"I want you to have a happy life," she added.
"A happy life!" flashed the girl. "And you"re keeping me from any life at all! That"s what I want,--life, my own life, not what anybody else gives me of theirs. Why shouldn"t I have what they have, even if it"s bad now and then? Don"t save me in spite of myself! n.o.body likes to be saved in spite of themselves."
It was a long speech for Mellony. A large moon had risen, and from the low horizon sent golden shafts of light almost into the room; it was as if the placidity of the night were suddenly penetrated by something more glowing. Mellony stood looking down at her mother, like a judge. Mrs.
Pember gazed at her steadily.
"I"m going to save you, Mellony," she said, her indomitable will making her voice harsher than it had been, "whether you want to be saved or not. I"m not going to have you marry, and be sworn at and cuffed."
Mellony moved to protest, but her strength was futility beside her mother"s at a time like this. "I"m not going to have you slave and grub, and get blows for your pains. I"m going to follow you about and set wherever you be, whenever you go off with Ira Baldwin, if that"ll stop it; and if that won"t, I"ll try some other way,--I know other ways. I"m not going to have you marry! I"m going to have you stay along with me!"
With a slight gesture of despair, Mellony turned away. The flash had burned itself out. The stronger nature had rea.s.serted itself. Silently, feeling her helplessness, frightened at her own rebellion now that it was over, she went out of the room to her own smaller one, and closed the door.
Mrs. Pember sat silent in her turn, reviewing her daughter"s resentment, but the matter admitted no modifications in her mind; her duty was clear, and her determination had been taken long ago. Neither did she fear anything like persistent opposition; she knew her daughter"s submissive nature well.
Brought up in a country village, an earnest and somewhat apprehensive member of the church, Mrs. Pember had married the captain early in life, under what she had since grown to consider a systematic illusion conceived and maintained by the Evil One, but which was, perhaps, more logically due to the disconcerting good looks and decorously restrained impetuosity of Captain Pember himself. Possibly he had been the victim of an illusion too, not believing that austerity of principle could exist with such bright eyes and red cheeks as charmed him in the country girl. At least, he never hesitated subsequently, not only to imply, but to state baldly, a sense of the existence of injury. Captain Phippeny was one of those sailors whom the change of scene, the wide knowledge of men and of things, the hardships and dangers of a sea life, broaden and render tolerant and somewhat wise. Pember had been brutalized by these same things.
The inhabitants of Grayhead were distinguished by the breadth and suggestiveness of their profanity, and Captain Pember had been a past master of the accomplishment. Praise from Sir Hubert Stanley could have been no more discriminating than the local acknowledgment of his proficiency in this line. No wonder Mrs. Pember looked back at the ten years of her married life with a shudder. With the rigid training of her somewhat dogmatic communion still potent, she listened in a horrified expectancy, rather actual than figurative, for the heavens to strike or the earth to swallow up her nonchalant husband. Nor was this all. The weakness for grog, unfortunately supposed to be inherent in a nautical existence, was carried by Captain Pember to an extent inconsiderate even in the eyes of a seafaring public; and when, under its genial influence, he knocked his wife down and tormented Mellony, the opinion of this same public declared itself on the side of the victims with a unanimity which is not always to be counted upon in such cases.
In fact, her married life had, as it were, formalized many hitherto somewhat vague details of Mrs. Pember"s conception of the place of future punishment; and when her husband died in an appropriate and indecorous fashion as the result of a brawl, he continued to mitigate the relief of the event by leaving in his wife"s heart a haunting fear, begotten of New England conscientiousness, that perhaps she ought not to be so unmistakably glad of it. It was thus that, with Mellony"s growth from childhood to womanhood, the burning regret for her former unmarried state, whose difficulties had been mainly theological, had become a no less burning resolve that her child should never suffer as she had suffered, but should be guarded from matrimony as from death. That she failed to distinguish between individuals, that she failed to see that young Baldwin was dest.i.tute of those traits which her sharpened vision would now have detected in Pember"s youth, was both the fault of her perceptive qualities and the fruit of her impregnable resolve. She had been hurt by Mellony"s rebellion, but not influenced by so much as a hair"s-breadth.
