"Why, Olive, I spoke because I thought she seemed to place more importance on Ben"s belonging to the church than anything else, and she seemed so surprised when I told her he didn"t belong to any."
"I dare say she thinks Ben is good when she compares him with that ma.s.s of selfishness of a husband of hers," said Olive. "But I will thank her," she added, hotly, "not to compare Ben with Bartley Hubbard, even to Bartley Hubbard"s disadvantage. I don"t feel flattered by it."
"Of course she thinks all the world of her husband," said Mrs. Halleck.
"And I know Ben is good; and, as you say, he is religious; I feel that, though I don"t understand how, exactly. I wouldn"t hurt his feelings for the world, Olive, you know well enough. But it was a stumbling-block when I had to tell that poor, pretty young thing that Ben didn"t belong to church; and I could see that it puzzled her. I couldn"t have believed," continued Mrs. Halleck, "that there was any person in a Christian land, except among the very lowest, that seemed to understand so little about the Christian religion, or any scheme of salvation. Really, she talked to me like a pagan. She sat there much better dressed and better educated than I was; but I felt like a missionary talking to a South Sea Islander."
"I wonder the old Bartlett pear didn"t burst into a palm-tree over your heads," said Olive. Mrs. Halleck looked grieved at her levity, and Olive hastened to add: "Don"t take it to heart, mother! I understood just what you meant, and I can imagine just how shocking Mrs. Hubbard"s heathen remarks must have been. We should all be shocked if we knew how many people there were like her, and we should all try to deny it, and so would they. I guess Christianity is about as uncommon as civilization,--and that"s _very_ uncommon. If her poor, feeble mind was such a chaos, what do you suppose her husband"s is?"
This would certainly not have been easy for Mrs. Halleck to say then, or to say afterward, when Bartley walked up to the font in her church, with Marcia at his side, and Flavia in his arms, and a faintly ironical smile on his face, as if he had never expected to be got in for this, but was going to see it through now. He had, in fact, said, "Well, let"s go the whole figure," when Marcia had expressed a preference for having the rite performed in church, instead of in their own house.
He was unquestionably growing stout, and even Mrs. Halleck noticed that his blonde face was unpleasantly red that day. He was, of course, not intemperate. He always had beer with his lunch, which he had begun to take down town since the warm weather had come on and made the walk up the hill to Clover Street irksome: and he drank beer at his dinner,--he liked a late dinner, and they dined at six, now,--because it washed away the fatigues of the day, and freshened you up. He was rather particular about his beer, which he had sent in by the gross,--it came cheaper that way; after trying both the Cincinnati and the Milwaukee lagers, and making a cursory test of the Boston brand, he had settled down upon the American tivoli; it was cheap, and you could drink a couple of bottles without feeling it.
Freshened up by his two bottles, he was apt to spend the evening in an amiable drowse and get early to bed, when he did not go out on newspaper duty. He joked about the three fingers of fat on his ribs, and frankly guessed it was the beer that did it; at such times he said that perhaps he should have to cut down on his tivoli.
Marcia and he had not so much time together as they used to have; she was a great deal taken up with the baby, and he found it dull at home, not doing anything or saying anything; and when he did not feel sleepy, he sometimes invented work that took him out at night. But he always came upstairs after putting his hat on, and asked Marcia if he could help her about anything.
He usually met other newspaper men on these excursions, and talked newspaper with them, airing his favorite theories. He liked to wander about with reporters who were working up cases; to look in at the police stations, and go to the fires; and he was often able to give the Events men points that had escaped the other reporters. If asked to drink, he always said, "Thanks, no; I don"t do anything in that way. But if you"ll make it beer, I don"t mind." He took nothing but beer when he hurried out of the theatre into one of the neighboring resorts, just as the great platters of stewed kidneys and lyonnaise potatoes came steaming up out of the kitchen, prompt to the drop of the curtain on the last act. Here; sometimes, he met a friend, and shared with him his dish of kidneys and his schooner of beer; and he once suffered himself to be lured by the click of the b.a.l.l.s into the back room. He believed that he played a very good game of billiards; but he was badly beaten that night. He came home at daylight, fifty dollars out.
