"Have family prayer."
If a bombsh.e.l.l had suddenly alighted on the table and there exploded, there would have been, no doubt, more feeling of fright, but not more of shocked surprise. Dumb silence followed. Angry eyes were directed towards the speaker from the top and from the bottom of the table. Miss Frere cast down hers with the inward thought, "Oh, you foolish, foolish fellow! what did you do that for, and spoil everything!" Pitt waited a little.
"It is duty," he said. "You yourselves will grant me that."
"And you fancy it is _your_ duty to remind us of ours!" said his father, with contained scorn.
The mother"s agitation was violent--so violent that she had difficulty to command herself. What it was that moved her so painfully she could not have told; her thoughts were in too much of a whirl. Between anger, and fear, and something else, she was in the greatest confusion, and not able to utter a syllable. Betty sat internally railing at Pitt"s folly.
"The only question is, Is it duty?--in either case," the son said steadfastly.
"Exactly!" said his father. "Well, you have done yours; and I will do mine."
His wife wondered at his calmness, and guessed that it was studied.
Neither of them was prepared for Pitt"s next word.
"Will you?" he said simply. "And will you let me make a beginning now?
Because I am going away?"
"Do what you like," said the older man, with indescribable expression.
Betty interpreted it to be restrained rage. His wife thought it was a moved conscience, or mere policy and curiosity; she could not tell which. The words were enough, however, whatever had moved them. Pitt took a Bible and read, still sitting at the table, the Parable of the Talents; and then he kneeled down. The elder Dallas never stirred.
Betty knelt at once. Mrs. Dallas sat still at first, but then slipped from her chair to the floor and buried her face in her hands, where tears that were exceedingly bitter flowed beyond all her power to hinder them. For Pitt was praying, and to his mother"s somewhat shocked astonishment, not in any words from a book, but in words--where did he get them?--that broke her heart. They were solemn and sweet, tender and simple; there was neither boldness nor shyness in them, although there was a frankness at which Mrs. Dallas wondered, along with the tenderness that quite subdued her.
The third one kneeling there was moved differently. The fountain of her tears was not touched at all, neither had she any share in the pa.s.sion of displeasure which filled the father and mother. Yet she was in a disturbance almost as complete as theirs. It was a bitter and secret trouble, which as a woman she had to keep to herself, over which her head bowed as she knelt there. Just for that minute she might bow her head and confess to her trouble, while no one could see; and her head, poor girl, went low. She did not in the least approve of Pitt"s proceedings; she did not sympathize with his motives; at the same time they did not make her like him the less. On the contrary, and Betty felt it was on the contrary, she could not help admiring his bravery, and she was almost ready to worship his strength. Somebody brave enough to avow truth that is unwelcome, and strong enough to do what goes against the grain with himself; such a person is not to be met with every day, and usually excites the profound respect of his fellows, even when they do not like him. But Betty liked this one, and liked him the more for doing the things she disliked, and it drove her to the bounds of desperation to feel that in the engrossment of his new principles he was carried away from her, and out of her power. Added to all this was the extreme strangeness of the present experience.
Absolutely kneeling round the dinner-table!--kneeling to pray! Betty had never known such a thing, nor conceived the possibility of such a thing. In an unconsecrated place, led by unconsecrated lips, in words nowhere set down; what could equal the irregularity and the impropriety? The two women, in their weakness, kneeling, and the master of the house showing by his unmoved posture that he disallowed the whole thing! Incongruous! unfortunate! I am bound to say that Betty understood little of the words she so disapproved; the sea under a stormy wind is not more uneasy than was her spirit; and towards the end her one special thought and effort was bent upon quieting the commotion, and at least appearing unmoved. She was pretty safe, for the other members of the family had each enough to busy him without taking much note of her.
Pitt had but a day or two more to stay; and Miss Frere felt an irresistible impulse to force him into at least one talk more. She hardly knew what she expected, or what she wished from it; only, to let him go so, without one more word, was unbearable. She wanted to get nearer to him, if she could, if she might not bring him nearer to her; and at any rate she wanted the bitter-sweet pleasure of arguing with him. Nothing might come of it, but she must have the talk if she could.
