"What are called so."
"Are the kings still trying to get away the liberties of the people?"
"No, my child. Those are pretty well secured."
"And here we have no king at all. I don"t see how you can be a Whig, or Mrs. Dallas a Tory."
"There are always the two parties. One, that sticks by the government and aims to strengthen its hands, right or wrong; and the other, that looks out for the liberties of the people and watches that they be not infringed or tampered with."
Esther thought a while, but not exclusively over the political question. It might have occurred to an older person to wonder how William Pitt had got his name from parents who were both Tories. The fact was that here, as in many another case, money was the solution of the difficulty. A rich relation, who was also a radical, had promised a fine legacy to the boy if he were given the name of the famous Whig statesman, and Mr. Mrs. and Dallas had swallowed the pill per help of the sugar. About this Esther knew nothing.
"Papa," she said, "don"t you think Pitt will get so fond of England that he will never want to come back?"
"It would not be strange if he did."
"Is England so much better than America, papa?"
"It is England, my dear!" the colonel said, with an expression which meant, she could not tell what.
CHAPTER XV.
_COMFORT_.
These letters, on the whole, did not comfort Esther. The momentary intense pleasure was followed by inevitable dull reaction and contrast; and before she had well got over the effect of one batch of letters another came; and she was kept in a perpetual stir and conflict. For Pitt proved himself a good correspondent, although it was June before the first letter from his parents reached him. So he reported, writing on the third of that month; and told that the Allied Sovereigns were just then leaving Paris for a visit to the British Capital, and all the London world was on tiptoe. "Great luck for me to be here just now," he wrote; and so everybody at home agreed. Mrs. Dallas grew more stately, Esther thought, with every visit she made at the colonel"s house; and she and her husband made many. It was a necessity to have some one to speak to about Pitt and Pitt"s letters; and it was urgent likewise that Mrs. Dallas should know if letters had been received by the same mail at this other house. She always found out, one way or another; and then she would ask, "May I see?" and scan with eager eyes the sheet the colonel generally granted her. Of the letters to Esther nothing was said, but Esther lived in fear and trembling that some inadvertent word might let her know of their existence.
Another necessity which brought the Dallases often to Colonel Gainsborough"s was the political situation. They could hardly discuss it with anybody else in Seaforth, and what is the use of a political situation if you cannot discuss it? All the rest of the families in the neighbourhood were strong Americans; and even Pitt, in his letters, was more of an American than anything else. Indeed, so much more, that it gave his mother sad annoyance. He told of the temper of the English people at this juncture; of the demands to be made by the English government before they would hear of peace; of a strong force sent to Canada, and the general indignant and belligerent tone of feeling and speech among members of Parliament; but Pitt did not write as if he sympathized with it. "He has lived here too long already!" sighed his mother.
"Not if he is destined to live here the rest of his life, my dear madam," said the colonel.
"He will not do that. He will end by settling in England."
"Will may have his own views, on that as on some other things."
"By the time he has gone through the University and studied for his profession, he will be more of an Englishman than of an American," Mr.
Dallas observed contentedly. "He will choose for himself."
"What profession? Have you fixed upon one? or has he?"
"Time enough yet for that."
"But your property lies here."
"I am here to take care of it," said Mr. Dallas, laughing a little.
All this sort of talk, which Esther heard often, with variations, made one thing clear to her, namely, that if it depended on his father and mother, Pitt"s return to his native country would be long delayed or finally prevented. It did not entirely depend on them, everybody knew who knew him; nevertheless it seemed to Esther that the fascinations of the old world must be great, and the feeling of the distance between her and Pitt grew with every letter. It was not the fault of the letters or of the writer in any way, nor was it the effect the latter were intended to produce; but Esther grew more and more despondent about him. And then, after a few months, the letters became short and rare. Pitt had gone to Oxford; and, from the time of his entering the University, plunged head and ears into business, so eagerly that time and disposition failed for writing home. Letters did come, from time to time, but there was much less in them; and those for Colonel Gainsborough were at long intervals. So, when the second winter of Pitt"s absence began to set in, Esther reckoned him, to all intents and purposes, lost to her life.
