I poured out the tea and produced a small box of vanilla wafers, which Frieda is ever so fond of.
"I wonder Gordon didn"t get mad, when Baby Paul began to scream," she said.
"My dear," I remarked, "a man generally gets angry only at the unexpected. He had made up his mind that the weather would be squally and would have been rather disappointed if no shower had come. Before I had the pleasure of Master Paul"s acquaintance, I mistakenly thought that every interval between waking and feeding, in a baby"s life, must be taken up with l.u.s.ty shrieking. I"m positively frightened and hopeless, sometimes, when I think of how much there is for me to learn.
I know I"ll never catch up."
"You know good tea, for one thing," answered Frieda. "Give me another cup."
I complied, and, presently, Frances, at our urging, sat down to the old piano and played something that was very pretty and soft. And then the old desire to sing must have come upon her, suddenly, for her low and husky voice brought forth a few words of a sweet, old French song. This, all at once, must have evoked some of the memories that weighed so heavily upon her heart. Her hands went up to her face and she sobbed.
Frieda rose, swiftly and silently, and put her big, able hand upon the girl"s shoulder.
"I--I can"t even sing to my baby!" Frances moaned.
What a cry from the heart! All else would have amounted to so little, if she could only have poured out some of the melody in her soul to the poor little mite. She was brave; working for Baby Paul was of small moment; even the loss of the gallant soldier lad who had poured his stream of life for the motherland was not for the moment the paramount source of her distress. No! She could not sing for the diminutive portrait of himself, the man had left behind!
As usual, in the presence of a woman"s tears, I was mute and incapable of giving comfort. I feared to utter some of the plat.i.tudes which cause the sorrowing to revolt against the futility of wordy consolation.
Frieda"s kindly touch was worth more than all I could have said in a dog"s age. Soon, the streaming eyes had been dabbed again to dryness, but the smile I had hoped for did not return.
"I--I am sorry I was so weak," said Frances, and ran away to her room, possibly for the powder surely invented by a great benefactor of humanity, since it may serve to obliterate the traces of women"s tears and enables them to look at you again, hopefully and with courage renewed.
After this, three weeks went by. The literary agent upon whose kindly head I pour my short stories announced the sale of my virtuous dog"s tale, on the strength of which I took Frieda and Frances to a moving-picture theatre, one Sat.u.r.day night. The latter"s posing for Gordon was always a subject of conversation. The picture, it appeared, was now quite finished, and we were moving heaven and earth in our endeavors to find something wherewith a woman with a young baby might earn a few dollars. Frances spoke little of her experiences at the studio, except to gratify our curiosity. It was always the same thing.
Baby was generally ever so good and Mr. McGrath fairly patient with his occasional relapses from slumbering silence. An impression made its way in my mind to the effect that Gordon rather awed his model. She had watched the picture"s growth and this process of creation, utterly new to her, seemed to fill her with some sort of amazement.
"Tell me just what it is like," I asked her, as we sat on the stoop, waiting for Frieda to turn up.
"I suppose it looks like me," she said, doubtfully, "but then, it isn"t a portrait, of course. I--I don"t think I look just like that. Sometimes he stands in front of me for the longest time and glares, looking more and more disappointed, and all at once he says I"ve got a Sphynx of a face or a deuce of a mouth, or something just as complimentary. Then he turns to the picture again and changes something, with merely a touch of one of those big brushes, and plasters on another dab of paint and moves off to look at it. After this, he says it"s much better, or declares he"s spoiled everything, and he lights his pipe and goes to work again.
Sometimes he wears the expression of a bulldog worrying a bone, and a minute later he"ll be just as nice as nice can be. He"s a strange man."
"He certainly is," I a.s.sented. "At any rate, I am glad that your experience with him, on the whole, has not proved a disagreeable one."
