Matthew knew what he was thinking anyway. "I don"t tell other vampires" tales."
"You"re making a mistake," said Marcus, shaking his head. "Diana won"t thank you for keeping things from her."
"So you and Hamish say. When she"s ready, I"ll tell her everything-but not before." His father"s voice was firm. "My only concern right now is getting Diana out of Oxford."
"Will you drop her off in Scotland? Surely she"ll be beyond anyone"s reach there." Marcus thought at once of Hamish"s remote estate. "Or will you leave her at Woodstock before you go?"
"Before I go where?" Matthew"s face was puzzled.
"You had me bring your pa.s.sport." Now it was Marcus who was puzzled. That"s what his father did-he got angry and went away by himself until he was under better control.
"I have no intention of leaving Diana," Matthew said icily. "I"m taking her to Sept-Tours."
"You can"t possibly put her under the same roof as Ysabeau!" Marcus"s shocked voice rang in the small room.
"It"s my home, too," Matthew said, jaw set in a stubborn line.
"Your mother openly boasts about the witches she"s killed and blames every witch she meets for what happened to Louisa and your father."
Matthew"s face crumpled, and Marcus at last understood. The photograph had reminded Matthew of Philippe"s death and Ysabeau"s battle with madness in the years that followed.
Matthew pressed the palms of his hands against his temples, as if desperately trying to shape a better plan from the outside in. "Diana had nothing to do with either tragedy. Ysabeau will understand."
"She won"t-you know she won"t," Marcus said obstinately. He loved his grandmother and didn"t want her hurt. And if Matthew-her favorite-brought a witch home, it was going to hurt her. Badly.
"There"s nowhere as safe as Sept-Tours. The witches will think twice before tangling with Ysabeau-especially at her own home."
"For G.o.d"s sake, don"t leave the two of them alone together."
"I won"t," Matthew promised. "I"ll need you and Miriam to move into the gatehouse in hopes that will convince everyone Diana is there. They"ll figure out the truth eventually, but it may win us a few days. My keys are with the porter. Come back in a few hours, when we"ve gone. Take the duvet from her bed-it will have her scent on it-and drive to Woodstock. Stay there until you hear from me."
"Can you protect yourself and that witch at the same time?" Marcus asked quietly.
"I can handle it," Matthew said with certainty.
Marcus nodded, and the two vampires gripped forearms, exchanging a meaningful look. Anything they needed to say to each other at moments like these had long since been said.
When Matthew was alone again, he sank into the sofa and cradled his head in his hands. Marcus"s vehement opposition had shaken him.
He looked up and stared again at the print of the G.o.ddess of the hunt stalking her prey. Another line from the same old poem came into his mind. ""I saw her coming from the forest,"" he whispered, ""Huntress of myself, beloved Diana.""
In the bedroom, too far away for a warmblood to have heard, Diana stirred and cried out. Matthew sped to her side and gathered her into his arms. The protectiveness returned, and with it a renewed sense of purpose.
"I"m here," he murmured against the rainbow strands of her hair. He looked down at Diana"s sleeping face, her mouth puckered and a fierce frown between her eyes. It was a face he"d studied for hours and knew well, but its contradictions still fascinated him. "Have you bewitched me?" he wondered aloud.
After tonight Matthew knew his need for her was greater than anything else. Neither his family nor his next taste of blood mattered as much as knowing that she was safe and within arm"s reach. If that was what it meant to be bewitched, he was a lost man.
His arms tightened, holding Diana in sleep as he would not allow himself to do when she was awake. She sighed, nestling closer.
Were he not a vampire he wouldn"t have caught her faint, murmured words as she clutched both his ampulla and the fabric of his sweater, her fist resting firmly against his heart.
"You"re not lost. I found you."
Matthew wondered fleetingly if he"d imagined it but knew that he hadn"t.
She could hear his thoughts.
Not all the time, not when she was conscious-not yet. But it was only a matter of time before Diana knew everything there was to know about him. She would know his secrets, the dark and terrible things he wasn"t brave enough to face.
She answered with another faint murmur. "I"m brave enough for both of us."
Matthew bent his head toward hers. "You"ll have to be."
Chapter 17.
