And so it happened that Neal Dow Ward made his first call on Jeanette Barclay with his sister, and they all sat on the porch together that fine spring evening, with the perfume of the lilacs in the air; and it happened naturally enough that the curious human law of attraction which unites youth should draw the chairs of the two young people together as they talked of the things that interest youth--the parties and the ball-games and the fraternities and sororities, and the freshman picnic and the senior grind; while the chairs of the two others drew together as they talked of the things which interest women in middle life--the affairs of the town, the troubles of Watts McHurdie, the bereavement of the Culpeppers, the scarcity of good help in the kitchen, the popularity of Max Nordau"s "Social Evolution," and the fun in "David Harum." Nor is it strange that after the girl had shown the boy her Pi Phi pin, and he had shown her his Phi Delta shield, they should fall to talking of the new songs, and that they should slip into the big living room of the Barclay home, lighted by the electric lamps in the hall, and that she should sit down to the piano to show him how the new song went. And if the moonlight fell across the piano, and upon her face as she sang the little Irish folk-song, all in minors, with her high, trembling, half-formed notes in the upper register, and if she flushed and looked up abashed and had to be teased to go on,--not teased a great deal, but a little,--will you blame the young man if he forgot for a moment that her father was worth such a lot of money, and thought only that she was a beautiful girl, and said so with his eyes and face and hands in the pretty little pause that followed when she ceased singing? And if to hide her confusion when her heart knew what he thought, she put one foot on the loud pedal of the piano and began singing "O Margery, O Margery," and he sang with her, and if they thrilled just a little as their voices blended in the rollicking song--what of it? What of it?
Was it not natural that lilacs should grow in April? Was it not natural that Watts McHurdie should dread the white light that beats upon the throne of the sheriff"s office? Was it not natural that he should turn to women for protection against one of their s.e.x, and that the women plotting for him should have a boy around and having a boy around where there is a girl around, and spring around and lilacs around and a moon and music and joy around,--what is more natural in all this world than that in the fire struck by the simple joy of youth there should be the flutter of unseen wings around, and when the two had finished singing, with something pa.s.sing between their hearts not in the words, what is more natural than that the girl, half frightened at the thrill in her soul, should say timidly:--
"I think they will miss us out there--don"t you?" as she rose from the piano.
And if you were a boy again, only twenty-one, to whom millions of money meant nothing, would you not catch the blue eyes of the girl as she looked up at you, in the twilight of the big room, and answer, "All right, Jeanette"? Certainly if you had known a girl all your life, you would call her by her first name, if her father were worth a billion, and would you not continue, emboldened some way by not being frowned upon for calling her Jeanette, though she would have been astonished if you had said Miss Barclay--astonished and maybe a little fearful of your sincerity--would you not continue, after a little pause, repeating your words, "All right, Jeanette--I suppose so--but I don"t care--do you?" as you followed her through the door back to the moon-lit porch?
And as you walked home, listening to your elder sister, would you not have time and inclination to wonder from what remote part of this beautiful universe, from what star or what fairy realm, that creature came, whose hair you pulled yesterday, whose legs seem to have been covered with long skirts in the twinkling of an eye, and whose unrelated features by some magic had sloughed off, leaving a beautiful face? Would you not think these things, good kind sir, when you were twenty-one--even though to-day they seem highly improbable thoughts for any one to have who was not stark mad? But if we were not all stark mad sometimes, how would the world go round? If we were not all mad sometimes, who would make our dreams come true? How would visions in thin air congeal into facts, how would the aspirations of the race make history? And if we were all sane all the time, how would the angels ever get babies into the world at all, at all?
