"Iss, but the wind"s gone round--north-easterly--dead against us. An"
luke at the circle round the mune. Ther"s wind in thic sky, I tell "ee.
Us got so much now as we can carry home on a calm sea, let "lone choppy."
We cut the net.
"Hurry up! Hoist sail and get in out o"it "fore the wind rises. Come on!"
With two oars out to windward we started beating home. We made a tack out to sea. There the waves skatted in over the bows, for the deeply-laden boat was down by the head because the heavy pile of net and fish prevented the water from running aft where we could have bailed it out. If we had had to tack much farther to sea.... We should have lost the catch, and perhaps ourselves.
We put the boat round towards Seacombe. "Luff her up all yu can," said John. "Luff her up, I tell thee, or we"m never going to fetch. The sea"s rising an" us an"t got nort to spare."
By keeping the luff of the sail in a flutter, sometimes too much into the wind, I just fetched. Then we rowed into smoother water.
""Tis fifteen thousand if "tis one," said John.
""Tis more"n that," said Tony with a note of respect in his voice.
[Sidenote: _PACKING THE FISH_]
"Better wait till they sends some boats out. Us can"t baych the boat wi" thees weight in her."
We yelled, anch.o.r.ed, then waited; swore, yelled and waited. Someone came at last. The great heavy mast was sent ash.o.r.e. Two boatloads of net and fish followed, and finally the drifter herself was beached.
The crowd that had gathered on the shingle worked at the winch and ropes. We walked about among them answering questions, but for the moment doing nothing. We felt we had a right to watch the landlubbers work in return for the herrings we threw out to them. We had been to sea; had caught the catch of the season.
I came in house and fried some herrings for supper. Tony and John went back to the boat. All night long they worked under the moon, drawing out the net and picking the fish from it, standing knee-deep in fish, spotted with scales like sequins. Far into Sunday they worked, counting and packing the fish while the Sunday folk in their best clothes strolled along the sea-wall and sniffed.
Twenty-two long-thousand herrings--squashed, dirty and bloodstained--were carted away in the barrels. Twenty-eight hours Tony and John had worked. Then they washed, picked herring scales off themselves, and rested. The skin was drawn tightly over their faces and, as it were, away from their eyes. I saw, as I glanced at them, what they will look like when they are old men: the skull and crossbones half peeped out. And I said to myself: "When we feed on herrings we feed on fishermen"s strength. Though we don"t cook human meat, we are cannibals yet. We eat each other"s lives."
Rightly considered, that"s not a nasty thought. Nor a new one either.
7
New Year"s Eve last night.... Tony did not go to sea. He announced that he would turn over a new leaf, and be a gen"leman, and not do no work no more. "Summut"ll turn up," he said when I asked him how he was going to feed his family. "Al"ays have done an" al"ays will, I s"pose. Thees yer ol" fule "ll go on till he"s clean worked out. Thee casn" die but once, an" thee casn" help o"it nuther.
"Shut thee chatter an" bring in some wude," said Mrs Widger. "Now then yu children, off yu goes! Up over, else my hand"ll be "longside o"ee!"
"Gude-night!" say the children in chorus. "Gude-night! Gude-night! See yu t"morrow morning. Du us hae presents on New Year"s Day, Mam?"
"Yu"ll see. P"raps a cracker...."
"Coo"h...."
"Up over!"
"What "tis tu be a family man," said Tony.
"Whu"s fault"s that?" Mam Widger retorted.
"There, me ol" stocking, don"t thee worry a man! Gie us a kiss...."
"G"out!"
[Sidenote: _DREE-HA"P"ORTH_]
The Christmas decorations and the little spangled toys from the children"s crackers were still hanging from clothes-lines across the kitchen. We piled wood on the fire; it had barnacle sh.e.l.ls on it; with the wreckage of good ships we warmed ourselves. Mam Widger laid the supper. The steam from the kettles puffed merrily into the room.
Herrings were cooking in the oven. A faint odour--they were being stewed in vinegar--stole out into the room to give us appet.i.te and for the moment a sense of plenty. Mrs Widger took a penny-ha"penny from the household purse and handed it, together with a jug to Tony.
"Dree-ha"p"orth o" ale an" stout. Go on."