"Indeed, sometimes I have rather enjoyed it. Yesterday, I didn"t. He began, _a propos_ of nothing, to tell me about one of your books, and said that your idea about a girl called Laura was so silly he had no patience with you, because you had idealized her until it was rather a caricature than a portrait, and you didn"t know any more about women than the baby did. So, of course, I got angry at him and he looked at me, with a smile that was half a sneer, and told me to keep on looking just like that. It seems that I had just the expression he wanted to bring out. When you look too long at the baby," he said, "you get the likeness of a girl who"s been scolded at table and is going to cry into the soup. I thought I"d wake you up!" I was ever so provoked, and he painted right along without minding me in the least. When he was through, he put on his most polite air and told me that all he had said about that Laura was nonsense, and that she was just a fool girl like any other. As for the picture, he said it would make some fellows sit up and take notice. He appeared to be intensely pleased with it and thanked me for being so patient with him."
"I am not surprised," I told her. "When our good little friend, Dr.
Porter, who is the best-hearted chap you"ll meet in a long day"s journey, becomes very interested in some dreadful malady and wants to make experiments, I am sure he considers guinea-pigs and rats in the light of mere material. Gordon will not have the slightest compunction about vivisecting a model, if it suits his purpose."
"But he can be ever so kind. He very often is," declared Frances. "On the very first day he told me not to allow myself to get overtired, and he"s kept on asking me ever since, if I didn"t want to take a rest.
Sometimes he made me stop, when I could very well have kept on."
Frieda appeared, coming around the corner under full steam, and we got in the car and went off to the movies. The services of Eulalie had been obtained, to mind the baby for a couple of hours. She likes to do it, and it gives her an opportunity to go into my room and rummage in my bureau drawers, where she hunts for missing b.u.t.tons with the eagerness of a terrier looking for rats.
When we returned, satiated with picturesque tragedy and second-rate vaudeville, Frances, as usual, flew upstairs, obsessed with the idea that obviously grease-painted and false-whiskered villains such as we had seen on the screen must have penetrated the citadel and stolen her baby. Frieda had left us at the door, and I climbed up in more leisurely fashion, meeting Eulalie on the stairs, loaded with my soiled linen, who bade me good evening, pleasantly.
Frances was waiting for me on her door-sill.
"Paul is all right. Nothing has happened," she confided to me. "Good night, Mr. Cole, and thank you ever so much."
She smiled at me, and I was pleased that I had been able to divert her thoughts for a few moments. How glad I should be if I could render more permanent that little look of happiness she showed for an instant!
On my desk I found a message from Gordon, asking me to come to the studio next day, which was a Sunday, for lunch.
I kept the appointment, walking all the way up. As I pa.s.sed Bryant Park, I noticed that the leaves were becoming slightly yellow. It was evident that the summer was giving a hint of impending departure. I reached the big building, just before noon, knowing that I should be somewhat ahead of time, but glad to have a chat with Gordon.
"I know you"ve been dying to see that canvas," he told me. "That young woman"s a wonder. A clever and intelligent woman"s the one to really understand what a fellow"s after and help him out. I really think she took some interest in the thing. If she isn"t otherwise occupied when I return from Southampton, I might possibly make use of her for another week or two. And there"s Spinelli, the sculptor, who has a commission for a big group of sirens, for a fountain. He was in here and looked at the picture. Asked about her, he did, but I told him I didn"t think she"d pose that way."
"I should think not," I declared.
"You needn"t get mad," he retorted. "I"ve been looking around to see if I could get her something to do. Come in the front room and light your pipe, if you want to. Windows are open. I"m expecting a couple of women in to lunch. Glad you came in early. Yumasa"s juggling in the kitchenette; the chap"s an artist, when it comes to playing tunes on a chafing-dish. Well, how does it strike you?"
The picture stood before me. It was practically finished. I sank down on the cushioned bench that ran beneath the broad window facing the north and stared at the canvas.
"Great Heavens, Gordon!" I exclaimed.
"It hits right out from the shoulder, doesn"t it," he said. "Ever see anything much more alive than this?"
"She"s going to lift her eyes from the baby," I answered. "She"s going to indulge in that little half-timid and half-boastful look of the young mother challenging the whole world to say that her infant isn"t perfection in flesh and blood!"
Gordon made no answer. He was standing before the canvas, his left arm crossed over his breast with the right elbow resting upon it and the square bluish chin in the grasp of long thin fingers.
"You"ve evidently stuck to the model a great deal," I commented further, "but you"ve also idealized, made poetry of her."
