"And refuse now to answer the simple question how it ended. Do you refuse still, Elfride?"
"You have no right to question me so--you said so. It is unfair. Trust me as I trust you."
"That"s not at all."
"I shall not love you if you are so cruel. It is cruel to me to argue like this."
"Perhaps it is. Yes, it is. I was carried away by my feeling for you.
Heaven knows that I didn"t mean to; but I have loved you so that I have used you badly."
"I don"t mind it, Harry!" she instantly answered, creeping up and nestling against him; "and I will not think at all that you used me harshly if you will forgive me, and not be vexed with me any more? I do wish I had been exactly as you thought I was, but I could not help it, you know. If I had only known you had been coming, what a nunnery I would have lived in to have been good enough for you!"
"Well, never mind," said Knight; and he turned to go. He endeavoured to speak sportively as they went on. "Diogenes Laertius says that philosophers used voluntarily to deprive themselves of sight to be uninterrupted in their meditations. Men, becoming lovers, ought to do the same thing."
"Why?--but never mind--I don"t want to know. Don"t speak laconically to me," she said with deprecation.
"Why? Because they would never then be distracted by discovering their idol was second-hand."
She looked down and sighed; and they pa.s.sed out of the crumbling old place, and slowly crossed to the churchyard entrance. Knight was not himself, and he could not pretend to be. She had not told all.
He supported her lightly over the stile, and was practically as attentive as a lover could be. But there had pa.s.sed away a glory, and the dream was not as it had been of yore. Perhaps Knight was not shaped by Nature for a marrying man. Perhaps his lifelong constraint towards women, which he had attributed to accident, was not chance after all, but the natural result of instinctive acts so minute as to be undiscernible even by himself. Or whether the rough dispelling of any bright illusion, however imaginative, depreciates the real and unexaggerated brightness which appertains to its basis, one cannot say.
Certain it was that Knight"s disappointment at finding himself second or third in the field, at Elfride"s momentary equivoque, and at her reluctance to be candid, brought him to the verge of cynicism.
Chapter x.x.xIII
"O daughter of Babylon, wasted with misery."
A habit of Knight"s, when not immediately occupied with Elfride--to walk by himself for half an hour or so between dinner and bedtime--had become familiar to his friends at Endelstow, Elfride herself among them. When he had helped her over the stile, she said gently, "If you wish to take your usual turn on the hill, Harry, I can run down to the house alone."
"Thank you, Elfie; then I think I will."
Her form diminished to blackness in the moonlight, and Knight, after remaining upon the churchyard stile a few minutes longer, turned back again towards the building. His usual course was now to light a cigar or pipe, and indulge in a quiet meditation. But to-night his mind was too tense to bethink itself of such a solace. He merely walked round to the site of the fallen tower, and sat himself down upon some of the large stones which had composed it until this day, when the chain of circ.u.mstance originated by Stephen Smith, while in the employ of Mr.
Hewby, the London man of art, had brought about its overthrow.
Pondering on the possible episodes of Elfride"s past life, and on how he had supposed her to have had no past justifying the name, he sat and regarded the white tomb of young Jethway, now close in front of him.
The sea, though comparatively placid, could as usual be heard from this point along the whole distance between promontories to the right and left, floundering and entangling itself among the insulated stacks of rock which dotted the water"s edge--the miserable skeletons of tortured old cliffs that would not even yet succ.u.mb to the wear and tear of the tides.
As a change from thoughts not of a very cheerful kind, Knight attempted exertion. He stood up, and prepared to ascend to the summit of the ruinous heap of stones, from which a more extended outlook was obtainable than from the ground. He stretched out his arm to seize the projecting arris of a larger block than ordinary, and so help himself up, when his hand lighted plump upon a substance differing in the greatest possible degree from what he had expected to seize--hard stone.
It was stringy and entangled, and trailed upon the stone. The deep shadow from the aisle wall prevented his seeing anything here distinctly, and he began guessing as a necessity. "It is a tressy species of moss or lichen," he said to himself.
But it lay loosely over the stone.
"It is a tuft of gra.s.s," he said.
But it lacked the roughness and humidity of the finest gra.s.s.
"It is a mason"s whitewash-brush."
Such brushes, he remembered, were more bristly; and however much used in repairing a structure, would not be required in pulling one down.
He said, "It must be a thready silk fringe."
He felt further in. It was somewhat warm. Knight instantly felt somewhat cold.
To find the coldness of inanimate matter where you expect warmth is startling enough; but a colder temperature than that of the body being rather the rule than the exception in common substances, it hardly conveys such a shock to the system as finding warmth where utter frigidity is antic.i.p.ated.
"G.o.d only knows what it is," he said.
He felt further, and in the course of a minute put his hand upon a human head. The head was warm, but motionless. The thready ma.s.s was the hair of the head--long and straggling, showing that the head was a woman"s.
Knight in his perplexity stood still for a moment, and collected his thoughts. The vicar"s account of the fall of the tower was that the workmen had been undermining it all the day, and had left in the evening intending to give the finishing stroke the next morning. Half an hour after they had gone the undermined angle came down. The woman who was half buried, as it seemed, must have been beneath it at the moment of the fall.
Knight leapt up and began endeavouring to remove the rubbish with his hands. The heap overlying the body was for the most part fine and dusty, but in immense quant.i.ty. It would be a saving of time to run for a.s.sistance. He crossed to the churchyard wall, and hastened down the hill.
A little way down an intersecting road pa.s.sed over a small ridge, which now showed up darkly against the moon, and this road here formed a kind of notch in the sky-line. At the moment that Knight arrived at the crossing he beheld a man on this eminence, coming towards him. Knight turned aside and met the stranger.
"There has been an accident at the church," said Knight, without preface. "The tower has fallen on somebody, who has been lying there ever since. Will you come and help?"
"That I will," said the man.
"It is a woman," said Knight, as they hurried back, "and I think we two are enough to extricate her. Do you know of a shovel?"
"The grave-digging shovels are about somewhere. They used to stay in the tower."
"And there must be some belonging to the workmen."
They searched about, and in an angle of the porch found three carefully stowed away. Going round to the west end Knight signified the spot of the tragedy.
"We ought to have brought a lantern," he exclaimed. "But we may be able to do without." He set to work removing the superinc.u.mbent ma.s.s.
The other man, who looked on somewhat helplessly at first, now followed the example of Knight"s activity, and removed the larger stones which were mingled with the rubbish. But with all their efforts it was quite ten minutes before the body of the unfortunate creature could be extricated. They lifted her as carefully as they could, breathlessly carried her to Felix Jethway"s tomb, which was only a few steps westward, and laid her thereon.
"Is she dead indeed?" said the stranger.
"She appears to be," said Knight. "Which is the nearest house? The vicarage, I suppose."
"Yes; but since we shall have to call a surgeon from Castle Boterel, I think it would be better to carry her in that direction, instead of away from the town."
"And is it not much further to the first house we come to going that way, than to the vicarage or to The Crags?"
"Not much," the stranger replied.
"Suppose we take her there, then. And I think the best way to do it would be thus, if you don"t mind joining hands with me."