I knelt beside her, raising her head with my right hand, and brokenly besought her to speak to me, when I would at once do anything she demanded. But she gave no sign of animation. In a frenzy of despair, I forced myself to examine her injuries, and my heart nearly stopped beating when I discovered that a large piece of iron had been driven into her brain through the back of her head.
I knew in a moment that she was dead. Although I have not had much experience of that terrible epoch in the human being, I have seen far too much of death in animal life not to know that she who had been my honored and respected wife now lay before me a mere soulless ent.i.ty--a symbol only of the splendid vital creature who, a minute earlier, was angrily protesting against the supposed faithlessness of her mate.
Looking back now upon the events of that fateful night, I marvel at the appalling coolness which came to my aid as soon as I realized the extent of the misfortune which had befallen both Alice and myself. I can fully understand what is meant by the callousness of a certain cla.s.s of criminals, or the indifference to inevitable death betrayed by Eastern races. No sooner was I quite a.s.sured that my wife was dead--dead beyond hope or doubt--than I regained the use of my reasoning faculties in the most marvellously cold-blooded degree.
The actual difficulties of my position were enormous. I arraigned myself before the judge and jury, and saw clearly that every circ.u.mstance which contributed to Alice"s suspicions in the first instance were now magnified a hundred-fold by the manner and scene of her death.
Before me, in ghostly panorama, moved the dread crowd of witnesses against me, the degradation of my family, the bitter and vengeful feelings of my wife"s relatives, the suffering of poor, unconscious Mrs.
Hillmer, the whole avalanche of horror and misery which this unfortunate accident had precipitated upon every person who claimed my relationship or friendship.
My mental att.i.tude was quite altruistic. Could I have undone the past, I would cheerfully have undergone a painful and protracted death forthwith.
But no possible atonement on my part would restore Alice to life. I knew it was quite improbable that I should be convicted of murdering her, strong as the circ.u.mstantial testimony against me must be. The mere legal consequences did not, however, weigh with me for a second. From that awful hour I felt that I was doomed personally. My only thought was to seek oblivion, not only for myself, but for all whom Alice"s death might affect.
Reasoning in this way, I rapidly resolved to make a bold effort to conceal forever the time and place of the fatality. If I failed, I could tell the truth; if I succeeded, I might, at my own expense, save a vast amount of unnecessary sorrow.
The desperate expedient came to me of carrying off the body to the untenanted house at Putney where my old master had resided until his death, utilizing the four-wheeled cab with its half-drunken driver for the purpose.
If I reached Putney unhindered, I could dispose of my terrible burden easily, for the river flowed past the grounds, and every inch of the locality was known to me.
It occurred to me that perhaps the body might be found and recognized.
Our personal linen was never marked, by reason of the fact that our laundry work was done upon our Yorkshire estate, but as a temporary safeguard I resolved to take some different and less valuable outer clothes from Mrs. Hillmer"s residence.
Her maid was of a similar build to my wife, so I hastened to the girl"s room, and laid hands upon a soiled coat and skirt which were relegated to the recesses of the wardrobe.
I glanced at my watch as I came along the corridor. It was 6.15 P.M. All the incidents I have related to you had happened within a quarter of an hour. Oh, heaven! it seemed longer than all the preceding years of my life.
Having resolved upon a line of conduct, I pursued it with the _sang-froid_ and accuracy of one of the superior scoundrels delineated by Du Boisgobey. The door of the flat was locked. If the servants, hardly due yet, returned unexpectedly, I would send them off to Victoria Station on some imaginary errand of their mistress"s.
I knelt beside my poor wife"s body once more, and with great difficulty took off her costume and loosely fastened on the maid"s garments.
In her purse there were some bulky doc.u.ments, which I afterwards discovered to be the reports furnished by a firm of private detectives, detailing all my movements with reference to Raleigh Mansions with surprising accuracy. But she had concealed her name. These men themselves only knew me as "Colonel Montgomery."
How Alice first came to suspect me I can only guess. Perhaps my indifference, my absence from home at definite hours, a chance meeting in the street unknown to me--any of these may have supplied the initial cause, and led her to verify her doubts before taxing me with my supposed iniquity.
Indeed, her final act in coming alone to Mrs. Hillmer"s abode, revealed her fearless spirit and independent methods. She wanted no divorce court revelations. She would simply have spurned me as an unworthy and dishonorable wretch. Her small belongings I put in my pockets; the clothes I made into a parcel and stuffed temporarily beneath my overcoat.
Then I unlocked the door, and went down the few steps to the main entrance. There was no one about, the fog and sleet having cleared the street--a quiet thoroughfare at all times.
I took the risk of the maids coming back, and I ran to the square for my conveyance. The driver had been improving the occasion, and was more inebriated than before. He brought his cab to the door, and I knew, by the appearance of things, that no one had entered during my absence.
With some difficulty I lifted Alice"s body into my arms in as natural a position as possible, and carried her to the cab, leaving the door of the flat ajar. Luck still favored me. The cabman supposed that she, like himself, was intoxicated. A man came down the opposite side of the street, but he paid not the slightest heed to me, and, indeed, we were but dimly visible to each other.
