A Pa.s.sionate Pilgrim.
by Henry James.
I
Intending to sail for America in the early part of June, I determined to spend the interval of six weeks in England, to which country my mind"s eye only had as yet been introduced. I had formed in Italy and France a resolute preference for old inns, considering that what they sometimes cost the ungratified body they repay the delighted mind. On my arrival in London, therefore, I lodged at a certain antique hostelry, much to the east of Temple Bar, deep in the quarter that I had inevitably figured as the Johnsonian. Here, on the first evening of my stay, I descended to the little coffee-room and bespoke my dinner of the genius of "attendance" in the person of the solitary waiter. No sooner had I crossed the threshold of this retreat than I felt I had cut a golden-ripe crop of English "impressions." The coffee-room of the Red Lion, like so many other places and things I was destined to see in the motherland, seemed to have been waiting for long years, with just that st.u.r.dy sufferance of time written on its visage, for me to come and extract the romantic essence of it.
The latent preparedness of the American mind even for the most characteristic features of English life was a matter I meanwhile failed to get to the bottom of. The roots of it are indeed so deeply buried in the soil of our early culture that, without some great upheaval of feeling, we are at a loss to say exactly when and where and how it begins. It makes an American"s enjoyment of England an emotion more searching than anything Continental. I had seen the coffee-room of the Red Lion years ago, at home--at Saragossa Illinois--in books, in visions, in dreams, in d.i.c.kens, in Smollett, in Boswell. It was small and subdivided into six narrow compartments by a series of perpendicular screens of mahogany, something higher than a man"s stature, furnished on either side with a meagre uncushioned ledge, denominated in ancient Britain a seat. In each of these rigid receptacles was a narrow table--a table expected under stress to accommodate no less than four pairs of active British elbows. High pressure indeed had pa.s.sed away from the Red Lion for ever. It now knew only that of memories and ghosts and atmosphere. Round the room there marched, breast-high, a magnificent panelling of mahogany, so dark with time and so polished with unremitted friction that by gazing a while into its lucid blackness I made out the dim reflexion of a party of wigged gentlemen in knee-breeches just arrived from York by the coach. On the dark yellow walls, coated by the fumes of English coal, of English mutton, of Scotch whiskey, were a dozen melancholy prints, sallow-toned with age--the Derby favourite of the year 1807, the Bank of England, her Majesty the Queen. On the floor was a Turkey carpet--as old as the mahogany almost, as the Bank of England, as the Queen--into which the waiter had in his lonely revolutions trodden so many ma.s.sive soot-flakes and drops of overflowing beer that the glowing looms of Smyrna would certainly not have recognised it. To say that I ordered my dinner of this archaic type would be altogether to misrepresent the process owing to which, having dreamed of lamb and spinach and a salade de saison, I sat down in penitence to a mutton-chop and a rice pudding. Bracing my feet against the cross-beam of my little oaken table, I opposed to the mahogany part.i.tion behind me the vigorous dorsal resistance that must have expressed the old-English idea of repose. The st.u.r.dy screen refused even to creak, but my poor Yankee joints made up the deficiency.
While I was waiting there for my chop there came into the room a person whom, after I had looked at him a moment, I supposed to be a fellow lodger and probably the only one. He seemed, like myself, to have submitted to proposals for dinner; the table on the other side of my part.i.tion had been prepared to receive him. He walked up to the fire, exposed his back to it and, after consulting his watch, looked directly out of the window and indirectly at me. He was a man of something less than middle age and more than middle stature, though indeed you would have called him neither young nor tall. He was chiefly remarkable for his emphasised leanness. His hair, very thin on the summit of his head, was dark short and fine. His eye was of a pale turbid grey, unsuited, perhaps, to his dark hair and well-drawn brows, but not altogether out of harmony with his colourless bilious complexion. His nose was aquiline and delicate; beneath it his moustache languished much rather than bristled. His mouth and chin were negative, or at the most provisional; not vulgar, doubtless, but ineffectually refined. A cold fatal gentlemanly weakness was expressed indeed in his attenuated person. His eye was restless and deprecating; his whole physiognomy, his manner of shifting his weight from foot to foot, the spiritless droop of his head, told of exhausted intentions, of a will relaxed. His dress was neat and "toned down"--he might have been in mourning. I made up my mind on three points: he was a bachelor, he was out of health, he was not indigenous to the soil. The waiter approached him, and they conversed in accents barely audible. I heard the words "claret," "sherry" with a tentative inflexion, and finally "beer" with its last letter changed to "ah."
