She handed him his tea in silence; and Paul, who would have been ashamed to have called himself curious, but who was by this time not a little puzzled at her manner, made one more effort at conversation.
"I think you said that you were quite strange to this part of the country," he remarked. "We, who have lived here all our lives, are fond of it; but I"m afraid you"ll find it rather dull at first. There is very little society."
"We do not desire any," she said hastily. "We came here--at least I came here--for the sake of indulging in absolute seclusion. It is the same with my step-daughter. In London she had been forced to keep late hours, and her health has suffered. The doctor prescribed complete rest; I, too, desired rest, so we came here. A London house agent arranged it for us."
So there was a step-daughter who lived in London, and who went out a great deal. The mention of her gave Paul an opportunity.
"I wonder if I have ever met your daughter in town," he said pleasantly. "I am there a good deal, and I have rather a large circle of acquaintances."
The implied question seemed to disconcert her. She coloured, and then grew suddenly pale. Her eyes no longer looked into his; they were fixed steadfastly upon the fire.
"It is not at all probable," she said, nervously lacing and interlacing her slim white fingers. "No, it is scarcely possible.
You would not be likely to meet her. Your friends would not be her friends. She knows so few people. Ah!"
She started quickly. The door had opened, but it was only Gomez, who had come in with a tray for the empty tea-things. There was a dead silence whilst he removed them. Paul scarcely knew what to say. His hostess puzzled him completely. Perhaps this step-daughter, whose name, together with her own, she seemed so anxious to conceal, was mad, and she had brought her down here instead of sending her to an asylum; or perhaps she herself was mad. He glanced at her furtively, and at once dismissed the latter idea. Her face, careworn and curiously pallid though it was, was the face of no madwoman. It was the face of a woman who had pa.s.sed through a fiery sea of this world"s trouble and suffering--suffering which had left its marks stamped upon her features; but, of his own accord, he would never have put it down as the face of a weak or erring woman.
There was a mystery--of that he felt sure; but it was no part of his business to seek to unravel it. The best thing he could do, he felt, was to get up and go. He could scarcely maintain a conversation without asking or implying questions which seemed to painfully embarra.s.s his hostess.
"I"m very much obliged to you," he said, rising and holding out his hand. "I feel quite a new man! If you don"t mind I"d like to leave my mare here until to-morrow. She really isn"t fit to travel. My man shall come for her early."
"Pray do!" she answered quickly. "Ah!"
She had started, and clutched at the back of her chair with trembling fingers. Her eyes, wide open and startled, were fixed upon the door.
Paul, too, turned round, and uttered a little cry. His heart beat fast, and the room swam before him. He stood for a moment perfectly still, with his eyes fastened upon the figure in the doorway.
CHAPTER XV
"AND MOST OF ALL WOULD I FLY FROM THE CRUEL MADNESS OF LOVE"
It was Adrea--Adrea herself! She stood there in the shadow of the doorway, with her lips slightly parted, and her great eyes, soft and brilliant, flashing in the ruddy firelight. It was no vision; it was she beyond a doubt!
Even when the first shock had pa.s.sed away, he found himself without words; the wonder of it had dazed him. He had thought of her so often in that quaint, dainty little chamber in Grey Street that to see her here so unexpectedly, without the least warning or antic.i.p.ation, was like being suddenly confronted with a picture which had stepped out of its frame. And that she should be here, too, of all places, here in this bleak corner of the kingdom, where bl.u.s.tering winds swept bare the sullen moorland, and the sea was always grey and stormy. What strange fate could have brought her here, away from all the warmth and luxury of London, to this half-deserted old manor house on the verge of the heath? His mind was too confused in those first few moments to follow out any definite train of thought. The most natural conclusion, that she had come to him, did not enter his imagination.
His first impulse, as his senses became clearer, was to glance around for the woman who had called Adrea her step-daughter. She was gone.
She must have stepped out of the room by the opposite doorway; and with the knowledge that they were alone, he breathed freer.
"Adrea!" he said, "it is really you, then!"
His words, necessarily commonplace, dissolved the situation. She laughed softly, and came further into the room.
"It is I," she said. "Did you think that I was an elf from spirit-land?"