There was a powerful taste of cloves in my mouth, and I"d been mummified in my own duvet. When I stirred in my wrappings, the bed"s old springs gave slightly.
"Shh." Matthew"s lips were at my ear, and his body formed a sh.e.l.l against my back. We lay there like spoons in a drawer, tight against each other.
"What time is it?" My voice was hoa.r.s.e.
Matthew pulled away slightly and looked at his watch. "It"s after one."
"How long have I been asleep?"
"Since around six last night."
Last night.
My mind shattered into words and images: the alchemical ma.n.u.script, Peter Knox"s threat, my fingers turning blue with electricity, the photograph of my parents, my mother"s hand frozen in a never-ending reach.
"You gave me drugs." I pushed against the duvet, trying to work my hands free. "I don"t like taking drugs, Matthew."
"Next time you go into shock, I"ll let you suffer needlessly." He gave a single twitch to the bed covering that was more effective than all my previous wrestling with it.
Matthew"s sharp tone shook the shards of memory, and new images rose to the surface. Gillian Chamberlain"s twisted face warned me about keeping secrets, and the piece of paper commanded me to remember. For a few moments, I was seven again, trying to understand how my bright, vital parents could be gone from my life.
In my rooms I reached toward Matthew, while in my mind"s eye my mother"s hand reached for my father across a chalk-inscribed circle. The lingering childhood desolation of their death collided with a new, adult empathy for my mother"s desperate attempt to touch my father. Abruptly pulling from Matthew"s arms, I lifted my knees to my chest in a tight, protective ball.
Matthew wanted to help-I could see that-but he was unsure of me, and the shadow of my own conflicted emotions fell over his face.
Knox"s voice sounded again in my mind, full of poison. Remember who you are Remember who you are.
"Remember?" the note asked. the note asked.
Without warning, I turned back toward the vampire, closing the distance between me and him in a rush. My parents were gone, but Matthew was here. Tucking my head under his chin, I listened for several minutes for the next pump of blood through his system. The leisurely rhythms of his vampire heart soon put me to sleep.
My own heart was pounding when I awoke again in the dark, kicking at the loosened duvet and swimming to a seated position. Behind me, Matthew turned on the lamp, its shade still angled away from the bed.
"What is it?" he asked.
"The magic found me. The witches did, too. I"ll be killed for my magic, like my parents were killed." The words rushed from my mouth, panic speeding their pa.s.sage, and I stumbled to my feet.
"No." Matthew rose and stood between me and the door. "We"re going to face this, Diana, whatever it is. Otherwise you"ll never stop running."
Part of me knew that what he said was true. The rest wanted to flee into the darkness. But how could I, with a vampire standing in the way?
The air began to stir around me as if trying to drive off the feeling of being trapped. Chilly wisps edged up the legs of my trousers. The air crept up my body, lifting the hair around my face in a gentle breeze. Matthew swore and stepped toward me, his arm outstretched. The breeze increased into gusts of wind that ruffled the bedclothes and the curtains.
"It"s all right." His voice was pitched deliberately to be heard above the whirlwind and to calm me at the same time.
But it wasn"t enough.
The force of the wind kept rising, and with it my arms rose, too, shaping the air into a column that enclosed me as protectively as the duvet. On the other side of the disturbance, Matthew stood, one hand still extended, eyes fixed on mine. When I opened my mouth to warn him to stay away, nothing came out but frigid air.
"It"s all right," he said again, not breaking his gaze. "I won"t move."
I hadn"t realized that was the problem until he said the words.
"I promise," he said firmly.
The wind faltered. The cyclone surrounding me became a whirlwind, then a breeze, then disappeared entirely. I gasped and dropped to my knees.
"What is happening to me?" Every day I ran and rowed and did yoga, and my body did what I told it to. Now it was doing unimaginable things. I looked down to make sure my hands weren"t sparkling with electricity and my feet weren"t still being buffeted by winds.
"That was a witchwind," Matthew explained, not moving. "Do you know what that is?"
I"d heard of a witch in Albany who could summon storms, but no one had ever called it a "witchwind."
"Not really," I confessed, still sneaking glances at my hands and feet.
"Some witches have inherited the ability to control the element of air. You"re one of them," he said.
"That wasn"t control."
