"No, Saul. We"ll always owe you favors."
"Then let"s go. Nightmare Theater first."
They trundled the tank down a corridor and into a hundred feet square padded room. It was one of therapy"s by-pa.s.sed experiments. Nightmare Theater had been an early attempt to shock schizophrenics back into the objective world by rendering the phantasy world into which they were withdrawing uninhabitable. But the shattering and laceration of patients" emotions had proved to be too cruel and dubious a treatment.For Dagenham"s sake, the head of Psychiatry had dusted off the 30 visual projectors and reconnected all sensory projectors. They decanted Foyle from his tank, gave him a reviving shot and left him in the middle of the floor. They removed the tank, turned off the lights and entered the concealed control booth.
There, they turned on the projectors.
Every child in the world imagines that its phantasy world is unique to itself. Psychiatry knows that the joys and terrors of private phantasies are a common heritage shared by all mankind. Fears, guilts, terrors, and shames could be interchanged, from one man to the next, and none would notice the difference. The therapy department at Combined Hospital had recorded thousands of emotional tapes and boiled them down to one all-inclusive all-terrifying performance in Nightmare Theater.
Foyle awoke, panting and sweating, and never knew that he had awakened. He was in the clutch of the serpent-haired b.l.o.o.d.y-eyed Eumenides. He was pursued, entrapped, precipitated from heights, burned, flayed, bowstringed, vermin-covered, devoured. He screamed. He ran. The radar Hobble-Field in the Theater clogged his steps and turned them into the ghastly slow motion of dream-running. And through the cacophony of grinding, shrieking, moaning, pursuing that a.s.sailed his ears, muttered the thread of a persistent voice.
"Where is "Nomad" where is "Nomad" where is "Nomad" where is "Nomad" where is "Nomad"?"
" "Vorga," " Foyle croaked. " "Vorga.""
He had been inoculated by his own fixation. His own nightmare had rendered him immune.
"Where is "Nomad"? where have you left "Nomad"? what happened to "Nomad"? where is "Nomad"?"
" "Vorga,"" Foyle shouted. " "Vorga." "Vorga." "Vorga.""
In the control booth, Dagenham swore. The head of psychiatry, monitoring the projectors, glanced at the clock. "One minute and forty-five seconds, Saul. He can"t stand much more."
"He"s got to break. Give him the final effect."
They buried Foyle alive, slowly, inexorably, hideously. He was carried down into black depths and enclosed in stinking slime that cut off light and air. He slowly suffocated while a distant voice boomed: "WHERE IS "NOMAD"? WHERE HAVE YOU LEFT "NOMAD"? YOU CAN ESCAPE IF YOU.
FIND "NOMAD." WHERE IS "NOMAD"?".
But Foyle was back aboard "Nomad" in his lightless, airless coffin, floating comfortably between deck and roof. He curled into a tight foetal ball and prepared to sleep. He was content. He would escape. He would find "Vorga."
"Impervious b.a.s.t.a.r.d!" Dagenham swore. "Has anyone ever resisted Nightmare Theater before, Fritz?"
"Not many. You"re right. That"s an uncommon man, Saul."
"He"s got to be ripped open. All right, to h.e.l.l with any more of this. We"ll try the Megal Mood next. Are the actors ready?"
"All ready."
"Then let"s go."
There are six directions in which delusions of grandeur can run. The Megal (short for Megalomania)Mood was therapy"s dramatic diagnosis technique for establishing and plotting the particular course of megalomania.
Foyle awoke in a luxurious four-poster bed. He was in a bedroom hung with brocade, papered in velvet.
He glanced around curiously. Soft sunlight filtered through latticed windows. Across the room a valet was quietly laying out clothes.
"Hey..." Foyle grunted.
The valet turned. "Good morning, Mr. Fourmyle," he murmured.
"What?"
"It"s a lovely morning, sir. I"ve laid out the brown twill and the cordovan pumps, sir."
"What"s a matter, you?"
"I"ve-" The valet gazed at Foyle curiously. "Is anything wrong, Mr. Fourmyle?"
"What you call me, man?"
"By your name, sir."
"My name is... Fourmyle?" Foyle struggled up in the bed. "No, it"s not. It"s Foyle. Gully Foyle, that"s my name, me."
