"... she doesn"t come over for her meals," he heard, "but she"ll join us afterwards at the Den. You"ll come too, won"t you, Mr. Minks?"
"Thank you, I shall be most happy--if I"m not intruding," was the reply as they pa.s.sed the fountain near the courtyard of the Citadelle.
The musical gurgle of its splashing water sounded to Rogers like a voice that sang over and over again, "Come up, come up, come up! You must come up to me!"
"How brilliant your stars are out here, Mr. Campden," Minks was saying when they reached the door of La Poste. He stood aside to let the others pa.s.s before him. He held the door open politely. "No wonder you chose them as the symbol for thought and sympathy in your story." And they climbed the narrow, creaking stairs and entered the little hall where the entire population of the Pension des Glycines awaited them with impatience.
The meal dragged out interminably. Everybody had so much to say.
Minks, placed between Mother and Miss Waghorn, talked volubly to the latter and listened sweetly to all her stories. The excitement of the Big Story, however, was in the air, and when she mentioned that she looked forward to reading it, he had no idea, of course, that she had already done so at least three times. The Review had replaced her customary Novel. She went about with it beneath her arm. Minks, feeling friendly and confidential, informed her that he, too, sometimes wrote, and when she noted the fact with a deferential phrase about "you men of letters," he rose abruptly to the seventh heaven of contentment. Mother meanwhile, on the other side, took him bodily into her great wumbled heart. "Poor little chap," her att.i.tude said plainly, "I don"t believe his wife half looks after him." Before the end of supper she knew all about Frank and Ronald, the laburnum tree in the front garden, what tea they bought, and Albinia"s plan for making coal last longer by mixing it with c.o.ke.
Tante Jeanne talked furiously and incessantly, her sister-in-law told her latest dream, and the Postmaster occasionally cracked a solemn joke, laughing uproariously long before the point appeared. It was a merry, noisy meal, and Henry Rogers sat through it upon a throne that was slung with golden ropes from the stars. He was in Fairyland again.
Outside, the Pleiades were rising in the sky, and somewhere in Bourcelles--in the rooms above Beguin"s shop, to be exact--some one was waiting, ready to come over to the Den. His thoughts flew wildly.
Pa.s.sionate longing drove behind them. "You must come up to me," he heard. They all were Kings and Queens.
He played his part, however; no one seemed to notice his preoccupation. The voices sounded now far, now near, as though some wind made sport with them; the faces round him vanished and reappeared; but he contrived cleverly, so that none remarked upon his absent-mindedness. Constellations do not stare at one another much.
"Does your Mother know you"re "out"?" asked Monkey once beside him--it was the great joke now, since the Story had been read--and as soon as she was temporarily disposed of, Jimbo had serious information to impart from the other side. "She"s a real Countess," he said, speaking as man to man. "I suppose if she went to London she"d know the King-- visit him, like that?"
Bless his little heart! Jimbo always knew the important things to talk about.
There were bursts of laughter sometimes, due usually to statements made abruptly by Jane Anne--as when Mother, discussing the garden with Minks, reviled the mischievous birds:--
"They want thinning badly," she said.
"Why don"t they take more exercise, then?" inquired Jinny gravely.
And in these gusts of laughter Rogers joined heartily, as though he knew exactly what the fun was all about. In this way he deceived everybody and protected himself from discovery. And yet it seemed to him that he shouted his secret aloud, not with his lips indeed, but with his entire person. Surely everybody knew it...! He was self- conscious as a schoolgirl.
"You must come up--to me," rang continuously through his head like bells. "You must come up to me."
CHAPTER x.x.xIV
How many times do I love thee, dear?
Tell me how many thoughts there be In the atmosphere Of a new fall"n year, Whose white and sable hours appear The latest flake of Eternity:-- So many times do I love thee, dear.
How many times do I love again?
Tell me how many beads there are In a silver chain Of evening rain, Unravelled from the tumbling main, And threading the eye of a yellow star:-- So many times do I love again.
