"You have no doubt of what, old man? Or what do you mean by the supercilious quietness with which you a.s.sent to my misfortune? Send the landlord to me."
"I will do more! I will send the police," said he, as he shuffled out of the room.
I have met scores of men on my way through life who would not have felt the slightest embarra.s.sment in such a situation as mine, fellows so accustomed to shipwreck, that the cry of "Breakers ahead!" or "Man the boats," would have occasioned neither excitement nor trepidation. What stuff they are made of instead of nerves, muscles, and arteries, I cannot imagine, since, when the question is self-preservation, how can it possibly be more imminent than when not alone your animal existence is jeopardized, but the dearer and more precious life of fame and character is in peril?
For a moment I thought that though this besotted old fool of a waiter might suspect my probity the more clear-sighted intelligence of the landlord would at once recognize my honest nature, and with the confidence of a n.o.ble conviction say, "Don"t tell me that the man yonder is a knave. I read him very differently. Tell me your story, sir." And then I would tell it. It is not improbable that my speculation might have been verified had it not been that it was a landlady and not a landlord who swayed the destinies of the inn. Oh, what a wise invention of our ancestors was the Salique law! How justly they appreciated the unbridled rashness of the female nature in command! How well they understood the one-idea"d impetuosity with which they rush to wrong conclusions!
Until I listened to the Frau von Wintner, I imagined the German language somewhat weak in the matter of epithets. She undeceived me on this head, showing resources of abusive import that would have done credit to a Homeric hero. Having given me full ten minutes of a strong vocabulary, she then turned on the waiter, scornfully asking him if, at his time of life, he ought to have let himself be imposed upon by so palpable and undeniable a swindler as myself? She clearly showed that there was no extenuation of his fault, that rogue and vagabond had been written on my face, and inscribed in my manner; not to mention that I had followed the well-beaten track of all my fraternity in fraud, and ordered everything the most costly the house could command. In fact, so strenuously did she urge this point, and so eager did she seem about enforcing a belief in her statement, that I almost began to suspect she might suggest an anatomical examination of me to sustain her case. Had she been even less eloquent, the audience would still have been with her, for it is a curious but unquestionable fact that in all little visited localities the stranger is ungraciously regarded and ill looked on.
Whenever I attempted to interpose a word in my defence, I was overborne at once. Indeed, public opinion was so decidedly against me, that I felt very happy in thinking Lynch law was not a Teutonic inst.i.tution. The room was now filled with retainers of the inn, strangers, town-folk, and police, and, to judge by the violence of their gestures and the loud tones of their voices, one would have p.r.o.nounced me a criminal of the worst sort.
"But what is it that he has done? What"s his offence?" I heard a voice say from the crowd, and I fancied his accent was that of a foreigner. A perfect inundation of vituperative accusation, however, now poured in, and I could gather no more. The turmoil and uproar rose and fell, and fell and rose again, till at last, my patience utterly exhausted, I burst out into a very violent attack on the uncivilized habits of a people who could thus conduct themselves to a man totally unconvicted of any offence.
"Well, well, don"t give way to pa.s.sion; don"t let temper get the better of you," said a fat, citizen-like man beside me. "The stranger there has just paid for what you have had, and all is settled."
I thought I should have fainted as I heard these words. Indeed, until that instant, I had never brought home to my own mind the utter dest.i.tution of my state; but now, there. I stood, realizing to myself the condition of one of those we read of in our newspapers as having received five shillings from the poor-box, while D 490 is deputed to "make inquiries after him at his lodgings," and learn particulars of his life and habits. I could have borne being sent to prison. I could have endured any amount of severity, so long as I revolted against its injustice; but the sense of being an object of actual charity crushed me utterly, and I could nearly have cried with vexation.
By degrees the crowd thinned off, and I found myself sit-, ting alone beside the table where I had dined, with the hateful old waiter, as though standing sentinel over me.
"Who is this person," asked I, haughtily, "who, with an indelicate generosity, has presumed to interfere with the concerns of a stranger?"
"The gracious n.o.bleman who paid for your dinner is now eating his own at No. 8," said the old monster with a grin.
"I will call upon him when he has dined," said I, transfixing the wretch with a look so stern, as to make rejoinder impossible; and then, throwing my plaid wrapper and my knapsack on a table near, I strolled out into the street.
