Everywhere I went during that brief visit home I was struck by change, by the crumbling and decay of inst.i.tutions that once had held me in thrall, by the superimposition of a new order that as yet had a.s.sumed no definite character. Some of the old landmarks had disappeared; there were new and aggressive office buildings, new and aggressive residences, new and aggressive citizens who lived in them, and of whom my mother spoke with gentle deprecation. Even Claremore, that paradise of my childhood, had grown shrivelled and shabby, even tawdry, I thought, when we went out there one Sunday afternoon; all that once represented the magic word "country" had vanished. The old flat piano, made in Philadelphia ages ago, the horsehair chairs and sofa had been replaced by a nondescript furniture of the sort displayed behind plate-gla.s.s windows of the city"s stores: rocking-chairs on stands, upholstered in clashing colours, their coiled springs only half hidden by ta.s.sels, and "ornamental" electric fixtures, instead of the polished coal-oil lamps.
Cousin Jenny had grown white, Willie was a staid bachelor, Helen an old maid, while Mary had married a tall, anaemic young man with gla.s.ses, Walter Kinley, whom Cousin Robert had taken into the store. As I contemplated the Brecks odd questions suggested themselves: did honesty and warm-heartedness necessarily accompany a lack of artistic taste?
and was virtue its own reward, after all? They drew my mother into the house, took off her wraps, set her down in the most comfortable rocker, and insisted on making her a cup of tea.
I was touched. I loved them still, and yet I was conscious of reservations concerning them. They, too, seemed a little on the defensive with me, and once in a while Mary was caustic in her remarks.
"I guess nothing but New York will be good enough for Hugh now. He"ll be taking Cousin Sarah away from us."
"Not at all, my dear," said my mother, gently, "he"s going into Mr.
Watling"s office next autumn."
"Theodore Watling?" demanded Cousin Robert, pausing in his carving.
"Yes, Robert. Mr. Watling has been good enough to say that he would like to have Hugh. Is there anything--?"
"Oh, I"m out of date, Sarah," Cousin Robert replied, vigorously severing the leg of the turkey. "These modern lawyers are too smart for me.
Watling"s no worse than the others, I suppose,--only he"s got more ability."
"I"ve never heard anything against him," said my mother in a pained voice. "Only the other day McAlery Willett congratulated me that Hugh was going to be with him."
"You mustn"t mind Robert, Sarah," put in Cousin Jenny,--a remark reminiscent of other days.
"Dad has a notion that his generation is the only honest one," said Helen, laughingly, as she pa.s.sed a plate.
I had gained a sense of superiority, and I was quite indifferent to Cousin Robert"s opinion of Mr. Watling, of modern lawyers in general.
More than once a wave of self-congratulation surged through me that I had possessed the foresight and initiative to get out of the wholesale grocery business while there was yet time. I looked at Willie, still freckled, still literal, still a plodder, at Walter Kinley, and I thought of the drabness of their lives; at Cousin Robert himself as he sat smoking his cigar in the bay-window on that dark February day, and suddenly I pitied him. The suspicion struck me that he had not prospered of late, and this deepened to a conviction as he talked.
"The Republican Party is going to the dogs," he a.s.serted.
"It used to be an honourable party, but now it is no better than the other. Politics are only conducted, now, for the purpose of making unscrupulous men rich, sir. For years I furnished this city with good groceries, if I do say it myself. I took a pride in the fact that the inmates of the hospitals, yes, and the dependent poor in the city"s inst.i.tutions, should have honest food. You can get anything out of the city if you are willing to pay the politicians for it. I lost my city contracts. Why? Because I refused to deal with scoundrels. Weill and Company and other unscrupulous upstarts are willing to do so, and poison the poor and the sick with adulterated groceries! The first thing I knew was that the city auditor was holding back my bills for supplies, and paying Weill"s. That"s what politics and business, yes, sir, and the law, have come to in these days. If a man wants to succeed, he must turn into a rascal."
I was not shocked, but I was silent, uncomfortable, wishing that it were time to take the train back to the city. Cousin Robert"s face was more worn than I had thought, and I contrasted him inevitably with the forceful person who used to stand, in his worn alpaca coat, on the pavement in front of his store, greeting with clear-eyed content his fellow merchants of the city. Willie Breck, too, was silent, and Walter Kinley took off his gla.s.ses and wiped them. In the meanwhile Helen had left the group in which my mother sat, and, approaching us, laid her hands on her father"s shoulders.
"Now, dad," she said, in affectionate remonstrance, "you"re excited about politics again, and you know it isn"t good for you. And besides, they"re not worth it."
"You"re right, Helen," he replied. Under the pressure of her hands he made a strong effort to control himself, and turned to address my mother across the room.