The valet bit his lip. "One moment, sir..." He stepped outside and called. Then he murmured. A lovely girl in white came running into the bedroom and sat down on the edge of the bed. She took Foyle"s hands and gazed into his eyes. Her face was distressed.
"Darling, darling, darling," she whispered. "You aren"t going to start all that again, are you? The doctor swore you were over it."
"Start what again?"
"All that Gulliver Foyle nonsense about your being a common sailor and-"
"I am Gully Foyle. That"s my name, Gully Foyle."
"Sweetheart, you"re not. That"s just a delusion you"ve had for weeks. You"ve been overworking and drinking too much."
"Been Gully Foyle all my life, me."
"Yes, I know darling. That"s the way it"s seemed to you. But you"re not. You"re Geoffrey Fourmyle.
The Geoffrey Fourmyle. You"re- Oh, what"s the sense telling you? Get dressed, my love. You"ve got to come downstairs. Your office has been frantic."
Foyle permitted the valet to dress him and went downstairs in a daze. The lovely girl, who evidently adored him, conducted him through a giant studio littered with drawing tables, easels, and half-finished canvases. She took him into a vast hall filled with desks, filing cabinets, stock tickers, clerks, secretaries, office personnel. They entered a lofty laboratory cluttered with gla.s.s and chrome. Burners flickered and hissed; bright colored liquids bubbled and churned; there was a pleasant odor of interesting chemicals and odd experiments."What"s all this?" Foyle asked.
The girl seated Foyle in a plush armchair alongside a giant desk littered with interesting papers scribbled with fascinating symbols. On some Foyle saw the name: Geoffrey Fourmyle, scrawled in an imposing, authoritative signature.
"There"s some crazy kind of mistake, is all," Foyle began.
The girl silenced him. "Here"s Doctor Regan. He"ll explain."
An impressive gentleman with a crisp, comforting manner, came to Foyle, touched his pulse, inspected his eyes, and nodded in satisfaction.
"Good," he said. "Excellent. You are close to complete recovery, Mr. Fourmyle. Now you will listen to me for a moment, eh?"
Foyle nodded.
"You remember nothing of the past. You have only a false memory. You were overworked. You are an important man and there were too many demands on you. You started to drink heavily a month ago- No, no, denial is useless. You drank. You lost yourself."
T tl "You became convinced you were not the famous Jeff Fourmyle. An infantile attempt to escape responsibility. You imagined you were a common s.p.a.ceman named Foyle. Gulliver Foyle, yes? With an odd number..."
"Gully Foyle. AS: 128/127:006. But that"s me. That"s-"
"It is not you. This is you." Dr. Regan waved at the interesting offices they could see through the transparent gla.s.s wall.
"You can only recapture the true memory if you discharge the old. All this glorious reality is yours, if we can help you discard the dream of the s.p.a.ceman." Dr. Regan leaned forward, his polished spectacles glittering hypnotically. "Reconstruct this false memory of yours in detail, and I will tear it down. Where do you imagine you left the s.p.a.ceship "Nomad"? How did you escape? Where do you imagine the "Nomad"
is now?"
Foyle wavered before the romantic glamour of the scene which seemed to be just within his grasp.
"It seems to me I left "Nomad" out in-" He stopped short.
A devil-face peered at him from the highlights reflected in Dr. Regan"s spectacles... a hideous tiger mask with NOMAD blazoned across the distorted brow. Foyle stood up.
"Liars!" he growled. "It"s real, me. This here is phoney. What happened to me is real. I"m real, me."
Saul Dagenham walked into the laboratory. "All right," he called. "Strike. It"s a washout."
The bustling scene in laboratory, office, and studio ended. The actors quietly disappeared without another glance at Foyle. Dagenham gave Foyle his deadly smile. "Tough, aren"t you? You"re really unique. My name is Saul Dagenham. We"ve got five minutes for a talk. Come into the garden."
The Sedative Garden atop the Therapy Building was a triumph of therapeutic planning. Everyperspective, every color, every contour had been designed to placate hostility, soothe resistance, melt anger, evaporate hysteria, absorb melancholia and depression.
"Sit down," Dagenham said, pointing to a bench alongside a pool in which crystal waters tinkled. "Don"t try to jaunte-you"re drugged. I"ll have to walk around a bit. Can"t come too close to you. I"m "hot."