Lindau is a picturesque old place, as it stands rising, as it were, out of the very waters of the Lake of Constance, and the great mountain of the Sentis, with its peak of six thousand feet high, is a fine object in the distance; while the gorge of the Upper Rhine offers many a grand effect of Alpine scenery, not the less striking when looked at with a setting sun, which made the foreground more ma.s.sive and the hill tops golden; and yet I carried that in my heart which made the whole picture as dark and dreary as Poussin"s Deluge. It was all very beautiful.
There, was the snow-white summit, reflected in the still water of the lake; there, the rich wood, browned with autumn, and now tinted with a golden glory, richer again; there were the white-sailed boats, asleep on the calm surface, streaked with the variegated light of the clouds above, and it was peaceful as it was picturesque. But do what I could, I could not enjoy it, and all because I had lost my purse, just as if certain fragments of a yellow metal the more or the less, ought to obscure eyesight, lull the sense of hearing, and make a man"s whole existence miserable. "And after all," thought I, "Catinka will be here this evening, or to-morrow at furthest. Vater-chen was tired, and could not come on. It was _I_ who left them; I, in my impatience and ill-humor. The old man doubtless knew nothing of the purse confided to the girl, nor is it at all needful that he should. They will certainly follow me, and why, for the mere inconvenience of an hour or two, should I persist in seeing the whole world so c.r.a.pe-covered and sad-looking?
Surely this is not the philosophy my knowledge of life has taught me. I ought to know and feel that these daily accidents are but stones on the road one travels. They may, perchance, wound the foot or damage the shoe, but they rarely delay the journey, if the traveller be not faint-hearted and craven. I will treat the whole incident in a higher spirit. I will wait for their coming in that tranquil and a.s.sured condition of mind which is the ripe fruit of a real insight into mankind. Pitt said, after long years of experience, that there was more of good than of bad in human nature. Let it be the remark of some future biographer that Potts agreed with him."
When I got back to the inn, I was somewhat puzzled what to do. It would have been impossible with any success to have resumed my former tone of command, and for the life of me I could not bring myself down to anything like entreaty. While I thus stood, uncertain how to act, the old waiter approached me, almost courteously, and said my room was ready for me when I wished it.
"I will first of all wait upon the traveller in No. 8," said L
"He has retired for the night," was the answer. "He seems in very delicate health, and the fatigue of the journey has overcome him."
"To-morrow will do, then," said I easily; and not venturing upon an inquiry as to the means by which my room was at my disposal, I took my candle and mounted the stairs.
As I lay down in my bed, I resolved I would take a calm survey of my past life: what I had done, what I had failed to do, what were the guiding principles which directed me, and whither they were likely to bear me.
But scarcely had I administered to myself the preliminary oath to tell nothing but the truth, than I fell off sound asleep.
My first waking thought the next morning was to inquire if two persons had arrived in search of me--an elderly man and a young woman. I described them. None such had been seen. "They will have sought shelter in some of the humbler inns," thought I; "I"ll up and look after them." I searched the town from end to end; I visited the meanest halting-places of the wayfarer; I inquired at the police bureaus--at the gate--but none had arrived who bore any resemblance to those I asked after. I was vexed--only vexed at first--but gradually I found myself growing distrustful. The suspicion that the ice is not strong enough for your weight, and then, close upon that, the shock of fear that strikes you when the loud crash of a fracture breaks on the ear, are mere symbols of what one suffers at the first glimmering of a betrayal. I repelled the thought with indignation; but certain thoughts there are which, when turned out, stand like st.u.r.dy duns at the gate, and will not be sent away. This was one of them. It followed me wherever I went, importunately begging for a hearing, and menacing me with sad consequences if I were obdurate enough to listen. "You are a simpleton, Potts, a weak, foolish, erring creature! and you select as the objects of your confidence those whose lives of accident present exactly as the most irresistible of all temptations to them--the Dupe! How they must have laughed--how they must yet be laughing at you! How that old drunken fox will chuckle over your simplicity, and the minx Tintefleck indulge herself in caricatures of your figure and face! I wonder how much of truth there was in that old fellow"s story? Was he ever the syndic of his village, or was the whole narrative a mere fiction like--like--" I covered my face with my hands in shame as I muttered out, "like one of your own, Potts?"
I was very miserable, for I could no longer stand proudly forward as the prosecutor, but was obliged to steal ignominiously into the dock and take my place beside the other prisoners. What became of all my honest indignation as I bethought me, that I, of all men, could never arraign the counterfeit and the sham?