Exerting all my strength un.o.btrusively, I placed my wife on the rear seat, and then calmly gave the driver instructions. He grumbled at the distance, but I told him I would pay him handsomely. Searching in my pockets and Alice"s purse, I could only find twelve shillings, so, although it was risky, to avoid a quarrel with the man, I determined to give him a five-pound note.
Thus far, all had gone well.
The notion possessed me that, to all intents and purposes, I had murdered my wife, and that I was now disposing of the visible signs of my guilt in the most approved manner of a daring criminal. Whether I did right or wrong I cannot, even at this late hour, decide. Should my death induce forgetfulness, I am still inclined to think that I acted for the best. My wife was dead; I was self-condemned. Why, then, allow others, wholly innocent, to be dragged into the vortex?
This was my line of thought. If you, reading this ghastly narrative, shudder at my deeds, I pray you nevertheless to weigh in the balance the good and ill that resulted from my actions.
At last we reached Putney, and drew up at the end of the disused lane which runs down by the side of the house to the river.
Here, again, the road was deserted. I lifted my wife out, carried her to the postern-gate, and returned to give the driver his note. The man was so amazed at the amount that he whipped up his horse instantly, fearing lest I should change my mind.
I was about to force open the old and rickety door into the garden when I remembered the drain-pipe jutting into the Thames--a place where, as a child, I often caused much alarm by surrept.i.tious visits for the purpose of catching minnows. I quickly took off my coat and boots, turned up my trousers and shirt-sleeves, and examined the pipe with my hands.
It exactly suited my purpose. In half a minute I had firmly wedged my wife"s body beneath it. This was the most horrible portion of my task.
The chill water, the desolation of the river bank, the mud and trailing weeds--all these things seemed so vile and loathsome when placed in contact with the mortal remains of my ill-fated Alice.
She had loved me. I believe I loved her, as I a.s.suredly do now when her presence is but a memory, yet I was condemned to commit her to the contaminating beastliness of such surroundings. It was a small matter, in the face of death, but it has weighed on me since more than any other feature of that cruel night"s history.
Before leaving Putney I tied her clothes, hat, and furs to a couple of heavy stones and threw the parcel into deep water.
By train and cab I reached home but a few minutes late for dinner. It was not difficult for me to act my part with the servants, nor keep up the farce during the weary days that followed. My consciousness was so seared by what I had gone through that the mere make-believe of my position was a relief to me.
That night, in the privacy of my room, I recollected the broken fender, and feared lest the ironwork would supply a clue should the body be discovered, a thing I deemed practically impossible.
But, for Mrs. Hillmer"s sake, I took no risk. Next morning, before I saw you at Tattersall"s, I made arrangements for the whole contents of her drawing-room to be transferred to her brother"s flat, where, to my knowledge, the articles were needed.
Mrs. Hillmer had gone out early, so the thing was done in her absence.
Her amazement was so great that she wired me, using as a signature the pet name of her childhood, and this was the first message you heard the groom refer to when he came a second time with the telegram from Richmond.
I wrote her a hurried note, explaining that I intended the transfer as a sop to her offended brother, but she had telegraphed again, and I had to go to see her, to learn that Mensmore resented the gift, and had gone off in a huff to Monte Carlo.
A little later, I took the supreme step of writing a farewell letter.
Since my wife"s death I could not bear to meet any other woman. I communed with my poor Alice more when dead than when alive.
I do not think I have anything else to tell you. Step by step I watched you and the police tearing aside my barrier of deceit. At times I thought I would baffle you in the end. Were it not for my folly in bribing Jane Harding I think I must have succeeded.
That poor girl was the undoing of me in the first instance, and she now has brought me my final sentence, for she came to-day and told me, with tears, all that happened between the detective and herself. White, too, put in an appearance.
To-morrow, I suppose, he will bring a warrant, if you do not see him first and tell him the truth.
Do not misunderstand me. I am glad of this release. When you strove to arouse me from my despair I did, for a little while, cherish the hope that I might be able to devote my declining years to the work which Alice herself took an interest in. But the web of testimony woven round my old friend, Mensmore; the self-effacing spirit of his sister, who, to shield me, was willing to sacrifice herself; the possibility that I might involve these two, and perhaps others, in my own ruin--every circ.u.mstance conspired to overwhelm me.
I can endure no more, my dear Bruce. It is ended. The past is already a dream to me--the future void. My poor nature was not designed to withstand such a strain. The cord of existence has snapped, and I cannot bring myself to believe it will be mended again. In bidding you farewell I ask one thing. If you take a charitable view of my deeds, if you consider that my penalty is commensurate with my faults, then you might take my dead hand and say, "This was my friend. I pity him. May the spirit of his wife be merciful unto him should they meet in the regions beyond the grave."
And so, for the last time, I sign myself
CHARLES d.y.k.e.
CHAPTER x.x.xI
VALEDICTORY