"Where were you when he first kissed you?"
"Sitting in this seat."
"Ah, I thought so!" said Knight, rising and facing her.
"And that accounts for everything--the exclamation which you explained deceitfully, and all! Forgive the harsh word, Elfride--forgive it." He smiled a surface smile as he continued: "What a poor mortal I am to play second fiddle in everything and to be deluded by fibs!"
"Oh, don"t say it; don"t, Harry!"
"Where did he kiss you besides here?"
"Sitting on--a tomb in the--churchyard--and other places," she answered with slow recklessness.
"Never mind, never mind," he exclaimed, on seeing her tears and perturbation. "I don"t want to grieve you. I don"t care."
But Knight did care.
"It makes no difference, you know," he continued, seeing she did not reply.
"I feel cold," said Elfride. "Shall we go home?"
"Yes; it is late in the year to sit long out of doors: we ought to be off this ledge before it gets too dark to let us see our footing. I daresay the horse is impatient."
Knight spoke the merest commonplace to her now. He had hoped to the last moment that she would have volunteered the whole story of her first attachment. It grew more and more distasteful to him that she should have a secret of this nature. Such entire confidence as he had pictured as about to exist between himself and the innocent young wife who had known no lover"s tones save his--was this its beginning? He lifted her upon the horse, and they went along constrainedly. The poison of suspicion was doing its work well.
An incident occurred on this homeward journey which was long remembered by both, as adding shade to shadow. Knight could not keep from his mind the words of Adam"s reproach to Eve in PARADISE LOST, and at last whispered them to himself--
"Fool"d and beguiled: by him thou, I by thee!"
"What did you say?" Elfride inquired timorously.
"It was only a quotation."
They had now dropped into a hollow, and the church tower made its appearance against the pale evening sky, its lower part being hidden by some intervening trees. Elfride, being denied an answer, was looking at the tower and trying to think of some contrasting quotation she might use to regain his tenderness. After a little thought she said in winning tones--
"Thou hast been my hope, and a strong tower for me against the enemy.""
They pa.s.sed on. A few minutes later three or four birds were seen to fly out of the tower.
"The strong tower moves," said Knight, with surprise.
A corner of the square ma.s.s swayed forward, sank, and vanished. A loud rumble followed, and a cloud of dust arose where all had previously been so clear.
"The church restorers have done it!" said Elfride.
At this minute Mr. Swancourt was seen approaching them. He came up with a bustling demeanour, apparently much engrossed by some business in hand.
"We have got the tower down!" he exclaimed. "It came rather quicker than we intended it should. The first idea was to take it down stone by stone, you know. In doing this the crack widened considerably, and it was not believed safe for the men to stand upon the walls any longer.
Then we decided to undermine it, and three men set to work at the weakest corner this afternoon. They had left off for the evening, intending to give the final blow to-morrow morning, and had been home about half an hour, when down it came. A very successful job--a very fine job indeed. But he was a tough old fellow in spite of the crack."
Here Mr. Swancourt wiped from his face the perspiration his excitement had caused him.
"Poor old tower!" said Elfride.
"Yes, I am sorry for it," said Knight. "It was an interesting piece of antiquity--a local record of local art."
"Ah, but my dear sir, we shall have a new one, expostulated Mr.
Swancourt; "a splendid tower--designed by a first-rate London man--in the newest style of Gothic art, and full of Christian feeling."
"Indeed!" said Knight.
"Oh yes. Not in the barbarous clumsy architecture of this neighbourhood; you see nothing so rough and pagan anywhere else in England. When the men are gone, I would advise you to go and see the church before anything further is done to it. You can now sit in the chancel, and look down the nave through the west arch, and through that far out to sea. In fact," said Mr. Swancourt significantly, "if a wedding were performed at the altar to-morrow morning, it might be witnessed from the deck of a ship on a voyage to the South Seas, with a good gla.s.s. However, after dinner, when the moon has risen, go up and see for yourselves."