CHAPTER XXII
"Speaking of lunatics," said Mr. Dolan to Mr. Hendricks one June night, a few weeks after the women had persuaded Mrs. McHurdie not to drag the poet into politics,--"speaking of lunatics, you may remember that I was born in Boston, and "twas my duty as a lad to drive the Cambridge car, and many a time I have heard Mr. Holmes the poet and Mr. Emerson the philosopher discussing how the world was made; whether it was objective or subjective,--which I take it to mean whether the world is in the universe or only in your eye. One fine winter night we were waiting on a switch for the Boston car, when Mr. Holmes said to Mr. Emerson: "What," says he, "would you think if Jake Dolan driving this car should come in and say, "Excuse me, gentlemen, but the moon I see this moment is not some millions of miles away, but entirely in my own noddle?"" "I"d think," says the great philosopher, never blinking, "that Mr. Dolan was drunk," says he. And there the discussion ended, but it has been going on in my head ever since. Here I am a man climbing up my sixties, and when have I seen the moon? Once walking by this very creek here trying to get me courage up to put me arm around her that is now Mary Carnine; once with me head poked up close to the heads of Watts McHurdie, Gabe Carnine, and Philemon Ward, serenading the girls under the Thayer House window the night before we left for the army. And again to-night, sitting here on the dam, listening to the music coming down the mill-pond. Did you notice them, Robert--the young people--Phil Ward"s boy, and John Barclay"s girl, and Mary Carnine"s oldest, and Oscar Fernald"s youngest, with their guitars and mandolins, piling into the boats and rowing up stream? And now they"re singing the songs we sang--to their mothers, G.o.d bless "em--the other day before these children were born or thought of, and now I sit here an old man looking at the moon."
"But is it the moon?" he went on after a long silence, puffing at his pipe. "If the moon is off there, three or thirty or three hundred million miles away in the sky, where has it been these forty years?
I"ve not seen it. And yet here she pops out of my memory into my eye, and if I say the moon has always been in my eye, and is still in my eye, Mr. Ralph Waldo Emerson says I"m drunk. But does that settle the question of who"s got the moon--me or the cosmos--as the poets call it?" After that the two men smoked in silence, and as Hendricks threw away the b.u.t.t of his cigar, Dolan said, ""Tis a queer, queer world, Robert--a queer, queer world."
Now do not smile at Mr. Dolan, gentle reader, for Adam must have thought the same thing, and philosophy has been able to say nothing more to the point.
It is indeed a queer, queer world, and our blindness is the queerest thing in it. Here a few weeks, later sit John and Jane Barclay on the terrace before their house one June night, listening to singing on the water. Suddenly they realize that there is youth in the world--yet there has been singing on the mill-pond ever since it was built. It has been the habitat of lovers for a quarter of a century, this mill-pond, yet Jane and John Barclay have not known it, and not until their own child"s voice came up to them, singing "Juanita," did they realize that the song had not begun anew after its twenty years"
silence in their own hearts, but always had been on the summer breeze.
And this is strange, too, considering how rich and powerful John Barclay is and how by the scratch of his pen, he might set men working by the thousands for some righteous cause. Yet so it is; for with all the consciousness of great power, with all the feeling of unrestraint that such power gives a man, driving him to think he is a kind of G.o.d, John Barclay was only a two-legged man, with a limp in one foot, and a little mad place in his brain, wherein he kept the sense of his relation to the rest of this universe. And as he sat, blind to the moon, dreaming of a time when he would control Presidents and dominate courts if they crossed his path, out on the mill-pond under an elm tree that spread like a canopy upon the water, a boy, letting the oars hang loosely, was playing the mandolin to a girl--a pretty girl withal, blue as to eyes, fair as to hair, strong as to mouth and chin, and glorious as to forehead--who leaned back in the boat, played with the overhanging branches, and listened and looked at the moon, and let G.o.d"s miracle work unhindered in her heart. And all up and down those two miles of mill-pond were other boats and other boys and other maidens, and as they chatted and sang and sat in the moonlight, there grew in their hearts, as quietly as the growing of the wheat in the fields, that strange marvel of life, that keeps the tide of humanity ceaselessly flowing onward. And it is all so simply done before our eyes, and in our ears, that we forget it is so baffling a mystery.
Now let us project our astral bodies into the living room of the Barclay home, while Mr. and Mrs. John Barclay are away in Boston, and only John Barclay"s mother and his daughter are in Sycamore Ridge; and let us watch a young man of twenty-one and a young woman of eighteen dispose of a dish of fudge together. Fudge, it may be explained to the unsophisticated, is a preparation of chocolate, sugar, and cream, cooked, cooled, and cut into squares. As our fathers and mothers pulled taffy, as our grandfathers and grandmothers conjured with maple sugar, and as their parents worked the mysterious spell with some witchery of cookery to this generation unknown, so is fudge in these piping times the worker of a strange witchery. Observe: Through a large room, perhaps forty feet one way and twenty-five feet the other way, flits a young woman in the summer twilight. She goes about humming, putting a vase in place here, straightening a picture there, kicking down a flapping rug, or rearranging a chair; then she sits down and turns on an electric light and pretends to read. But she does not read; the light shows her something else in the room that needs attention, and she turns to that. Then she sits down again, and again goes humming about the room. Suddenly the young woman rises and hurries out of the room, and a footstep is heard on the porch, outside. A bell tinkles, and a maid appears, and--
"Yes," she says. "I"ll see if Miss Jeanette is at home!"
