A long night"s sleep and a pot of delicious coffee for breakfast put so much sunshine into my world that I set out for Franklin Square with a gambler"s countenance, resolute to conceal my dismay from my friends and especially from my publisher. There was something in the very air of Broadway which generated confidence.
Harpers" editors were genial, respectful, but by no means enthusiastic concerning my autobiographic ma.n.u.script, although I a.s.sured Duneka that I had vastly improved it since he had read it a year before.
"That may be," he granted, "but it is not fiction and nothing serializes but fiction. We"ll be glad to schedule it as a book, but I don"t see any place for it in our magazine." And then--more to get rid of me than for any other reason, he added, "You might see _Collier"s_. Mark Sullivan is the editor up there now; it might be that he could use something of yours."
Duneka"s indifference even more than his shunting my precious ma.n.u.script into the street brought back my cloud of doubt, for it indicated a loss of faith in me. To him I was a squeezed lemon. Nevertheless I took his hint. Sullivan, I knew and liked, and while I had small hope of interesting him in _The Middle Border_, I did think he might buy one or two of my short stories.
The _Collier"s_ plant humming with speed, prosperous and commercial, was not rea.s.suring to me, but I kept on through the maze until I reached Sullivan"s handsome room, where I was given an easy chair and told to wait, "the editor will see you in a few minutes."
Alert, kindly, cordial, Mark greeted me and taking a seat, fixed his keen blue, kindly eyes upon me. "I"m glad to see you," he said, and I believed he meant it. He went on, "This is the psychological moment for us both. I am looking for American material and I want something of yours. What have you to show me?"
Thus encouraged I told him of _A Son of the Middle Border_.
He was interested. "Where is the ma.n.u.script? Is it complete?"
"It is. I have it with me at the hotel."
"Send it down to me," he said quickly, "I"ll read it and give you a verdict at once."
In an illogical glow of hope I hastened to fetch the ma.n.u.script, and in less than two hours it was in his hands.
I speak of my hope as "illogical" for if the literary monthly of my own publishers could not find a place for it, how could I reasonably expect a hustling, bustling popular weekly like _Collier"s_ to use it?
Nevertheless something in Sullivan"s voice and manner restored my confidence, and when I called on the editor of the _Century_ I was able to a.s.sume the tone of successful authorship. The closer I got to my market the more a.s.sured I became. I counted for something in New York.
My thirty years of effort were remembered in my favor.
On Tuesday Sullivan, who had been called to the West, wired me from Chicago that _A Son of the Middle Border_ would make an admirable serial and that his a.s.sistants would take the matter up with me. "I predict a great success for it."
That night I sent a message to my wife in which I exultantly said, "Rejoice! I"ve sold _The Middle Border_ to _Collier"s Weekly_. Our troubles are over for a year at least."
Two days later _Collier"s_ took a short story at four hundred dollars and the _Century_ gave me three hundred for an article on James A.
Herne, and when I boarded the train for Chicago the following week I was not only four thousand dollars better off than when I came--I had regained my faith in the future. My task was clearly outlined. For the seventh time I set to work revising _A Son of the Middle Border_, preparing it for serial publication.
My father, who knew that I had been writing upon this story for years, stared at me in silent amazement when I told him of its sale. That the editor of a great periodical should be interested in a record of the migrations and failures of the McClintocks and Garlands was incredible.
Nevertheless he was eager to see it in print--and when in March the first installment appeared, he read it with absorbed attention and mixed emotions. "Aren"t you a little hard on me?" he asked with a light in his eyes which was half-humorous, half-resentful.
"I don"t think so, Father," I replied. "You must admit you were a stern disciplinarian in those days."
"Well maybe I was--but I didn"t realize it."
My first understanding of the depths this serial sounded came to me in the letters which were written to the editor by those who could not find words in which to express their longing for the bright world gone--the world when they were young and glad. "You have written my life," each one said--and by this they meant that the facts of my family history, and my own emotional experiences were so nearly theirs that my lines awoke an almost intolerable regret in their hearts--an ache which is in my own heart to-day--the world-old hunger of the gray-haired man dwelling upon the hope and illusions of youth.
These responses which indicated a wider and more lasting effect than I had hoped to produce, led me to plan for the publication of the book close on the heels of the concluding installment of the serial but in this I was disappointed. The Mexican war suddenly thrust new and tremendously exciting news articles into the magazine, separating and delaying the printing of my story. Had it not been for the loyalty of Mark Sullivan it would have been completely side-tracked, but he would not have it so; on the contrary he began to talk with me about printing six more installments, and this necessarily put off the question of finding a publisher for the book.
Nevertheless I returned to my desk in the expectation that the Mexican excitement was only a flurry and that the magazine would be able to complete the publication of the ma.n.u.script within the year. My harvest was not destroyed; it was only delayed.
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
A Spray of Wild Roses
Although for several years my wife and children had spent four months of each year in West Salem, and notwithstanding the fact that my father was free to come down to visit us at any time, I suffered a feeling of uneasiness (almost of guilt), whenever I thought of him camping alone for the larger part of the year in that big, silent house. His love for the children and for Zulime made every day of his lonely life a reproach to me, and yet there seemed no way in which I could justly grant him more of our time. The welfare of my wife and the education of the children must be considered.
