Valerie was drawing her dark brows together, as though her clue had indeed escaped her. Imogen"s mind slipped from link to link of the trivial, yet significant, matter with an ease and certainty of purpose that was like the movement of her own sleek needle, drawing loop after loop of wool into a pattern; but what Imogen"s pattern was she could hardly tell. She abandoned the wish to make clear her own interpretation, looking up presently with a faint smile. "I"m sorry, dear. I meant nothing of all that, I a.s.sure you.
And as to "Jack," it was only that I did not care to seem to justify myself before him--at your expense it might seem."
"Oh, mama dear!" Imogen laughed out. "You thought me so wrong, then, that you were afraid of harming his devotion to me by letting him see how very wrong it was! Jack"s devotion is very clear-sighted. It"s a devotion that, if it saw wrongs in me, would only ask to show them to me, too, and to stand shoulder to shoulder with me in fighting them."
"He must be a remarkable young man," said Valerie, quite without irony.
"He is like most _real_ people in this country, mama," said Imogen, on a graver note. "We have, I think, evolved a new standard of devotion. We don"t want to have dexterous mamas throwing powder in the eyes of the men who care for us and sacrificing their very conception of right on the altar of false maternal duty. The duty we owe to any one _is_ our truth. There is no higher duty than that. Had I been as ungenerous, as unkind, as you, I"m afraid, imagined me this evening, it would still have been your duty, to him, to me, to bring the truth fearlessly to the light. I would have been amused, hadn"t I been so hurt, to see you, as you fancied, shielding me!
Please never forget, dear, in the future, that Jack and I are truth-lovers."
Looking slightly bewildered by this cascade of smooth fluency, Valerie, still with her deepened color, here murmured that she, too, cared for the truth, but the current bore her on. "I don"t think you _see_ it, mama, else you could hardly have hurt me so."
"Did I hurt you so?"
"Why, mama, don"t you imagine that I am made of flesh and blood? It was dreadful to me, your leaving me like that, with the situation on my hands."
Valerie, after another little silence, now repeated, "I"m sorry, dear,"
and, as if accepting contrition, Imogen stooped and kissed her tenderly.
IX
Mary"s visit took place about six weeks later, when Jack Pennington was again in New York, and Mrs. Wake, returned from Europe, had been for some time established in her little flat not very far away in Washington Square.
The retrenchments in the Upton household had taken place and Mary found her friend putting her shoulder to the wheel with melancholy courage. The keeping up of old beneficences meant redoubled labor and, as she said to Mary, with the smile that Mary found so wonderful: "It seems to me now that whenever I put my hand out to help, it gets caught and pinched." Mary, helper and admirer, said to Jack that the way in which Imogen had gathered up her threads, allowing hardly one to snap, was too beautiful. These young people, like the minor characters in a play, met often in the drawing-room while Imogen was busy up-stairs or gone out upon some important errand.
Just now, Miss Boc.o.c.k"s lectures having been set going, the organization of a performance to be given for the crippled children"s country home was engaging all her time. Tableaux from the Greek drama had been fixed on, the Pottses were full of eagerness, and Jack had been pressed into service as stage-manager. The distribution of roles, the grouping of the pictures, the dressing and the scenery were in his hands.
"It"s really extraordinary, the way in which, amidst her grief, she goes through all this business, all this organization, getting people together for her committee, securing the theater," said Mary. "Isn"t it too bad that she can"t be in the tableaux herself? She would have been the loveliest of all."
Jack, rather weary, after an encounter with a band of dissatisfied performers in the library, said: "One could have put one"s heart into making an Antigone of her; that"s what I wanted--the filial Antigone, leading Oedipus through the olive groves of Colonus. It"s bitter, instead of that, to have to rig Mrs. Scott out as Ca.s.sandra; will you believe it, Mary, she insists on being Ca.s.sandra--with that figure, that nose! And she has fixed her heart on the scene where Ca.s.sandra stands in the car outside the house of Agamemnon. She fancies that she is a tragic, ominous type."
