The stone pa.s.sage out of which the cells opened was light, and bare, and scrupulously clean. Over each door was a small barred window, and an outer window of the same description was placed high up in the cell, which the turnkey now opened.
Old Abraham Dixon was sitting on the side of his bed, doing nothing. His head was bent, his frame sunk, and he did not seem to care to turn round and see who it was that entered.
Ellinor tried to keep down her sobs while the man went up to him, and laying his hand on his shoulder, and lightly shaking him, he said:
"Here"s a friend come to see you, Dixon." Then, turning to Ellinor, he added, "There"s some as takes it in this kind o" stunned way, while others are as restless as a wild beast in a cage, after they"re sentenced." And then he withdrew into the pa.s.sage, leaving the door open, so that he could see all that pa.s.sed if he chose to look, but ostentatiously keeping his eyes averted, and whistling to himself, so that he could not hear what they said to each other.
Dixon looked up at Ellinor, but then let his eyes fall on the ground again; the increasing trembling of his shrunken frame was the only sign he gave that he had recognised her.
She sat down by him, and took his large h.o.r.n.y hand in hers. She wanted to overcome her inclination to sob hysterically before she spoke. She stroked the bony shrivelled fingers, on which her hot scalding tears kept dropping.
"Dunnot do that," said he, at length, in a hollow voice. "Dunnot take on about it; it"s best as it is, missy."
"No, Dixon, it"s not best. It shall not be. You know it shall not--cannot be."
"I"m rather tired of living. It"s been a great strain and labour for me.
I think I"d as lief be with G.o.d as with men. And you see, I were fond on him ever sin" he were a little lad, and told me what hard times he had at school, he did, just as if I were his brother! I loved him next to Molly Greaves. Dear! and I shall see her again, I reckon, come next Sat.u.r.day week! They"ll think well on me, up there, I"ll be bound; though I cannot say as I"ve done all as I should do here below."
"But, Dixon," said Ellinor, "you know who did this--this--"
"Guilty o" murder," said he. "That"s what they called it. Murder! And that it never were, choose who did it."
"My poor, poor father did it. I am going up to London this afternoon; I am going to see the judge, and tell him all."
"Don"t you demean yourself to that fellow, missy. It"s him as left you in the lurch as soon as sorrow and shame came nigh you."
He looked up at her now, for the first time; but she went on as if she had not noticed those wistful, weary eyes.
"Yes! I shall go to him. I know who it is; and I am resolved. After all, he may be better than a stranger, for real help; and I shall never remember any--anything else, when I think of you, good faithful friend."
"He looks but a wizened old fellow in his grey wig. I should hardly ha"
known him. I gave him a look, as much as to say, "I could tell tales o"
you, my lord judge, if I chose." I don"t know if he heeded me, though. I suppose it were for a sign of old acquaintance that he said he"d recommend me to mercy. But I"d sooner have death nor mercy, by long odds. Yon man out there says mercy means Botany Bay. It "ud be like killing me by inches, that would. It would. I"d liefer go straight to Heaven, than live on among the black folk."
He began to shake again: this idea of transportation, from its very mysteriousness, was more terrifying to him than death. He kept on saying plaintively, "Missy, you"ll never let "em send me to Botany Bay; I couldn"t stand that."
"No, no!" said she. "You shall come out of this prison, and go home with me to East Chester; I promise you you shall. I promise you. I don"t yet quite know how, but trust in my promise. Don"t fret about Botany Bay. If you go there, I go too. I am so sure you will not go. And you know if you have done anything against the law in concealing that fatal night"s work, I did too, and if you are to be punished, I will be punished too.
But I feel sure it will be right; I mean, as right as anything can be, with the recollection of that time present to us, as it must always be."
She almost spoke these last words to herself. They sat on, hand in hand for a few minutes more in silence.
"I thought you"d come to me. I knowed you were far away in foreign parts. But I used to pray to G.o.d. "Dear Lord G.o.d!" I used to say, "let me see her again." I told the chaplain as I"d begin to pray for repentance, at after I"d done praying that I might see you once again: for it just seemed to take all my strength to say those words as I"ve named. And I thought as how G.o.d knew what was in my heart better than I could tell Him: how I was main and sorry for all as I"d ever done wrong; I allays were, at after it was done; but I thought as no one could know how bitter-keen I wanted to see you."
Again they sank into silence. Ellinor felt as if she would fain be away and active in procuring his release; but she also perceived how precious her presence was to him; and she did not like to leave him a moment before the time allowed her. His voice had changed to a weak, piping old man"s quaver, and between the times of his talking he seemed to relapse into a dreamy state; but through it all he held her hand tight, as though afraid that she would leave him.
