When Neal Ward came to the office the next morning, he found Dolan waiting for him. Ward opened the envelope that Dolan gave him, and found in it the mortgage Hendricks had owned on the _Banner_ office, a.s.signed to Ward, and around the mortgage was a paper band on which was written: "G.o.d bless you, my boy--keep up the fight; never say die."
Then Ward read Adrian Brownwell"s valedictory that was hanging on a copy spike before him. It was the heart-broken sob of an old man who had run away from failure and sorrow, and it need not be printed here.
On Memorial Day, when they came to the cemetery on the hill to decorate the soldiers" graves, men saw that the great mound of lilacs on Robert Hendricks" grave had withered. The seven days" wonder of his pa.s.sing was ended. The business that he had left prospered without him, or languished and died; within a week in all but a dozen hearts Hendricks" memory began to recede into the past, and so, where there had been a bubble on the tide, that held in its prism of light for a brief bit of eternity all of G.o.d"s spectacle of life, suddenly there was only the tide moving resistlessly toward the unknown sh.o.r.e. And thus it is with all of us.
CHAPTER XXVIII
In the summer of 1904, following the death of Robert Hendricks, John Barclay spent much time in the Ridge, more time than he had spent there for thirty years. For in the City he was a marked man. Every time the market quivered, reporters rushed to get his opinion about the cause of the disturbance; the City papers were full of stories either of his own misdeeds, or of the wrong-doings of other men of his caste. His cronies were dying all about him of broken hearts or wrecked minds, and it seemed to him that the word "indictment" was in every column of every newspaper, was on every man"s lips, and literally floated in the air.
So he remained in Sycamore Ridge much of the time, and every fair afternoon he rowed himself up the mill-pond to fish. He liked to be alone; for when he was alone, he could fight the battle in his soul without interruption. The combat had been gathering for a year; a despair was rising in him, that he concealed from his womenkind--who were his only intimate a.s.sociates in those days--as if it had been a crime. But out on the mill-pond alone, casting minnows for ba.s.s, he could let the melancholy in his heart rage and battle with his sanity, without let or hindrance. His business was doing well; the lawsuits against the company in a dozen states were not affecting dividends, and the department in charge of his charities was forwarding letters of condolence and consolation from preachers and college presidents, and men who under the old regime had been in high walks of life.
Occasionally some conservative newspaper or magazine would praise him and his company highly; but he knew the shallowness of all the patter of praise. He knew that he paid for it in one way or another, and he grew cynical; and in his lonely afternoons on the river, often he laughed at the whole mockery of his career, smiled at the thought of organized religion, licking his boots for money like a dog for bones, and then in his heart he said there is no G.o.d. Once, to relieve the pain of his soul"s woe, he asked aloud, who is G.o.d, anyway, and then laughed as he thought that the ba.s.s nibbling at his minnow would soon think he, John Barclay, was G.o.d. The a.n.a.logy pleased him, and he thought that his own G.o.d, some devilish fate, had the string through his gills at that moment and was preparing to cast him into the fire.
Up in the office in the city, they went on making senators and governors, and slipping a federal judge in where they could, but he had little hand in it, for his power was a discarded toy. He sat in his boat alone, rowing for miles and miles, from stump to stump, and from fallen tree-top to tree-top, hating the thing he called G.o.d, and distrusting men.
But when he appeared in the town, or at home, he was cheerful enough; he liked to mingle with the people, and it fed his despair to notice what a hang-dog way they had with him. He knew they had been abusing him behind his back, and when he found out exactly what a man had said, he delighted in facing the man down with it.
"So you think John Barclay could have saved Bob Hendricks" life, do you, Oscar?" asked Barclay, as he overhauled Fernald coming out of the post-office.
"Who said so?" asked Fernald, turning red.
"Oh," chuckled Barclay, "I got it from the hired girls" wireless news agency. But you said it all right--you said it, Oscar; you said it over to Ward"s at dinner night before last." And Barclay grinned maliciously.
Fernald scratched his head, and said, "Well, John, to be frank with you, that"s the talk all over town--among the people."
"The people--the people," snapped Barclay, impatiently, "the people take my money for bridges and halls and parks and churches and statues and then call me a murderer--oh, d.a.m.n the people! Who started this story?"
"See Jake Dolan, John--it"s up to him. He can satisfy you," said Fernald, and turned, leaving Barclay in the street.
Up the hill trudged the gray-clad little man, with his pugnacious shoulders weaving and his bronzed face set hard and his mean jaw locked. On the steps of the court-house he found Jake Dolan, smoking a morning pipe with the loafers in the shade of the building.
"Here you, Jake Dolan," called Barclay, "what do you mean by accusing me of murdering Bob Hendricks? What did I have to do with it?"
