"What does he mean by a "topper,"" the sergeant-major asked, who, not being of local extraction, despised the venerable local language, and also seemed to suppose "bridegroom" to be an antic.i.p.atory name for himself. "I only hope I shall never be worse treated than you"ve treated me to-night!"
Selina looked frightened. "He didn"t mean you, dear," she said as they moved on. "We thought perhaps you knew what had happened, owing to your coming just at this time. Had you--heard anything about--what I intended?"
"Not a breath--how should I--away up in Yorkshire? It was by the merest accident that I came just at this date to make peace with you for my delay."
"I was engaged to be married to Mr. Bartholomew Miller. That"s what it is! I would have let "ee know by letter, but there was no time, only hearing from "ee this afternoon . . . You won"t desert me for it, will you, John? Because, as you know, I quite supposed you dead, and--and--"
Her eyes were full of tears of trepidation, and he might have felt a sob heaving within her.
IV
The soldier was silent during two or three double bars of the tune. "When were you to have been married to the said Mr. Bartholomew Miller?" he inquired.
"Quite soon."
"How soon?"
"Next week--O yes--just the same as it was with you and me. There"s a strange fate of interruption hanging over me, I sometimes think! He had bought the licence, which I preferred so that it mightn"t be like--ours.
But it made no difference to the fate of it."
"Had bought the licence! The devil!"
"Don"t be angry, dear John. I didn"t know!"
"No, no, I"m not angry."
"It was so kind of him, considering!"
"Yes . . . I see, of course, how natural your action was--never thinking of seeing me any more! Is it the Mr. Miller who is in this dance?"
"Yes."
Clark glanced round upon Bartholomew and was silent again, for some little while, and she stole a look at him, to find that he seemed changed. "John, you look ill!" she almost sobbed. ""Tisn"t me, is it?"
"O dear, no. Though I hadn"t, somehow, expected it. I can"t find fault with you for a moment--and I don"t . . . This is a deuce of a long dance, don"t you think? We"ve been at it twenty minutes if a second, and the figure doesn"t allow one much rest. I"m quite out of breath."
"They like them so dreadfully long here. Shall we drop out? Or I"ll stop the fiddler."
"O no, no, I think I can finish. But although I look healthy enough I have never been so strong as I formerly was, since that long illness I had in the hospital at Scutari."
"And I knew nothing about it!"
"You couldn"t, dear, as I didn"t write. What a fool I have been altogether!" He gave a twitch, as of one in pain. "I won"t dance again when this one is over. The fact is I have travelled a long way to-day, and it seems to have knocked me up a bit."
There could be no doubt that the sergeant-major was unwell, and Selina made herself miserable by still believing that her story was the cause of his ailment. Suddenly he said in a changed voice, and she perceived that he was paler than ever: "I must sit down."
Letting go her waist he went quickly to the other room. She followed, and found him in the nearest chair, his face bent down upon his hands and arms, which were resting on the table.
"What"s the matter?" said her father, who sat there dozing by the fire.
"John isn"t well . . . We are going to New Zealand when we are married, father. A lovely country! John, would you like something to drink?"
"A drop o" that Schiedam of old Owlett"s, that"s under stairs, perhaps,"
suggested her father. "Not that nowadays "tis much better than licensed liquor."
"John," she said, putting her face close to his and pressing his arm.
"Will you have a drop of spirits or something?"
He did not reply, and Selina observed that his ear and the side of his face were quite white. Convinced that his illness was serious, a growing dismay seized hold of her. The dance ended; her mother came in, and learning what had happened, looked narrowly at the sergeant-major.
"We must not let him lie like that, lift him up," she said. "Let him rest in the window-bench on some cushions."
They unfolded his arms and hands as they lay clasped upon the table, and on lifting his head found his features to bear the very impress of death itself. Bartholomew Miller, who had now come in, a.s.sisted Mr. Paddock to make a comfortable couch in the window-seat, where they stretched out Clark upon his back.
Still he seemed unconscious. "We must get a doctor," said Selina. "O, my dear John, how is it you be taken like this?"
"My impression is that he"s dead!" murmured Mr. Paddock. "He don"t breathe enough to move a tomt.i.t"s feather."
There were plenty to volunteer to go for a doctor, but as it would be at least an hour before he could get there the case seemed somewhat hopeless. The dancing-party ended as unceremoniously as it had begun; but the guests lingered round the premises till the doctor should arrive.
