"Oh, I almost forgot--there _is_ something I want, and--and after all, you"re right. I want--I want--won"t you--will you--I say, Billy Little, won"t you let me have a sheet of writing paper and a pot of ink, and won"t you cut this pen for me?"
Billy took the quill and turned to go behind the counter. The girl was dancing nervously on her toes. "But say, Billy Little, I can"t pay you for them now. Will--will--you trust me?"
Billy did not reply, but went to the letter-paper box.
"You had better take more than one sheet, Rita," he said softly. "If you"re going to write a love-letter to Dic, you will be sure to spoil the first sheet, perhaps the second and third."
Billy"s head blushed vividly after he had spoken, for his remark was a prying one. The girl had no thought of writing a love-letter, and she resented the insinuation. She was annoyed because she had betrayed her purpose in buying the paper. But she loved Billy Little too dearly to show her resentment, and remained silent. The girl, Billy, and Dic differing as much as it is possible for three persons to differ, save in their common love for books and truth, had been friends ever since her babyhood, and Billy was the only person to whom she could easily lay bare her heart. Upon second thought she concluded to tell him her trouble.
"It was this way, Billy Little," she began, and after stumbling over many words, she made a good start, and the little story of her troubles fell from her lips like crystal water from a babbling spring.
After her story was finished--and she found great relief in the telling--Billy said:--
"Of course I"ll trust you. I"d trust you for the whole store if you wanted to buy it. I"d trust you with my soul," he added after a pause.
"There"s not a false drop of blood in your veins."
"Ah, Billy Little," she answered, as she took his hand caressingly for an instant, and her eyes, with their wonderful capacity for expression, said the rest.
"So, you see, I _do_ want to write a letter to Dic," she said, dropping his hand; "but it is not to be a love-letter. I could not write one if I wished. I was very wicked. Oh, Billy Little, I honestly think, at times, I"m the worst girl that ever lived. Something terrible will happen to me for my wickedness, I"m sure. Mother says it will."
"Yes, something terrible--terrible, I"m sure," returned Billy, musingly.
"And I want to apologize to him," she continued, "and tell him I didn"t mean it. Isn"t it right that I should?"
"Oh, yes--yes," answered Billy, starting out of his revery. "Of course, yes--Maxwelton"s braes are bonny--um--um--um--um--um--yes, oh yes."
When vexed, pleased, or puzzled, Billy was apt to hum the opening line of "Annie Laurie," though the first four words were all that received the honor of distinct articulation. The remainder of the stanza he allowed to die away under his breath. Rita was of course familiar with the habit, but this time she could not tell which motive had prompted the musical outburst. Billy himself couldn"t have told, but perhaps the bachelor heart was at the bottom of it.
"Thank you, Billy Little, for the paper," said Rita. "I"ll pay you with the first money I get." Billy silently helped her to mount her horse.
She smiled, "Good-by," and he walked slowly back to the store muttering to himself: "Billy Little, Billy Little, your breastworks are weak, and you are a--Maxwelton"s braes--um--um--um--um.--Ah, good evening, Mrs.
Carson. Something I can do for you this evening? Sugar? Ah, yes, plenty.
Best in town. Best shipment I ever had," and Billy was once more a merchant.
When Rita reached home supper was ready, and after the supper work was finished it was too dark to write; so the letter was postponed a day, and she took her place on the porch, hoping that Dic would come and that the letter might be postponed indefinitely. But he did not come. Next morning churning had again become loathsome, sweeping was hard work, and dinner was a barbarous inst.i.tution. Rita had no appet.i.te, and to sympathize with those who are hungry one must be hungry.
Innumerable very long minutes had woven themselves into mammoth hours when Rita, having no table in her room, found herself lying on the floor writing her momentous letter. It was not to be a love-letter; simply an appeal for forgiveness to a friend whom she had wantonly injured.
"Dear old Billy Little," she said to herself, when she opened the package. "What pretty paper--and he has given me six sheets in place of one--and a little pot of ink--and a sand-box! I wonder if the quill is a good one! Ah, two--three quills! Dear old Billy Little! Here is enough paper to last me for years." In that respect she was mistaken. She experienced difficulty with effort number one, but finished the letter and read it aloud; found it wholly unsatisfactory, and destroyed it. She used greater care with the next, but upon reading it over she found she had said too much of what she wished to leave unsaid, and too little of what she wanted to say. She destroyed number two with great haste and some irritation, for it was almost a love-letter. The same fate befell numbers three, four, and five. After all, Billy"s liberal supply of paper would not last for years. If it proved sufficient for one day, she would be satisfied. Number six, right or wrong, must go to Dic, so she wrote simply and briefly what was in her heart.
"DEAR FRIEND DIC: My words were not intended for you. I was angry with Tom, as I had good reason to be, though he spoke the truth. I did put on my ribbon because I saw you coming, and I have cried every night since then because of what I said to you, and because you do not come to let me tell you how sorry I am. You should have given me a chance. I would have given you one. RITA."
It was a sweet, straightforward letter, half-womanly, half-childish, and she had no cause to be ashamed of it; but she feared it was bold, and tears came to her eyes when she read it, because there were no more sheets of paper, and modest or bold it must go to Dic.
Having written the letter, she had no means of sending it; but she had entered upon the venture, and was determined to carry it through. Mrs.
Bays and her husband had driven to town, and there was no need for _ex post facto_ resolutions. When the letter had been properly directed and duly sealed, the girl saddled her horse and started away on another journey to Sukey Yates. This time, however, she went somewhat out of her way, riding up the river path through the forest to Dic Bright"s home.