"Easy, easy, Johnnie, my boy," returned Dolan, knocking the ashes from his pipe on the steps between his feet. "Gentlemen," said Dolan, addressing the crowd, "you"ve heard what our friend says. All right--come with me to my office, Johnnie Barclay, and I"ll show you." Barclay followed Dolan into the bas.e.m.e.nt of the court-house, with the crowd at a respectful distance. "Right this way--" and Dolan switched on an electric light. "Do you see that break in the foundation, Mr. Barclay? You do? And you know in your soul that it opens into the cave that leads to the cellar of your own house. Well, then, Mr. Johnnie Barclay--the book that contained the evidence against Bob Hendricks did not go out of this court-house by the front door, as you well know, but through that hole--stolen at night when I was out; and the man who stole it was the horse thief that used to run the cave--your esteemed friend, Lige Bemis."
The crowd was gaping at the rickety place in the foundation, and one man pulled a loose stone out and let the cold air of the cave into the room.
"Lige Bemis came to your house, Mr. Johnnie Barclay, got into the cave from your cellar, broke through this wall, and stole the book that contained the forgery made to cover General Hendricks" disgrace. And who caused that disgrace but the overbearing, domineering John Barclay, who made that old man steal to pay John Barclay"s taxes, back in the gra.s.shopper year, when the sheriff and the jail were almost as familiar to him as they are now,--by all counts. Ah, John Barclay,"
said the Irishman, turning to the crowd, "John Barclay, John Barclay--you"re a brave little man sometimes; I"ve seen you when I was most unG.o.dly proud of you; I"ve seen you do grand things, my little man, grand things. But you"re a coward too, Johnnie; sitting in your own house while your horse-thief friend used your cellar to work out the disgrace of the man who gave his good name to save your own--that was a fine trick--a d.a.m.n fine trick, wasn"t it, Mr.
Barclay?"
Barclay started to go, but the crowd blocked his way. Dolan saw that Barclay was trying to escape. "Turn tail, will you, my little man?
Wait one minute," cried Dolan. "Wait one minute, sir. For what was you conniving against the big man? I know--to win your game; to win your miserable little game. Ah, what a pup a man can be, Johnnie, what a mangy, miserable, cowardly little pup a man can be when he tries--and a decent man, too. Money don"t mean anything to you--you got past that, but it"s to win the game. Why, man, look at yourself--look at yourself--you"d cheat your own mother playing cards with matches for counters--just to win the game." Dolan waved for the crowd to break.
"Let him out of here, and get out yourselves--every one of you. This is public property you"re desecrating."
Dolan sat alone in his office, pale and trembling after the crowd had gone. Colonel Culpepper came puffing in and saw the Irishman sitting with his head in his hands and his elbows on the table.
"What"s this, Jake--what"s this I hear?" asked the colonel.
"Oh, nothing," answered Dolan, and then he looked up at the colonel with sad, remorseful eyes. "What a fool--what a fool whiskey in a man"s tongue is--what a fool." He reached under his cot for his jug, and repeated as he poured the liquor into a gla.s.s, "What a fool, what a fool, what a fool." And then, as he gulped it down and made a wry face, "Poor little Johnnie at the mill; I didn"t mean to hit him so hard--not half so hard. What a fool, what a fool," and the two old men started off for the harness shop together.
Neal Ward that night, in the _Banner_ office alone, wrote to his sweetheart the daily letter that was never mailed.
"How sweet it is," he writes, "to have you at home. Sometimes I hear your voice through the old leaky telephone, talking to Aunt Molly; her phone and ours are through the same board, and your voice seems natural then, and unstrained, not as it is when we meet. But I know that some way we are meeting--our souls--in the infinite realm outside ourselves--beyond our consciousness--either sleeping or waking. Last night I dreamed a strange dream. A little girl, like one of the pictures in mother"s old family photograph alb.u.m, seemed to be talking with me,--dressed so quaintly in the dear old fashion of the days when mother taught the Sycamore Ridge School. She seemed to be playing with me in some way, and then she said: "Oh, yes, I am your telephone; she knows all about it. I tell her every night as we play together." And then she was no longer a little girl but a most beautiful soul and she said with great gentleness: "In her heart she loves you--in her heart she loves you. This I know, only she is proud--proud with the Barclay pride; but in her heart she loves you; is not that enough?" What a strange dream! I wonder where we are--we who animate our bodies, when we sleep. What is sleep, but the proof that death is but a sleep? Oh, Jeanette, Jeanette, come into my soul as we sleep."
