"I never expected anything else," said Miss Fowler; "but I"m sorry it happened before he had done anything."
The room was whirling round Mary Postgate, but she found herself quite steady in the midst of it.
"Yes," she said. "It"s a great pity he didn"t die in action after he had killed somebody."
"He was killed instantly. That"s one comfort," Miss Fowler went on.
"But Wynn says the shock of a fall kills a man at once--whatever happens to the tanks," quoted Mary.
The room was coming to rest now. She heard Miss Fowler say impatiently, "But why can"t we cry, Mary?" and herself replying, "There"s nothing to cry for. He has done his duty as much as Mrs. Grant"s son did."
"And when he died, _she_ came and cried all the morning," said Miss Fowler. "This only makes me feel tired--terribly tired. Will you help me to bed, please, Mary?--And I think I"d like the hot-water bottle."
So Mary helped her and sat beside, talking of Wynn in his riotous youth.
"I believe," said Miss Fowler suddenly, "that old people and young people slip from under a stroke like this. The middle-aged feel it most."
"I expect that"s true," said Mary, rising. "I"m going to put away the things in his room now. Shall we wear mourning?"
"Certainly not," said Miss Fowler. "Except, of course, at the funeral. I can"t go. You will. I want you to arrange about his being buried here.
What a blessing it didn"t happen at Salisbury!"
Every one, from the Authorities of the Flying Corps to the Rector, was most kind and sympathetic. Mary found herself for the moment in a world where bodies were in the habit of being despatched by all sorts of conveyances to all sorts of places. And at the funeral two young men in b.u.t.toned-up uniforms stood beside the grave and spoke to her afterwards.
"You"re Miss Postgate, aren"t you?" said one. "Fowler told me about you.
He was a good chap--a first-cla.s.s fellow--a great loss."
"Great loss!" growled his companion. "We"re all awfully sorry."
"How high did he fall from?" Mary whispered.
"Pretty nearly four thousand feet, I should think, didn"t he? You were up that day, Monkey?"
"All of that," the other child replied. "My bar made three thousand, and I wasn"t as high as him by a lot."
"Then _that"s_ all right," said Mary. "Thank you very much."
They moved away as Mrs. Grant flung herself weeping on Mary"s flat chest, under the lych-gate, and cried, "_I_ know how it feels! _I_ know how it feels!"
"But both his parents are dead," Mary returned, as she fended her off.
"Perhaps they"ve all met by now," she added vaguely as she escaped towards the coach.
"I"ve thought of that too," wailed Mrs. Grant; "but then he"ll be practically a stranger to them. Quite embarra.s.sing!"
Mary faithfully reported every detail of the ceremony to Miss Fowler, who, when she described Mrs. Grant"s outburst, laughed aloud.
"Oh, how Wynn would have enjoyed it! He was always utterly unreliable at funerals. D"you remember--" And they talked of him again, each piecing out the other"s gaps. "And now," said Miss Fowler, "we"ll pull up the blinds and we"ll have a general tidy. That always does us good. Have you seen to Wynn"s things?"
"Everything--since he first came," said Mary. "He was never destructive--even with his toys."
They faced that neat room.
"It can"t be natural not to cry," Mary said at last. "I"m _so_ afraid you"ll have a reaction."
"As I told you, we old people slip from under the stroke. It"s you I"m afraid for. Have you cried yet?"
"I can"t. It only makes me angry with the Germans."
"That"s sheer waste of vitality," said Miss Fowler. "We must live till the war"s finished." She opened a full wardrobe. "Now, I"ve been thinking things over. This is my plan. All his civilian clothes can be given away--Belgian refugees, and so on."
Mary nodded. "Boots, collars, and gloves?"
"Yes. We don"t need to keep anything except his cap and belt."
"They came back yesterday with his Flying Corps clothes"--Mary pointed to a roll on the little iron bed.
"Ah, but keep his Service things. Some one may be glad of them later. Do you remember his sizes?"
"Five feet eight and a half; thirty-six inches round the chest. But he told me he"s just put on an inch and a half. I"ll mark it on a label and tie it on his sleeping-bag."
"So that disposes of _that_," said Miss Fowler, tapping the palm of one hand with the ringed third finger of the other. "What waste it all is!