And then a rustle of skirts is heard on the stairway and Miss Jeanette enters with: "Why, Neal, you are an early bird this evening--were you afraid the worm would escape? Well, it won"t; it"s right here on the piano."
The young man"s eyes,--good, clear, well-set, dark eyes that match his brown hair; eyes that speak from the heart,--note how they dwell upon every detail of the opposing figure, caressing with their shy surrept.i.tious glances the girl"s hair, her broad forehead, her lips; observe how they flit back betimes to those ripe red lips, like bees that hover over a flower trembling in the wind; how the eyes of the young man play about the strong chin, and the bewitching curves of the neck and shoulders, and rise again to the hair, and again steal over the face, to the strong shoulders, and again hurry back to the face lest some feature fade. This is not staring--it is done so quickly, so furtively, so deftly withal as the minutes fly by, while the lips and the teeth chatter on, that the stolen honey of these glances is stored away in the heart"s memory, all unknown to him who has gathered it.
An hour has pa.s.sed now, while we have watched the restless eyes at their work, and what has pa.s.sed with the hour? Nothing, ladies and gentlemen--nothing; gibber, chatter, giggles, and squeals--that is all. Grandma Barclay above stairs has her opinion of it, and wonders how girls can be so addle-pated. In her day--but who ever lived long enough or travelled far enough or inquired widely enough to find one single girl who was as wise, or as sedate, or as industrious, or as meek, or as gentle, or as kind as girls were in her grandmother"s day?
No wonder indeed that grandmothers are all married--for one could hardly imagine the young men of that day overlooking such paragons of virtue and propriety as lived in their grandmothers" days. Fancy an old maid grandmother with all those qualities of mind and heart that girls had in their grandmothers" days!
So the elder Mrs. Barclay in her room at the top of the stairs hears what "he said," "he said he said," and what "she said she said," and what "we girls did," and what "you boys ought to do," and what "would be perfectly lovely," and what "would be a lot of fun!" and so grandmother, good soul, grows drowsy, closes her door, and goes to bed. She does not know that they are about to sit down together on a sofa--not a long, straight, cold, formal affair, but a small, rather snuggly sofa, with the dish between them. No, girls never did that in their grandmothers" days, so of course who would imagine they would do so now? Who, indeed? But there they are, and there is the dish between them, and two hands reaching into the same dish, must of course collide. Collision is inevitable, and by carefully noting the repet.i.tions of the collisions, one may logically infer that the collisions are upon the whole rather pleasurable than otherwise; and when it comes to the last piece of fudge in the dish,--the very last piece,--the astral observer will see that there is just the slightest, the very slightest, quickest, most fleeting little tussle of hands for it, and much laughter; and then the young woman rises quickly--also note the slight pink flush in her cheeks, and she goes to her chair and folds her pretty hands in her lap, and asks:--
"Well, do you like my fudge, Neal Ward? Is it as good as Belva Lockwood"s? She puts nuts in hers--I"ve eaten it; do you like it with nuts in it?"
"Not so well as this," says the boy.
The girl slips into the dining room, for a gla.s.s of water. See the eyes of the youth following her. It is dusky in the dining room, and the youth longs for dusky places, but has not developed courage enough to follow her. But he has courage enough to steady his eyes as she comes back with the water, so that he can look into her blue eyes while you would count as much as one--two--three--slowly--four--slowly--five. A long, long time, so long indeed that she wishes he would look just a second longer.