But he had lost like a gentleman in a game with gentlemen; and he never played again.
By day he worked hard, and since his expenses had been increased by Flavia"s coming, he had undertaken more work for more pay. He still performed all the routine labor of a managing editor, and he now wrote the literary notices of the Events, and sometimes, especially if there was anything new, the dramatic criticisms; he brought to the latter task all the freshness of a man who, till the year before, had not been half a dozen times inside a theatre.
He attributed the fat on his ribs to the tivoli; perhaps it was also owing in some degree to a good conscience, which is a much easier thing to keep than people imagine. At any rate, he now led a tranquil, industrious, and regular life, and a life which suited him so well that he was reluctant to interrupt it by the visit to Equity, which he and Marcia had talked of in the early spring. He put it off from time to time, and one day when she was pressing him to fix some date for it he said, "Why can"t you go, Marcia?"
"Alone?" she faltered.
"Well, no; take the baby, of course. And I"ll run down for a day or two when I get a chance."
Marcia seemed in these days to be schooling herself against the impulses that once brought on her quarrels with Bartley. "A day or two--" she began, and then stopped and added gravely, "I thought you said you were going to have several weeks" vacation."
"Oh, don"t tell me what I _said_!" cried Bartley. "That was before I undertook this extra work, or before I knew what a grind it was going to be. Equity is a good deal of a dose for me, any way. It"s all well enough for you, and I guess the change from Boston will do you good, and do the baby good, but _I_ shouldn"t look forward to three weeks in Equity with unmitigated hilarity."
"I know it will be stupid for you. But you need the rest. And the Hallecks are going to be at North Conway, and they said they would come over," urged Marcia. "I know we should have a good time."
Bartley grinned. "Is that your idea of a good time, Marsh? Three weeks of Equity, relieved by a visit from such heavy weights as Ben Halleck and his sisters? Not any in mine, thank you."
"How can you--how _dare_ you speak of them so!" cried Marcia lightening upon him. "Such good friends of yours--such good people--" Her voice shook with indignation and wounded feeling.
Bartley rose and took a turn about the room, pulling down his waistcoat and contemplating its outward slope with a smile. "Oh, I"ve got more friends than I can shake a stick at. And with pleasure at the helm, goodness is a drug in the market,--if you"ll excuse the mixed metaphor. Look here, Marcia," he added, severely. "If you like the Hallecks, all well and good; I sha"n"t interfere with you; but they bore me. I outgrew Ben Halleck years ago. He"s duller than death. As for the old people, there"s no harm in them,--though _they"re_ bores, too,--nor in the old girls; but Olive Halleck doesn"t treat me decently. I suppose that just suits you: I"ve noticed that you never like the women that _do_ treat me decently."
"They don"t treat _me_ decently!" retorted Marcia.
"Oh, Miss Kingsbury treated you very well that night. She couldn"t imagine your being jealous of her politeness to me."
Marcia"s temper fired at his treacherous recurrence to a grievance which he had once so sacredly and sweetly ignored. "If you wish to take up bygones, why don"t you go back to Hannah Morrison at once? She treated you even better than Miss Kingsbury."
"I should have been very willing to do that," said Bartley, "but I thought it might remind you of a disagreeable little episode in your own life, when you flung me away, and had to go down on your knees to pick me up again."
These thrusts which they dealt each other in their quarrels, however blind and misdirected, always reached their hearts: it was the wicked will that hurt, rather than the words. Marcia rose, bleeding inwardly, and her husband felt the remorse of a man who gets the best of it in such an encounter.
"Oh, I"m sorry I said that, Marcia! I didn"t mean it; indeed I--" She disdained to heed him, as she swept out of the room, and up the stairs; and his anger flamed out again.
"I give you fair warning," he called after her, "not to try that trick of locking the door, or I will smash it in."
Her answer was to turn the key in the door with a click which he could not fail to hear.
