It sounded cold blooded, but it was not. To men who have lived at the front everything comes to be taken as a matter of course. Men can get used to anything--this war has proved that again, if there was need of proving it. And I came to understand that, and to listen to things I heard with different ears. But those are things no one can tell you of; you must have been at the front yourself to understand all that goes on there, both in action and in the minds of men.
We obeyed Captain G.o.dfrey readily enough, as you can guess. And so I was alone as I walked toward Vimy Ridge. It looked just like a lumpy excrescence on the landscape; at hame we would not even think of it as a foothill. But as I neared it, and as I rememered all it stood for, I thought that in the atlas of history it would loom higher than the highest peak of the great Himalaya range.
Beyond the ridge, beyond the actual line of the trenches, miles away, indeed, were the German batteries from which the sh.e.l.ls we heard and saw as they burst were coming. I was glad of my helmet, and of the cool a.s.surance of Captain G.o.dfrey. I felt that we were as safe, in his hands, as men could be in such a spot.
It was not more than a mile we had to cover, but it was rough going, bad going. Here war had had its grim way without interruption. The face of the earth had been cut to pieces. Its surface had been smashed to a pulpy ma.s.s. The ground had been plowed, over and over, by a rain of sh.e.l.ls--German and British. What a planting there had been that spring, and what a plowing! A harvest of death it had been that had been sown--and the reaper had not waited for summer to come, and the Harvest moon. He had pa.s.sed that way with his scythe, and where we pa.s.sed now he had taken his terrible, his horrid, toll.
At the foot of the ridge I saw men fighting for the first time-- actually fighting, seeking to hurt an enemy. It was a Canadian battery we saw, and it was firing, steadily and methodically, at the Huns. Up to now I had seen only the vast industrial side of war, its business and its labor. Now I was, for the first time, in touch with actual fighting. I saw the guns belching death and destruction, destined for men miles away. It was high angle fire, of course, directed by observers in the air.
But even that seemed part of the sheer, factory-like industry of war.
There was no pa.s.sion, no coming to grips in hot blood, here. Orders were given by the battery commander and the other officers as the foreman in a machine shop might give them. And the busy artillerymen worked like laborers, too, clearing their guns after a salvo, loading them, bringing up fresh supplies of ammunition. It was all methodical, all a matter of routine.
"Good artillery work is like that," said Captain G.o.dfrey, when I spoke to him about it. "It"s a science. It"s all a matter of the higher mathematics. Everything is worked out to half a dozen places of decimals. We"ve eliminated chance and guesswork just as far as possible from modern artillery actions."
But there was something about it all that was disappointing, at first sight. It let you down a bit. Only the guns themselves kept up the tradition. Only they were acting as they should, and showing a proper pa.s.sion and excitement. I could hear them growling ominously, like dogs locked in their kennel when they would be loose and about, and hunting. And then they would spit, angrily. They inflamed my imagination, did those guns; they satisfied me and my old-fashioned conception of war and fighting, more than anything else that I had seen had done. And it seemed to me that after they had spit out their deadly charge they wiped their muzzles with red tongues of flame, satisfied beyond all words or measure with what they had done.
We were rising now, as we walked, and getting a better view of the country that lay beyond. And so I came to understand a little better the value of a height even so low and insignificant as Vimy Ridge in that flat country. While the Germans held it they could overlook all our positions, and all the advantage of natural placing had been to them. Now, thanks to the Canadians, it was our turn, and we were looking down.
Weel, I was under fire. There was no doubt about it. There was a droning over us now, like the noise bees make, or many flies in a small room on a hot summer"s day. That was the drone of the German sh.e.l.ls. There was a little freshening of the artillery activity on both sides, Captain G.o.dfrey said, as if in my honor. When one side increased its fire the other always answered--played copy cat. There was no telling, ye ken, when such an increase of fire might not be the first sign of an attack. And neither side took more chances than it must.
I had known, before I left Britain, that I would come under fire. And I had wondered what it would be like: I had expected to be afraid, nervous. Brave men had told me, one after another, that every man is afraid when he first comes under fire. And so I had wondered how I would be, and I had expected to be badly scared and extremely nervous. Now I could hear that constant droning of sh.e.l.ls, and, in the distance, I could see, very often, powdery squirts of smoke and dirt along the ground, where our sh.e.l.ls were striking, so that I knew I had the Hun lines in sight.