He folded the letter, sealed and addressed it, and dated the envelope, and put it in his desk--the desk before which Adrian Brownwell had sat, eating his heart out in futile endeavour to find his place in the world. Neal Ward had cleaned out one side of the desk, and was using that for his own. Mrs. Brownwell kept her papers in the other side, and one key locked them both. As he walked home that night under the stars, his heart was full of John Barclay"s troubles. Neal knew Barclay well enough to know that the sensitive nature of the man, with his strongly developed instinctive faculty for getting at the truth, would be his curse in the turmoil or criticism through which he was going. So a day or two later Neal was not surprised to find a long statement in the morning press despatches from Barclay explaining and defending the methods of the National Provisions Company. He proved carefully that the notorious Door Strip saved large losses in transit of the National Provisions Company"s grain and grain produce, and showed that in paying him for the use of these strips the railroad companies were saving great sums for widowed and orphaned stockholders of railroads--sums which would be his due for losses in transit if the strips were not used.
Neal Ward knew what it had cost Barclay in pride to give out that statement; so the young man printed it on the first page of the _Banner_ with a kind editorial about Mr. Barclay and his good works.
That night when the paper was off, and young Ward was working on the books of his office, he was called to the telephone.
"Is this you, Nealie Ward?" asked a woman"s voice--the strong, clear, deep voice of an old woman. And when he had answered, the voice went on: "Well, Nealie, I wish to thank you for that editorial about John to-night in the paper; I"m Mary Barclay. It isn"t more than half true, Nealie; and if it was all true, it isn"t a fraction of what the truth ought to be if John did what he could, but it will do him a lot of good--right here in the home paper, and--Why, Jennie, I"m speaking with Nealie Ward,--why, do you think I am not old enough to talk with Nealie without breeding scandal?--as I was saying, my dear, it will cheer John up a little, and heaven knows he needs something.
I"m--Jennie, for mercy sakes keep still; I know Nealie Ward and I knew his father when he wasn"t as old as Nealie--did his washing for him; and boarded his mother four winters, and I have a right to say what I want to to that child." The boy and the grandmother laughed into the telephone. "Jennie is so afraid I"ll do something improper,"
laughed Mrs. Barclay. "Oh, yes, by the way--here"s a little item for your paper to-morrow: Jennie"s mother is sick; I think it"s typhoid, but you can"t get John to admit it. So don"t say typhoid." Then with a few more words she rang off.
When the _Banner_ printed the item about Mrs. Barclay"s illness, the town, in one of those outbursts of feeling which communities often have, seemed to try to show John Barclay the affection that was in their hearts for the man who had grown up among them, and the family that had been established under his name. Flowers--summer flowers--poured in on the Barclays. Children came with wild flowers, prairie flowers that Jane Barclay had not seen since she roamed over the unbroken sod about Minneola as a girl; and Colonel Culpepper came marching up the walk through the Barclay grounds, bearing his old-fashioned bouquet, as grandly as an amba.s.sador bringing a king"s gift. Jane Barclay sent word that she wished to see him.
"My dear," said the colonel, as he held the flowers toward her, "accept these flowers from those who have shared your bounty--from G.o.d"s poor, my dear; these are G.o.d"s smiles that they send you from their hearts--from their very hearts, my dear, from their poor hearts wherein G.o.d"s smiles come none too often." She saw through glistening eyes the broken old figure, with his coat tightly b.u.t.toned on that July day to hide some shabbiness underneath. But she bade the colonel sit down, and they chatted of old times and old places and old faces for a few minutes; and the colonel, to whom any sort of social function was a rare and sweet occasion, stayed until the nurse had to beckon him out of the room over Mrs. Barclay"s shoulder.
General Ward sent a note with a bunch of monthly blooming roses.
"MY DEAR JANE (he wrote): These roses are from slips we got from John"s mother when we planted our little yard. This red one is from the very bush on which grew the rose John wore at his wedding. Pin it on the old scamp to-night, and see how he will look. He was a dapper little chap that night, and the years have hardly begun their work on him; or perhaps he is such a tough customer that he dulls the chisel of time. I do not know, and so long as it is so, you do not care, but we both know, and are both glad that of all the many things G.o.d has sent you in thirty years, he has sent you nothing so fine as the joy that came with the day John wore this rose for you--a joy that has grown while the rose has faded. And may this rose renew your joy for another thirty years."
John read the note when he came in from the mill that evening, and Jane watched the years slip off his face. He looked into the past as it spread itself on the carpet near the bed.
"Well, well, well," he said, as he smiled into the picture he saw, "I remember as well the general bringing that rose down to the office that morning, wrapped in blue tissue paper from cotton batting rolls!
The package was tied with fancy red braid that used to bind muslin bolts." He laughed quietly, and asked, "Jane, do you remember that old red braid?" The sick woman nodded. "Well, with the little blue package was a note from Miss Lucy, which said that my old teacher could not give me a present that year--times were cruelly hard then, you remember--but that she could and did put the blessing of her prayers on the rose, that all that it witnessed at my wedding would bring me happiness." He sat for a moment in silence, and, as the nurse was gone, he knelt beside the sick woman and kissed her. And as the wife stroked his head she whispered, "How that prayer has been answered, John--dear, hasn"t it?" And the great clock in the silent hall below ticked away some of the happiest minutes it had ever measured.