Early one morning, two or three days later, Mrs. Pember, lying awake waiting for the light to grow brighter that she might begin her day, heard a slight sound outside, of a certain incisiveness out of proportion to its volume. With an idleness that visited her only at early day-break, she wondered what it was. It was repeated, and this time, moved by an insistent curiosity blended with the recognition of its probable cause, she rose and looked out of the window which was close to the head of her bed. A little pier was a stone"s throw from the house on that side, at which were moored several boats belonging to the fishermen about. It was as she thought; a stooping figure, dim and hazy in the morning fog, which blurred the nearest outlines and veiled the more distant, was untying one of the boats, and had slipped the oars into the rowlocks.
"Going fishing early," she said to herself. "I wonder which of "em it is. They are all alike in this light."
Then she stood and looked out upon the morning world. It would soon be sunrise. Meanwhile, the earth was silent, save for the soft rippling of the untired waves that scarcely rose and fell in this sheltered harbor; the land had been at rest through the short night, but they had climbed and lapsed again steadily through its hours; the paling stars would soon have faded into the haze. The expectation of the creature waited for the manifestation.
Softly the boat floated away from its moorings. It seemed propelled without effort, so quietly it slipped through the water. In the bottom lay the sail and the nets, a shadowy ma.s.s; the boat itself was little more than a shadow, as it glided on into the thicker fog which received and enveloped it, as into an unknown vague future which concealed and yet held promise and welcome.
Mrs. Pember glanced at the clock. It was very early, but to go back to bed was hardly worth while. The sun was already beginning to glint through the fog. She dressed, and, pa.s.sing softly the door of the room where Mellony slept,--rather fitfully of late,--began to make the fire.
The morning broadened and blazed into the day, and the whole town was making ready for its breakfast. Mellony was later than usual,--her mother did not hear her moving about, even; but she was unwilling to disturb her; she would wait a while longer before calling her. At last, however, the conviction of the immorality of late rising could no longer be ignored, and she turned the k.n.o.b of Mellony"s door and stepped into the room.
She had been mistaken in supposing that Mellony was asleep; the girl must have risen early and slipped out, for the room was empty, and Mrs.
Pember paused, surprised that she had not heard her go. It must have been while she was getting kindling-wood in the yard that Mellony had left by the street door. And what could she have wanted so early in the village?--for to the village she must have gone; she was nowhere about the little place, whose flatness dropped, treeless, to the sh.o.r.e. Her mother went again to the kitchen, and glanced up and down the waterside.
There was no one on the little wooden pier, and the boats swung gently by its side, their own among them, so Mellony had not gone out in that.
Yes, she must have gone to the village, and Mrs. Pember opened the front door and scanned the wandering little street. It was almost empty; the early morning activity of the place was in other directions.
With the vague uneasiness that unaccustomed and unexplained absence always produces, but with no actual apprehension, Mrs. Pember went back to her work. Mellony had certain mild whims of her own, but it was surprising that she should have left her room in disorder, the bed unmade; that was not like her studious neatness. With a certain grimness Mrs. Pember ate her breakfast alone. Of course no harm had come to Mellony, but where was she? Unacknowledged, the shadow of Ira Baldwin fell across her wonder. Had Mellony cared so much for him that her disappointment had driven her to something wild and fatal? She did not ask the question, but her lips grew white and stiff at the faintest suggestion of it. Several times she went to the door, meaning to go out, and up the street to look for her daughter, but each time something withheld her. Instead, with that determination that distinguished her, she busied herself with trifling duties. It was quite nine o"clock when she saw Captain Phippeny coming up the street. She stood still and watched him approach. His gait was more rolling than ever, as he came slowly towards her, and he glanced furtively ahead at her house, and then dropped his eyes and pretended not to have seen her. She grew impatient to have him reach her, but she only pressed her lips together and stood the more rigidly still. At last he stood in front of her doorstone, his hat in his hand. The yellow shirt and the leathern jacket were more succinctly audacious than ever, but doubt and irresolution in every turn of his blue eyes and line of his weather-beaten face had taken the place of the tolerant kindliness.
