"Let him go, Zakhar," said Delesof. "I do not wish to detain you, and I have no right to, but I advise you to stay till to-morrow," he added, addressing Albert.
"No one has the right to detain me. I am going to the police," screamed Albert more and more furiously, addressing only Zakhar, and not heeding Delesof. "Guard!" he suddenly shouted at the top of his voice.
"Now, what are you screaming like that for? You see you are free to go,"
said Zakhar, opening the door.
Albert ceased screaming. "How did they dare? They were going to murder me!
No!" he muttered to himself as he put on his galoshes. Not offering to say good-by, and still muttering something unintelligible, he went out of the door. Zakhar accompanied him to the gate, and came back.
"Thank the Lord, Dmitri Ivanovitch! Any longer would have been a sin," said he to his barin. "And now we must count the silver."
Delesof only shook his head, and made no reply. There came over him a lively recollection of the first two evenings which he and the musician had spent together; he remembered the last wretched days which Albert had spent there; and above all he remembered the sweet but absurd sentiment of wonder, of love, and of sympathy, which had been aroused in him by the very first sight of this strange man; and he began to pity him.
"What will become of him now?" he asked himself. "Without money, without warm clothing, alone at midnight!" He thought of sending Zakhar after him, but now it was too late.
"Is it cold out doors?" he asked.
"A healthy frost, Dmitri Ivanovitch," replied the man. "I forgot to tell you that you will have to buy some more firewood to last till spring."
"But what did you mean by saying that it would last?"
VII.
Out of doors it was really cold; but Albert did not feel it, he was so excited by the wine that he had taken and by the quarrel.
As he entered the street, he looked around him, and rubbed his hands with pleasure. The street was empty, but the long lines of lights were still brilliantly gleaming; the sky was clear and beautiful. "What!" he cried, addressing the lighted window in Delesof"s apartments; and then thrusting his hands in his trousers pockets under his coat, and looking straight ahead, he walked with heavy and uncertain steps straight up the street.
He felt an absolute weight in his legs and abdomen, something hummed in his head, some invisible power seemed to hurl him from side to side; but he still plunged ahead in the direction of where Anna Ivanovna lived.
Strange, disconnected thoughts rushed through his head. Now he remembered his quarrel with Zakhar, now something recalled the sea and his first voyage in the steamboat to Russia; now the merry night that he had spent with some friend in the wine-shop by which he was pa.s.sing; then suddenly there came to him a familiar air singing itself in his recollections, and he seemed to see the object of his pa.s.sion and the terrible night in the theatre.
But notwithstanding their incoherence, all these recollections presented themselves before his imaginations with such distinctness that when he closed his eyes he could not tell which was nearer to the reality: what he was doing, or what he was thinking. He did not realize and he did not feel how his legs moved, how he staggered and hit against a wall, how he looked around him, and how he made his way from street to street.
As he went along the Little Morskaya, Albert tripped and fell. Collecting himself in a moment, he saw before him some huge and magnificent edifice, and he went toward it.
In the sky not a star was to be seen, nor sign of dawn, nor moon, neither were there any street-lights there; but all objects were perfectly distinguishable. The windows of the edifice, which loomed up at the corner of the street, were brilliantly lighted, but the lights wavered like reflections. The building kept coming nearer and nearer, clearer and clearer, to Albert.
But the lights vanished the moment that Albert entered the wide portals.
Inside it was dark. He took a few steps under the vaulted ceiling, and something like shades glided by and fled at his approach.
"Why did I come here?" wondered Albert; but some irresistible power dragged him forward into the depths of the immense hall.
There stood some lofty platform, and around it in silence stood what seemed like little men. "Who is going to speak?" asked Albert. No one answered, but some one pointed to the platform. There stood now on the platform a tall, thin man, with bushy hair and dressed in a variegated gown. Albert immediately recognized his friend Petrof.
"How strange! what is he doing here?" said Albert to himself.
"No, brethren," said Petrof, pointing to something, "you did not appreciate the man while he was living among you; you did not appreciate him! He was not a cheap artist, not a merely mechanical performer, not a crazy, ruined man. He was a genius, a great musical genius, who perished among you unknown and unvalued."
Albert immediately understood of whom his friend was speaking; but not wishing to interrupt him, he hung his head modestly. "He, like a sheaf of straw, was wholly consumed by the sacred fire which we all serve,"
continued the voice. "But he has completely fulfilled all that G.o.d gave him; therefore he ought to be considered a great man. You may despise him, torture him, humiliate him," continued the voice, more and more energetically, "but he has been, is, and will be immeasurably higher than you all. He is happy, he is good. He loved you all alike, or cared for you, it is all the same; but he has served only that with which he was so highly endowed. He loved one thing,--beauty, the only infinite good in the world.
Oh, yes, what a man he is! Fall all of you before him. On your knees!"
cried Petrof in a thundering voice.
But another voice mildly answered from another corner of the hall. "I do not wish to bow my knee before him," said the voice.
Albert instantly recognized Delesof.
"Why is he great? And why should we bow before him? Has he conducted himself in an honorable and righteous manner? Has he brought society any advantage? Do we not know how he borrowed money, and never returned it; how he carried off a violin that belonged to a brother artist, and p.a.w.ned it?"
"My G.o.d! how did he know all that?" said Albert to himself, drooping his head still lower.
"Do we not know," the voice went on, "how he pandered to the lowest of the low, pandered to them for money? Do we not know how he was driven out of the theatre? How Anna Ivanovna threatened to hand him over to the police?"
"My G.o.d! that is all true, but protect me," cried Albert. "You are the only one who knows why I did so."
"Stop, for shame!" cried Petrof"s voice again. "What right have you to accuse him? Have you lived his life? Have you experienced his enthusiasms?"
"Right! right!" whispered Albert.
"Art is the highest manifestation of power in man. It is given only to the favored few, and it lifts the chosen to such an eminence that the head swims, and it is hard to preserve its integrity. In art, as in every struggle, there are heroes who bring all under subjection to them, and perish if they do not attain their ends."
Petrof ceased speaking; and Albert lifted his head, and tried to shout in a loud voice, "Right! right!" but his voice died without a sound.
"That is not the case with you. This does not concern you," sternly said the artist Petrof, addressing Delesof. "Yes, humble him, despise him," he continued, "for he is better and happier than all the rest of you."
Albert, with rapture in his heart at hearing these words, could not contain himself, but went up to his friend, and was about to kiss him.
"Get thee gone, I do not know you," replied Petrof. "Go your own way, you cannot come here."
"Here, you drunken fellow, you cannot come here," cried a policeman at the crossing.
Albert hesitated, then collected all his forces, and, endeavoring not to stumble, crossed over to the next street.
It was only a few steps to Anna Ivanovna"s. From the hall of her house a stream of light fell on the snowy _dvor_, and at the gate stood sledges and carriages.
Clinging with both hands to the bal.u.s.trade, he made his way up the steps, and rang the bell.
The maid"s sleepy face appeared at the open door, and looked angrily at Albert.
"It is impossible," she cried; "I have been forbidden to let you in," and she slammed the door. The sounds of music and women"s voices floated down to him.
Albert sat down on the ground, and leaned his head against the wall, and shut his eyes. At that very instant a throng of indistinct but correlated visions took possession of him with fresh force, mastered him, and carried him off into the beautiful and free domain of fancy.
"Yes! he is better and happier," involuntarily the voice repeated in his imagination.
From the door were heard the sounds of a polka. These sounds also told him that he was better and happier. In a neighboring church was heard the sound of a prayer-bell; and the prayer-bell also told him that he was better and happier.