And I can truthfully say that, that day, at least, I felt no great fear or nervousness. Later I did, as I shall tell you, but that day one overpowering emotion mastered every other. It was a desire for vengeance! You were the Huns--the men who had killed my boy. They were almost within my reach. And as I looked at them there in their lines a savage desire possessed me, almost overwhelmed me, indeed, that made me want to rush to those guns and turn them to my own mad purpose of vengeance.
It was all I could do, I tell you, to restrain myself--to check that wild, almost ungovernable impulse to rush to the guns and grapple with them myself--myself fire them at the men who had killed my boy.
I wanted to fight! I wanted to fight with my two hands--to tear and rend, and have the consciousness that I flash back, like a telegraph message from my satiated hands to my eager brain that was spurring me on.
But that was not to be. I knew it, and I grew calmer, presently. The roughness of the going helped me to do that, for it took all a man"s wits and faculties to grope his way along the path we were following now. Indeed, it was no path at all that led us to the Pimple--the topmost point of Vimy Ridge, which changed hands half a dozen times in the few minutes of b.l.o.o.d.y fighting that had gone on here during the great attack.
The ground was absolutely riddled with sh.e.l.l holes here. There must have been a mine of metal underneath us. What path there was zigzagged around. It had been worn to such smoothness as it possessed since the battle, and it evaded the worst craters by going around them. My madness was pa.s.sed now, and a great sadness had taken its place. For here, where I was walking, men had stumbled up with bullets and sh.e.l.ls raining about them. At every step I trod ground that must have been the last resting-place of some Canadian soldier, who had died that I might climb this ridge in a safety so immeasurably greater than his had been.
If it was hard for us to make this climb, if we stumbled as we walked, what had it been for them? Our breath came hard and fast--how had it been with them? Yet they had done it! They had stormed the ridge the Huns had proudly called impregnable. They had taken, in a swift rush, that nothing could stay, a position the Kaiser"s generals had a.s.sured him would never be lost--could never be reached by mortal troops.
The Pimple, for which we were heading now, was an observation post at that time. There there was a detachment of soldiers, for it was an important post, covering much of the Hun territory beyond. A major of infantry was in command; his headquarters were a large hole in the ground, dug for him by a German sh.e.l.l--fired by German gunners who had no thought further from their minds than to do a favor for a British officer. And he was sitting calmly in front of his headquarters, smoking a pipe, when we reached the crest and came to the Pimple.
He was a very calm man, that major, given, I should say, to the greatest repression. I think nothing would have moved him from that phlegmatic calm of his! He watched us coming, climbing and making hard going of it. If he was amused he gave no sign, as he puffed at his pipe. I, for one, was puffing, too--I was panting like a grampus.
I had thought myself in good condition, but I found out at Vimy Ridge that I was soft and flabby.
Not a sign did that major give until we reached him. And then, as we stood looking at him, and beyond him at the panorama of the trenches, he took his pipe from his mouth.
"Welcome to Vimy Ridge!" he said, in the manner of a host greeting a party bidden for the weekend.
I was determined that that major should not outdo me. I had precious little wind left to breathe with, much less to talk, but I called for the last of it.
"Thank you, major," I said. "May I join you in a smoke?"
"Of course you can!" he said, unsmiling.
"That is, if you"ve brought your pipe with you." "Aye, I"ve my pipe,"
I told him. "I may forget to pay my debt, but I"ll never forget my pipe." And no more I will.
So I sat down beside him, and drew out my pipe, and made a long business of filling it, and pushing the tobacco down just so, since that gave me a chance to get my wind. And when I was ready to light up I felt better, and I was breathing right, so that I could talk as I pleased without fighting for breath.
My friend the major proved an entertaining chap, and a talkative one, too, for all his seeming brusqueness. He pointed out the spots that had been made famous in the battle, and explained to me what it was the Canadians had done. And I saw and understood better than ever before what a great feat that had been, and how heavily it had counted. He lent me his binoculars, too, and with them I swept the whole valley toward Lens, where the great French coal mines are, and where the Germans have been under steady fire so long, and have been hanging on by their eyelashes.
It was not the place I should choose, ordinarily, to do a bit of sight-seeing. The German sh.e.l.ls were still humming through the air above us, though not quite so often as they had. But there were enough of them, and they seemed to me close enough for me to feel the wind they raised as they pa.s.sed. I thought for sure one of them would come along, presently, and clip my ears right off. And sometimes I felt myself ducking my head--as if that would do me any good! But I did not think about it; I would feel myself doing it, without having intended to do anything of the sort. I was a bit nervous, I suppose, but no one could be really scared or alarmed in the unplumbable depths of calm in which that British major was plunged!