"It was your first time." Matthew was matter-of-fact. He gestured around the small bedroom: the intact curtains and sheets, all the clothing strewn on the chest of drawers and floor exactly where they"d been left that morning. "We"re both still standing, and the room doesn"t look like a tornado went through it. That"s control-for now."
"But I didn"t ask for it. Do these things just happen to witches-electrical fires and winds they didn"t summon?" I pushed the hair out of my eyes and swayed, exhausted. Too much had happened in the past twenty-four hours. Matthew"s body inclined toward me as if to catch me should I fall.
"Witchwinds and blue fingers are rare these days. There"s magic inside you, Diana, and it wants to get out, whether you ask for it or not."
"I felt trapped."
"I shouldn"t have cornered you last night." Matthew looked ashamed. "Sometimes I don"t know what to do with you. You"re like a perpetual-motion machine. All I wanted was for you to stand still for a moment and listen."
It must be even harder to cope with my incessant need to move if you were a vampire who seldom needed to breathe. Once again the s.p.a.ce between Matthew and me was suddenly too large. I started to rise.
"Am I forgiven?" he asked sincerely. I nodded. "May I?" he asked, gesturing at his feet. I nodded again.
He took three fast steps in the time it took me to stand up. My body pitched into him just as it had in the Bodleian the first night I saw him, standing aristocratic and serene in Duke Humfrey"s Reading Room. This time, however, I didn"t pull away so quickly. Instead I rested against him willingly, his skin soothingly cool rather than frightening and cold.
We stood silent for a few moments, holding each other. My heart quieted, and his arms remained loose, although his shuddering breath suggested that this was not easy.
"I"m sorry, too." My body softened into him, his sweater scratchy on my cheek. "I"ll try to keep my energy under control."
"There"s nothing to be sorry about. And you shouldn"t try so hard to be something you"re not. Would you drink tea if I made you some?" he asked, his lips moving against the top of my head.
Outside, the night was unalleviated by any hint of sunrise. "What time is it now?"
Matthew"s hand swiveled between my shoulder blades so that he could see the face of his watch. "Just after three."
I groaned. "I"m so tired, but tea sounds wonderful."
"I"ll make it, then." He gently loosened my arms from around his waist. "Be right back."
Not wanting to let him out of my sight, I drifted along. He rummaged through the tins and bags of available teas.
"I told you I liked tea," I said apologetically as he found yet another brown bag in the cupboard, tucked behind a coffee press I seldom used.
"Do you have a preference?" He gestured at the crowded shelf.
"The one in the black bag with the gold label, please." Green tea seemed the most soothing option.
He busied himself with the kettle and pot. He poured hot water over the fragrant leaves and thrust a chipped old mug in my direction once it was ready. The aromas of green tea, vanilla, and citrus were so very different from Matthew, but comforting nevertheless.
He made himself a mug, too, his nostrils flaring in appreciation. "That actually doesn"t smell too bad," he acknowledged, taking a small sip. It was the only time I"d seen him drink anything other than wine.
"Where shall we sit?" I asked, cradling the warm mug in my hands.
Matthew inclined his head toward the living room. "In there. We need to talk."
He sat in one corner of the comfortable old sofa, and I arranged myself opposite. The steam from the tea rose around my face, a gentle reminder of the witchwind.
"I need to understand why Knox thinks you"ve broken the spell on Ashmole 782," Matthew said when we were settled.
I replayed the conversation in the warden"s rooms. "He said that spells become volatile around the anniversaries of their casting. Other witches-ones who know witchcraft-have tried to break it, and they"ve failed. He figured I was just in the right place at the right time."
"A talented witch bound Ashmole 782, and I suspect this spell is nearly impossible to break. No one who"s tried to get the ma.n.u.script before met its conditions, no matter how much witchcraft they knew or what time of year they tried." He stared into the depths of his tea. "You did. The question is how, and why."
"The idea that I could fulfill the conditions of a spell cast before I was born is harder to believe than that it was just an anniversary aberration. And if I fulfilled the conditions once, why not again?" Matthew opened his mouth, and I shook my head. "No, it"s not because of you."
"Knox knows witchcraft, and spells are complicated. I suppose it"s possible that time pulls them out of shape every now and again." He looked unconvinced.