We"ll get his old school trunk to-morrow and pack his civilian clothes."
"And the rest?" said Mary. "His books and pictures and the games and the toys--and--and the rest?"
"My plan is to burn every single thing," said Miss Fowler. "Then we shall know where they are and no one can handle them afterwards. What do you think?"
"I think that would be much the best," said Mary. "But there"s such a lot of them."
"We"ll burn them in the destructor," said Miss Fowler.
This was an open-air furnace for the consumption of refuse; a little circular four-foot tower of pierced brick over an iron grating. Miss Fowler had noticed the design in a gardening journal years ago, and had had it built at the bottom of the garden. It suited her tidy soul, for it saved unsightly rubbish-heaps, and the ashes lightened the stiff clay soil.
Mary considered for a moment, saw her way clear, and nodded again. They spent the evening putting away well-remembered civilian suits, underclothes that Mary had marked, and the regiments of very gaudy socks and ties. A second trunk was needed, and, after that, a little packing-case, and it was late next day when Cheape and the local carrier lifted them to the cart. The Rector luckily knew of a friend"s son, about five feet eight and a half inches high, to whom a complete Flying Corps outfit would be most acceptable, and sent his gardener"s son down with a barrow to take delivery of it. The cap was hung up in Miss Fowler"s bedroom, the belt in Miss Postgate"s; for, as Miss Fowler said, they had no desire to make tea-party talk of them.
"That disposes of _that_," said Miss Fowler. "I"ll leave the rest to you, Mary. I can"t run up and down the garden. You"d better take the big clothes-basket and get Nellie to help you."
"I shall take the wheel-barrow and do it myself," said Mary, and for once in her life closed her mouth.
Miss Fowler, in moments of irritation, had called Mary deadly methodical. She put on her oldest waterproof and gardening-hat and her ever-slipping goloshes, for the weather was on the edge of more rain.
She gathered fire-lighters from the kitchen, a half-scuttle of coals, and a f.a.ggot of brushwood. These she wheeled in the barrow down the mossed paths to the dank little laurel shrubbery where the destructor stood under the drip of three oaks. She climbed the wire fence into the Rector"s glebe just behind, and from his tenant"s rick pulled two large armfuls of good hay, which she spread neatly on the fire-bars. Next, journey by journey, pa.s.sing Miss Fowler"s white face at the morning-room window each time, she brought down in the towel-covered clothes-basket, on the wheel-barrow, thumbed and used Hentys, Marryats, Levers, Stevensons, Baroness Orczys, Garvices, schoolbooks, and atlases, unrelated piles of the _Motor Cyclist_, the _Light Car_, and catalogues of Olympia Exhibitions; the remnants of a fleet of sailing-ships from ninepenny cutters to a three-guinea yacht; a prep.-school dressing-gown; bats from three-and-sixpence to twenty-four shillings; cricket and tennis b.a.l.l.s; disintegrated steam and clockwork locomotives with their twisted rails; a grey and red tin model of a submarine; a dumb gramophone and cracked records; golf-clubs that had to be broken across the knee, like his walking-sticks, and an a.s.segai; photographs of private and public school cricket and football elevens, and his O.T.C.
on the line of march; kodaks, and film-rolls; some pewters, and one real silver cup, for boxing compet.i.tions and Junior Hurdles; sheaves of school photographs; Miss Fowler"s photograph; her own which he had borne off in fun and (good care she took not to ask!) had never returned; a playbox with a secret drawer; a load of flannels, belts, and jerseys, and a pair of spiked shoes unearthed in the attic; a packet of all the letters that Miss Fowler and she had ever written to him, kept for some absurd reason through all these years; a five-day attempt at a diary; framed pictures of racing motors in full Brooklands career, and load upon load of undistinguishable wreckage of tool-boxes, rabbit-hutches, electric batteries, tin soldiers, fret-saw outfits, and jig-saw puzzles.
Miss Fowler at the window watched her come and go, and said to herself, "Mary"s an old woman. I never realised it before."
After lunch she recommended her to rest.
"I"m not in the least tired," said Mary. "I"ve got it all arranged. I"m going to the village at two o"clock for some paraffin. Nellie hasn"t enough, and the walk will do me good."