The peace in which they had been living of late was very comfortable to Bartley; he liked it; he hated to have it broken; he was willing to do what he could to restore it at once. If he had no better motive than this, he still had this motive; and he choked down his wrath, and followed Marcia softly upstairs. He intended to reason with her, and he began, "I say, Marsh," as he turned the door-k.n.o.b. But you cannot reason through a keyhole, and before he knew he found himself saying, "Will you open this?"
in a tone whose quiet was deadly. She did not answer; he heard her stop in her movements about the room, and wait, as if she expected him to ask again. He hesitated a moment whether to keep his threat of breaking the door in; but he turned away and went down stairs, and so into the street.
Once outside, he experienced the sense of release that comes to a man from the violation of his better impulses; but he did not know what to do or where to go. He walked rapidly away; but Marcia"s eyes and voice seemed to follow him, and plead with him for his forbearance. But he answered his conscience, as if it had been some such presence, that he had forborne too much already, and that now he should not humble himself; that he was right and should stand upon his right. There was not much comfort in it, and he had to brace himself again and again with vindictive resolution.
XXIV.
Bartley walked about the streets for a long time, without purpose or direction, brooding fiercely on his wrongs, and reminding himself how Marcia had determined to have him, and had indeed flung herself upon his mercy, with all sorts of good promises; and had then at once taken the whip-hand, and goaded and tormented him ever since. All the kindness of their common life counted for nothing in this furious reverie, or rather it was never once thought of; he cursed himself for a fool that he had ever asked her to marry him, and for doubly a fool that he had married her when she had as good as asked him. He was glad, now, that he had taunted her with that; he only regretted that he had told her he was sorry. He was presently aware of being so tired that he could scarcely pull one leg after another; and yet he felt hopelessly wide awake. It was in simple despair of anything else to do that he climbed the stairs to Ricker"s lofty perch in the Chronicle-Abstract office. Ricker turned about as he entered, and stared up at him from beneath the green pasteboard visor with which he was shielding his eyes from the gas; his hair, which was of the harshness and color of hay, was stiffly poked up and strewn about on his skull, as if it were some foreign product.
"h.e.l.lo!" he said. "Going to issue a morning edition of the Events?"
"What makes you think so?"
"Oh, I supposed you evening-paper gents went to bed with the hens. What has kept you up, esteemed contemporary?" He went on working over some despatches which lay upon his table.
"Don"t you want to come out and have some oysters?" asked Bartley.
"Why this princely hospitality? I"ll come with you in half a minute,"
Ricker said, going to the slide that carried up the copy to the composing-room and thrusting his ma.n.u.script into the box.
"Where are you going?" he asked, when they found themselves out in the soft starlit autumnal air; and Bartley answered with the name of an oyster-house, obscure, but of singular excellence.
"Yes, that"s the best place," Ricker commented. "What I always wonder at in you is the rapidity with which you Ve taken on the city. You were quite in the green wood when you came here, and now you know your Boston like a little man. I suppose it"s your newspaper work that"s familiarized you with the place. Well, how do you like your friend Witherby, as far as you"ve gone?"
"Oh, we shall get along, I guess," said Bartley. "He still keeps me in the background, and plays at being editor, but he pays me pretty well."
"Not too well, I hope."
"I should like to see him try it."
"I shouldn"t," said Ricker. "He"d expect certain things of you, if he did.
You"ll have to look out for Witherby."
"You mean that he"s a scamp?"
"No; there isn"t a better conscience than Witherby carries in the whole city. He"s perfectly honest. He not only believes that he has a right to run the Events in his way; but he sincerely believes that he is right in doing it. There"s where he has the advantage of you, if you doubt him. I don"t suppose he ever did a wrong thing in his life; he"d persuade himself that the thing was right before he did it."
"That"s a common phenomenon, isn"t it?" sneered Bartley. "n.o.body sins."
"You"re right, partly. But some of us sinners have our misgivings, and Witherby never has. You know he offered me your place?"
"No, I didn"t," said Bartley, astonished and not pleased.