When what seemed days of agony had pa.s.sed, suddenly a rocket rose in the horizon--so it seemed to him.
The lost man gave a shriek of joy; so p.r.o.ne are we to interpret things hopefully.
Misery! The next time he saw that little light, that solitary spark of hope, it was not quite so near as before. A mortal sickness fell on his heart. The ship had recalled the boats by rocket.
He shrieked, he cried, he screamed, he raved. "Oh, Rosa! Rosa! for her sake, men, men, do not leave me. I am here! here!"
In vain. The miserable man saw the boat"s little light retire, recede, and melt into the ship"s larger light, and that light glided away.
Then, a cold, deadly stupor fell on him. Then, death"s icy claw seized his heart, and seemed to run from it to every part of him. He was a dead man. Only a question of time. Nothing to gain by floating.
But the despairing mind could not quit the world in peace, and even here in the cold, cruel sea, the quivering body clung to this fragment of life, and winced at death"s touch, though more merciful.
He despised this weakness; he raged at it; he could not overcome it.
Unable to live or to die, condemned to float slowly, hour by hour, down into death"s jaws.
To a long, death-like stupor succeeded frenzy. Fury seized this great and long-suffering mind. It rose against the cruelty and injustice of his fate. He cursed the world, whose stupidity had driven him to sea, he cursed remorseless nature; and at last he railed on the G.o.d who made him, and made the cruel water, that was waiting for his body. "G.o.d"s justice! G.o.d"s mercy! G.o.d"s power! they are all lies," he shouted, "dreams, chimeras, like Him the all-powerful and good, men babble of by the fire. If there was a G.o.d more powerful than the sea, and only half as good as men are, he would pity my poor Rosa and me, and send a hurricane to drive those caitiffs back to the wretch they have abandoned. Nature alone is mighty. Oh, if I could have her on my side, and only G.o.d against me! But she is as deaf to prayer as He is: as mechanical and remorseless. I am a bubble melting into the sea. Soul I have none; my body will soon be nothing, nothing. So ends an honest, loving life. I always tried to love my fellow-creatures. Curse them!
curse them! Curse the earth! Curse the sea! Curse all nature: there is no other G.o.d for me to curse."
The moon came out.
He raised his head and staring eyeb.a.l.l.s, and cursed her.
The wind began to whistle, and flung spray in his face.
He raised his fallen head and staring eyeb.a.l.l.s, and cursed the wind.
While he was thus raving, he became sensible of a black object to windward.
It looked like a rail, and a man leaning on it.
He stared, he cleared the wet hair from his eyes, and stared again.
The thing, being larger than himself and partly out of water, was drifting to leeward faster than himself.
He stared and trembled, and at last it came nearly abreast, black, black.
He gave a loud cry, and tried to swim towards it; but enc.u.mbered with his life-buoy, he made little progress. The thing drifted abreast of him, but ten yards distant.
As they each rose high upon the waves, he saw it plainly.
It was the very raft that had been the innocent cause of his sad fate.
He shouted with hope, he swam, he struggled; he got near it, but not to it; it drifted past, and he lost his chance of intercepting it. He struggled after it. The life-buoy would not let him catch it.
Then he gave a cry of agony, rage, despair, and flung off the life-buoy, and risked all on this one chance.
He gains a little on the raft.
He loses.
He gains: he cries, "Rosa! Rosa!" and struggles with all his soul, as well as his body: he gains.
But when almost within reach, a wave half drowns him, and he loses.
He cries, "Rosa! Rosa!" and swims high and strong. "Rosa! Rosa! Rosa!"
He is near it. He cries, "Rosa! Rosa!" and with all the energy of love and life flings himself almost out of the water, and catches hold of the nearest thing on the raft.
It was the dead man"s leg.
It seemed as if it would come away in his grasp. He dared not try to pull himself up by that. But he held on by it, panting, exhausting, faint.
This faintness terrified him. "Oh," thought he, "if I faint now, all is over."
Holding by that terrible and strange support, he made a grasp, and caught hold of the woodwork at the bottom of the rail. He tried to draw himself up. Impossible.
He was no better off than with his life-buoy.
But in situations so dreadful, men think fast; he worked gradually round the bottom of the raft by his hands, till he got to leeward, still holding on. There he found a solid block of wood at the edge of the raft. He prised himself carefully up; the raft in that part then sank a little: he got his knee upon the timber of the raft, and with a wild cry seized the nearest upright, and threw both arms round it and clung tight. Then first he found breath to speak. "THANK G.o.d!" he cried, kneeling on the timber, and grasping the upright post--"OH, THANK G.o.d!
THANK G.o.d!"
CHAPTER XVI.
"Thank G.o.d!" why, according to his theory, it should have been "Thank Nature." But I observe that, in such cases, even philosophers are ungrateful to the mistress they worship.
Our philosopher not only thanked G.o.d, but being on his knees, prayed forgiveness for his late ravings, prayed hard, with one arm curled round the upright, lest the sea, which ever and anon rushed over the bottom of the raft, should swallow him up in a moment.
Then he rose carefully, and wedged himself into the corner of the raft opposite to that other figure, ominous relic of the wild voyage the new-comer had entered upon; he put both arms over the rail, and stood erect.
The moon was now up; but so was the breeze: fleecy clouds flew with vast rapidity across her bright face, and it was by fitful though vivid glances Staines examined the raft and his companion.
The raft was large, and well made of timbers tied and nailed together, and a strong rail ran round it resting on several uprights. There were also some blocks of a very light wood screwed to the horizontal timbers, and these made it float high.
But what arrested and fascinated the man"s gaze was his dead companion, sole survivor, doubtless, of a horrible voyage, since the raft was not made for one, nor by one.
It was a skeleton, or nearly, whose clothes the seabirds had torn, and pecked every limb in all the fleshy parts; the rest of the body had dried to dark leather on the bones. The head was little more than an eyeless skull; but in the fitful moonlight, those huge hollow caverns seemed gigantic lamp-like eyes, and glared at him fiendishly, appallingly.
He sickened at the sight. He tried not to look at it; but it would be looked at, and threaten him in the moonlight, with great lack-l.u.s.tre eyes.
The wind whistled, and lashed his face with spray torn off the big waves, and the water was nearly up to his knees, and the raft tossed so wildly, it was all he could do to hold on in his corner: in which struggle, still those monstrous lack-l.u.s.tre eyes, like lamps of death, glared at him in the moon; all else was dark, except the fiery crests of the black mountain-billows, tumbling and raging all around.
What a night!