"In Paris?" Laura repeated.
"Yes, in Paris, my dear--G.o.d bless her! Where else do you suppose?
Geordie my boy, where should _you_ think your mummy would naturally be?"
"Oh, I don"t know," said Geordie, who had no reply ready that would express affectingly the desolation of the nursery. "If I were mummy I"d travel."
"Well now that"s your mummy"s idea--she has gone to travel," returned the father. "Were you ever in Paris, Miss Steet?"
Miss Steet gave a nervous laugh and said No, but she had been to Boulogne; while to her added confusion Ferdy announced that he knew where Paris was--it was in America. "No, it ain"t--it"s in Scotland!"
cried Geordie; and Laura asked Lionel how he knew--whether his wife had written to him.
"Written to me? when did she ever write to me? No, I saw a fellow in town this morning who saw her there--at breakfast yesterday. He came over last night. That"s how I know my wife"s in Paris. You can"t have better proof than that!"
"I suppose it"s a very pleasant season there," the governess murmured, as if from a sense of duty, in a distant, discomfortable tone.
"I daresay it"s very pleasant indeed--I daresay it"s awfully amusing!"
laughed Mr. Berrington. "Shouldn"t you like to run over with me for a few days, Laura--just to have a go at the theatres? I don"t see why we should always be moping at home. We"ll take Miss Steet and the children and give mummy a pleasant surprise. Now who do you suppose she was with, in Paris--who do you suppose she was seen with?"
Laura had turned pale, she looked at him hard, imploringly, in the eyes: there was a name she was terribly afraid he would mention. "Oh sir, in that case we had better go and get ready!" Miss Steet quavered, betwixt a laugh and a groan, in a spasm of discretion; and before Laura knew it she had gathered Geordie and Ferdy together and swept them out of the room. The door closed behind her with a very quick softness and Lionel remained a moment staring at it.
"I say, what does she mean?--ain"t that d.a.m.ned impertinent?" he stammered. "What did she think I was going to say? Does she suppose I would say any harm before--before _her_? Dash it, does she suppose I would give away my wife to the servants?" Then he added, "And I wouldn"t say any harm before you, Laura. You are too good and too nice and I like you too much!"
"Won"t you come downstairs? won"t you have some tea?" the girl asked, uneasily.
"No, no, I want to stay here--I like this place," he replied, very gently and reasoningly. "It"s a deuced nice place--it"s an awfully jolly room. It used to be this way--always--when I was a little chap. I was a rough one, my dear; I wasn"t a pretty little lamb like that pair. I think it"s because you look after them--that"s what makes "em so sweet.
The one in my time--what was her name? I think it was Bald or Bold--I rather think she found me a handful. I used to kick her shins--I was decidedly vicious. And do _you_ see it"s kept so well, Laura?" he went on, looking round him. ""Pon my soul, it"s the prettiest room in the house. What does she want to go to Paris for when she has got such a charming house? Now can you answer me that, Laura?"
"I suppose she has gone to get some clothes: her dressmaker lives in Paris, you know."
"Dressmaker? Clothes? Why, she has got whole rooms full of them. Hasn"t she got whole rooms full of them?"
"Speaking of clothes I must go and change mine," said Laura. "I have been out in the rain--I have been to Plash--I"m decidedly damp."
"Oh, you have been to Plash? You have seen my mother? I hope she"s in very good health." But before the girl could reply to this he went on: "Now, I want you to guess who she"s in Paris with. Motcomb saw them together--at that place, what"s his name? close to the Madeleine." And as Laura was silent, not wishing at all to guess, he continued--"It"s the ruin of any woman, you know; I can"t think what she has got in her head." Still Laura said nothing, and as he had hold of her arm, she having turned away, she led him this time out of the room. She had a horror of the name, the name that was in her mind and that was apparently on his lips, though his tone was so singular, so contemplative. "My dear girl, she"s with Lady Ringrose--what do you say to that?" he exclaimed, as they pa.s.sed along the corridor to the staircase.
"With Lady Ringrose?"
"They went over on Tuesday--they are knocking about there alone."
"I don"t know Lady Ringrose," Laura said, infinitely relieved that the name was not the one she had feared. Lionel leaned on her arm as they went downstairs.
