Pitt, however, while he was talking about his own doings and affairs, was thinking about Esther. She had changed, somehow. That wonderful stage of life, "where the brook and river meet," she had hardly yet reached; she was really a little girl still, or certainly ought to be.
What was then this delicate, grave, spiritual look in the face, the thoughtful intelligence, the refinement of perception, so beyond her years? No doubt it was due to her living alone, with a somewhat gloomy father, and being prematurely thrown upon a woman"s needs and a woman"s resources. Pitt recognised the fact that his own absence might have had something to do with it. So long as he had been with her, teaching her and making a daily breeze in her still life, Esther had been in a measure drawn out of herself, and kept from brooding. And then, beyond all, the natural organization of this fine creature was of the rarest; strong and delicate at once, of large capacities and with correspondingly large requirements; able for great enjoyment, and open also to keen suffering. He could see it in every glance of the big, thoughtful eyes, and every play of the sensitive lips, which had, however, a trait of steadfastness and grave character along with their sensitiveness. Pitt looked, and wondered, and admired. This child"s face was taking on already a fascinating power of expression, quite beyond her years; and that was because the inner life was developing too soon into thoughtfulness and tenderness, and too early realizing the meaning of life. Nothing could be more innocent of self-consciousness than Esther; she did not even know that Pitt was regarding her with more attention than ordinary, or, if she knew, she took it as quite natural. He saw that, and so indulged himself. What a creature this would be, by and by! But in the meantime, what was to become of her? Without a mother, or a sister, or a brother; all alone; with n.o.body near who even knew what she needed. What would become of her? It was not stagnation that was to be feared, but too vivid life; not that she would be mentally stunted, but that the growth would be to exhaustion, or lack the right hardening processes, and so be unhealthy.
The colonel awoke after a while, and welcomed his visitor as truly, if not as warmly, as Esther had done. He always had liked young Dallas; and now, after so long living alone, the sight of him was specially grateful. Pitt must stay and have tea; and the talk between him and the colonel went on unflaggingly. Esther said nothing now; but Pitt watched her, and saw how she listened; saw how her eyes accompanied him, and her lips gave their silent tokens of understanding. Meanwhile she poured out tea for the gentlemen; did it with quiet grace and neatness, and was quick to see and attend to any little occasion for hospitable care.
The old life began again now in good measure. Esther had no need to beg Pitt to come often; he came constantly. He took up her lessons, as of old, and carried them on vigorously; rightly thinking that good sound mental work was wholesome for the child. He joined her in drawing, and begged the colonel to give him instruction too; and they studied the coins in the boxes with fresh zeal. And they had glorious walks, and most delightful botanizing, in the early summer mornings, or when the sun had got low in the western sky. Sometimes Pitt came with a little tax-cart and took Esther a drive. It was all delight; I cannot tell which thing gave her most pleasure. To study with Pitt, or to play with Pitt, one was as good as the other; and the summer days of that summer were not fuller of fruit-ripening sun, than of blessed, warm, healthy, and happy influences for this little human plant. Her face grew bright and joyous, though in moments when the talk took a certain sober tone Pitt could see the light or the shadow, he hardly knew which to call it, of that too early spiritual insight and activity come over it.
One day, soon after his arrival, he asked her what she had been thinking about so much. They were sitting on the verandah again, to be out of the way of the colonel; they were taking up lessons, and had just finished an examination in history. Pitt let the book fall.
"You said the other day, Queen Esther, that you were under the necessity of thinking. May I ask what you have been thinking about?"
"Did I say that?"
"Something like it."
Esther"s face became sober. "Everybody must think, I suppose, Pitt?"
"That is a piece of your innocence. A great many people get along quite comfortably without doing any thinking at all."
"One might as well be a squash," said Esther gravely. "I don"t see how they can live so."
"Some people think too much."
"Why?"
"I don"t know why, I am sure. It"s their nature, I suppose."
"What harm, Pitt?"
"You keep a fire going anywhere, and it will burn up what is next to it."
"Is thought like fire?"
"So far, it is. What were you thinking about, Queen Esther?"
"I had been wanting to ask you about it, Pitt," the girl said, a little with the air of one who is rousing herself up to give a confidence. "I was looking for something and I did not know where to find it."
"Looking for what?"
"I remembered, mamma said people could always find comfort in the Bible; but I did not know how to look for it."
"Comfort, Queen Esther!" said Pitt, rousing himself now; "you were not in want of that article, were you?"
"After you were gone, you know--I hadn"t anybody left. And oh, Pitt, are you going to--England?"
"One thing at a time. Tell me about this extraordinary want of comfort, at twelve years old. That is improper, Queen Esther!"
"Why?" she said, casting up to him a pair of such wistful, sensitive, beautiful eyes, that the young man was almost startled.
"People at your age ought to have comfort enough to give away to other people."
"I shouldn"t think they could, always," said Esther quaintly.
"What is the matter with you?"
Esther looked down, a little uneasily. She felt that Pitt ought to have known. And he did know; however, he thought it advisable to have things brought out into the full light and put into form; hoping they might so be easier dealt with. Esther"s next words were hardly consecutive, although perfectly intelligible.
"I know, of course, you cannot stay here always."
"Of course. But then I shall always be coming back."
Esther sighed. She was thinking that the absences were long and the times of being at home short; but what was the use of talking about it?
That lesson, that words do not change the inevitable, she had already learned. Pitt was concerned.
"Where did you say your highness went to look for comfort?"
"In the Bible. Oh, yes, that was what I wanted your help about. I did not know how to look; and papa said he didn"t; or I don"t know if he _said_ exactly that, but it came to the same thing. And then I asked Barker."
"Was she any wiser?"
"No. She said her way of finding anything was to begin at one end and go through to the other; so I tried that. I began at the beginning; and I read on; but I found nothing until--I"ll show you," she said, suddenly breaking off and darting away; and in two minutes more she came back with her Bible. She turned over the leaves eagerly.
"Here, Pitt,--I came to this. Now what does it mean?"
She gave him the volume open at the sixth chapter of Numbers; in the end of which is the prescribed form for the blessing of the children of Israel. Pitt read the words to himself.
"The Lord bless thee, and keep thee. "The Lord make His face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee. "The Lord lift up His countenance upon thee, and give thee peace."
Esther waited till she saw he had read them through.
"Now, Pitt, what does that mean?"
"Which?"
"That last: "The Lord lift up His countenance upon thee, and give thee peace." What does "lift up his countenance upon thee" mean?"
What _did_ it mean? Pitt asked himself the question for the first time in his life. He was quite silent.
"You see," said Esther quaintly, after a pause,--"you see, _that_ would be comfort."
Pitt was still silent.
"Do you understand it, Pitt?"
"_Understand_ it, Esther!" he said, knitting his brows, "No. n.o.body could do that, except--the people that had it. But I think I see what it means."
"The people "that had it"? That had what?"