"It"s a warm mornin", Mis" Pember," he observed, more disconcerted than ever by her unsmiling alertness.
"You came a good ways to tell me that, Captain Phippeny."
"Yes, I did. Leastways I didn"t," he responded. "I come to tell you about--about Mellony."
"What about Mellony, Captain Phippeny?" she demanded, pale, but uncompromising. "What have you got to tell me about Mellony Pember?" she reiterated as he paused.
"Not Mellony Pember," gasped the captain, a three-cornered smile trying to make headway against his embarra.s.sment as he recalled the ancient tale of breaking the news to the Widow Smith; "Mellony Baldwin."
"Mellony Baldwin!" repeated Mrs. Pember, stonily, not yet fully comprehending.
The captain grew more and more nervous.
"Yes," he proceeded, with the haste of despair, "yes. Mis" Pember, you see Mellony--Mellony"s married."
"Mellony married!" Strangely enough she had not thought of that. She grasped the doorpost for support.
"Yes, she up and married him," went on the captain more blithely. "I hardly thought it of Mellony," he added in not unpleasurable reflection, "nor yet of Ira."
"Nor I either." Mrs. Pember"s lips moved with difficulty. Mellony married! The structure reared with tears and prayers, the structure of Mellony"s happiness, seemed to crumble before her eyes.
"And I was to give you this;" and from the lining of his hat the captain drew forth a folded paper.
"Then you knew about it?" said Mrs. Pember, in a flash of cold wrath.
"No, no, I didn"t. My daughter"s boy brought this to me, and I was to tell you they was married. And why they set the job onto me the Lord he only knows!" and Captain Phippeny wiped his heated forehead with feeling; "but that"s all _I_ know."
Slowly, her fingers trembling, she unfolded the note.
"I have married Ira, mother," she read. "He took me away in a boat early this morning. It was the only way. I will come back when you want me. If I am to be unhappy, I"d rather be unhappy this way. I can"t be unhappy your way any longer. I"m sorry to go against you, mother; but it"s my life, after all, not yours, MELLONY."
As Mrs. Pember"s hands fell to her side and the note slipped from her fingers, the daily tragedy of her married life seemed to pa.s.s before her eyes. She saw Captain Pember reel into the house, she shuddered at his blasphemy, she felt the sting of the first blow he had given her, she cowered as he roughly shook Mellony"s little frame by her childish arm.
"She"d better be dead!" she murmured. "I wish she was dead."
Captain Phippeny pulled himself together. "No, she hadn"t,--no, you don"t, Mis" Pember," he declared stoutly. "You"re making a mistake. You don"t want to see Mellony dead any more"n I do. She"s only got married, when all"s said and done, and there"s a sight of folks gets married and none the worse for it. Ira Baldwin ain"t any great shakes,--I dono as he is; he"s kinder light complected and soft spoken,--but he ain"t a born fool, and that"s a good deal, Mis" Pember." He paused impressively, but she did not speak. "And he ain"t goin" to beat Mellony, either; he ain"t that sort. I guess Mellony could tackle him, if it came to that, anyhow. I tell you, Mis" Pember, there"s one thing you don"t take no reckonin" on,--there"s a difference in husbands, there"s a ter"ble difference in "em!" Mrs. Pember looked at him vaguely. Why did he go on talking? Mellony was married. "Mellony"s got one kind, and you--well,"
he went on, with cautious delicacy, "somehow you got another. I tell you it"s husbands as makes the difference to a woman when it comes to marryin"."
Mrs. Pember stooped, picked up the note, turned and walked into the living-room and sat down. She looked about her with that sense of unreality that visits us at times. There was the chair in which Mellony sat the night of her rebellious outbreak,--Mellony, her daughter, her married daughter. Other women talked about their "married daughters"
easily enough, and she had pitied them; now she would have to talk so, too. She felt unutterably lonely. Her household, like her hope, was shattered. She looked up and saw that Captain Phippeny had followed her in and was standing before her, turning his hat in his brown, tattooed hands.