When he did come the sergeant-major"s extremities were already cold, and there was no doubt that death had overtaken him almost at the moment that he had sat down.
The medical pract.i.tioner quite refused to accept the unhappy Selina"s theory that her revelation had in any way induced Clark"s sudden collapse. Both he and the coroner afterwards, who found the immediate cause to be heart-failure, held that such a supposition was unwarranted by facts. They a.s.serted that a long day"s journey, a hurried drive, and then an exhausting dance, were sufficient for such a result upon a heart enfeebled by fatty degeneration after the privations of a Crimean winter and other trying experiences, the coincidence of the sad event with any disclosure of hers being a pure accident.
This conclusion, however, did not dislodge Selina"s opinion that the shock of her statement had been the immediate stroke which had felled a const.i.tution so undermined.
V
At this date the Casterbridge Barracks were cavalry quarters, their adaptation to artillery having been effected some years later. It had been owing to the fact that the ---th Dragoons, in which John Clark had served, happened to be lying there that Selina made his acquaintance. At the time of his death the barracks were occupied by the Scots Greys, but when the pathetic circ.u.mstances of the sergeant-major"s end became known in the town the officers of the Greys offered the services of their fine reed and bra.s.s band, that he might have a funeral marked by due military honours. His body was accordingly removed to the barracks, and carried thence to the churchyard in the Durnover quarter on the following afternoon, one of the Greys" most ancient and docile chargers being blacked up to represent Clark"s horse on the occasion.
Everybody pitied Selina, whose story was well known. She followed the corpse as the only mourner, Clark having been without relations in this part of the country, and a communication with his regiment having brought none from a distance. She sat in a little shabby brown-black mourning carriage, squeezing herself up in a corner to be as much as possible out of sight during the slow and dramatic march through the town to the tune from Saul. When the interment had taken place, the volleys been fired, and the return journey begun, it was with something like a shock that she found the military escort to be moving at a quick march to the lively strains of "Off she goes!" as if all care for the sergeant-major was expected to be ended with the late discharge of the carbines. It was, by chance, the very tune to which they had been footing when he died, and unable to bear its notes, she hastily told her driver to drop behind. The band and military party diminished up the High Street, and Selina turned over Swan bridge and homeward to Mellstock.
Then recommenced for her a life whose incidents were precisely of a suit with those which had preceded the soldier"s return; but how different in her appreciation of them! Her narrow miss of the recovered respectability they had hoped for from that tardy event worked upon her parents as an irritant, and after the first week or two of her mourning her life with them grew almost insupportable. She had impulsively taken to herself the weeds of a widow, for such she seemed to herself to be, and clothed little Johnny in sables likewise. This a.s.sumption of a moral relationship to the deceased, which she a.s.serted to be only not a legal one by two most unexpected accidents, led the old people to indulge in sarcasm at her expense whenever they beheld her attire, though all the while it cost them more pain to utter than it gave her to hear it. Having become accustomed by her residence at home to the business carried on by her father, she surprised them one day by going off with the child to Chalk-Newton, in the direction of the town of Ivell, and opening a miniature fruit and vegetable shop, attending Ivell market with her produce. Her business grew somewhat larger, and it was soon sufficient to enable her to support herself and the boy in comfort. She called herself "Mrs. John Clark" from the day of leaving home, and painted the name on her signboard--no man forbidding her.
By degrees the pain of her state was forgotten in her new circ.u.mstances, and getting to be generally accepted as the widow of a sergeant-major of dragoons--an a.s.sumption which her modest and mournful demeanour seemed to substantiate--her life became a placid one, her mind being nourished by the melancholy luxury of dreaming what might have been her future in New Zealand with John, if he had only lived to take her there. Her only travels now were a journey to Ivell on market-days, and once a fortnight to the churchyard in which Clark lay, there to tend, with Johnny"s a.s.sistance, as widows are wont to do, the flowers she had planted upon his grave.
On a day about eighteen months after his unexpected decease, Selina was surprised in her lodging over her little shop by a visit from Bartholomew Miller. He had called on her once or twice before, on which occasions he had used without a word of comment the name by which she was known.
"I"ve come this time," he said, "less because I was in this direction than to ask you, Mrs. Clark, what you mid well guess. I"ve come o"
purpose, in short."
She smiled.
""Tis to ask me again to marry you?"