"Mam! I wants some vish. Mam "Idger...."
"Yu shall hae some fish another time."
"No-o-o!"
"Go on!"
"Well, jam zide plaate then."
Jimmy"s finger was in the jampot.
"Yu daring rascal!" shrieks Mam Widger. "Get "long to school with "ee!
Yu"ll be late an" I shall hae the "spector round. Get "long--and see what I"ll hae for "ee when yu comes back."
"Coo"h! Bulls" eyes! Ay, mam? Good bye, Dad. Good bye, Mam. Bye, Mister Ronals. Gimme a penny will "ee?"
"G.o.d d.a.m.n the child--that ever I should say it--get "long! _I"ll_ hae a bull"s eye for "ee. Now go on."
A tramp of feet went out through the pa.s.sage.
Mrs Widger shovelled the crisp mackerel from the frying-pan into our plates. Tony soused his with vinegar from an old whiskey bottle. We lingered over our tea till he said: "Must go out an" clean they ther boats--the popples what they d.a.m.n visitors" children chucks in for to amuse theirselves, not troubling to think us got to pick every one on "em out be hand, an" looking daggers at "ee when you trys to tell "em o"it so polite as yu can. Ay, me--our work be never done."
"No more ain"t mine!" snapped Mrs Widger, moving off to her washtub.
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For the last two or three days there has been a large flat brown-paper parcel standing against the wall on the far side of my bed. I have wondered what it was.
This evening, after we had all finished tea, while Tony was puffing gingerly at a cigarette (he is nothing of a smoker) with his chair tilted back and a stockinged foot in Mrs Widger"s lap, Jimmy said, as Jimmy usually says: "Gie us another caake, Mam "Idger." He laid a very grubby hand on the cakelets.
"Yu li"l devil!" shouted his mother. "Take yer hands off or I"ll gie "ee such a one.... Yu"d eat an eat till yu busted, I believe; an yu"m that cawdy [finical] over what yu has gie"d "ee...."
Tony took up the poker and made a feint at Jimmy, who jumped into the corner laughing loudly. With an amazing contrast in tone, Mrs Widger said quietly: "Wait a minute an" see what I got to show "ee, if yu"m gude."
[Sidenote: _ROSIE"S PHOTOGRAPH_]
She went upstairs with that peculiar tread of hers--as if the feet were very tired but the rest of the body invincibly energetic,--and returned with the flat parcel. She undid the string, the children watching with greedy curiosity. She placed on the best-lighted chair an enlargement of a baby"s photograph, in a cheap frame, all complete. "There!" she said.
"What is ut?" asked Tony. "Why, "tis li"l Rosie!"
"Wer did "ee get "en?" he continued more softly. "Yu an"t had "en give"d "ee?"
"Give"d me? No! Thic cheap-jack.... But "tisn" bad, is it?"
"What cheap-jack?"
"Why, thic man to the market-house--wer I got the cruet."
"O-oh! I didn" never see he.... What did "ee pay "en for thic then?"
"Never yu mind. "Twasn"t none o" yours what I paid. What do "ee think o"it?"
""Tisn" bad--very nice," remarked Tony, bending before the picture, examining it in all lights. "Iss; "tisn" bad by no means. Come yer, Jimmy an" Tommy. Do "ee know who that ther is?"
"Rosie!" whispered Jimmy.
"What was took up to cementry," added Tommy in a brighter voice.
"Iss, "tis our li"l Rosie to the life (mustn" touch), jest like her was."
A moment"s tension; then, "A surprise for "ee, en" it?" Mrs Widger enquired.
"My ol" geyser!"
The children"s riot began again. "Our Rosie...." they were saying. Mam "Idger, slipping out of Tony"s grasp, carried the picture off to the front room. She was sometime gone.
Wordsworth"s _We are Seven_ came into my mind:
"But they are dead; those two are dead!
Their spirits are in heaven!"
"Twas throwing words away; for still The little maid would have her will, And said, "Nay, we are seven!"
