When the dance had ended she rejoined her own section of the company. Her father and Mr. Bellston the elder had now come out from the house, and were smoking in the background. Presently she found that her father was at her elbow.
"Christine, don"t dance too often with young Long--as a mere matter of prudence, I mean, as volk might think it odd, he being one of our own neighbouring farmers. I should not mention this to "ee if he were an ordinary young fellow; but being superior to the rest it behoves you to be careful."
"Exactly, papa," said Christine.
But the revived sense that she was deceiving him threw a damp over her spirits. "But, after all," she said to herself, "he is a young man of Elsenford, handsome, able, and the soul of honour; and I am a young woman of the adjoining parish, who have been constantly thrown into communication with him. Is it not, by nature"s rule, the most proper thing in the world that I should marry him, and is it not an absurd conventional regulation which says that such a union would be wrong?"
It may be concluded that the strength of Christine"s large-minded argument was rather an evidence of weakness than of strength in the pa.s.sion it concerned, which had required neither argument nor reasoning of any kind for its maintenance when full and flush in its early days.
When driving home in the dark with her father she sank into pensive silence. She was thinking of Nicholas having to trudge on foot all those miles back after his exertions on the sward. Mr. Everard, arousing himself from a nap, said suddenly, "I have something to mention to "ee, by George--so I have, Chris! You probably know what it is?"
She expressed ignorance, wondering if her father had discovered anything of her secret.
"Well, according to him you know it. But I will tell "ee. Perhaps you noticed young Jim Bellston walking me off down the lawn with him?--whether or no, we walked together a good while; and he informed me that he wanted to pay his addresses to "ee. I naturally said that it depended upon yourself; and he replied that you were willing enough; you had given him particular encouragement--showing your preference for him by specially choosing him for your partner--hey? "In that case," says I, "go on and conquer--settle it with her--I have no objection." The poor fellow was very grateful, and in short, there we left the matter. He"ll propose to- morrow."
She saw now to her dismay what James Bellston had read as encouragement.
"He has mistaken me altogether," she said. "I had no idea of such a thing."
"What, you won"t have him?"
"Indeed, I cannot!"
"Chrissy," said Mr. Everard with emphasis, "there"s noobody whom I should so like you to marry as that young man. He"s a thoroughly clever fellow, and fairly well provided for. He"s travelled all over the temperate zone; but he says that directly he marries he"s going to give up all that, and be a regular stay-at-home. You would be nowhere safer than in his hands."
"It is true," she answered. "He is a highly desirable match, and I should be well provided for, and probably very safe in his hands."
"Then don"t be skittish, and stand-to."
She had spoken from her conscience and understanding, and not to please her father. As a reflecting woman she believed that such a marriage would be a wise one. In great things Nicholas was closest to her nature; in little things Bellston seemed immeasurably nearer than Nic; and life was made up of little things.
Altogether the firmament looked black for Nicholas Long, notwithstanding her half-hour"s ardour for him when she saw him dancing with the dairyman"s daughter. Most great pa.s.sions, movements, and beliefs--individual and national--burst during their decline into a temporary irradiation, which rivals their original splendour; and then they speedily become extinct. Perhaps the dance had given the last flare- up to Christine"s love. It seemed to have improvidently consumed for its immediate purpose all her ardour forwards, so that for the future there was nothing left but frigidity.
Nicholas had certainly been very foolish about that licence!
CHAPTER IV
This laxity of emotional tone was further increased by an incident, when, two days later, she kept an appointment with Nicholas in the Sallows. The Sallows was an extension of shrubberies and plantations along the banks of the Froom, accessible from the lawn of Froom-Everard House only, except by wading through the river at the waterfall or elsewhere. Near the brink was a thicket of box in which a trunk lay prostrate; this had been once or twice their trysting-place, though it was by no means a safe one; and it was here she sat awaiting him now.
The noise of the stream m.u.f.fled any sound of footsteps, and it was before she was aware of his approach that she looked up and saw him wading across at the top of the waterfall.
Noontide lights and dwarfed shadows always banished the romantic aspect of her love for Nicholas. Moreover, something new had occurred to disturb her; and if ever she had regretted giving way to a tenderness for him--which perhaps she had not done with any distinctness--she regretted it now. Yet in the bottom of their hearts those two were excellently paired, the very twin halves of a perfect whole; and their love was pure.
But at this hour surfaces showed garishly, and obscured the depths.
Probably her regret appeared in her face.
He walked up to her without speaking, the water running from his boots; and, taking one of her hands in each of his own, looked narrowly into her eyes.
"Have you thought it over?"
"What?"
"Whether we shall try again; you remember saying you would at the dance?"
"Oh, I had forgotten that!"
"You are sorry we tried at all!" he said accusingly.
"I am not so sorry for the fact as for the rumours," she said.
"Ah! rumours?"
"They say we are already married."
"Who?"
"I cannot tell exactly. I heard some whispering to that effect. Somebody in the village told one of the servants, I believe. This man said that he was crossing the churchyard early on that unfortunate foggy morning, and heard voices in the chancel, and peeped through the window as well as the dim panes would let him; and there he saw you and me and Mr. Bealand, and so on; but thinking his surmises would be dangerous knowledge, he hastened on. And so the story got afloat. Then your aunt, too--"
"Good Lord!--what has she done?"
The story was, told her, and she said proudly, "O yes, it is true enough.
I have seen the licence. But it is not to be known yet.""
"Seen the licence? How the--"
"Accidentally, I believe, when your coat was hanging somewhere."
The information, coupled with the infelicitous word "proudly," caused Nicholas to flush with mortification. He knew that it was in his aunt"s nature to make a brag of that sort; but worse than the brag was the fact that this was the first occasion on which Christine had deigned to show her consciousness that such a marriage would be a source of pride to his relatives--the only two he had in the world.
"You are sorry, then, even to be thought my wife, much less to be it." He dropped her hand, which fell lifelessly.
"It is not sorry exactly, dear Nic. But I feel uncomfortable and vexed, that after s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g up my courage, my fidelity, to the point of going to church, you should have so muddled--managed the matter that it has ended in neither one thing nor the other. How can I meet acquaintances, when I don"t know what they are thinking of me?"
"Then, dear Christine, let us mend the muddle. I"ll go away for a few days and get another licence, and you can come to me."
She shrank from this perceptibly. "I cannot screw myself up to it a second time," she said. "I am sure I cannot! Besides, I promised Mr.
Bealand. And yet how can I continue to see you after such a rumour? We shall be watched now, for certain."
"Then don"t see me."
"I fear I must not for the present. Altogether--"
"What?"
"I am very depressed."
These views were not very inspiriting to Nicholas, as he construed them.
It may indeed have been possible that he construed them wrongly, and should have insisted upon her making the rumour true. Unfortunately, too, he had come to her in a hurry through brambles and briars, water and weed, and the s.h.a.ggy wildness which hung about his appearance at this fine and correct time of day lent an impracticability to the look of him.