THOMAS LOVELL BEDDOES.
A curious deep shyness settled upon Henry Rogers as they all trooped over to the Den. The others gabbled noisily, but to him words came with difficulty. He felt like a boy going up for some great test, examination, almost for judgment. There was an idea in him that he must run and hide somewhere. He saw the huge outline of Orion tilting up above the Alps, slanting with the speed of his eternal hunt to seize the Pleiades who sailed ever calmly just beyond his giant arms.
Yet what that old Hunter sought was at last within his reach. He knew it, and felt the awe of capture rise upon him.
"You"ve eaten so much supper you can"t speak," said Monkey, whose hand was in his coat-pocket for loose chicken-feed, as she called centimes.
"The Little Countess will _regler ton affaire_ all right. Just wait till she gets at you."
"You love her?" he asked gently, feeling little disposed to play.
The child"s reply was cryptic, yet uncommonly revealing:--
"She"s just like a relation. It"s so funny she didn"t know us long, long ago--find us out, I mean."
"Mother likes her awfully," added Jimbo, as though that established the matter of her charm for ever. "It"s a pity she"s not a man"--just to show that Cousinenry"s position was not endangered.
They chattered on. Rogers hardly remembers how he climbed the long stone steps. He found himself in the Den. It came about with a sudden jump as in dreams. _She_ was among them before the courtyard was crossed; she had gone up the steps immediately in front of him....
Jinny was bringing in the lamp, while Daddy struggled with a load of peat for the fire, getting in everybody"s way. Riquette stood silhouetted against the sky upon the window sill. Jimbo used the bellows. A glow spread softly through the room. He caught sight of Minks standing rather helplessly beside the sofa talking to Jane Anne, and picking at his ear as he always did when nervous or slightly ill at ease. He wondered vaguely what she was saying to him. He looked everywhere but at the one person for whose comfort the others were so energetic.
His eyes did not once turn in her direction, yet he knew exactly how she was dressed, what movements she made, where she stood, the very words, indeed, she used, and in particular the expression of her face to each in turn. For he was guilty of a searching inner scrutiny he could not control. And, above all, he was aware, with a divine, tumultuous thrill, that she, for her part, also neither looked at him nor uttered one sentence that he could take as intended for himself.
Because, of course, all she said and did and looked _were_ meant for him, and her scrutiny was even closer and more searching than his own.
In the Den that evening there was one world within another, though only these two, and probably the intuitive and diabolically observant Minks, perceived it. The deep furnaces of this man"s inner being, banked now so long that mere little flames had forgotten their way out, lay open at last to that mighty draught before whose fusing power the molten, fluid state becomes inevitable.
"You must come up to me" rang on in his head like a chime of bells. "O think Beauty: it"s your duty...."
The chairs were already round the open fireplace, when Monkey pushed him into the big one with the broken springs he always used, and established herself upon his knee. Jimbo was on the other in a twinkling. Jane Anne plumped down upon the floor against him. Her hair was up, and grown-ups might sit as they pleased. Minks in a hard, straight-backed chair, firmly a.s.sured everybody that he was exceedingly comfortable and really preferred stiff chairs. He found safety next to Mother who, pleased and contented, filled one corner of the sofa and looked as though she occupied a pedestal. Beyond her perched Daddy, on the music stool, leaning his back against the unlighted fourneau. The Wumble Book was balanced on his knees, and beside him sat the little figure of the visitor who, though at the end, was yet somehow the true centre of the circle. Rogers saw her slip into her unimportant place. She took her seat, he thought, as softly as a mouse. For no one seemed to notice her. She was so perfectly at home among them. In her little folded hands the Den and all its occupants seemed cared for beyond the need of words or definite action. And, although her place was the furthest possible remove from his own, he felt her closer to him than the very children who nestled upon his knees.