"I"m getting to be a crotchety old man," he said. "It"s a good thing I have a daughter to remind me of it."
"It is a good thing, Robert," said my mother.
During the rest of our visit he seemed to have recovered something of his former spirits and poise, taking refuge in the past. They talked of their own youth, of families whose houses had been landmarks on the Second Bank.
"I"m worried about your Cousin Robert, Hugh," my mother confided to me, when we were at length seated in the train. "I"ve heard rumours that things are not so well at the store as they might be." We looked out at the winter landscape, so different from that one which had thrilled every fibre of my being in the days when the railroad on which we travelled had been a winding narrow gauge. The orchards--those that remained--were bare; stubble p.r.i.c.ked the frozen ground where ta.s.sels had once waved in the hot, summer wind. We flew by row after row of ginger-bread, suburban houses built on "villa plots," and I read in large letters on a hideous sign-board, "Woodbine Park."
"Hugh, have you ever heard anything against--Mr. Watling?"
"No, mother," I said. "So far as I knew, he is very much looked up to by lawyers and business men. He is counsel, I believe, for Mr. Blackwood"s street car line on Boyne Street. And I told you, I believe, that I met him once at Mr. Kyme"s."
"Poor Robert!" she sighed. "I suppose business trouble does make one bitter,--I"ve seen it so often. But I never imagined that it would overtake Robert, and at his time of life! It is an old and respected firm, and we have always had a pride in it."...
That night, when I was going to bed, it was evident that the subject was still in her mind. She clung to my hand a moment.
"I, too, am afraid of the new, Hugh," she said, a little tremulously.
"We all grow so, as age comes on."
"But you are not old, mother," I protested.
"I have a feeling, since your father has gone, that I have lived my life, my dear, though I"d like to stay long enough to see you happily married--to have grandchildren. I was not young when you were born." And she added, after a little while, "I know nothing about business affairs, and now--now that your father is no longer here, sometimes I"m afraid--"
"Afraid of what, mother?"
She tried to smile at me through her tears. We were in the old sitting-room, surrounded by the books.
"I know it"s foolish, and it isn"t that I don"t trust you. I know that the son of your father couldn"t do anything that was not honourable. And yet I am afraid of what the world is becoming. The city is growing so fast, and so many new people are coming in. Things are not the same.
Robert is right, there. And I have heard your father say the same thing.
Hugh, promise me that you will try to remember always what he was, and what he would wish you to be!"
"I will, mother," I answered. "But I think you would find that Cousin Robert exaggerates a little, makes things seem worse than they really are. Customs change, you know. And politics were never well--Sunday schools." I, too, smiled a little. "Father knew that. And he would never take an active part in them."
"He was too fine!" she exclaimed.
"And now," I continued, "Cousin Robert has happened to come in contact with them through business. That is what has made the difference in him.
Before, he always knew they were corrupt, but he rarely thought about them."
"Hugh," she said suddenly, after a pause, "you must remember one thing,--that you can afford to be independent. I thank G.o.d that your father has provided for that!"
I was duly admitted, the next autumn, to the bar of my own state, and was a.s.signed to a desk in the offices of Watling, Fowndes and Ripon.
Larry Weed was my immediate senior among the apprentices, and Larry was a hero-worshipper. I can see him now. He suggested a bullfrog as he sat in the little room we shared in common, his arms akimbo over a law book, his little legs doubled under him, his round, eyes fixed expectantly on the doorway. And even if I had not been aware of my good fortune in being connected with such a firm as Theodore Watling"s, Larry would shortly have brought it home to me. During those weeks when I was making my first desperate attempts at briefing up the law I was sometimes interrupted by his exclamations when certain figures went by in the corridor.
"Say, Hugh, do you know who that was?"
"No."
"Miller Gorse."
"Who"s he?"
"Do you mean to say you never heard of Miller Gorse?"
"I"ve been away a long time," I would answer apologetically. A person of some importance among my contemporaries at Harvard, I had looked forward to a residence in my native city with the complacency of one who has seen something of the world,--only to find that I was the least in the new kingdom. And it was a kingdom. Larry opened up to me something of the significance and extent of it, something of the ident.i.ty of the men who controlled it.
"Miller Gorse," he said impressively, "is the counsel for the railroad."
"What railroad? You mean the--" I was adding, when he interrupted me pityingly.
"After you"ve been here a while you"ll find out there"s only one railroad in this state, so far as politics are concerned. The Ashuela and Northern, the Lake Sh.o.r.e and the others don"t count."
I refrained from asking any more questions at that time, but afterwards I always thought of the Railroad as spelled with a capital.