I knew, of course, intellectually, that the poem records more than a child"s mere fancy; but never before have I felt its truth, have I been caught up, so to speak, into the atmosphere of the wise, simple souls who are able to rob death of the worst of its sting by refusing to let the dead die altogether, even on earth. Rosie is dead and buried. I perceive also--I perceived, while Tony and the children stood round that picture--that Rosie is still here, in this house, hallowing it a little. The one statement is as much a fact as the other; but how much more delicately intangible, and perhaps how much truer, the second.
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[Sidenote: _ROSIE"S DEATH_]
While we waited for Tony to come in to supper, Mrs Widger told me about Rosie"s death. "It must be awful," she said, "to lose a child fo them as an"t got nor more. I know how I felt it when Rosie was took. Nothing would please me for months after but to go up to the cementry, to her little grave. "Most every evening I walked up after tea--didn" feel as if I could go to bed an" sleep wi"out. Tony had to fend for hisself if he wanted his supper early. Ther wasn"t no reason, but it did ease me, like, to go up there, an" it heartened me a little for next day"s work.
"Twas a sort o" habit, p"raps. What broke me of it was my bad illness.
[When the twins, "what n.o.body didn" know nort about," were born.] At first, I used to think o" Rosie, when I were lyin" alone upstairs, most "specially at night time if Tony wer out to sea an" it come"d on to blow a bit. I used to think, if ort happened to Tony.... Our room to the top o" the house, sways when it do blow. I don"t trouble me head about Tony when he"s to sea ordinary times--expects "en when I sees "en--but then I wer weak, like, an" full o" fancies. An" after I got about again I wer much too weak to go to cementry: I used to faint every time I come"d downstairs. Howsbe-ever, I did come down again, an"
Tony used to go out and get me quinine wine and three-and-sixpenny port an" all sorts o" messes, to put me on me legs wi"out fainting. "Twas thic illness as broke me o" going up to Rosie"s grave."
"You walk up now on Sunday evenings...." I hazarded, recollecting that then the children run wild for a couple of hours and come in tired and dirty to cry for their mam.
"Yes...." said Mrs Widger.
I saw that I had trespa.s.sed into one of the little solitary tracts of her life.
"One day," she continued, backing the conversation with an imperfectly hidden effort, "when Dr Bayliss come to see me, Tony was asleep in the next bed, snoring under the clothes after a night to sea. Dr Bayliss didn" say nort, "cept he said: "Your husband"s a fisherman, isn"t he, Mrs Widger?" But I saw his shoulders a-shaking as he went out the door, an" that evening he sent me a bottle o" port wine out o" his own cellar, an" it did me a power o" gude. Tony--he was that ashamed o"
hisself, though I told "en "twasn"t nothing for a doctor to see "en...."
[Sidenote: _FRANKNESS AND s.m.u.t_]
At that moment Tony returned. He really was ashamed of the doctor finding him in bed, whether as a breach of manners or of propriety was not plain. Possibly the latter. He has an acute sense of decency, though its rules and regulations are not the same as those of the people he calls gentry. Our conversation here would hardly suit a drawing-room. Tony, if he comes in wet, thinks nothing of stripping down to his shirt. But, curiously enough, one of his chief complaints about the people who hire boats, is their occasionally unclean conversation. "The likes o" us "ould never think of saying what they du. Me, I didn" know nort about half the things they say till I wer grow"d up an" learnt it from listening to the likes o" they. Yu"d hear bad language wi" us an" plain speaking, but never what some o"
they talks about when they got no one to hear "em "cept us they hires, an" they thinks us don"t matter." Tony is right, I believe. Most of the impropriety I used to hear at school, university, and in the smoking room, though often little but a reaction against silly conventions, a tilt against whited sepulchres,--was well-named _s.m.u.t_.
It was furtive, a distortion of life"s facts and inimical therefore to life. Impropriety here, on the other hand, is a recognition of life"s facts, an expression of life, a playful ebullition.