"And you"re talking like a donkey," my friend told me, rather impatiently. "I simply have better eyes than you. Of course, I suppose you"ve seen a lot of her, for she seems to think the sun rises and sets on you, but you haven"t studied every bit of her face as I"ve done. I"ve idealized nothing at all, but my own appreciation of her, and perhaps a trick or two, have caught you. The light came right through this open window, naturally, and caused that glint of the fluffy ends of hair, like powdered sunlight dusted over the dark chestnut. It also threw those strong high lights over the edges of the features. Then, I stuck those roses between her and the window and they gave the reflected tints. It"s just a portrait, you old idiot, and nothing else, except perhaps for the fancy shawl. Of course, everything that wasn"t directly illumined was in subdued tones, which account for the softness. You may think it"s rather ideal, but that"s only because I saw her right and got an effective pose. Hang it all, man! If I gave you a pond and a bunch of trees and blue hills back of them, you might describe them accurately, and yet make the picture an interesting one, in one of those fool stories of yours."
"She is very beautiful," I said, knowing that he expected no direct answer to his tirade.
"If she hadn"t been, I shouldn"t have bothered with her," he replied, in a tone that rather rasped on my feelings. "That"s just what"s the matter with her; she"s a good-looker and you daren"t change anything. If I were to use her again for anything important, fellows would ask if I intend to stick to the same old model, all my life. If I get her to pose just once more, it will be about the end of her usefulness to me, and I"d do it just for the fun of making another study of an interesting type, something to stick among the unframed things piled up against the wall and show people, after this one"s sold."
He moved off to get a cigarette from the small square stool on which he keeps brushes and tubes, leaving me to stare in great desolation at the picture of Frances and her baby. So he"s going to sell it! Indeed, the more I looked at it the better I realized that it was the woman herself, described by a master. He had naturally seen things I had not noticed, that was all. I think I"ve never had a great desire for money, but the idea was very irksome that her portrait would be sold and that it would hang on some rich man"s wall, stared at only by people merely concerned with the beauty their dollars had bought.
It is, perhaps, just as well that I have some sense of humor. The idea of this wonderful thing hanging in my rather dingy room suddenly struck me as rather incongruous. As well think of a necklace of brilliants about some ragged pauper"s neck. To the best of my belief I have never envied the people who can afford to possess the gauds I have sometimes admired in the windows of shops, in which only the rich can ever deal.
Why this sudden obsession of a desire to have that picture of the young woman where I could look at it, daily, and delight in its perfection? I have often thought that in my den or in her own room she is as nearly out of place as her picture would be. She impresses one as being able to lend further grace to the most splendid dwelling-place.
Once more I catch myself communing with my folly. After all, Madame Dupont is just a woman; her smile gives charm to her surroundings. When she sits in my old Morris chair, she converts it into the throne of beautiful motherhood and the place into a palace of grace. Why should I care for daubs, for splashes of paint never so cleverly put on, since I can see the model from time to time and rejoice that she counts me among her friends?
"You"re the grumpiest old curmudgeon I ever knew," said Gordon, interrupting my cogitations. "You haven"t said a word for ten minutes.
And so you like it, do you?"
"You"ve never done anything half so good," I affirmed.
"To tell you the truth, I"ve a notion I"ve happened to do something pretty big," he said, nodding. "But a fellow"s apt to get hypnotized by his own work, sometimes. I"ll have to stop looking at the thing. It"ll stay here while I go off to the country for a few weeks and, when I come back, I"ll have the right perspective again. But I know it"s devilish good. I feel as I did once at the _Salon_, when I got the _Mention Honorable_ for that codfish and lobster on a marble table. You know, the one Tilson bought. I knew it was right, as soon as I"d finished it."
Mutely, I committed him to the devil and all his fallen angels. What had this picture to do with still-life in a fishmonger"s shop? Hang it, I really believe Gordon has no soul! Or can it be a part of the pose inseparable from him, of which he certainly is sometimes unconscious?
At this moment, the bell rang and Yumasa came out of some cubby and rushed to the outer door. Gordon followed him and warmly welcomed a rather stout lady of uncertain age and very youthful hair, after which he held out his hand to the original of Miss Van Rossum"s portrait.