"I rather hope not--I promise you she has never put her foot in this house! If Selina expects to bring her here I should like half an hour"s notice; yes, half an hour would do. She might as well be seen with----"
And Lionel Berrington checked himself. "She has had at least fifty----"
And again he stopped short. "You must pull me up, you know, if I say anything you don"t like!"
"I don"t understand you--let me alone, please!" the girl broke out, disengaging herself with an effort from his arm. She hurried down the rest of the steps and left him there looking after her, and as she went she heard him give an irrelevant laugh.
IV
She determined not to go to dinner--she wished for that day not to meet him again. He would drink more--he would be worse--she didn"t know what he might say. Besides she was too angry--not with him but with Selina--and in addition to being angry she was sick. She knew who Lady Ringrose was; she knew so many things to-day that when she was younger--and only a little--she had not expected ever to know. Her eyes had been opened very wide in England and certainly they had been opened to Lady Ringrose. She had heard what she had done and perhaps a good deal more, and it was not very different from what she had heard of other women. She knew Selina had been to her house; she had an impression that her ladyship had been to Selina"s, in London, though she herself had not seen her there. But she had not known they were so intimate as that--that Selina would rush over to Paris with her. What they had gone to Paris for was not necessarily criminal; there were a hundred reasons, familiar to ladies who were fond of change, of movement, of the theatres and of new bonnets; but nevertheless it was the fact of this little excursion quite as much as the companion that excited Laura"s disgust.
She was not ready to say that the companion was any worse, though Lionel appeared to think so, than twenty other women who were her sister"s intimates and whom she herself had seen in London, in Grosvenor Place, and even under the motherly old beeches at Mellows. But she thought it unpleasant and base in Selina to go abroad that way, like a commercial traveller, capriciously, clandestinely, without giving notice, when she had left her to understand that she was simply spending three or four days in town. It was bad taste and bad form, it was _cabotin_ and had the mark of Selina"s complete, irremediable frivolity--the worst accusation (Laura tried to cling to that opinion) that she laid herself open to. Of course frivolity that was never ashamed of itself was like a neglected cold--you could die of it morally as well as of anything else. Laura knew this and it was why she was inexpressibly vexed with her sister. She hoped she should get a letter from Selina the next morning (Mrs. Berrington would show at least that remnant of propriety) which would give her a chance to despatch her an answer that was already writing itself in her brain. It scarcely diminished Laura"s eagerness for such an opportunity that she had a vision of Selina"s showing her letter, laughing, across the table, at the place near the Madeleine, to Lady Ringrose (who would be painted--Selina herself, to do her justice, was not yet) while the French waiters, in white ap.r.o.ns, contemplated _ces dames_. It was new work for our young lady to judge of these shades--the gradations, the probabilities of license, and of the side of the line on which, or rather how far on the wrong side, Lady Ringrose was situated.
A quarter of an hour before dinner Lionel sent word to her room that she was to sit down without him--he had a headache and wouldn"t appear.
This was an unexpected grace and it simplified the position for Laura; so that, smoothing her ruffles, she betook herself to the table. Before doing this however she went back to the schoolroom and told Miss Steet she must contribute her company. She took the governess (the little boys were in bed) downstairs with her and made her sit opposite, thinking she would be a safeguard if Lionel were to change his mind. Miss Steet was more frightened than herself--she was a very shrinking bulwark. The dinner was dull and the conversation rare; the governess ate three olives and looked at the figures on the spoons. Laura had more than ever her sense of impending calamity; a draught of misfortune seemed to blow through the house; it chilled her feet under her chair. The letter she had in her head went out like a flame in the wind and her only thought now was to telegraph to Selina the first thing in the morning, in quite different words. She scarcely spoke to Miss Steet and there was very little the governess could say to her: she had already related her history so often. After dinner she carried her companion into the drawing-room, by the arm, and they sat down to the piano together. They played duets for an hour, mechanically, violently; Laura had no idea what the music was--she only knew that their playing was execrable. In spite of this--"That"s a very nice thing, that last," she heard a vague voice say, behind her, at the end; and she became aware that her brother-in-law had joined them again.
