"I will do whatever you like. Take Miss Payne with you--she is a shrewd woman--and consult with her what you had better do. Shall you remove the boys?"
She paused again before replying, looking rapidly, despairingly round.
These changes had cost her a good deal, and she had not much to go on with unless she broke into the deposit which she hoped to preserve intact for a long time to come.
"I do not know where to put them," she said, and there was a sound of tears in her voice.
"You can do whatever you choose," said De Burgh, emphatically, "only, while you are driving down to this confounded place, make up your mind what to do. I wish you would feel yourself free to do anything or pay anything. While you are dressing, I will go round to Miss Payne and bring her back with me; then you must take my carriage, it will save time; and don"t exaggerate the effects of this whipping, a few impatient cuts with a cane over his jacket would not hurt him much."
"Hurt him, no; crush and terrify him, yes. It will be months before he can forget it; and I told the head master of Charlie"s peculiarly nervous temperament--this man seems to be an a.s.sistant. I will take your advice, Lord de Burgh, and make some plan with Miss Payne. I hope she will be able to come."
"She must--she shall," cried De Burgh, impetuously, and he hastily left the room.
By the time Katherine had put on her out-door dress, and written an explanatory line to Mrs. Needham, De Burgh returned with Miss Payne.
"You must tell me all about it as we go along," said that lady, as Katherine took her place beside her, "and you must do nothing rash."
"Oh no, if I can only prevent a recurrence of such a scene. I am most grateful to you for your kind help, Lord de Burgh. I will let you know how things are settled."
"Thank you. I shall be glad of a line; but I shall call to-morrow to hear a full and true account. Now, what"s the name of the place?"
"Birch Grove, Wandsworth Common."
De Burgh gave the necessary directions, and the big black horse tossed up his head, and dashed off at swift trot. Deep was the discussion which ensued, and which ended in deciding that they would be guided by circ.u.mstances.
The arrival of Miss Liddell was evidently most unexpected. She and her companion were shown into the guest-parlor, where, after a while, Mr.
Lockwood, the princ.i.p.al, made his appearance.
"This is an unexpected pleasure, Miss Liddell. May I ask the reason of your visit?"
Whereupon Katherine spoke more temperately than Miss Payne expected, describing Cecil"s letter, and reminding him that she had fully explained Charlie"s nervous weakness, and stating that, if she could not be a.s.sured such treatment should not occur again, she must remove the boy.
The "dominie," apparently touched by her tone, answered with equal frankness. He had been called away by unavoidable business at the beginning of the term, and had forgotten to warn his a.s.sistant respecting Liddell minor. He regretted the incident; indeed, he had intended to inform Miss Liddell of the unfortunate occurrence, but extreme occupation must plead his excuse. Miss Liddell might be sure that it should never happen again; indeed, her nephews were very promising boys--the youngest a little young for his school, but it was all the better for him to be accustomed to a higher standard. He hoped, now that this unpleasantness was over, all would go on well.
"I hope so, Mr. Lockwood," returned Katherine; "but should my nephew be again punished for what he cannot help, I shall immediately remove him and his brother."
"So I understand, madam," said the schoolmaster, who was visibly much annoyed by the whole affair. "I presume you would like to see the boys?"
"Yes, certainly. Will you be so good as to grant them a half-holiday?"
This was agreed to, and in a few minutes Cis and Charlie were hanging round their aunt.
"Oh, auntie dear, have you come to take us away?"
"No, dears, but I have talked to Mr. Lockwood;" and she explained the fact that Mr. Sells did not know that Charlie"s laughter was involuntary.
The poor little fellow did not complain of his aunt"s decision; he just laid his head on her shoulders and cried silently. This was worse than any other line of conduct. Cis declared his intention of running away forthwith; however, when matters were laid before him and the joys of a half-holiday set forth, he consented to try "old Sells" a little longer, and then Katherine took them back to Wilton Street, where they spent a quiet happy afternoon with their aunt, to whom they poured out their hearts, and were finally taken back by the polite Francois.
"You are the kindest of much enduring employers," said Katherine, gratefully, when she joined Mrs. Needham at dinner. "I earnestly hope my sudden desertion has not inconvenienced you. Now I am ready to work far into the night to make up for lost time."
"Oh, you need not do that; I changed my plans after I met Lord de Burgh, and came home to write here. Now tell me all about those poor dears and that brute of a master."