"She has nice arms, you know," said the kindly Mary.
"Don"t I know!" said Jack. "Well, it"s through them that I shall circ.u.mvent her. Her arms shall be fully displayed and her face turned away from the audience."
"Jack, dear, you mustn"t be spiteful," Mary shook her head a little at him.
"I"ve thought that I felt just a touch of--of, well--flippancy in you once or twice lately. You mustn"t deceive poor Mrs. Scott. It"s that that is so wonderful about Imogen. I really believe that she could make her give up the part, if she set herself to it; she might even tell her that her nose was too snub for it--and she would not wound her. It"s extraordinary her power over people. They feel, I think, the tenderness, the disinterestedness, that lies beneath the truth."
"I suppose there"s no hope of persuading her to be Antigone?"
"Don"t suggest it again, Jack. The idea hurt her so."
"I won"t. I understand. When is Rose coming?"
"In a day or two. She is to spend the rest of the winter with the Langleys.
What do you think of for her?"
"Helen appearing between the soldiers, before Hecuba and Menelaus. I only wish that Imogen had more influence over Rose. Your theory about her power doesn"t hold good there."
"Ah, even there, I don"t give up hope. Rose doesn"t really know Imogen. And then Rose is a child in many ways, a dear, but a spoiled, child."
"What do you think of Mrs. Upton, now that you see something of her?" Jack asked abruptly.
"She is very sweet and kind, Jack. She is working so hard for all of us.
She is going to make my robe. She is addressing envelopes now--and you know how dull that is. I am sure I used to misjudge her. But, she is very queer, Jack."
"Queer? In what way queer?" Jack asked, placing himself on the sofa, his legs stretched out before him, his hands in his pockets.
"I hardly know how to express it. She is so light, yet so deep; and I can"t make out why or where she is deep; it"s there that the queerness comes in.
I feel it in her smile, the way she looks at you; I believe I feel it more than she does. She doesn"t know she"s deep."
"Not really found herself yet, you think?" Jack questioned; the phrase was one often in use between these young people.
Mary mused. "Somehow that doesn"t apply to her--I don"t believe she"ll ever look for herself."
"You think it"s you she finds," Jack suggested; voicing a dim suspicion that had come to him once or twice of late.
"What do you mean, exactly, Jack?"
"I"m sure I don"t know," he laughed a little. "So you like her?" he questioned.
"I think I do; against my judgment, against my will, as it were. But that doesn"t imply that one approves of her."
"Why not?"
"Why, Jack, you know the way _you_ felt about it, the day you and I and Rose talked it over."
"But we hadn"t seen her then. What I want to know is just what _you_ feel, now that you have seen her."
Mary had another conscientious pause. "How can one approve of her while Imogen is there?" she said at last.
"You mean that Imogen makes one remember everything?"
"Yes. And Imogen is everything she isn"t."
"So that, by contrast, she loses."
"Yes, and do you know, Jack," Mary lowered her voice while she glanced up at Mrs. Upton"s portrait, "I can hardly believe that she has suffered, really suffered, about him, at all. She is so unlike a widow."
"I suppose she felt herself a widow long ago."
"She had no right to feel it, Jack. His death should cast a deeper shadow on her."
As Jack, shamefully, could see Mr. Upton as shadow removed, he only said, after a slight pause: "Perhaps that"s another of the things she doesn"t obviously show--suffering, I mean."
"I"m afraid that she"s incapable of feeling any conviction of sin," said Mary, "and that wise, old-fashioned phrase expresses just what I mean as to a lack in her. On the other hand, in a warmhearted, pagan sort of way, she is, I"m quite sure, one of the kindest of people. Her maid, when she went back to England the other day, cried dreadfully at leaving her, and Mrs.
Upton cried too. I happened to find them together just before Felkin went.