"Let them go, then," cried I, "and prosper if they can; I will never pursue them. I will even try and remember what pleased and interested me in their fortunes, and, if it may be, forget that they have carried away my little all of wealth."
A loud tramping of post-horses, and the cracking of whips, drew me to the window, and I saw beneath in the court-yard, a handsome travelling britschka getting ready for the road. Oh, how suggestive is a well cushioned caleche, with its many appliances of ease and luxury, its trim imperials, its scattered litter of wrappers and guide-books,--all little episodes of those who are to journey in it!
"Who are the happy souls about to travel thus enjoy-ably?" thought I, as I saw the waiter and the courier discussing the most convenient spot to deposit a small hamper with eatables for the road; and then I heard the landlady"s voice call out:
"Take up the bill to No. 8."
So, then, this was No. 8 who was fast getting ready to depart,--No. 8 who had interposed in my favor the evening before, and towards whom a night"s rest and some reflection had modified my feelings and changed my sentiments very remarkably.
"Will you ask the gentleman at No. 8 if I may be permitted to speak with him?" said I to the man who took in the bill.
"He "ll scarcely see you now,--he"s just going off."
"Give the message as I speak it," said I; and he disappeared.
There was a long interval before he issued forth again, and when he did so he was flurried and excited. Some overcharges had been taken off and some bad money in change to be replaced by honest coin, and it was evident that various little well-intended rogueries had not achieved their usual success.
"Go in, you "ll find him there," said the waiter, insolently, as he went down to have the bill rectified.
I knocked, a full round voice cried, "Come in!" and I entered.
CHAPTER x.x.xV. HART CROFTON"S COMMISSION
"Well, what next? Have you bethought you of anything more to charge me with?" cried a large full man, whose angry look and manner showed how he resented these cheatings.
I staggered back sick and faint, for the individual before me was Crofton, my kind host of long ago in Ireland, and from whose hospitable roof I had taken such an unceremonious departure.
"Who are you?" cried he, again. "I had hoped to have paid everything and everybody. Who are you?"
Wishing to retire unrecognized, I stammered out something very unintelligibly indeed about my grat.i.tude, and my hope for a pleasant journey to him, retreating all the while towards the door.
"It"s all very well to wish the traveller a pleasant journey," said he, "but you innkeepers ought to bear in mind that no man"s journey is rendered more agreeable by roguery. This house is somewhat dearer than the "Clarendon" in London, or the "Hotel du Rhin" at Paris. Now, there might be, perhaps, some pretext to make a man pay smartly who travels post, and has two or three servants with him, but what excuse can you make for charging some poor devil of a foot traveller, taking his humble meal in the common room, and, naturally enough, of the commonest fare, for making him pay eight florins--eight florins and some kreutzers--for his dinner? Why, our dinner here for two people was handsomely paid at six florins a head, and yet you bring in a bill of eight florins against that poor wretch."
I saw now that, what between the blinding effects of his indignation, and certain changes which time and the road had worked in my appearance, it was more than probable I should escape undetected, and so I affected to busy myself with some articles of his luggage that lay scattered about the room until I could manage to slip away.
"Touch nothing, my good fellow!" cried he, angrily; "send my own people here for these things. Let my courier come here--or my valet!"
This was too good an opportunity to be thrown away, and I made at once for the door; but at the same instant it was opened, and Mary Crofton stood before me. One glance showed me that I was discovered; and there I stood, speechless with shame and confusion. Rallying, however, after a moment, I whispered, "Don"t betray me," and tried to pa.s.s out Instead of minding my entreaty, she set her back to the door, and laughingly cried out to her brother,--
"Don"t you know whom we have got here?"
"What do you mean?" exclaimed he.
"Cannot you recognize an old friend, notwithstanding all his efforts to cut us?"
"Why--what--surely it can"t be--it"s not possible--eh?" And by this time he had wheeled me round to the strong light of the window, and then, with a loud burst, he cried out, "Potts, by all that"s ragged! Potts himself! Why, old fellow, what could you mean by wanting to escape us?"
and he wrung my hand with a cordial shake that at once brought the blood back to my heart, while his sister completed my happiness by saying,--
"If you only knew all the schemes we have planned to catch you, you would certainly not have tried to avoid us."