So at the end of the evening here stand Neal, and Jeanette, even as Adam and Eve stood in the garden, talking of nothing in particular as they slowly move toward the door. "Yes, I suppose so," she says, as Eve said and as Eve"s daughters have said through all the centuries, looking intently at the floor. And then Neal, suddenly finding the language of his line back to Adam, looks up to say, "Oh, yes, I forgot--but have you read "Monsieur Beaucaire"?" Now Adam said, "Have you heard the new song that the morning stars are singing together?"
and Priam asked Helen if she would like to hear that new thing of Solomon"s just out, and so as the ages have rolled by, young gentlemen standing beside their adored but not declared ones have mixed literature with love, and have tied wisdom up in a package of candy or wild honey, and have taken it to the trysting place since the beginning of time. It is thus the poets thrive. And when she was asked about the new song of the morning stars, Eve, though she knew it as she knew her litany, answered no; and so did Eve"s daughter, standing in the dimly lighted hallway of the Barclay home in Sycamore Ridge; and so then and there being, these two made their next meeting sure.
In those last years of the last century John Barclay became a powerful man in this world--one of the few hundred men who divided the material kingdoms of this earth among them. He was a rich man who was turning his money into great political power. Senates listened to him, many courts were his in fee simple, because he had bought and paid for the men who named the judges; Presidents were glad to know what he thought, and when he came to the White House, reporters speculated about the talk that went on behind the doors of the President"s room, and the stock market fluttered. If he desired a law, he paid for it and got it--not in a coa.r.s.e illegal way, to be sure, but through the regular conventional channels of politics, and if he desired to step on a law, he stepped on it, and a court came running up behind him, and legalized his transaction. He sneered at reformers, and mocked G.o.d, did John Barclay in those days. He grew arrogant and boastful, and strutted in his power like a man in liquor with the vain knowledge that he could increase the population of a state or a group of states, or he could shrivel the prosperity of a section of the country by his whim. For by changing a freight rate he could make wheat grow, where gra.s.s had nourished. By changing the rate again, he could beckon back the wilderness. And yet, how small was his power; here beside him, cherished as the apple of his eye, was his daughter, a slip of a girl, with blue eyes and fair hair, whose heart was growing toward the light, as the hearts of young things grow, and he, with all of his power, could only watch the mystery, and wonder at it. He was not displeased at what he saw. But it was one of the few things in his consciousness over which he could find no way to a.s.sume control. He stood in the presence of something that came from outside of his realm and ignored him as the sun and the rain and the simple processes of nature ignored him.
"Jane," he said one night, when he was in the Ridge for the first time in many weeks,--a night near the end of the summer when Jeanette and Neal Ward were vaguely feeling their way together, "Jane, mother says that while we"ve been away Neal Ward has been here pretty often. You don"t suppose that--"
"Well, I"ve rather wondered about it myself a little," responded Jane.
"Neal is such a fine handsome young fellow."
"But, Jane," exclaimed Barclay, impatiently, as he rose to walk the rug, "Jennie is only a child. Why, she"s only--"
"Nineteen, John--she"s a big girl now."
"I know, dear," he protested, "but that"s absurdly young. Why--"
"Yes," she answered, "I was nearly twenty when I was engaged to you, and Jennie"s not engaged yet, nor probably even thinking seriously of it."
"Don"t you think," cried Barclay, as he limped down the diagonal of the rug, "that you should do something? Isn"t it a little unusual?
Why--"
"Well, John," smiled the wife, "I might do what mother did: turn the young man over to father!" Barclay laughed, and she went on patiently: "It"s not at all unusual, John, even if they do--that is, if they are--you know; but they aren"t, and Jennie is too much in love with her work at school to quit that. But after all it"s the American way; it was the way we did, dear, and the way our mothers and fathers did, and unless you wish to change it--to Europeanize it, and pick--"
"Ah, nonsense, Jane--of course I don"t want that! Only I thought some way, if it"s serious she ought to--Oh, don"t you know she ought to--"
Mrs. Barclay broke her smile with, "Of course she ought to, dear, and so ought I and so ought mother when she married father and so ought my grandmother when she married grandpa--but did we? Dear, don"t you see the child doesn"t realize it? If it is anything, it is growing in her heart, and I wouldn"t smudge it for the world, by speaking to her now--unless you don"t like Neal; unless you think he"s too--unless you want a different boy. I mean some one of consequence?"