"Mis" Pember," he said, "I thought, mebbe, now Mellony was married, you"d be thinkin" of matrimony yourself agen." As Mrs. Pember gazed at him dumbly it seemed as if she must all at once have become another person. Matrimony had suddenly become domesticated, as it were. Her eyes travelled over the horseshoe charm and the long gold chain, as she listened, and from pocket to pocket. "And so I wanted to say that I"d like to have you think of me, if you was making out the papers for another v"yage. The first mate I sailed with, she says to me when she died, "You"ve been a good husband, Phippeny," says she. I wouldn"t say anythin" to you, I wouldn"t take the resk, if she hadn"t said that to me. Mis" Pember, and I"m tellin" it to you now because there"s such a difference; and I feel kinder encouraged by it to ask you to try me. I"d like to have you marry me, Mis" Pember."
It was a long speech, and the captain was near to suffocation when it was finished, but he watched her with anxious keenness as he waited for her to reply. The stern lines of her mouth relaxed slowly. A brilliant red geranium in the window glowed in the sunlight which had just reached it. The world was not all dark. The room seemed less lonely with the captain in it, as she glanced around it a second time. She scanned his face: the b.u.t.tonhole of a mouth had a kindly twist; he did not look in the least like handsome d.i.c.k Pember. Mellony had married, and her world was in fragments, and something must come after.
"I never heard as you weren"t a good husband to Mis" Phippeny," she said calmly, "and I dono as anybody"ll make any objection if I marry you, Captain Phippeny."
Memoir of Mary Twining
THE other day I spent several hours in looking over a lot of dusty volumes which had fallen to me in the way of inheritance. In the somewhat heterogeneous collection I came upon a brief memoir which, after a glance within, I laid aside as worthy, at least, of perusal. The other books were of little value of any sort--an orthodox commentary, an odd volume of a county history, one or two cook-books, a worn and broken set of certain standard British authors,--the usual a.s.sortment to be found in a country farmhouse, whose occupants soon ceased to keep up with the times. But this little book seemed to me unusual,--an opinion subsequently confirmed by examination. I had long ago discovered the fallacy of that tradition of early youth that a memoir is, of necessity, dull, and I was in nowise unfavorably affected by the t.i.tle, "Memoir of Mary Twining." There proved to be something to me singularly quaint and charming in this little sketch, something fresh and new in this voice from bygone years. The subject of the memoir attracted me powerfully, both from the simplicity and naturalness of her own words, and the freedom and occasional depth of both thought and expression, in a day when freedom and thinking for one"s self were less the fashion of New England maidens than they have since become. Or, it may be that the Editor, notwithstanding an occasional stiffness and apparent want of sympathy, has so well done his work, has understood so well what to give us and what to keep from us, that the reader"s interest is skilfully fostered from the start. Be this as it may, I have not been able to resist the temptation to write, myself, a little of this memoir and its subject, to make a little wider, if I may, the public who have been told the story of this life. Not that it was an exciting or an eventful one, though lived in stirring times, but as I have already said, it seems to have a certain charm which should not be left forgotten in country garrets or unnoticed in second-hand bookstores. With no further apology for this review of it, I shall let the book, as far as possible, speak for itself.
Mary Twining was born in Middleport, Ma.s.sachusetts, June 27, 1757. Her father fought with Colonel Washington in the French and Indian War, and subsequently under General Washington in a later disturbance. Her mother was a granddaughter of one of the early colonial governors. Mary seems to have come naturally enough by fine impulses and good breeding.
"It is not," says the conscientious biographer, "from any vain Partiality for high-sounding names, or any poor Pretense of good blood, which were most out of place in this our Republic, made so by the Genius and enduring Fort.i.tude of all cla.s.ses of Men, that I claim for Mary Twining stately Lineage, but that when such Accidents fall in the lives of Human Beings, it is not a thing to make light of, but worthy of study in its Results. Besides which is General Washington none the less a Good Soldier in that he is a Gentleman."