Perhaps he was a Russian in reduced circ.u.mstances; he reminded me slightly of certain sceptical cosmopolite Russians whom I had met on the Continent. While in my extravagant way I followed this train--for you see I was interested--there appeared a short brisk man with reddish-brown hair, with a vulgar nose, a sharp blue eye and a red beard confined to his lower jaw and chin. My putative Russian, still in possession of the rug, let his mild gaze stray over the dingy ornaments of the room. The other drew near, and his umbrella dealt a playful poke at the concave melancholy waistcoat. "A penny ha"penny for your thoughts!"
My friend, as I call him, uttered an exclamation, stared, then laid his two hands on the other"s shoulders. The latter looked round at me keenly, compa.s.sing me in a momentary glance. I read in its own vague light that this was a transatlantic eyebeam; and with such confidence that I hardly needed to see its owner, as he prepared, with his companion, to seat himself at the table adjoining my own, take from his overcoat-pocket three New York newspapers and lay them beside his plate. As my neighbours proceeded to dine I felt the crumbs of their conversation scattered pretty freely abroad. I could hear almost all they said, without straining to catch it, over the top of the part.i.tion that divided us. Occasionally their voices dropped to recovery of discretion, but the mystery pieced itself together as if on purpose to entertain me. Their speech was pitched in the key that may in English air be called alien in spite of a few coincidences. The voices were American, however, with a difference; and I had no hesitation in a.s.signing the softer and clearer sound to the pale thin gentleman, whom I decidedly preferred to his comrade. The latter began to question him about his voyage.
"Horrible, horrible! I was deadly sick from the hour we left New York."
"Well, you do look considerably reduced," said the second-comer.
"Reduced! I"ve been on the verge of the grave. I haven"t slept six hours for three weeks." This was said with great gravity.
"Well, I"ve made the voyage for the last time."
"The plague you have! You mean to locate here permanently?"
"Oh it won"t be so very permanent!"
There was a pause; after which: "You"re the same merry old boy, Searle.
Going to give up the ghost to-morrow, eh?"
"I almost wish I were."
"You"re not so sweet on England then? I"ve heard people say at home that you dress and talk and act like an Englishman. But I know these people here and I know you. You"re not one of this crowd, Clement Searle, not you. You"ll go under here, sir; you"ll go under as sure as my name"s Simmons."
Following this I heard a sudden clatter as of the drop of a knife and fork. "Well, you"re a delicate sort of creature, if it IS your ugly name! I"ve been wandering about all day in this accursed city, ready to cry with homesickness and heartsickness and every possible sort of sickness, and thinking, in the absence of anything better, of meeting you here this evening and of your uttering some sound of cheer and comfort and giving me some glimmer of hope. Go under? Ain"t I under now?
I can"t do more than get under the ground!"
Mr. Simmons"s superior brightness appeared to flicker a moment in this gust of despair, but the next it was burning steady again. "DON"T "cry,"
Searle," I heard him say. "Remember the waiter. I"ve grown Englishman enough for that. For heaven"s sake don"t let"s have any nerves. Nerves won"t do anything for you here. It"s best to come to the point. Tell me in three words what you expect of me."
I heard another movement, as if poor Searle had collapsed in his chair. "Upon my word, sir, you"re quite inconceivable. You never got my letter?"
"Yes, I got your letter. I was never sorrier to get anything in my life."
At this declaration Mr. Searle rattled out an oath, which it was well perhaps that I but partially heard. "Abijah Simmons," he then cried, "what demon of perversity possesses you? Are you going to betray me here in a foreign land, to turn out a false friend, a heartless rogue?"
"Go on, sir," said st.u.r.dy Simmons. "Pour it all out. I"ll wait till you"ve done. Your beer"s lovely," he observed independently to the waiter. "I"ll have some more."
"For G.o.d"s sake explain yourself!" his companion appealed.