He had never shaken hands with her,--it was a thing which had never occurred to either of them; but a sudden impulse came to him then. He took a hasty step forward, and clasped both her little white hands in his. So they stood for another minute in silence, and a strange, soft light flashed in her upturned eyes. She was very near to him, and there was an indefinable sense of yielding in her manner, amounting almost to a mute invitation. He felt that he had only to open his arms, and that strange, beautiful face, with its mocking, quivering mouth, would be very close to his. The old battle was forced upon him to fight all over again; and, alas! he was no stronger.
It was almost as though she had seen the hesitation--the conflict in him--for with a sudden, imperious gesture she withdrew her hands and turned away from him. There was a scarlet flush creeping through the deep olive of her cheeks, and her eyes were dry and brilliant. Paul, who had never studied women or their ways, looked at her, surprised and a little hurt.
"You are surprised to see me here, of course?" she said, sinking into a low easy-chair, and taking up a fire-screen of peac.o.c.ks" feathers, as though to shield her face from the fire. "Well, it is quite an accident. I wrote you rather a silly letter the other day; but you must not think that I have followed you down here!"
"I did not think so," he answered hastily. "The idea never occurred, never could have occurred to me!"
She continued, without heeding his interruption: "I will explain how we came to take this cottage. A relative of mine came to me suddenly from abroad. She was in great trouble, and was in search of a very secluded dwelling-place, where she might live for a time unknown. I also was in bad health, and the doctor had ordered me complete rest and quiet. We went to a house agent, and told him what we wanted--to get as far away from every one as possible. We did not care how lonely the place was, or how far from London; the further the better. This house was to let, furnished, and at a low figure. I did not know that Vaux Abbey was in the same county even. It suited us, and we took it."
"I understand," Paul answered. "And now that you are here, are you not afraid of finding it dull?"
She turned away from him, biting her lip. "You do not understand me!
You never will. No! I shall not be dull."
"I beg your pardon, Adrea. I----"
"Be quiet!" she interrupted impetuously. "You think that I am too frivolous to live away from the glare and excitement of the city.
Of course! To you I am just the dancing girl, nothing more. Do not contradict me. I hate your serious manner. I hate your patronage.
Don"t contradict me, I say. Tell me this. How did you find me out? Why are you here?"
"I have been out hunting, and I lost my way," Paul answered quietly.
"I know Major Harcourt, and, thinking he was still living here, I called for a rest, and to put my horse up. Your step-mother has been very kind and hospitable."
Adrea looked at him curiously. "Indeed! She has been kind to you, has she? Who told you that she was my step-mother?"
"I thought I understood you to say so."
"Did I? Perhaps so; I don"t remember. So she was kind to you, was she?
She has no cause to be."
"No cause to be! Why not?"
She shrugged her shoulders, "Oh, I don"t know. I"m talking a little at random, I think. You angered me, Monsieur Paul. I am a silly girl, am I not? Do you know that I have thrown up all my engagements until next season? I do not think that I shall dance again at all."
"I am glad to hear it."
"But I shall go on the stage."
"There is no necessity for that, is there?"
"Necessity! You mean that I have not to earn my bread. That may be true, but what would you have me to do? I am not content to be one of your English young ladies--to sit down, and learn to cook and darn, and read silly books, until fate is kind enough to send me a husband.
Not so. I have ambition; I have an artist"s instincts, although I may not yet be an artist. I must live; I must have light and colour in my life."
Paul was very grave. He did not understand this new phase in Adrea"s development. There was a curious hardness in her tone and a recklessness in her speech which were strange to him. And with it all he felt very helpless. He could not play the part of guardian and reprove her; he scarcely knew how to argue with her. Women and their ways were strange to him; and, besides, Adrea was so different.
He stood up on the hearthrug, toying with his long riding-whip, puzzled and unhappy. Adrea was angry with him, he knew; and though he was very anxious to set himself right with her, he felt that he was treading on dangerous ground. He was neither sure of himself nor of her.
"I am afraid I am a very poor counsellor, Adrea," he said slowly; "but it seems to me that you want women friends. Your life has been too lonely, too devoid of feminine interests."
She laughed--a mirthless, unpleasant little laugh. "Women friends!
Good! You say that I have none. It is true. There have been no women who have offered me their friendship in this country. You call yourself my guardian. Why do you not find me some?"