But when he pa.s.sed out of the sick room, the world--the maddening press of affairs, and the combat in his soul--snapped back on his shoulders with a mental click as though a load had fallen into its old place. He stood before his organ, and could not press the keys. As he sat there in the twilight made by the shaded electric lamps, the struggle rose in his heart against the admission of anything into his scheme of life but material things, and the conflict raged unchecked.
What a silliness, he said, to think that the mummery of a woman over a rose could affect a life. Life is what the succession of the days brings. The thing is or is not, he said to himself, and the gibber about prayer and the moral force that moves the universe is for the weak-minded. So he took his h.e.l.l to bed with him as it went every night, and during the heavy hours when he could not sleep, he tiptoed into the sick room, and looked at the thin face of his wife, sleeping a restless, feverish sleep, and a great fear came into his heart.
Once as the morning dawned he asked the nurse whom he met in the hall, "Is it typhoid?"
She was a stranger to the town, and she said to him, "What does the doctor tell you?"
"That"s not the point," he insisted. "What do you think?"
She looked at him for an undecided moment and replied, "I"m not paid to think, Mr. Barclay," and went past him with her work. But he knew the truth. He went to his bed, and threw himself upon it, a-tremble with remorse and fear, and the sneer in his heart stilled his lips and he could not look outside himself for help. So the morning came, and another day, bringing its thousand cares, faced him, like a jailer with his tortures.
Time dragged slowly in the sick room and at the mill. One doctor brought another, and the Barclay private car went far east and came flying back with a third. The town knew that Mrs. John Barclay was dangerously sick. There came hopeful days when the patient"s mind was clear; on one of these days Mrs. McHurdie called, and they let her see the sick woman. She brought some flowers.
"In the flowers, Jane," she said, "you will find something from Watts." Mrs. McHurdie smiled. "You know he sat up till "way after midnight last night, playing his accordion. Oh, it"s been years since he has touched it. And this morning when I got up, I found him sitting by the kitchen table, writing. It"s a poem for you." Mrs. McHurdie looked rather sheepish as she said: "You know how Watts is, Jane; he just made me bring it. You can read it when you get well."
They hurried Mrs. McHurdie out, and when Jane Barclay went to sleep, they found tears on her pillow, and in her hand the verses,--the limping, awkward verses of an old man, whose music only echoed back from the past. The nurses and the young doctor from Boston had a good laugh at it. Each of the four stanzas began with two lines that asked: "Oh, don"t you remember the old river road, that ran through the sweet-scented wood?" To them it was a curious parody on something old and quaint that they had long since forgotten. But to the woman who lay murmuring of other days, whose lips were parched for the waters of brooks that had surrendered to the plough a score of years ago, the halting verses of Watts McHurdie were laden with odours of grape blossoms, of wild cuc.u.mbers and sumach, of elder blossoms, and the fragrance of the crushed leaves of autumn. And the music of distant ripples played in her feverish brain and the sobbing voice of the turtle dove sang out of the past for her as she slept. All through the day and the night and for many nights and days she whispered of the trees and the running water and the wild gra.s.s and the birds.
And so one morning when it was still gray, she woke and said to John, who bent over her, "Why, dear, we are almost home; there are the lights across the river; just one more hill, dearie, and then--" And then with the water prattling in her ears at the last ford she turned to the wall and sank to rest.
Day after day, until the days and nights became a week and the week repeated itself until nearly a month was gone, John Barclay, dry-eyed and all but dumb, paced the terrace before his house by night, and by day roamed through the noisy mill or wandered through his desolate house, seeking peace that would not come to him. The whole foundation of his scheme of life was crumbling beneath him. He had built thirty-five years of his manhood upon the theory that the human brain is the G.o.d of things as they are and as they must be. The structure of his life was an imposing edifice, and men called it great and successful. Yet as he walked his lonely way in those black days that followed Jane"s death, there came into his consciousness a strong, overmastering conviction, which he dared not accept, that his house was built on sand. For here were things outside of his plans, outside of his very beliefs, coming into his life, bringing calamity, sorrow, and tragedy with them into his own circle of friends, into his own household, into his own heart. As he walked through the dull, lonely hours he could not escape the vague feeling, though he fought it as one mad fights for his delusion, that all the tragedies piling up about him came from his own mistakes. Over and over again he threshed the past. Molly Brownwell"s cry, "You have sold me into bondage, John Barclay," would not be stilled, though at times he could smile at it; and the broken body and shamed face of her father haunted him like an obsession. Night after night when he tried to sleep, Robert Hendricks"