"Emmeline, you begged me to come, and here I am, Heaven forgive me!" said the man hoa.r.s.ely.
"You are going to emigrate, Alwyn," she said in broken accents. "I have heard of it; you sail from Plymouth in three days in the _Western Glory_?"
"Yes. I can live in England no longer. Life is as death to me here,"
says he.
"My life is even worse--worse than death. Death would not have driven me to this extremity. Listen, Alwyn--I have sent for you to beg to go with you, or at least to be near you--to do anything so that it be not to stay here."
"To go away with me?" he said in a startled tone.
"Yes, yes--or under your direction, or by your help in some way! Don"t be horrified at me--you must bear with me whilst I implore it. Nothing short of cruelty would have driven me to this. I could have borne my doom in silence had I been left unmolested; but he tortures me, and I shall soon be in the grave if I cannot escape."
To his shocked inquiry how her husband tortured her, the d.u.c.h.ess said that it was by jealousy. "He tries to wring admissions from me concerning you," she said, "and will not believe that I have not communicated with you since my engagement to him was settled by my father, and I was forced to agree to it."
The poor curate said that this was the heaviest news of all. "He has not personally ill-used you?" he asked.
"Yes," she whispered.
"What has he done?"
She looked fearfully around, and said, sobbing: "In trying to make me confess to what I have never done, he adopts plans I dare not describe for terrifying me into a weak state, so that I may own to anything! I resolved to write to you, as I had no other friend." She added, with dreary irony, "I thought I would give him some ground for his suspicion, so as not to disgrace his judgment."
"Do you really mean, Emmeline," he tremblingly inquired, "that you--that you want to fly with me?"
"Can you think that I would act otherwise than in earnest at such a time as this?"
He was silent for a minute or more. "You must not go with me," he said.
"Why?"
"It would be sin."
"It _cannot_ be sin, for I have never wanted to commit sin in my life; and it isn"t likely I would begin now, when I pray every day to die and be sent to Heaven out of my misery!"
"But it is wrong, Emmeline, all the same."
"Is it wrong to run away from the fire that scorches you?"
"It would look wrong, at any rate, in this case."
"Alwyn, Alwyn, take me, I beseech you!" she burst out. "It is not right in general, I know, but it is such an exceptional instance, this. Why has such a severe strain been put upon me? I was doing no harm, injuring no one, helping many people, and expecting happiness; yet trouble came.
Can it be that G.o.d holds me in derision? I had no supporter--I gave way; and now my life is a burden and a shame to me . . . Oh, if you only knew how much to me this request to you is--how my life is wrapped up in it, you could not deny me!"
"This is almost beyond endurance--Heaven support us," he groaned. "Emmy, you are the d.u.c.h.ess of Hamptonshire, the Duke of Hamptonshire"s wife; you must not go with me!"
"And am I then refused?--Oh, am I refused?" she cried frantically.
"Alwyn, Alwyn, do you say it indeed to me?"
"Yes, I do, dear, tender heart! I do most sadly say it. You must not go. Forgive me, for there is no alternative but refusal. Though I die, though you die, we must not fly together. It is forbidden in G.o.d"s law.
Good-bye, for always and ever!"
He tore himself away, hastened from the shrubbery, and vanished among the trees.
Three days after this meeting and farewell, Alwyn, his soft, handsome features stamped with a haggard hardness that ten years of ordinary wear and tear in the world could scarcely have produced, sailed from Plymouth on a drizzling morning, in the pa.s.senger-ship _Western Glory_. When the land had faded behind him he mechanically endeavoured to school himself into a stoical frame of mind. His attempt, backed up by the strong moral staying power that had enabled him to resist the pa.s.sionate temptation to which Emmeline, in her reckless trustfulness, had exposed him, was rewarded by a certain kind of success, though the murmuring stretch of waters whereon he gazed day after day too often seemed to be articulating to him in tones of her well-remembered voice.
He framed on his journey rules of conduct for reducing to mild proportions the feverish regrets which would occasionally arise and agitate him, when he indulged in visions of what might have been had he not hearkened to the whispers of conscience. He fixed his thoughts for so many hours a day on philosophical pa.s.sages in the volumes he had brought with him, allowing himself now and then a few minutes" thought of Emmeline, with the strict yet reluctant n.i.g.g.ardliness of an ailing epicure proportioning the rank drinks that cause his malady. The voyage was marked by the usual incidents of a sailing-pa.s.sage in those days--a storm, a calm, a man overboard, a birth, and a funeral--the latter sad event being one in which he, as the only clergyman on board, officiated, reading the service ordained for the purpose. The ship duly arrived at Boston early in the month following, and thence he proceeded to Providence to seek out a distant relative.
After a short stay at Providence he returned again to Boston, and by applying himself to a serious occupation made good progress in shaking off the dreary melancholy which enveloped him even now. Distracted and weakened in his beliefs by his recent experiences, he decided that he could not for a time worthily fill the office of a minister of religion, and applied for the mastership of a school. Some introductions, given him before starting, were useful now, and he soon became known as a respectable scholar and gentleman to the trustees of one of the colleges.