There was a pause, at the end of which I heard Mr. Simmons set down his empty tankard with emphasis. "You poor morbid mooning man," he resumed, "I don"t want to say anything to make you feel sore. I regularly pity you. But you must allow that you"ve acted more like a confirmed crank than a member of our best society--in which every one"s so sensible."
Mr. Searle seemed to have made an effort to compose himself. "Be so good as to tell me then what was the meaning of your letter."
"Well, you had got on MY nerves, if you want to know, when I wrote it.
It came of my always wishing so to please folks. I had much better have let you alone. To tell you the plain truth I never was so horrified in my life as when I found that on the strength of my few kind words you had come out here to seek your fortune."
"What then did you expect me to do?"
"I expected you to wait patiently till I had made further enquiries and had written you again."
"And you"ve made further enquiries now?"
"Enquiries! I"ve committed a.s.saults."
"And you find I"ve no claim?"
"No claim that one of THESE big bugs will look at. It struck me at first that you had rather a neat little case. I confess the look of it took hold of me--"
"Thanks to your liking so to please folks!" Mr. Simmons appeared for a moment at odds with something; it proved to be with his liquor. "I rather think your beer"s too good to be true," he said to the waiter. "I guess I"ll take water. Come, old man," he resumed, "don"t challenge me to the arts of debate, or you"ll have me right down on you, and then you WILL feel me. My native sweetness, as I say, was part of it. The idea that if I put the thing through it would be a very pretty feather in my cap and a very pretty penny in my purse was part of it. And the satisfaction of seeing a horrid low American walk right into an old English estate was a good deal of it. Upon my word, Searle, when I think of it I wish with all my heart that, extravagant vain man as you are, I COULD, for the charm of it, put you through! I should hardly care what you did with the blamed place when you got it. I could leave you alone to turn it into Yankee notions--into ducks and drakes as they call "em here. I should like to see you tearing round over it and kicking up its sacred dust in their very faces!"
"You don"t know me one little bit," said Mr. Searle, rather shirking, I thought, the burden of this tribute and for all response to the ambiguity of the compliment.
"I should be very glad to think I didn"t, sir. I"ve been to no small amount of personal inconvenience for you. I"ve pushed my way right up to the headspring. I"ve got the best opinion that"s to be had. The best opinion that"s to be had just gives you one leer over its spectacles. I guess that look will fix you if you ever get it straight. I"ve been able to tap, indirectly," Mr. Simmons went on, "the solicitor of your usurping cousin, and he evidently knows something to be in the wind. It seems your elder brother twenty years ago put out a feeler. So you"re not to have the glory of even making them sit up."
"I never made any one sit up," I heard Mr. Searle plead. "I shouldn"t begin at this time of day. I should approach the subject like a gentleman."
"Well, if you want very much to do something like a gentleman you"ve got a capital chance. Take your disappointment like a gentleman."
I had finished my dinner and had become keenly interested in poor Mr.
Searle"s unencouraging--or unencouraged--claim; so interested that I at last hated to hear his trouble reflected in his voice without being able--all respectfully!--to follow it in his face. I left my place, went over to the fire, took up the evening paper and established a post of observation behind it.
His cold counsellor was in the act of choosing a soft chop from the dish--an act accompanied by a great deal of prying and poking with that gentleman"s own fork. My disillusioned compatriot had pushed away his plate; he sat with his elbows on the table, gloomily nursing his head with his hands. His companion watched him and then seemed to wonder--to do Mr. Simmons justice--how he could least ungracefully give him up.
"I say, Searle,"--and for my benefit, I think, taking me for a native ingenuous enough to be dazzled by his wit, he lifted his voice a little and gave it an ironical ring--"in this country it"s the inestimable privilege of a loyal citizen, under whatsoever stress of pleasure or of pain, to make a point of eating his dinner."
Mr. Searle gave his plate another push. "Anything may happen now. I don"t care a straw."
"You ought to care. Have another chop and you WILL care. Have some better tipple. Take my advice!" Mr. Simmons went on.
My friend--I adopt that name for him--gazed from between his two hands coldly before him. "I"ve had enough of your advice."
"A little more," said Simmons mildly; "I shan"t trouble you again. What do you mean to do?"
"Nothing."
"Oh come!"
"Nothing, nothing, nothing!"