The excitement of this expedition over, Katherine felt rather depressed and nervous the next morning. She dreaded Lord de Burgh"s visit, yet did not absolutely wish to avoid it. It was due to him that the sort of probation which he had voluntarily inst.i.tuted should come to an end.
She could not allow herself to be made conspicuous by the constant attentions of a man who was known to be about the best match in London, yet she was genuinely sorry to lose him--as a friend he had been so kind and thoughtful about the boys too! Well, she would be frank and sympathetic, and soften her refusal as much as possible. How she wished it were over, she found writing an impossible task, and Mrs. Needham, noticing her restlessness, observed, with a grave smile,
"I expect you will have some very good news for me this afternoon! I am going out to luncheon."
"No, dear Mrs. Needham, I do not think I shall," returned Katherine. "I fear----"
"Lord de Burgh is in the drawing room," said the parlor-maid.
"Go, Katherine," cried Mrs. Needham; "and don"t tell me there is any doubt about your having good news! You deserve bread and water for the rest of your natural life if you don"t take the goods the G.o.ds provide."
Katherine hesitated, smiled miserably, and left the room.
"Well, and how did you find the poor little chap?" were De Burgh"s first words. "There"s nothing wrong, I hope?--you look as white as a ghost, and your hand is quite cold;" placing his left on it, as it lay in his grasp. "The boys are well?"
"Yes, quite well, and reconciled with some difficulty to remain where they are," she returned, disengaging herself and sinking rather than sitting down into a corner of a sofa nearest her.
"Then what has upset you? I suppose," softening his voice, "the whole thing was too much for you."
"I daresay I excited myself more than I need have done, but I think my little Charlie is safe for the future."
"Do you know that it makes me half mad to see that look of distress in your eyes, to see the color fading out of your cheeks! Katherine, I can"t hold my tongue any longer. I thought I was far gone when I used to count the days between my visits to Sandbourne; I am a good deal worse now that you have let me be a sort of chum! Life without you is something I don"t care to face, I don"t indeed! Why don"t you make up your mind to take me for better for worse? I"ll try to be all better; just think how happy we might be! Those boys should have the best training money or care could get; and, Katherine, I"m not a bad fellow!
Now you know me better, you must feel that I should never be a bad fellow to _you_."
"You are a very good fellow, Lord de Burgh, that I quite believe; but (it pains me so much to say it) I really do not love you as I ought, and, unless I do love I dare not marry."
"Why not?--that is, if you don"t love some other fellow. Will you tell me if any man stands in my way?"
"No, indeed, Lord de Burgh; who could I love?"
"That is impossible to say; however, your word is enough. If your heart is free, why not let me try to win it? and the opportunities afforded by matrimony are endless; you are the sort of woman who would be faithful to whatever you undertook, and when you saw me day by day living for you, and you only, you"d grow to love me! Just think of the boys running wild at Pont-y garvan in the holidays, and----By heaven, my head reels with such a dream of happiness."
"I am a wretch, I know," said Katherine, the tears in her eyes, her voice breaking; "but I know myself. I am a very lawless individual, and--you had better not urge me."
"What is your objection to me? I haven"t been a saint, but I have never done anything I am ashamed of. Why do you shrink from life with me?
Come, cast your doubts to the winds, and give me your sweet self. There is no one to love you as I do, and I swear your life shall be a summer holiday."
His words struck her with sudden conviction. It was true there was no one to love her as he did, and what a tower of refuge he would be to the boys! Why should she not think of him? He had been very true to her. Why should she not drive out the haunting image of the man who did not love her by the living presence of the man who did? But, if she accepted him, she must confess her crime; she could not keep such an act hidden from the man who was ready to give his life to her. How awful this would be!
And he might reject her; then her fate would be decided for her. Lord de Burgh saw that she hesitated, and pressed her eagerly for a decision.
"You deserve so much grat.i.tude for your kindness, your faithfulness, that--ah! do let me think," covering up her face with her hands. "It is such a tremendous matter to decide."
"Yes, of course, you shall think as much as ever you like," cried De Burgh, rapturously, telling himself "that she who deliberates is lost."
"Take your own time, only don"t say _no_," ferociously. "Reflect on the immense happiness you can bestow, the good you can do. Why do you shiver, my darling? If you wish it, I"ll go now this moment, and I"ll not show my face till--till the day after to-morrow, if you like."
"The day after to-morrow? that is but a short s.p.a.ce to decide so momentous a question."