A hoa.r.s.e, choking sound came from the woman"s lips. She pushed by into the vestibule. Angela followed.
"If you should feel differently to-morrow," she said, in her kind, gentle voice, "come here again, about eleven o"clock. I shall be here."
Without waiting for a reply, she re-entered the hall. A young man, the same who had been speaking, met her at the door.
"Angela!" he exclaimed. "You should not be out there in the cold!" She smiled absently. "Did you see her, Robert?"
"That terrible old woman? Yes, I saw her. A hopeless case, I fear."
Angela"s eyes kept their absent look.
"It was awful to see her go away like that, into the cold and snow, hungry and half-clad!" she said.
The young man leaned nearer. "Angela," he whispered. "You must not let these things sink into your heart as you do, or you cannot bear the work you have undertaken. As for that old creature, it is terrible to think of her, but she seemed to me beyond our reach."
"But not beyond G.o.d"s reach _through us_!" said Angela.
Meantime old Marg was facing the storm with rage and pain in her face and in her heart. The streets were deserted, and lighted only by such beams as found their way through the dirty windows of shops and saloons.
From these last came sounds of revelry and contention, and at one or another the poor creature paused, listening without fear to the familiar hubbub. Should she go in? Some one might give her a drink, to ease for a time the terrible gnawing at her breast. Might? Yes; but more likely she would be thrust out with jeers and curses, and, for some reason, old Marg was in no mood to use the caustic wit and ready tongue that were her only weapons. So she staggered on until the swarming tenement was reached, stumbled up the five flights of unillumined stairs, and almost fell headlong into the dismal garret which she called her home.
Feeling about in the darkness, she found a match and lit a bit of candle which stopped the neck of an empty bottle. It burned uncertainly as if reluctant to disclose the scene upon which its light fell. A smoke-stained, sloping ceiling, a blackened floor, a shapeless mattress heaped with rags, a deal box, a rusty stove resting upon two bricks, supporting in its turn an ancient frying-pan, a chipped saucer, and a battered tin can from which, when the scavenger business was good, old Marg served afternoon tea--such were her home and all her personal belongings.
There was no fire, nor any means of producing one, but upon the box was spread a piece of paper containing a slice of bread and a soup-bone, whereto clung some fragments of meat--the gift of a neighbor hardly less wretched than herself.
The old woman"s eyes glittered at the sight, and, seizing the food, she sank weakly upon the box and began gnawing at it; but her toothless jaws, stiff with cold, made no impression upon the tough meat and hard crust, and letting them drop to the floor, the poor creature fell to rocking to and fro, whimpering tearlessly, like a suffering dog.
Strangely enough, within the withered bosom of this most wretched creature there had welled up, from some hidden source of womanly feeling, a pa.s.sionate self-pity, a no less pa.s.sionate self-loathing.
This was what a moment"s contact with all that she had so long abjured--purity, order, gentleness--had brought to pa.s.s.
That fair young girl-tall, pale, sweet as an Easter lily--stood before her like an incarnate memory, pointing toward the past, the far-distant past, when she, too, was young, and pretty, and innocent, and gay--too pretty and too gay for a poor working girl! That was where the trouble began.
"I was light haired, too," moaned old Marg, twisting her withered fingers restlessly. "Light-haired, and light-complected! A pretty girl, an" a good girl, too! Not like _her_. No! How could I be? Little the likes o" her knows what the likes o" me has to face! Lord!"
The bit of candle guttered and went out. The cold increased. It had ceased snowing, and a keen wind had arisen, tearing the clouds into shreds through which the stars gleamed. And presently the moon climbed up behind the belfry of the old church across the square, and sent one broad white ray through the dingy window and across the floor. All at once the great bell began to strike the midnight hour, its mingled vibrations filling the garret with tumultuous sounds. The vision of the fair girl faded, and old Marg was herself again, a hard, bitter, rebellious old woman, with a burning care where her heart had been, and only one thought, one desire, left in her desperate mind--the thought and the desire of death.
In young and pa.s.sionate days she had often thought of seeking that way out of life"s agonies, but at its worst there is always some sweetness left in the cup--when one is young! It was not so now. The dregs only had been hers for many a year, and she had enough. Death--yes, that was best.
Her eyes glittered as she cast a look about the silent room. Bare, even of the means to this end! Ah, the window!
With an inarticulate cry the woman arose and hobbled along the shining moon-ray to the window, and threw open the sash. Awed by the stern beauty of the heavens, the splendor of the moon tangled in the lace-like carvings of the belfry as in a net, she leaned some moments against the sill, looking out and down. Far below lay the deserted square, its white bosom traced with the sharp shadow of the tower. With a keen eye old Marg measured the distance, a sheer descent of fifty feet. Nothing to break the fall--nothing!