It was a grand view I had of the valley, but it was not the sort of thing I had expected to see. I knew there were thousands of men there, and I think I had expected to see men really fighting. But there was nothing of the sort. Not a man could I see in all the valley. They were under cover, of course. When I stopped to think about it, that was what I should have expected, of course. If I could have seen our laddies there below, why, the Huns could have seen them too. And that would never have done.
I could hear our guns, too, now, very well. They were giving voice all around me, but never a gun could I see, for all my peering and searching around. Even the battery we had pa.s.sed below was out of sight now. And it was a weird thing, and an uncanny thing to think of all that riot of sound around, and not a sight to be had of the batteries that were making it!
Hogge came up while I was talking to the major. "h.e.l.lo!" he said.
"What have you done to your knee, Lauder?"
I looked down and saw a trickle of blood running down, below my knee.
It was bare, of course, because I wore my kilt.
"Oh, that"s nothing," I said.
I knew at once what it was. I remembered that, as I stumbled up the hill, I had tripped over a bit of barbed wire and scratched my leg.
And so I explained.
"And I fell into a sh.e.l.l-hole, too," I said. "A wee one, as they go around here." But I laughed. "Still, I"ll be able to say I was wounded on Vimy Ridge."
I glanced at the major as I said that, and was half sorry I had made the poor jest. And I saw him smile, in one corner of his mouth, as I said I had been "wounded." It was the corner furthest from me, but I saw it. And it was a dry smile, a withered smile. I could guess his thought.
"Wounded!" he must have said to himself, scornfully. And he must have remembered the real wounds the Canadians had received on that hillside. Aye, I could guess his thought. And I shared it, although I did not tell him so. But I think he understood.
He was still sitting there, puffing away at his old pipe, as quiet and calm and imperturbable as ever, when Captain G.o.dfrey gathered us together to go on. He gazed out over the valley.
He was a man to be remembered for a long time, that major. I can see him now, in my mind"s eye, sitting there, brooding, staring out toward Lens and the German lines. And I think that if I were choosing a figure for some great sculptor to immortalize, to typify and represent the superb, the majestic imperturbability of the British Empire in time of stress and storm, his would be the one. I could think of no finer figure than his for such a statue. You would see him, if the sculptor followed my thought, sitting in front of his sh.e.l.l-hole on Vimy Ridge, calm, dispa.s.sionate, devoted to his duty and the day"s work, quietly giving the directions that guided the British guns in their work of blasting the Hun out of the refuge he had chosen when the Canadians had driven him from the spot where the major sat.
It was easier going down Vimy Ridge than it had been coming up, but it was hard going still. We had to skirt great, gaping holes torn by monstrous sh.e.l.ls--sh.e.l.ls that had torn the very guts out of the little hill.
"We"re going to visit another battery," said Captain G.o.dfrey. "I"ll tell you I think it"s the best hidden battery on the whole British front! And that"s saying a good deal, for we"ve learned a thing or two about hiding our whereabouts from Fritz. He"s a curious one, Fritz is, but we try not to gratify his curiosity any more than we must."
"I"ll be glad to see more of the guns," I said.
"Well, here you"ll see more than guns. The major in command at this battery we"re heading for has a decoration that was given to him just for the way he hid his guns. There"s much more than fighting that a man has to do in this war if he"s to make good."
As we went along I kept my eyes open, trying to get a peep at the guns before G.o.dfrey should point them out to me. I could hear firing going on all around me, but there was so much noise that my ears were not a guide. I was not a trained observer, of course; I would not know a gun position at sight, as some soldier trained to the work would be sure to do. And yet I thought I could tell when I was coming to a great battery. I thought so, I say!
Again, though I had that feeling of something weird and uncanny. For now, as we walked along, I did hear the guns, and I was sure, from the nature of the sound, that we were coming close to them. But, as I looked straight toward the spot where my ears told me that they must be, I could see nothing at all. I thought that perhaps G.o.dfrey had lost his way, and that we were wandering along the wrong path. It did not seem likely, but it was possible.
And then, suddenly, when I was least expecting it, we stopped.
"Well--here we are!" said the captain, and grinned at our amazement.