So she took the first chance that offered.
The family atmosphere was a little oppressive the next morning; and after breakfast Mr. and Mrs. Dallas both disappeared. Betty seized her opportunity, and reminded Pitt that he had never showed her his particular room, his old workshop and play place. "It was not much to see," he said; however, he took her through the house, and up the open flight of steps, where long ago Esther had been used to go for her lessons. The room looked much as it had done at that time; for during Pitt"s stay at home he had pulled out one thing after another from its packing or hiding place; and now, mounted birds and animals, coins, sh.e.l.ls, minerals, presses, engravings, drawings, and curiosities, made a delightful litter; delightful, for it was not disorderly; only gave one the feeling of a wealth of tastes and pursuits, every one of them pursued to enjoyment. Betty studied the place and the several objects in it with great and serious attention.
"And you understand all these things!" said she.
"So little, that I am ashamed to speak of it."
"I know!" said Betty; "that is what n.o.body says whose knowledge is small. It takes a good deal of knowing to perceive how much one does _not_ know."
"That is true."
"And what becomes of all these riches when you are gone away?"
"They remain in seclusion. I must pack them up to-day. It is a job I have reserved to the last, for I like to have them about while I am here."
He began as he spoke to put away some little articles, and got out paper to wrap up others.
"And how came you by all these tastes? Mr. and Mrs. Dallas do not share them, I think."
"No. Impossible to say. Inherited from some forgotten ancestor, perhaps."
"Were there ever any Independents or Puritans among your ancestors?"
"No!" said Pitt, with a laughing look at her. "The record is clean, I believe, on both sides of the house. My mother has not that on her conscience."
"But you sympathize with such supposit.i.tious ancestors?"
"Why do you say so?"
"Mr. Pitt," said Betty, sitting down and folding her hands seriously in her lap, "I wish you would let me ask you one thing."
"Ask it certainly," said he.
"But it is really not my business; only, I am puzzled, and interested, and do not know what to think. You will not be displeased?"
"I think I can answer for that."
"Then do tell me why, when you are just going away and cannot carry it on, you should have done what you did last night?"
"As I am just going away, don"t you see, it was my only chance."
"But I do not understand why you did it. You knew it would be something like an earthquake; and what is the use of earthquakes?"
"You remember the Eastern theory--Burmese, is it? or Siamese?--according to which the world rests on the heads of four elephants; when one of the elephants shakes his head, there is an earthquake. But must not the elephant therefore move his head?"
"But the world does not rest on _your_ head."
"I do not forget that," said Pitt gravely. "Not the world, but a small piece of it does rest on my head, as on that of every other human creature. On the right position and right movement of every one of us depends more than we know. What we have to do is to keep straight and go straight."
"But did you think it was _duty_ to do what you did last night?"
"I did it in that faith."
"I wish you would explain to me!" cried the lady. "I cannot understand.
I believe you, of course; but _why_ did you think it duty? It just raised a storm; you know it did; they did not like it; and it would only make them more opposed to your new principles. I do not see how it could do any good."
"Yes," said Pitt, who meanwhile was going on with his packing and putting away. "I know all that. But don"t you think people ought to show their colours, as much as ships at sea?"
"Ships at sea do not always show their colours."
"If they do not, when there is occasion, it is always ground for suspicion. It shows that they are for some reason either afraid or ashamed to announce themselves."
"I do not understand!" said Miss Frere perplexedly. "Why should _you_ show your colours?"
"I said I was moved by duty to propose prayers last night. It was more than that." Pitt stopped in his going about the room and stood opposite his fair opponent, if she can be called so, facing her with steady eyes and a light in them which drew her wonder. "It was more than duty.
Since I have come to see the goodness of Christ, and the happiness of belonging to Him, I wish exceedingly that everybody else should see it and know it as I do."
"And, if I remember, you intimated once that it was to be the business of your life to make them know it?"
"What do you think of that purpose?"