"Oh, no, it isn"t that, Jane--it isn"t that. Neal"s all right; he"s clean and he is honest--I asked Bob Hendricks about him to-day, when we pa.s.sed the boy chasing news for the _Banner_, and Bob gives him a fine name." Barclay threw himself into a chair and sighed. "I suppose it"s just that I feel Jeanette"s kind of leaving us out of it--that is all."
Jane went to him and patted his head gently, as she spoke: "That is nature, dear--the fawn hiding in the woods; we must trust to Jennie"s good sense, and the good blood in Neal. My, but his sisters are proud of him! Last week Lizzie was telling me Neal"s wages had been increased to ten dollars a week--and I don"t suppose their father in all of his life ever had that much of a steady income. The things the family is planning to do with that ten dollars a week brought tears of joy to my eyes. Neal"s going to have his mother-in-law on his side, anyway--just as you had yours. I know now how mother felt."
But John Barclay did not know how mother felt, and he did not care. He knew how father felt--how Lycurgus Mason felt, and how the father of Mrs. Lycurgus Mason felt; he felt hurt and slighted, and he could not repress a feeling of bitterness toward the youth. All the world loves a daughter-in-law, but a father"s love for a son-in-law is an acquired taste; some men never get it. And John Barclay was called away the next morning to throttle a mill in the San Joaquin Valley, and from there he went to North Dakota to stop the building of a compet.i.tive railroad that tapped his territory; so September came, and with it Jeanette Barclay went back to school. The mother wondered what the girl would do with her last night at home. She was clearly nervous and unsettled all the afternoon before, and made an errand into town and came back with a perturbed face. But after dinner the mother heard Jeanette at the telephone, and this is the one-sided dialogue the mother caught: "Yes--this is Miss Barclay." "Oh, yes, I didn"t recognize your voice at first." "What meeting?" "Yes--yes." "And they are not going to have it?" "Oh, I see." "You were--oh, I don"t know.
Of course I should have felt--well, I--oh, it would have been all right with me. Of course." Then the voice cheered up and she said: "Why, of course--come right out. I understand." A pause and then, "Yes, I know a man has to go where he is called." "Oh, she"ll understand--you know father is always on the wing." "No--why, no, of course not--mother wouldn"t think that of you. I"ll tell her how it was." "All right, good-by--yes, right away." And Jeanette Barclay skipped away from the telephone and ran to her mother to say, "Mother, that was Neal Ward--he wants to come out, and he was afraid you"d think it rude for him to ask that way, but you know he had a meeting to report and thought he couldn"t come, and now they"ve postponed the meeting, and I told him to come right out--wasn"t that all right?"
And so out came Neal Ward, a likely-looking young man of twenty-one or maybe twenty-two--a good six feet in height, with a straight leg, a square shoulder, and firm jaw, set like his father"s, and clean brown eyes that did not blink. And as Jeanette Barclay, with her mother"s height, and her father"s quick keen features, and her Grandmother Barclay"s eyes and dominant figure, stood beside him in the doorway, Mrs. Jane Barclay thought a good way ahead, and Jeanette would have blushed her face to a cinder if the mother had spoken her thoughts.
The three, mother and daughter and handsome young man, sat for a while together in the living room, and then Jane, who knew the heart of youth, and did not fear it, said, "You children should go out on the porch--it"s a beautiful night; I"m going upstairs."
And now let us once more in our astral bodies watch them there in the light of the veiled moon--for it is the last time that even we should see them alone. She is sitting on a bal.u.s.trade, and he is standing beside her, and their hands are close together on the stones. "Yes,"
he is saying, "I shall be busy at the train to-morrow trying to catch the governor for an interview on the railroad question, and may not see you."
"I wish you would throw the governor into the deep blue sea," she says, and he responds:--
"I wish I could." There is a silence, and then he risks it--and the thing he has been trying to say comes out, "I wonder if you will do something for me, Jeanette?"
"Oh, I don"t know--don"t ask me anything hard--not very hard, Neal!"
The last word was all he cared for, and by what sleight of hand he slipped his fraternity pin from his vest into her hand, neither ever knew.
"Will you?" he asks. "For me?"
She pins it at her throat, and smiles. Then she says, "Is this long enough--do you want it back now?"
He shakes his head, and finally she asks, "When?" and then it comes out:--
"Never."