Tony returned with tupence-ha"p"orth. He had added a penny out of his own pocket because he is ashamed to ask for less than a pint. Grannie Pinn came in at the same time. "I got the t"other pen"orth for me mither-in-law," said Tony.
"Chake again!" Grannie Pinn cried. "I wants more"n a pen"orth, I du."
Tony slipped off his boots just in time. It was I who had to fetch an extra dree-ha"p"orth.
We supped with the uproariousness that Grannie Pinn always brings here.
Some other people dropped in to see how we were doing. Not staying to clear the supper, we sang. The songs, as such, were indifferently good, but we meant them and enjoyed them. For a while Grannie Pinn contented herself with humming and nodding to the chorus. She started singing: swore at us for laughing at her. "I cude sing a song wi" anybody once,"
she said; and therewith she struck up a fine, very Rabelaisian old song in many verses. She lifted up her face to the ceiling, blushed (I am sure the Tough Old Stick blushed), and in a high cracked voice that gradually gathered tone and force, she trolled her verses out. With an infectious abandonment, we took up the chorus. After all, "twas a song of things that happen every day--one of those pieces of folk-humour which makes life"s seriousness bearable by carrying us frankly back to the animal that is in us, that has been cursed for centuries and still remains our strength.
Grannie Pinn"s song was the event of the evening. Excited by her efforts to the point of hardly knowing whether to laugh or cry, she told us we were "a pack o" gert fules," and went. The other visitors followed after.
"Don" know what yu feels like," said Tony when they were all gone. "I feels more-ish. "N hour agone I wer fit for bed, now I feels "s if I cude sing for hours on end...."
[Sidenote: _THE NEW YEAR_]
"May as well welcome in the New Year now "tis so late as "tis," said Mrs Widger, taking from one of her store-places a bottle of green ginger-wine and another of fearful and wonderful "Invalid Port" which, as she remarked, "ain"t so strengthening as the port what gentry has."
Tony added hot water to his ginger-wine, lay back in the courting chair, plumped his feet on Mrs Widger"s lap, and sang some more of those sea songs that have such melancholy windy tunes and yet most curiously stimulate one to action. I think it must be because they echo that particular sub-emotional desperation which causes men to do their reckless best--the desperation that the treacherous sea itself engenders.
At a minute or two before twelve by the clock, the three of us went out to the back door. When the cats had scuttled away, the narrow walled-in garden was very still. By the light of the stars, shining like points in the deep winter heavens, I could see the beansticks, the balks of wood and the old masts and oars. I could also smell the drain. Tony, in his stockinged feet, leant on his wife"s shoulder while he raised first one foot from the cold stones, and then the other. We were a little hushed, with more than expectancy. So we waited; to hear the church clock strike and to welcome in the New Year.
And we waited until Tony said that his feet were too cold to stay there any longer. The church clock struck--_ting-tang, ting-tang_--in the frosty air.... A quarter past! The New Year had been with us all the while. It was our German-made kitchen clock had stopped.
We laughed aloud because the strain was relaxed; then bolted the door and began putting away the supper things.
"If anybody wants to make me a New Year"s Gift," said Tony, "they can gie me a thousand a year."
"And then yu"d be done for," I said. "Yu cuden" stand a life o" nort to du. Nor cude I. We"m both in the same box, Tony. We"ve both got only our strength and skill and health, and if that fails, then we"m done.
We"m our own stock-in-trade, and if we fail ourselves, then we"ve both got only the workhouse or the road."
"Iss," said Mam Widger, "an" I don" know but what yu"m worse off than Tony. He _cude_ get somebody to work his boats--for a time. An" I cude work. But afore yu comes to the workhouse yu jest walk along thees way, an" if us got ort to eat yu shall hae some o"it."
"Be d.a.m.n"d if yu shan"t!" said Tony. (I was putting away the pepper-pot at the moment). "Us "ouldn"t never let thee starve, not if us had it ourselves for to give "ee."
So there "tis. I"d wish to do the same for him, that he knows. How much the spirit of such an offer can mean, only those who have been without a home can understand fully. This New Year"s Day has been happier than most. Life has made me a New Year"s Gift so good that I cannot free myself from a suspicion of its being too good.