When she reached the barnyard gate Dic was. .h.i.tching the horses to the "big wagon." He came at Rita"s call, overjoyed at the sight of her. He knew she had come to ask forgiveness. For many months past he had tried not to see that she was unkind to him, but her words on the porch had convinced him, and he saw that her coldness had been intentional. Of course he did not know the cause of her altered demeanor, and had regretfully put it down to an altered sentiment on her part. But when he saw her at the barnyard gate, he was again in the dark as to her motive.
When Dic came up to her she handed him the letter over the gate, saying: "Read it alone. Let no one see it."
Dic had only time to say, "Thank you," when the girl struck her horse and galloped down the forest path, bound for Sukey. When she had pa.s.sed out of sight among the trees, Dic went down the river to a secluded spot, known as "The Stepoff," where he could read the letter without fear of detection. He had long suspected that his love for the girl was not altogether brotherly, and his recent trouble with her had crystallized that suspicion into certainty. But he saw nothing back of the letter but friendship and contrition. The girl"s love was so great a treasure that he dared not even hope for it, and was more than satisfied with the Platonic affection so plainly set forth in her epistle. We who have looked into Rita"s heart know of a thing or two that does not resemble Platonism; but the girl herself did not fully know what she felt, and Dic was sure she could not, under any circ.u.mstances, feel as he did. His mistake grew partly out of his lack of knowledge that woman"s flesh and blood is of exactly the same quality that covers the bones and flows in the veins of man, and--well, Rita was Rita, and, in Dic"s opinion, no other human being was ever of the quality of her flesh, or cast in the mould of her nature. The letter told him that he still held her warm, tender love as a friend. He was thankful for that, and would neither ask nor expect anything more.
If upon Rita"s former visit to Sukey she had been too sad to enjoy the vivacious little maiden, upon this occasion she was too happy. She sat listening patiently to her chat, without hearing much of it, until Sukey said:--
"Dic was over to see me last night. I think he"s so handsome, don"t you?"
Rita was so startled that she did not think anything at the moment, and Sukey presently asked:--
"Don"t you think he has a fine head? and his eyes are glorious. The gray is so dark, and they look right at you."
Rita, compelled to answer, said, "I think he is--is all right--strong."
"Indeed, he is strong," responded Sukey. "When he takes hold of you, you just feel like he could crush you. Oh, it"s delicious--it"s thrilling--when you feel that a man could just tear you to pieces if he wanted to."
"Why?" asked Rita; "I don"t understand."
"Oh, just because," replied Sukey, shrugging her shoulders and laughing softly, her red lips parted, her little teeth glistening like wet ivory, and the dimples twinkling mischievously.
"Just because" explained nothing to Rita, but something in Sukey"s laughter and manner aroused undefined and disagreeable suspicions, so she said:--
"Well, Sukey, I must be going home."
"Why, you just came," returned Sukey, still laughing softly. She had shot her arrow intentionally and had seen it strike the target"s centre.
Sukey was younger than Rita, but she knew many times a thing or two; while poor Rita"s knowledge of those mystic numbers was represented by the figure O.
Why should Dic "take hold" of any one, thought Rita, while riding home, and above all, why should he take hold of Sukey? Sukey was pretty, and Sukey"s prettiness and Dic"s "taking hold" seemed to be related in some mysterious manner. She who saw others through the clear lens of her own conscience did not doubt Dic and Sukey, but notwithstanding her trustfulness, a dim suspicion pa.s.sed through her mind that something might be wrong if Dic had really "taken hold" of Sukey. Where the evil was, she could not determine; and to connect the straightforward, manly fellow with anything dishonorable or wicked was impossible to her. So she dismissed the subject, and it left no trace upon her mind save a slight irritation against Sukey.
Rita felt sure that Dic would come to see Tom that evening, and the red ribbon was in evidence soon after supper. Dic did come, and there was at least one happy girl on Blue.
THE SYCAMORE DIVAN
CHAPTER III
THE SYCAMORE DIVAN
A virgin love in the heart of a young girl is like an effervescent chemical: it may withstand a great shock, but a single drop of an apparently harmless liquid may cause it to evaporate. This risk Dic took when he went that evening to see Tom; and the fact that Rita had written her letter, of which she had such grave misgivings, together with the words of Sukey Yates, made his risk doubly great. Poor Dic needed a thorough knowledge of chemistry. He did not know that he possessed it, but he was a pure-minded, manly man, and the knowledge was innate with him.
"Good evening, Rita," said Dic, when, after many efforts, she came out upon the porch where he was sitting with her father, her mother, and Tom.
"Good morning," answered Rita, confusedly, and her mistake as to the time of day added to her confusion.
"Good morning!" cried Tom. "It"s evening. My! but she"s confused because you"re here, Dic."
Tom was possessed of a simian acuteness that had led him to discover poor Rita"s secret before she herself was fully aware of its existence.
She, however, was rapidly making the interesting discovery, and feared that between the ribbon, the letter, and Tom"s amiable jokes, Dic would discover it and presume upon the fact. From the mingling of these doubts and fears grew a feeling of resentment against Dic--a conviction before the fact. She wished him to know her regard for him, but she did not want him to learn it from any act of hers. She desired him to wrest it from her by main force, and as little awkwardness as a man may use. Had Dic by the smallest word or act shown a disposition to profit by what Rita feared had been excessive frankness in her letter, or had he, in any degree, a.s.sumed the att.i.tude of a confident lover, such word or act would have furnished the needful chemical drop, and Dic"s interests would have suffered. His safety at this time lay in ignorance. He did not suspect that Rita loved him, and there was no change in his open friendly demeanor. He was so easy, frank, and happy that evening that the girl soon began to feel that nothing unusual had happened, and that, after all, the letter was not bold, but perfectly right, and quite proper in all respects. Unconsciously to her Dic received the credit for her eased conscience, and she was grateful to him. She was more comfortable, and the evening seemed more like old times than for many months before.