"She is dead," answered Florida, with stony quiet.
They were both silent for a time. Then Ferris said, "I had a great affection for your mother."
"Yes," said the girl, "she was fond of you, too. But you never wrote or sent her any word; it used to grieve her."
Her unjust reproach went to his heart, so long preoccupied with its own troubles; he recalled with a tender remorse the old Venetian days and the kindliness of the gracious, silly woman who had seemed to like him so much; he remembered the charm of her perfect ladylikeness, and of her winning, weak-headed desire to make every one happy to whom she spoke; the beauty of the good-will, the hospitable soul that in an imaginably better world than this will outvalue a merely intellectual or aesthetic life. He humbled himself before her memory, and as keenly reproached himself as if he could have made her hear from him at any time during the past two years. He could only say, "I am sorry that I gave your mother pain; I loved her very truly. I hope that she did not suffer much before"--
"No," said Florida, "it was a peaceful end; but finally it was very sudden. She had not been well for many years, with that sort of decline; I used sometimes to feel troubled about her before we came to Venice; but I was very young. I never was really alarmed till that day I went to you."
"I remember," said Ferris contritely.
"She had fainted, and I thought we ought to see a doctor; but afterwards, because I thought that I ought not to do so without speaking to her, I did not go to the doctor; and that day we made up our minds to get home as soon as we could; and she seemed so much better, for a while; and then, everything seemed to happen at once. When we did start home, she could not go any farther than Switzerland, and in the fall we went back to Italy. We went to Sorrento, where the climate seemed to do her good. But she was growing frailer, the whole time. She died in March. I found some old friends of hers in Naples, and came home with them."
The girl hesitated a little over the words, which she nevertheless uttered unbroken, while the tears fell quietly down her face. She seemed to have forgotten the angry words that had pa.s.sed between her and Ferris, to remember him only as one who had known her mother, while she went on to relate some little facts in the history of her mother"s last days; and she rose into a higher, serener atmosphere, inaccessible to his resentment or his regret, as she spoke of her loss. The simple tale of sickness and death inexpressibly belittled his pa.s.sionate woes, and made them look theatrical to him. He hung his head as they turned at her motion and walked away from the picture of Don Ippolito, and down the stairs toward the street-door; the people before the other Venetian picture had apparently yielded to their craving for lunch, and had vanished.
"I have very little to tell you of my own life," Ferris began awkwardly.
"I came home soon after you started, and I went to Providence to find you, but you had not got back."
Florida stopped him and looked perplexedly into his face, and then moved on.
"Then I went into the army. I wrote once to you."
"I never got your letter," she said.
They were now in the lower hall, and near the door.
"Florida," said Ferris, abruptly, "I"m poor and disabled; I"ve no more right than any sick beggar in the street to say it to you; but I loved you, I must always love you. I--Good-by!"
She halted him again, and "You said," she grieved, "that you doubted me; you said that I had made your life a"--
"Yes, I said that; I know it," answered Ferris.
"You thought I could be such a false and cruel girl as that!"
"Yes, yes: I thought it all, G.o.d help me!"
"When I was only sorry for him, when it was you that I"--
"Oh, I know it," answered Ferris in a heartsick, hopeless voice. "He knew it, too. He told me so the day before he died."
"And didn"t you believe him?"
Ferris could not answer.
"Do you believe him now?"
"I believe anything you tell me. When I look at you, I can"t believe I ever doubted you."
"Why?"
"Because--because--I love you."
"Oh! That"s no reason."
"I know it; but I"m used to being without a reason."
Florida looked gravely at his penitent face, and a brave red color mantled her own, while she advanced an unanswerable argument: "Then what are you going away for?"
The world seemed to melt and float away from between them. It returned and solidified at the sound of the janitor"s steps as he came towards them on his round through the empty building. Ferris caught her hand; she leaned heavily upon his arm as they walked out into the street. It was all they could do at the moment except to look into each other"s faces, and walk swiftly on.
At last, after how long a time he did not know, Ferris cried: "Where are we going, Florida?"
"Why, I don"t know!" she replied. "I"m stopping with those friends of ours at the Fifth Avenue Hotel. We _were_ going on to Providence to-morrow. We landed yesterday; and we stayed to do some shopping"--
"And may I ask why you happened to give your first moments in America to the fine arts?"
"The fine arts? Oh! I thought I might find something of yours, there!"