He was nearing his eighty-fourth birthday, and a realization that every week in which he did not see his granddaughters was an irreparable loss, gave me uneasiness. It was a comfort to think of him sitting in an easy chair in the blaze of a fireplace which he loved and found a solace and yet he was a lonely old man--that could not be denied. He made no complaint in his short infrequent letters although as spring came on he once or twice asked, "Why don"t you come up? The best place for the children is on the lawn under the maples."
In one note to me he said, "My old legs are giving out. I don"t enjoy walking any more. I don"t stand the work of the garden as well as I did last year. You"d better come up and help me put in the seed."
This confession produced in me a keen pang. He who had marched so tirelessly under the lead of Grant and Thomas; he who had fearlessly cruised the pine forests of Wisconsin, and joyously explored the prairies of Iowa and Minnesota, was now uncertain of his footing.
Alarmed more than I cared to confess, I hurried up to help him, and to tell him of the success of _The Middle Border_, which was in truth as much his story as mine.
The air was thick with bird songs as I walked up the street, for it was late April, and I came upon him at work in the garden, bareheaded as usual, his white hair gleaming in the sunlight like a silver crown.
Outwardly serene, without a trace of bitterness in his voice, he spoke of his growing weakness. "Oh, the old machine is wearing out, that"s all." Aware of his decline he accepted it as something in the natural course of human life and was content.
Several of his comrades had dropped away during the winter and he was aware that all of his generation were nearing their end. "There"s only one more migration left for us," he said composedly, yet with a note of regret. Not on the strength of any particular religious creed but by reason of a manly faith in the universe he faced death. He was a kind of primitive warrior, who, having lived honorably, was prepared to meet what was to come. "I"ve no complaint to make," he said, "I"ve had a long life and on the whole a happy life. I"m ready for the bugle."
This was the faith of a pathfinder, a philosophy born of the open s.p.a.ces, courage generated by the sun and the wind. "I find it hard to keep warm on dark days," he explained. "I guess my old heart is getting tired," and as he spoke I thought of the strain which that brave heart had undergone in its eighty years of action, on the battlefield, along the river, in the logging camps, and throughout all the stern, unceasing years of labor on the farm. His tireless energy and his indomitable spirit came back, filling my mind with pictures of his swift and graceful use of axe and scythe, and when I spoke of the early days, he found it difficult to reply--they were so beautiful in retrospect.
The next day was Sunday, and Sunday afternoon was for him a period of musing, an hour of dream, and as night began to fall he turned to me and with familiar accent called out, "Come, Hamlin, sing some of the songs your mother used to love," and I complied, although I could play but a crude accompaniment to my voice. First of all I sang "Rise and Shine"
and "The Sweet Story of Old" in acknowledgment of the Sabbath, then pa.s.sed to "The Old Musician and His Harp," ending with "When You and I Were Young, Maggie," in which I discerned a darker significance--a deeper pathos than ever before. It had now a personal, poignant application.
Tears misted his eyes as I uttered the line, "But now we are aged and gray, Maggie, the trials of life are nearly done," and at the close he was silent with emotion. He, too, was aged and gray, his trials of life nearly done, and the one who had been his solace and his stay had pa.s.sed beyond recall.
To me, came the insistent thought, "Soon he must go to join Mother in the little plot under the pines beyond Neshonoc." In spite of my philosophy, I imagined their reunion somehow, somewhere.
Tender and sweet were the scenes which the words of my songs evoked--pictures which had nothing to do with the music except by a.s.sociation, forms and faces of far-off days, of Dry Run Prairie and its neighbors, and of the still farther and dimmer and more magical experiences of Green"s Coulee, before the call to war.
I sang the song my uncle Bailey loved. A song which took him back to his boyhood"s home in Maine.
"The river"s running just the same, The willows on its side Are larger than they were, dear Tom, The stream appears less wide, And stooping down to take a drink, Dear Heart, I started so, To see how sadly I was changed Since forty years ago!"
His songs, his friends, his thoughts were all of the past except when they dwelt on his grandchildren--and they, after six months" absence, were shadowy, fairy-like forms in his memory. He found it difficult to recall them precisely. He longed for them but his longing was for something vaguely bright and cheerful and tender. David and William and Susan and Belle were much more vividly real to him than Constance or Mary Isabel.
On Monday morning he was up early. "Now let"s get to work," he said. "I can"t hoe as I used to do, and the weeds are getting the start of me."
To him the garden was a battlefield, a contest with purslane and he hated to be worsted.
"Don"t worry about the garden," I said. "It is not very important. What does it matter if the "pussley" does cover the ground?"
He would not have this. "It matters a good deal," he replied with hot resentment, "and it won"t happen so long as I can stand up and shove a hoe."
To relieve his anxiety and to be sure that he did not overwork, I hired Uncle Frank McClintock to come down for two or three days a week to help kill the weeds. "The crop is not important to me," I said to him privately, "but it _is_ important that you should keep a close watch on Father while I am away. He is getting feeble and forgetful. See him every day, and wire me if he is in need of anything. I must go back to the city for a few weeks. If you need me send word and I"ll come at once."