Miss Steet was pusillanimous--she retreated on the spot, though Lionel had already forgotten that he was angry at the scandalous way she had carried off the children from the schoolroom. Laura would have gone too if Lionel had not told her that he had something very particular to say to her. That made her want to go more, but she had to listen to him when he expressed the hope that she hadn"t taken offence at anything he had said before. He didn"t strike her as tipsy now; he had slept it off or got rid of it and she saw no traces of his headache. He was still conspicuously cheerful, as if he had got some good news and were very much encouraged. She knew the news he had got and she might have thought, in view of his manner, that it could not really have seemed to him so bad as he had pretended to think it. It was not the first time however that she had seen him pleased that he had a case against his wife, and she was to learn on this occasion how extreme a satisfaction he could take in his wrongs. She would not sit down again; she only lingered by the fire, pretending to warm her feet, and he walked to and fro in the long room, where the lamp-light to-night was limited, stepping on certain figures of the carpet as if his triumph were alloyed with hesitation.
"I never know how to talk to you--you are so beastly clever," he said.
"I can"t treat you like a little girl in a pinafore--and yet of course you are only a young lady. You"re so deuced good--that makes it worse,"
he went on, stopping in front of her with his hands in his pockets and the air he himself had of being a good-natured but dissipated boy; with his small stature, his smooth, fat, suffused face, his round, watery, light-coloured eyes and his hair growing in curious infantile rings. He had lost one of his front teeth and always wore a stiff white scarf, with a pin representing some symbol of the turf or the chase. "I don"t see why _she_ couldn"t have been a little more like you. If I could have had a shot at you first!"
"I don"t care for any compliments at my sister"s expense," Laura said, with some majesty.
"Oh I say, Laura, don"t put on so many frills, as Selina says. You know what your sister is as well as I do!" They stood looking at each other a moment and he appeared to see something in her face which led him to add--"You know, at any rate, how little we hit it off."
"I know you don"t love each other--it"s too dreadful."
"Love each other? she hates me as she"d hate a hump on her back. She"d do me any devilish turn she could. There isn"t a feeling of loathing that she doesn"t have for me! She"d like to stamp on me and hear me crack, like a black beetle, and she never opens her mouth but she insults me." Lionel Berrington delivered himself of these a.s.sertions without violence, without pa.s.sion or the sting of a new discovery; there was a familiar gaiety in his trivial little tone and he had the air of being so sure of what he said that he did not need to exaggerate in order to prove enough.
"Oh, Lionel!" the girl murmured, turning pale. "Is that the particular thing you wished to say to me?"
"And you can"t say it"s my fault--you won"t pretend to do that, will you?" he went on. "Ain"t I quiet, ain"t I kind, don"t I go steady?
Haven"t I given her every blessed thing she has ever asked for?"
"You haven"t given her an example!" Laura replied, with spirit. "You don"t care for anything in the wide world but to amuse yourself, from the beginning of the year to the end. No more does she--and perhaps it"s even worse in a woman. You are both as selfish as you can live, with nothing in your head or your heart but your vulgar pleasure, incapable of a concession, incapable of a sacrifice!" She at least spoke with pa.s.sion; something that had been pent up in her soul broke out and it gave her relief, almost a momentary joy.
It made Lionel Berrington stare; he coloured, but after a moment he threw back his head with laughter. "Don"t you call me kind when I stand here and take all that? If I"m so keen for my pleasure what pleasure do _you_ give me? Look at the way I take it, Laura. You ought to do me justice. Haven"t I sacrificed my home? and what more can a man do?"
"I don"t think you care any more for your home than Selina does. And it"s so sacred and so beautiful, G.o.d forgive you! You are all blind and senseless and heartless and I don"t know what poison is in your veins.
There is a curse on you and there will be a judgment!" the girl went on, glowing like a young prophetess.
"What do you want me to do? Do you want me to stay at home and read the Bible?" her companion demanded with an effect of profanity, confronted with her deep seriousness.
"It wouldn"t do you any harm, once in a while."
"There will be a judgment on _her_--that"s very sure, and I know where it will be delivered," said Lionel Berrington, indulging in a visible approach to a wink. "Have I done the half to her she has done to me? I won"t say the half but the hundredth part? Answer me truly, my dear!"
"I don"t know what she has done to you," said Laura, impatiently.
"That"s exactly what I want to tell you. But it"s difficult. I"ll bet you five pounds she"s doing it now!"
"You are too unable to make yourself respected," the girl remarked, not shrinking now from the enjoyment of an advantage--that of feeling herself superior and taking her opportunity.