Riquette then finally, when all were settled, stole in to complete the circle. She planted herself in the middle of the hearth before them all, looked up into their faces, decided that all was well, and began placidly to wash her face and back. A leg shot up, from the middle of her back apparently, as a signal that they might talk. A moment later she composed herself into that att.i.tude of dignified security possible only to the feline species. She made the fourth that inhabited this world within a world. Rogers, glancing up suddenly from observing her, caught---for the merest fraction of an instant--a flash of starfire in the air. It darted across to him from the opposite end of the horse- shoe. Behind it flickered the tiniest smile a human countenance could possibly produce.
"Little mouse who, lost in wonder, Flicks its whiskers at the thunder."
It was Jane Anne repeating the rhyme for Minks"s benefit. How appropriately it came in, he thought. And voices were set instantly in motion; it seemed that every one began to speak at once.
Who finally led the conversation, or what was actually said at first, he has no more recollection than the man in the moon, for he only heard the silvery music of a single voice. And that came rarely. He felt washed in glory from head to foot. In a dream of happy starlight he swam and floated. He hid his face behind the chair of Monkey, and his eyes were screened below the welcome shelter of Jimbo"s shoulder.
The talk meanwhile flowed round the horse-shoe like a river that curves downhill. Life ran past him, while he stood on the banks and watched. He reconstructed all that happened, all that was said and done, each little movement, every little glance of the eye. These common things he recreated. For, while his body sat in the Den before a fire of peat, with children, a cat, a private secretary, three very ordinary people and a little foreign visitor, his spirit floated high above the world among the immensities of suns and starfields. He was in the Den, but the Den was in the universe, and to the scale of the universe he set the little homely, commonplace picture. Life, he realised, _is_ thought and feeling; and just then he thought and felt like a G.o.d. He was Orion, and Orion had at last overtaken the Pleiades. The fairest of the cl.u.s.ter lay caught within his giant arms.
The Enormous Thing that so long had haunted him with hints of its approach, rose up from his under-self, and possessed him utterly. And, oh, the glory of it, the splendour, the intoxication!
In the dim corner where _she_ sat, the firelight scarcely showed her face, yet every shade of expression that flitted across her features he saw un.o.bscured. The sparkling, silvery sentences she spoke from time to time were volumes that interpreted life anew. For years he had pored over these thick tomes, but heavily and without understanding.
The little things she said now supplied the key. Mind and brain played no part in this. It was simply that he heard--and knew. He re- discovered her from their fragments, piece by piece....
The general talk flowed past him in a stream of sound, cut up into lengths by interrupting consonants, and half ruined by this arbitrary division; but what _she_ said always seemed the living idea that lay behind the sound. He could not explain it otherwise. With herself, and with Riquette, and possibly with little, dreaming Minks, he sat firmly at the centre of this inner world. The others, even the children, hovered about its edges, trying to get in. That tiny smile had flashed its secret, ineffable explanation into him. Starlight was in his blood....
Mother, for instance, he vaguely knew, was speaking of the years they all had lived in Bourcelles, of the exquisite springs, of the fairy, gorgeous summers. It was the most ordinary talk imaginable, though it came sincerely from her heart.
"If only you had come here earlier," she said, "when the forest was so thick with flowers." She enumerated them one by one. "Now, in the autumn, there are so few!"
The little sparkling answer lit the forest glades afresh with colour, perfume, wonder:--
"But the autumn flowers, I think, are the sweetest; for they have the beauty of all the summer in them."
A slight pause followed, and then all fell to explaining the shining little sentence until its l.u.s.tre dimmed and disappeared beneath the smother of their words. In himself, however, who heard them not, a new constellation swam above the horizon of his inner world. Riquette looked slyly up and blinked. She purred more deeply, but she made no stupid sign....
And Daddy mentioned then the forest spell that captured the entire village with its peace and softness--"all so rough and big and tumbled, and yet every detail so exquisitely finished and thought out, you know."
Out slipped the softest little fairy phrase imaginable from her dim corner then:--