The girl went with increased eagerness and intentness to the one resource she had--her Bible. The cry for happiness is so natural to the human heart, that it takes long oppression to stifle it. The cry was strong in Esther"s young nature--strong and imperative; and in all the world around her she saw no promise of help or supply. The spring at which she had slaked her thirst was dried up; the desert was as barren to her eye as it had been to Hagar"s; but, unlike Hagar, she sought with a sort of desperate eagerness in one quarter where she believed water might be found. When people search in _that_ way, unless they get discouraged, their search is apt to come to something; unless, indeed, they are going after a mirage, and it was no mirage that hovered before Esther,--no vision of anything, indeed; she was searching into the meaning of a promise.
And, as I said, n.o.body knew; n.o.body helped her; the months of that winter rolled slowly and gloomily over her. Esther was between fourteen and fifteen now; her mind just opening to a consciousness of its powers, and a growing dawn of its possibilities. Life was unfolding, not its meaning, but something of its extent and richness to her; less than ever could she content herself to have it a desert. The study went on all through the winter with no visible change or result. But with the breaking spring the darkness and ice-bound state of Esther"s mind seemed to break up too. Another look came into the girl"s face--a high quiet calm; a light like the light of the spring itself, so gracious and tender and sweet. Esther was changed. The duties which she had done all along with a dull punctuality were done now with a certain blessed alacrity; her eye got its life of expression again, and a smile more sweet than any former ones came readily to the lips. I do not think the colonel noticed all this; or if he noticed at all, he simply thought Esther was glad of the change of season; the winter, to be sure, had kept her very much shut up. The servants were more observing.
"Do you know, we"re a-goin" to have a beauty in this "ere house?"
inquired Christopher one evening of his sister, with a look of sly search, as if to see whether she knew it.
"Air we?" asked the housekeeper.
"A beauty, and no mistake. Why, Sarah, can"t you see it?"
"I sees all there is to see in the family," the housekeeper returned with a superior air.
"Then you see that. She"s grown and changed uncommon, within a year."
"She"s a very sweet young lady," Mrs. Barker agreed.
"And she"s goin" to be a stunner for looks," Christopher repeated, with that same sly observation of his sister"s face. "She"ll be better-lookin" than ever her mother was."
"Mrs. Gainsborough was a handsome woman too," said the housekeeper.
"But Miss Esther"s very promisin"--you"re right there; she"s very promisin". She"s just beginnin" to show what she will be."
"She"s got over her dumps lately uncommon. I judged the dumps was natural enough, sitiwated as she is; but she"s come out of "em. She"s openin" up like a white camellia; and there ain"t anythin" that grows that has less shadow to it; though maybe it ain"t what you"d call a gay flower," added Christopher thoughtfully.
"Is that them stiff white flowers as has no smell to "em?"
"The same, Mrs. Barker--if you mean what I mean."
"Then I wouldn"t liken Miss Esther to no sich. She"s sweet, she is, and she ain"t noways stiff. She has just which I call the manners a young lady ought to have."
"Can"t beat a white camellia for manners," responded Christopher jocularly.
So the servants saw what the father did not. I think he hardly knew even that Esther was growing taller.
One evening in the spring, Esther was as usual making tea for her father. As usual also the tea-time was very silent. The colonel sometimes carried on his reading alongside of his tea-cup; at other times, perhaps, he pondered what he had been reading.
"Papa," said Esther suddenly, "would it be any harm if I wrote a letter to Pitt?"
The colonel did not answer at once.
"Do you want to write to him?"
"Yes, papa; I would like it--I would like to write once."
"What do you want to write to him for?"
"I would like to tell him something that I think it would please him to hear."
"What is that?"