One movement, a swift fall, and that white surface would be broken by a black shapeless heap. A policeman would find it on his next round, or some drunken reveler would stumble over it, or the good people on their way to early ma.s.s--ah! The seamed countenance lit up suddenly with a malignant joy.
Why not wait until they began to pa.s.s--those pious, respectable people in their comfortable furs and wools--and cast herself into their midst, a ghastly Christmas offering from Poverty to Riches, from Sin to Virtue?
This suggestion commended itself highly to her sense of humor. With a hoa.r.s.e chuckle she was about to close the window when a portion of the shadow that lay alongside the chimney showed signs of life, and, rising on four long and skinny legs, became a cat--a lean, black cat, which crept meekly toward the window, its phosph.o.r.escent eyes gleaming, its lank jaws parted in a vain effort to mew. Startled, old Marg drew back for an instant; then, glancing from the animal to the pavement below, a brutal cunning, a malicious pleasure, lit up the witch-like features.
Reaching out one skinny arm, she called coaxingly: "Puss! Puss!"
The cat dragged herself up to the outstretched arm, rubbing her lank body caressingly against it.
The cruel, cunning old face softened suddenly. "Lord!" muttered old Marg, "if she ain"t a-tryin" to _purr_! Wall, that beats me!"
The poor beast continued its piteous appeal for aid, arching its starved frame, waving its tail, fawning unsuspectingly against the arm that had threatened.
With an impulse new to her misery-hardened heart, old Marg drew the animal in and closed the window. Far from resisting, the cat nestled against her with every sign of pleasure.
"She"s been somebody"s pet," said the old woman, placing her on the floor. "She ain"t always been like this."
The divine emotion of pity, so new to this forlorn creature, grew and swelled in her bosom. The man at the hall had _not_ lied, after all.
Here was another of G.o.d"s creatures as miserable as herself--nay, more so, for she had a roof to shelter her! And she could share it with this homeless one.
"Poor puss!" muttered old Marg, stroking the rough fur. "You"re starvin", too, ain"t ye? an" I ain"t got nothin" to give ye, not a bite or a sup. Ah!"
Her eyes had fallen upon the discarded food. Eagerly she seized it and placed it before the cat; the starving creature gnawed greedily at the bone an instant, then looked up with a hopeless mew.
The old woman felt a keener pang of pity.
"Poor beast!" she said, with a bitter smile. "Ye can"t eat "em, can ye?
No more could I! We"re in the same box, puss! Old, an" toothless, an"
n.o.body belongin" to us. We"ll have to starve together, I guess. An" it"s Christmas day! Did ye know that, puss? Christmas day! Lord! Lord!"
The cat rubbed against her skirts, her eyes fixed upon her benefactor"s.
"Seems to understand every word I say!" old Marg muttered. "If only I had a drop o" milk for her now!"
Hobbling to the stove, she examined the battered tin can, letting the moonlight shine into its rusty depths. A little water or tea remained in it, and with this she moistened some of the bread and placed it before the cat, which devoured it now eagerly. Then she took the animal in her arms and laid herself down on the mattress, drawing the ragged covers over them. The cat nestled against her side; the warmth of the two poor bodies mingled, and both slept.
The moon-ray crept along and spread itself over the heap of rags, the knotted fingers resting on the cat"s rough fur, the seamed old face; it pa.s.sed away, and morning dawned, with a peal of bells and the sound of footsteps on the pavement below, and still the two slept on.
Angela stood near the door, receiving her Christmas guests. They came straggling in, in twos and threes, some boldly and impudently, some shame-faced and shy, some eager, some indifferent, but all poverty-pinched. Each one was pleasantly welcomed, and pa.s.sed on to the feast. Angela watched and waited, and at last the door opened slowly to admit old Marg, who stopped short on the threshold, with a look at once stubborn, appealing, suspicious, ashamed. Like a wild animal on the alert for the faintest sign of repulsion or danger, she stood there, but Angela only smiled, proffering her white, soft hand, dest.i.tute of jewels, but the hand of a lady.
"A Merry Christmas!" she said brightly.
"I was ugly to ye last night," said old Marg huskily, ignoring the beautiful hand she dared not touch.
"Never mind!" Angela answered sweetly. "You were tired."
"I am a bad old woman!" said old Marg, mistrustfully.
"Never mind that, either!" said Angela. "Let me be your friend. If you will, you shall never be cold or hungry again."
A profound wonder came into the old face--then it began to writhe, and from each eye oozed scant tears, seeking a channel amid the seams and wrinkles of the sunken cheeks.
"You will let me be your friend," urged Angela.
Still old Marg wept silently, the scant tears of age.
"You shall have a pleasant home and----"
A swift, suspicious glance darted from the wet eyes.