So the hour elapsed, with no more spoken words than those above. From time to time Ellinor"s tears dropped down upon her lap; she could not restrain them, though she scarce knew why she cried just then.
At length the turnkey said that the time allowed for the interview was ended. Ellinor spoke no word; but rose, and bent down and kissed the old man"s forehead, saying--
"I shall come back to-morrow. G.o.d keep and comfort you!"
So almost without an articulate word from him in reply (he rose up, and stood on his shaking legs, as she bade him farewell, putting his hand to his head with the old habitual mark of respect), she went her way, swiftly out of the prison, swiftly back with Mr. Johnson to his house, scarcely patient or strong enough in her hurry to explain to him fully all that she meant to do. She only asked him a few absolutely requisite questions; and informed him of her intention to go straight to London to see Judge Corbet.
Just before the railway carriage in which she was seated started on the journey, she bent forward, and put out her hand once more to Mr. Johnson.
"To-morrow I will thank you for all," she said. "I cannot now."
It was about the same time that she had reached h.e.l.lingford on the previous night, that she arrived at the Great Western station on this evening--past eight o"clock. On the way she had remembered and arranged many things: one important question she had omitted to ask Mr. Johnson; but that was easily remedied. She had not enquired where she could find Judge Corbet; if she had, Mr. Johnson could probably have given her his professional address. As it was, she asked for a Post-Office Directory at the hotel, and looked out for his private dwelling--128 Hyde Park Gardens.
She rang for a waiter.
"Can I send a messenger to Hyde Park Gardens?" she said, hurrying on to her business, tired and worn out as she was. "It is only to ask if Judge Corbet is at home this evening. If he is, I must go and see him."
The waiter was a little surprised, and would gladly have had her name to authorise the enquiry but she could not bear to send it: it would be bad enough that first meeting, without the feeling that he, too, had had time to recall all the past days. Better to go in upon him unprepared, and plunge into the subject.
The waiter returned with the answer while she yet was pacing up and down the room restlessly, nerving herself for the interview.
"The messenger has been to Hyde Park Gardens, ma"am. The Judge and Lady Corbet are gone out to dinner."
Lady Corbet! Of course Ellinor knew that he was married. Had she not been present at the wedding in East Chester Cathedral? But, somehow, these recent events had so carried her back to old times, that the intimate a.s.sociation of the names, "the Judge and Lady Corbet," seemed to awaken her out of some dream.
"Oh, very well," she said, just as if these thoughts were not pa.s.sing rapidly through her mind. "Let me be called at seven to-morrow morning, and let me have a cab at the door to Hyde Park Gardens at eight."
And so she went to bed; but scarcely to sleep. All night long she had the scenes of those old times, the happy, happy days of her youth, the one terrible night that cut all happiness short, present before her. She could almost have fancied that she heard the long-silent sounds of her father"s step, her father"s way of breathing, the rustle of his newspaper as he hastily turned it over, coming through the lapse of years; the silence of the night. She knew that she had the little writing-case of her girlhood with her, in her box. The treasures of the dead that it contained, the morsel of dainty sewing, the little sister"s golden curl, the half-finished letter to Mr. Corbet, were all there. She took them out, and looked at each separately; looked at them long--long and wistfully. "Will it be of any use to me?" she questioned of herself, as she was about to put her father"s letter back into its receptacle. She read the last words over again, once more:
"From my death-bed I adjure you to stand her friend; I will beg pardon on my knees for anything."
"I will take it," thought she. "I need not bring it out; most likely there will be no need for it, after what I shall have to say. All is so altered, so changed between us, as utterly as if it never had been, that I think I shall have no shame in showing it him, for my own part of it.
While, if he sees poor papa"s, dear, dear papa"s suffering humility, it may make him think more gently of one who loved him once though they parted in wrath with each other, I"m afraid."
So she took the letter with her when she drove to Hyde Park Gardens.
Every nerve in her body was in such a high state of tension that she could have screamed out at the cabman"s boisterous knock at the door. She got out hastily, before any one was ready or willing to answer such an untimely summons; paid the man double what he ought to have had; and stood there, sick, trembling, and humble.
CHAPTER XVI AND LAST.
"Is Judge Corbet at home? Can I see him?" she asked of the footman, who at length answered the door.
He looked at her curiously, and a little familiarly, before he replied,
"Why, yes! He"s pretty sure to be at home at this time of day; but whether he"ll see you is quite another thing."
"Would you be so good as to ask him? It is on very particular business."
"Can you give me a card? your name, perhaps, will do, if you have not a card. I say, Simmons" (to a lady"s-maid crossing the hall), "is the judge up yet?"