This ultimately led to his retirement from the school and installation in the college as Professor of rhetoric and oratory.
Here and thus he lived on, exerting himself solely because of a conscientious determination to do his duty. He pa.s.sed his winter evenings in turning sonnets and elegies, often giving his thoughts voice in "Lines to an Unfortunate Lady," while his summer leisure at the same hour would be spent in watching the lengthening shadows from his window, and fancifully comparing them with the shades of his own life. If he walked, he mentally inquired which was the eastern quarter of the landscape, and thought of two thousand miles of water that way, and of what was beyond it. In a word he was at all spare times dreaming of her who was only a memory to him, and would probably never be more.
Nine years pa.s.sed by, and under their wear and tear Alwyn Hill"s face lost a great many of the attractive characteristics which had formerly distinguished it. He was kind to his pupils and affable to all who came in contact with him; but the kernel of his life, his secret, was kept as snugly shut up as though he had been dumb. In talking to his acquaintances of England and his life there, he omitted the episode of Batton Castle and Emmeline as if it had no existence in his calendar at all. Though of towering importance to himself, it had filled but a short and small fragment of time, an ephemeral season which would have been wellnigh imperceptible, even to him, at this distance, but for the incident it enshrined.
One day, at this date, when cursorily glancing over an old English newspaper, he observed a paragraph which, short as it was, contained for him whole tomes of thrilling information--rung with more pa.s.sion-stirring rhythm than the collected cantos of all the poets. It was an announcement of the death of the Duke of Hamptonshire, leaving behind him a widow, but no children.
The current of Alwyn"s thoughts now completely changed. On looking again at the newspaper he found it to be one that was sent him long ago, and had been carelessly thrown aside. But for an accidental overhauling of the waste journals in his study he might not have known of the event for years. At this moment of reading the Duke had already been dead seven months. Alwyn could now no longer bind himself down to machine-made synecdoche, ant.i.thesis, and climax, being full of spontaneous specimens of all these rhetorical forms, which he dared not utter. Who shall wonder that his mind luxuriated in dreams of a sweet possibility now laid open for the first time these many years? for Emmeline was to him now as ever the one dear thing in all the world. The issue of his silent romancing was that he resolved to return to her at the very earliest moment.
But he could not abandon his professional work on the instant. He did not get really quite free from engagements till four months later; but, though suffering throes of impatience continually, he said to himself every day: "If she has continued to love me nine years she will love me ten; she will think the more tenderly of me when her present hours of solitude shall have done their proper work; old times will revive with the cessation of her recent experience, and every day will favour my return."
The enforced interval soon pa.s.sed, and he duly arrived in England, reaching the village of Batton on a certain winter day between twelve and thirteen months subsequent to the time of the Duke"s death.
It was evening; yet such was Alwyn"s impatience that he could not forbear taking, this very night, one look at the castle which Emmeline had entered as unhappy mistress ten years before. He threaded the park trees, gazed in pa.s.sing at well-known outlines which rose against the dim sky, and was soon interested in observing that lively country-people, in parties of two and three, were walking before and behind him up the interlaced avenue to the castle gateway. Knowing himself to be safe from recognition, Alwyn inquired of one of these pedestrians what was going on.
"Her Grace gives her tenantry a ball to-night, to keep up the old custom of the Duke and his father before him, which she does not wish to change."
"Indeed. Has she lived here entirely alone since the Duke"s death?"
"Quite alone. But though she doesn"t receive company herself, she likes the village people to enjoy themselves, and often has "em here."
"Kind-hearted, as always!" thought Alwyn.
On reaching the castle he found that the great gates at the tradesmen"s entrance were thrown back against the wall as if they were never to be closed again; that the pa.s.sages and rooms in that wing were brilliantly lighted up, some of the numerous candles guttering down over the green leaves which decorated them, and upon the silk dresses of the happy farmers" wives as they pa.s.sed beneath, each on her husband"s arm. Alwyn found no difficulty in marching in along with the rest, the castle being Liberty Hall to-night. He stood un.o.bserved in a corner of the large apartment where dancing was about to begin.
"Her Grace, though hardly out of mourning, will be sure to come down and lead off the dance with neighbour Bates," said one.
"Who is neighbour Bates?" asked Alwyn.
"An old man she respects much--the oldest of her tenant-farmers. He was seventy-eight his last birthday."
"Ah, to be sure!" said Alwyn, at his ease. "I remember."
The dancers formed in line, and waited. A door opened at the farther end of the hall, and a lady in black silk came forth. She bowed, smiled, and proceeded to the top of the dance.
"Who is that lady?" said Alwyn, in a puzzled tone. "I thought you told me that the d.u.c.h.ess of Hamptonshire--"
"That is the d.u.c.h.ess," said his informant.
"But there is another?"