Helps obeyed the command to the very letter. By this time his state of mind might have been described as on the rack. For two hours Mr. Paget had been reading that letter. Impossible; no letter would take that time to read. Why had he not rung? Surely he must know what Helps was enduring. Surely at this crisis of his fate--at this crisis of both their fates--he must want to see his faithful servant. Why then did he not ring?
At last in despair Helps knocked at the door of the outer office. There was no answer. He turned the handle, pushed the door ajar and went in.
The room was empty. Mr. Paget"s pile of ordinary business letters lay unopened on his desk. Helps went up to the door of the inner room, and pressed his ear against the keyhole. There was not a stir within. He knocked against a chair, and threw down a book on purpose. If anything living would bring Mr. Paget out it was the idea of anyone entering, or disarranging matters in his office. Helps disarranged matters wildly; he threw down several books, he upset more than one chair; still the master did not appear. At last he knocked at the door of the inner room. There was no response. Then he knocked again, louder. Then he hammered with his fists. Then he shook the door. No response. The inner room might as well have been a grave. He rushed away at last for tools to break open the door. He was terribly frightened, but even now he had sufficient presence of mind not to bring a third person to share his master"s secret. He came back with a pick-lock, a hammer and one or two other implements. He locked the door of the outer office, and then he set boldly to work. He did not care what din he made; he was past all thought of that now. The clerks outside got into a frantic state of excitement; but that fact, had he known it, would have made no difference to Helps.
At last his efforts were crowned with success. The heavy door yielded, and flew open with a bang. Helps fell forward into the room himself. He jumped up hastily. A quiet, orderly, snug room! The picture of a fair and lovely girl looking down from the wall! a man with grey hair stretched on the hearthrug under the picture! a man with no life, nor motion, nor movement. Helps flew to his master. Was he dead? No, the eyes were wide open; they looked at Helps, and one of the hands was stretched out, and clutched at Helps" arm, and pulled it wildly aside.
"What is it, my dear master?" said the man, for there was that in the face which would have melted any heart to pity.
"Don"t! Stand out of my light," said Mr. Paget. "Hold me--steady me--let me get up. He"s there--there by the window!"
"Who, my dear sir? Who?"
"The man I"ve murdered! He"s there. Between me and the light. It"s done. He"s standing between me and the light. Tell him to move away. I have murdered him! I know that. Between me and the light--the _light_!
Tell him to move away--tell him--tell him!"
Mortimer Paget gave a great shriek, and covered his terrified eyes with his trembling hands!
CHAPTER x.x.xVI.
"What is the matter, Lilias? I did not do anything wrong."
The speaker was Augusta Wyndham.
Three years have pa.s.sed away since she last appeared in this story; she is grown up now, somewhat lanky still, with rather fierce dark eyes, and a somewhat thin p.r.o.nounced face. She is the kind of girl who at eighteen is still all angles, but there are possibilities for her, and at five and twenty, if time deals kindly with her, and circ.u.mstances are not too disastrous, she might be rounded, softened, she might have developed into a handsome woman.
"What is it, Lilias?" she said now. "Why do you look at me like that?"
"It is the same old story, Gussie," replied Lilias, whose brown cheeks were paler, and her sweet eyes larger than of old; "you are always wanting in thought. It was thoughtless of you to make Valentine walk home, and with little Gerry, too. She will come in f.a.gged and have a headache. I relied on your seeing to her, Gussie; when I asked you to take the pony chaise I thought of her more than you, and now you"ve come back in it all alone, without even fetching baby."
"Well, Lilias." Augusta paused, drew herself up, leant against the nearest paling, crossed her legs, and in a provokingly petulant voice began to speak.
"With how much more of all that is careless and all that is odious are you going to charge me?" she said. "Oh, of course, "Gussie never can think." Now I"ll tell you what this objectionable young woman Augusta did, and then you can judge for yourself. I drove to Netley Farm, and got the b.u.t.ter and the eggs, and then I went on to see old James Holt, the gardener, for I thought he might have those bulbs we wanted ready.
Then I drew up at the turnstile, and waited for that precious Mrs. Val of yours."
"Don"t," said Lilias. "Remember whose----"
"As if I ever forget--but he--he had others beside her--he never had any Augusta except me," two great tears gathered in the great brown eyes; they were dashed hastily aside, and the speaker went on.