At the hotel she presented him to her party as a friend whom her mother and she had known in Italy; and then went to lay aside her hat. The Providence people received him with the easy, half-southern warmth of manner which seems to have floated northward as far as their city on the Gulf Stream bathing the Rhode Island sh.o.r.es. The matron of the party had, before Florida came back, an outline history of their acquaintance, which she evolved from him with so much tact that he was not conscious of parting with information; and she divined indefinitely more when she saw them together again. She was charming; but to Ferris"s thinking she had a fault, she kept him too much from Florida, though she talked of nothing else, and at the last she was discreetly merciful.
"Do you think," whispered Florida, very close against his face, when they parted, "that I"ll have a bad temper?"
"I hope you will--or I shall be killed with kindness," he replied.
She stood a moment, nervously b.u.t.toning his coat across his breast. "You mustn"t let that picture be sold, Henry," she said, and by this touch alone did she express any sense, if she had it, of his want of feeling in proposing to sell it. He winced, and she added with a soft pity in her voice, "He did bring us together, after all. I wish you had believed him, dear!"
"So do I," said Ferris, most humbly.
People are never equal to the romance of their youth in after life, except by fits, and Ferris especially could not keep himself at what he called the operatic pitch of their brief betrothal and the early days of their marriage. With his help, or even his encouragement, his wife might have been able to maintain it. She had a gift for idealizing him, at least, and as his hurt healed but slowly, and it was a good while before he could paint with his wounded arm, it was an easy matter for her to believe in the meanwhile that he would have been the greatest painter of his time, but for his honorable disability; to hear her, you would suppose no one else had ever been shot in the service of his country.
It was fortunate for Ferris, since he could not work, that she had money; in exalted moments he had thought this a barrier to their marriage; yet he could not recall any one who had refused the hand of a beautiful girl because of the accident of her wealth, and in the end he silenced his scruples. It might be said that in many other ways he was not her equal; but one ought to reflect how very few men are worthy of their wives in any sense. After his fashion he certainly loved her always,--even when she tried him most, for it must be owned that she really had that hot temper which he had dreaded in her from the first.
Not that her imperiousness directly affected him. For a long time after their marriage, she seemed to have no other desire than to lose her outwearied will in his. There was something a little pathetic in this; there was a kind of bewilderment in her gentleness, as though the relaxed tension of her long self-devotion to her mother left her without a full motive; she apparently found it impossible to give herself with a satisfactory degree of abandon to a man who could do so many things for himself. When her children came they filled this vacancy, and afforded her scope for the greatest excesses of self-devotion. Ferris laughed to find her protecting them and serving them with the same tigerish tenderness, the same haughty humility, as that with which she used to care for poor Mrs. Vervain; and he perceived that this was merely the direction away from herself of that intense arrogance of nature which, but for her power and need of loving, would have made her intolerable.
What she chiefly exacted from them in return for her fierce devotedness was the truth in everything; she was content that they should be rather less fond of her than of their father, whom indeed they found much more amusing.
The Ferrises went to Europe some years after their marriage, revisiting Venice, but sojourning for the most part in Florence. Ferris had once imagined that the tragedy which had given him his wife would always invest her with the shadow of its sadness, but in this he was mistaken.
There is nothing has really so strong a digestion as love, and this is very lucky, seeing what manifold experiences love has to swallow and a.s.similate; and when they got back to Venice, Ferris found that the customs of their joint life exorcised all the dark a.s.sociations of the place. These simply formed a sombre background, against which their wedded happiness relieved itself. They talked much of the past, with free minds, unashamed and unafraid. If it is a little shocking, it is nevertheless true, and true to human nature, that they spoke of Don Ippolito as if he were a part of their love.
Ferris had never ceased to wonder at what he called the unfathomable innocence of his wife, and he liked to go over all the points of their former life in Venice, and bring home to himself the utter simplicity of her girlish ideas, motives, and designs, which both confounded and delighted him.
"It"s amazing, Florida," he would say, "it"s perfectly amazing that you should have been willing to undertake the job of importing into America that poor fellow with his whole stock of helplessness, dreamery, and unpracticality. What _were_ you about?"
"Why, I"ve often told you, Henry. I thought he oughtn"t to continue a priest."
"Yes, yes; I know." Then he would remain lost in thought, softly whistling to himself. On one of these occasions he asked, "Do you think he was really very much troubled by his false position?"
"I can"t tell, now. He seemed to be so."