say anything against him," he added quickly as he saw that words of protest and reproach were already hovering on her lips. "I won"t say anything about him at all except that he is dead now and buried, thank the good G.o.d! . . . And you . . . you still care for me, Elsa," he continued, whilst a wave of tenderness seemed to sweep all other thoughts away. "No, no, don"t say anything--not now--it is too soon, of course--and I"ve just got to wait till the time comes as best I can. But you mustn"t mind my talking on at random like this . . . for I tell you I am nearly crazy with joy--and I suppose that you would think it very wrong to rejoice like this over another man"s death."
His talk was a little wild and rambling--it was obvious that he was half distracted with the prospect of happiness to come. She sat quite still, listening silently, with eyes fixed to the ground. Only now and then she would look up--not at Andor, but at the paralytic who was gazing on her with the sad eyes of uncomprehension. Then she would nod and smile at him and coo in her own motherly way and he would close his eyes--satisfied.
And Andor, who had paused for that brief moment in his voluble talk, went rambling on.
"You know," he said, "that it"s perfectly wonderful . . . this room, I mean . . . when I look round me I can hardly credit my eyes. . . . Just a week ago . . . you remember? . . . I sat just there . . . at the opposite corner of the table, and you had your low chair against the wall just here . . . and . . . and you told me that you were tokened to Eros Bela and that your wedding would be on the morrow . . . well! That was little more than a week ago . . . before your farewell feast . . .
and I thought then that never, never could I be happy again because you told me that never, never could we be anything to each other except a kind of friendly strangers. . . . I remember then how a sort of veil seemed to come down in front of my eyes . . . a dark red veil . . .
things didn"t look black to me, you know, Elsa . . . but red. . . . So now I am quite content just to bide my time--I am quite content that you should say nothing to me--nothing _good_, I mean. . . . It"ll take some time before the thought of so much happiness has got proper root-hold of my brain."
"Poor Andor!" she sighed, and turned a gaze full of love upon the sick man. Her heart was br.i.m.m.i.n.g over with it, and so the paralytic got the expression of it in its fullest measure, since Andor was not ent.i.tled to it yet.