"There"s twice too much made of her, and that"s a fact. You live for her, you"re her slave, Lilias. It"s perfectly ridiculous--it"s absurd.
You have sunk your whole life into hers, and since Marjory"s wedding things have been worse. You simply have no life but in her. He wouldn"t wish it; he hated anyone to be unselfish except himself. Well, then--oh, then, I won"t vex the dear old thing. Have you forgiven me, Lil? I know I"m such a chatter-pate. I hope you have forgiven me."
"Of course I have, Gussie. I"m not angry with you, there"s nothing to be angry about. You are a faulty creature, I admit, but I also declare you to be one of the greatest comforts of my life."
"Well, that"s all right--that"s as it should be. Now for my narrative.
I waited by the turnpike. Valentine and baby were to meet me there. No sign of them. I waited a long time. Then I tied Bob to the gate, and started on discovery bent. You know it is a pretty lane beyond the turnpike, the hedges hid me. I walked along, whistling and shaking my whip. Presently I was a.s.sailed by the tuneful duet of two voices. I climbed the hedge and peeped over. I looked into a field. What did I see? Now, Lilias the wise, guess what I saw?"
"Valentine and our little Gerald," responded Lilias. "She was talking to him; she has a sweet voice, and surely there never was a dearer little pipe than wee Gerry"s. They must have looked pretty sitting on the gra.s.s."
"They looked very pretty--but your picture is not quite correct. For instance, baby was sound asleep."
"Oh, then, she had him in her arms, and was cooing to him. A lovelier scene than ever, Augusta."
"A very lovely scene, Lilias; only, one woman"s voice would not make a duet."
Something in Augusta"s eyes caused Lilias to droop her own. She turned aside to pick a spray of briony.
"Tell me what you saw," she said abruptly.
"I saw Valentine and Adrian Carr. They were sitting close together, and baby was asleep on _his_ breast, not on hers, and he was comforting her, for when I peeped over I saw him touch her hand, and then I saw her raise her handkerchief and wipe away some tears. Crocodile"s tears, I call them. Now, Lilias, out of my way. I mean to vault over this gate."
"What for, dear?"
"To relieve my feelings. Now I"m better. Won"t you have a try?"
"No, thank you, I don"t vault gates."
"Aren"t you going to show anything? Good gracious, I should simply explode if I had to keep in things the way you do. Now, what"s the matter? You look white all the same; whiter than you did ten minutes ago. Oh, if it was me, I couldn"t keep still. I should roar like a wounded lion."
"But I am not a wounded lion, Augusta, dear."
Lilias laid her hand on her sister"s shoulder.
"I am older than you," she continued, "and perhaps quieter. Life has made me quieter. We won"t say anything about what you saw, Augusta.
Perhaps none of us have such a burden to bear as Valentine."
"Now, Lilias, what stuff you talk. Oh, she"s a humbug, and I hate her.
There, I will say it, just for once. She took Gerald away, and now she wants to take Adrian from you. Oh, I know you"re an angel--you"d bear anything, but I"m not quite a fool."
"They are coming; you _must_ hush," said Lilias, putting her hand across her young sister"s lips.
Augusta cast two wrathful eyes behind her, lightly vaulted back over the gate, and vanished from view round the first corner. Lilias opened the gate, and went slowly to meet the group who were coming down the dusty country road.
Valentine was in black, but not in widow"s weeds. She had a shady hat over her cl.u.s.tering bright hair, and round this hat, the baby, little Gerry, had stuck quant.i.ties of leaves and gra.s.ses and what wild flowers his baby fingers could clutch. With one hand she was holding up her long dress; her other held a basket of primroses, and her face, bright now with color in the cheeks, laughter on the lips, and the fire of affection in the eyes, was raised to where her st.u.r.dy little son sat on Carr"s broad shoulder.
The child was a handsome little fellow, cast in a far more masculine mould than his father, to whom he bore scarcely any resemblance.
As Lilias, in her dark grey dress, approached, she looked altogether a more sorrowful and grief-touched figure than the graceful, almost childish young widow who came to meet her.
So Carr thought, as with a softened light in his eyes he glanced at Lilias.
"A certain part of her heart was broken three years ago," he inwardly commented. "Can I--is it in my power--will it ever be in my power to comfort her?"
But Lilias, knowing nothing of these feelings, only noted the happy-looking picture.
"Here we are!" said Carr, catching the boy from his shoulder and letting him jump to the ground. "Run to your auntie now, little man."