Knight a.s.sented with feverish readiness. He had decided within the last few minutes that he could not rest another night without further talk with Elfride upon the subject which now divided them: he was determined to know all, and relieve his disquiet in some way. Elfride would gladly have escaped further converse alone with him that night, but it seemed inevitable.
Just after moonrise they left the house. How little any expectation of the moonlight prospect--which was the ostensible reason of their pilgrimage--had to do with Knight"s real motive in getting the gentle girl again upon his arm, Elfride no less than himself well knew.
Chapter x.x.xII
"Had I wist before I kist"
It was now October, and the night air was chill. After looking to see that she was well wrapped up, Knight took her along the hillside path they had ascended so many times in each other"s company, when doubt was a thing unknown. On reaching the church they found that one side of the tower was, as the vicar had stated, entirely removed, and lying in the shape of rubbish at their feet. The tower on its eastern side still was firm, and might have withstood the shock of storms and the siege of battering years for many a generation even now. They entered by the side-door, went eastward, and sat down by the altar-steps.
The heavy arch spanning the junction of tower and nave formed to-night a black frame to a distant misty view, stretching far westward. Just outside the arch came the heap of fallen stones, then a portion of moonlit churchyard, then the wide and convex sea behind. It was a coup-d"oeil which had never been possible since the mediaeval masons first attached the old tower to the older church it dignified, and hence must be supposed to have had an interest apart from that of simple moonlight on ancient wall and sea and sh.o.r.e--any mention of which has by this time, it is to be feared, become one of the cuckoo-cries which are heard but not regarded. Rays of crimson, blue, and purple shone upon the twain from the east window behind them, wherein saints and angels vied with each other in primitive surroundings of landscape and sky, and threw upon the pavement at the sitters" feet a softer reproduction of the same translucent hues, amid which the shadows of the two living heads of Knight and Elfride were opaque and prominent blots. Presently the moon became covered by a cloud, and the iridescence died away.
"There, it is gone!" said Knight. "I"ve been thinking, Elfride, that this place we sit on is where we may hope to kneel together soon. But I am restless and uneasy, and you know why."
Before she replied the moonlight returned again, irradiating that portion of churchyard within their view. It brightened the near part first, and against the background which the cloud-shadow had not yet uncovered stood, brightest of all, a white tomb--the tomb of young Jethway.
Knight, still alive on the subject of Elfride"s secret, thought of her words concerning the kiss that it once had occurred on a tomb in this churchyard.
"Elfride," he said, with a superficial archness which did not half cover an undercurrent of reproach, "do you know, I think you might have told me voluntarily about that past--of kisses and betrothing--without giving me so much uneasiness and trouble. Was that the tomb you alluded to as having sat on with him?"
She waited an instant. "Yes," she said.
The correctness of his random shot startled Knight; though, considering that almost all the other memorials in the churchyard were upright headstones upon which n.o.body could possibly sit, it was not so wonderful.
Elfride did not even now go on with the explanation her exacting lover wished to have, and her reticence began to irritate him as before. He was inclined to read her a lecture.
"Why don"t you tell me all?" he said somewhat indignantly. "Elfride, there is not a single subject upon which I feel more strongly than upon this--that everything ought to be cleared up between two persons before they become husband and wife. See how desirable and wise such a course is, in order to avoid disagreeable contingencies in the form of discoveries afterwards. For, Elfride, a secret of no importance at all may be made the basis of some fatal misunderstanding only because it is discovered, and not confessed. They say there never was a couple of whom one had not some secret the other never knew or was intended to know.
This may or may not be true; but if it be true, some have been happy in spite rather than in consequence of it. If a man were to see another man looking significantly at his wife, and she were blushing crimson and appearing startled, do you think he would be so well satisfied with, for instance, her truthful explanation that once, to her great annoyance, she accidentally fainted into his arms, as if she had said it voluntarily long ago, before the circ.u.mstance occurred which forced it from her? Suppose that admirer you spoke of in connection with the tomb yonder should turn up, and bother me. It would embitter our lives, if I were then half in the dark, as I am now!"
Knight spoke the latter sentences with growing force.