D"you know what that means?"
Foyle shook his head sullenly. Dagenham cupped both hands around the flaming blossom of an orchid and held them there for a moment. "Watch that flower," he said. "You"ll see."
He paced up a path and turned suddenly. "You"re right, of course. Everything that happened to you is real... Only what did happen?"
"Go to h.e.l.l," Foyle growled.
"You know, Foyle, I admire you."
"Go to h.e.l.l."
"In your own primitive way you"ve got ingenuity and guts. You"re cro-Magnon, Foyle. I"ve been checking on you. That bomb you threw in the Presteign shipyards was lovely, and you nearly wrecked General Hospital getting the money and material together." Dagenham counted fingers. "You looted lockers, stole from the blind ward, stole drugs from the pharmacy, stole apparatus from the lab stockrooms."
"Go to h.e.l.l, you."
"But what have you got against Presteign? Why"d you try to blow up his shipyard? They tell me you broke in and went tearing through the pits like a wild man. What were you trying to do, Foyle?"
"Go to h.e.l.l."
Dagenham smiled. "If we"re going to chat," he said. "You"ll have to hold up your end. Your conversation"s getting monotonous. What happened to "Nomad"?"
"I don"t know about "Nomad," nothing."
"The ship was last reported over seven months ago. Are you the sole survivor? And what have you been doing all this time? Having your face decorated?"
"I don"t know about "Nomad," nothing."
"No, no, Foyle, that won"t do. You show up with "Nomad" tattooed across your face. Fresh tattooed.
Intelligence checks and finds you were aboard "Nomad" when she sailed. Foyle, Gulliver: AS:i28/i27:oo6, Mechanic"s Mate, 3rd Cla.s.s. As if all this isn"t enough to throw Intelligence into a tizzy, you come back in a private launch that"s been missing fifty years. Man, you"re cooking in the reactor.
Intelligence wants the answers to all these questions. And you ought to know how Central Intelligence butchers its answers out of people."
Foyle started. Dagenham nodded as he saw his point sink home. "Which is why I think you"ll listen to reason. We want information, Foyle. I tried to trick it out of you; admitted. I failed because you"re too tough; admitted. Now I"m offering an honest deal. We"ll protect you if you"ll co-operate. If you don"t, you"ll spend five years in an Intelligence lab having information chopped out of you."It was not the prospect of the butchery that frightened Foyle, but the thought of the loss of freedom. A man had to be free to avenge himself, to raise money and find "Vorga" again, to rip and tear and gut "VORGA.".
"What kind of deal?" he asked.
"Tell us what happened to "Nomad" and where you left her."
"Why, man?"
"Why? Because of the salvage, man."
"There ain"t nothing to salvage. She"s a wreck, is all."
"Even a wreck"s salvagable."
"You mean you"d jet out a million miles to pick up pieces? Don"t joker me, man."
"All right," Dagenham said in exasperation. "There"s the cargo."
"She was split wide open. No cargo left."
"It was a cargo you don"t know about," Dagenham said confidentially. " "Nomad" was transporting platinum bullion to Mars Bank. Every so often, banks have to adjust accounts. Normally, enough trade goes on between planets so that accounts can be balanced on paper. The war"s disrupted normal trade, and Mars Bank found that Presteign owed them twenty odd million credits without any way of getting the money short of actual delivery. Presteign was delivering the money in bar platinum aboard the "Nomad."
It was locked in the purser"s safe."
"Twenty million," Foyle whispered.
"Give or take a few thousand. The ship was insured, but that just means that the underwriters, Bo"ness and Uig, get the salvage rights and they"re even tougher than Presteign. However, there"ll be a reward for you. Say... twenty thousand credits."
"Twenty million," Foyle whispered again.
"We"re a.s.suming that an O.S. raider caught up with "Nomad" somewhere on course and let her have it.
They couldn"t have boarded and looted or you wouldn"t have been left alive. This means that the purser"s safe is still- Are you listening, Foyle?"
But Foyle was not listening. He was seeing twenty million... not twenty thousand... twenty million in platinum bullion as a broad highway to "Vorga." No more petty thefts from lockers and labs; twenty million for the taking and the razing of "Vorga."
"Foyle!"
Foyle awoke. He looked at Dagenham. "I don"t know about "Nomad," nothing," he said.