"When I was in England before," Margaret went on, this time with some effort, "you found fault with me----"
"Presumption on my part, I am sure," said Sir Philip, smiling a little.
"Such a thing will certainly not occur again."
"Oh please hear me," said Margaret, rather hurriedly. "Please listen seriously--I am very serious, and I want you to hear what I have to say."
"I will listen," said Sir Philip, gravely; he turned aside a little, and looked at the flowers as she spoke.
"I want to tell you that you were right about Janetta Colwyn. The more I have thought of it, the more sure I have been that you were right. I ought not to have been angry when you asked me to prevent people from misjudging her. I ought to have written to Miss Polehampton and set things straight."
Sir Philip made an inarticulate sound of a.s.sent. She paused for a moment, and then went on pleadingly.
"It"s such a long time ago now that I do not know what to do. I cannot ask mamma. She never liked Janetta--she never was just to her. I do not even know where Janetta is, nor whether I can do anything to help her.
Do you know?"
"I know where she is. At the Red House just now, with Mr. and Mrs.
Cuthbert Brand."
"Then--what shall I do?" said Margaret, more urgently. "Would it be of any use if I wrote to Miss Polehampton or anyone about her now? I will do anything I can to help her--anything you advise."
Sir Philip changed his position, as if he were slightly impatient.
"I do not know that there is anything to be done for Miss Colwyn at present," he replied. "She is in a very good position, and I do not think she wants material help. Of course, if you were to see her and tell her that you regret the manifest injustice with which she was treated on more than one occasion, I dare say she would be glad, and that such an acknowledgment from you would draw out the sting from much that is past and gone. I think that this is all you can do."
"I will do it," said Margaret submissively. "I will tell her that I am sorry."
"You will do well," replied Sir Philip in a kinder tone. "I am only sorry that you did not see things differently when we spoke of the matter before."
"I am older now, I have thought more. I have reflected on what you said," murmured Margaret.
"You have done my poor words much honor," said he, with a slight cold smile. "And I am glad to think that the breach in your friendship is healed. Miss Colwyn is a true and loyal friend--I could not wish you a better. I shall feel some pleasure in the thought, when I am far from England, that you have her for your friend once more."
"Far from England"--Margaret repeated the words with paling lips.
"Did you not know? I have accepted a post in Victoria. I shall be out for five years at least. So great a field of usefulness seems open to me there that I did not know how to refuse it."
Margaret was mute for a time. Then, with a tremendous effort, she put another question. "You go--alone?" she said.
Sir Philip did not look at her.
"No," he said, kicking a small pebble off the tesselated pavement with the toe of his boot, and apparently taking the greatest interest in its ultimate fate, "no, I don"t go quite alone. I am taking with me my secretary--and--my wife. I suppose you know that next week I am going to marry Miss Adela Smithies, daughter of Smithies the great brewer? We sail ten days later."
CHAPTER XL.
MY FAITHFUL JANET.
"Good blood," they say, "does not lie." Margaret was true to her traditions. She did not faint, she did not weep, over what was complete ruin to her expectations, if not of her hopes. She held her head a little more erect than usual, and looked Sir Philip quietly in the face.
"I am very glad to hear it," she said--it was a very excusable lie, perhaps. "I hope you will be happy."
Strange to say, her calmness robbed Sir Philip of his self-possession.
He flushed hotly and looked away, thinking of some words that he had spoken many months ago to Margaret"s mother--a sort of promise to be "always ready" if Margaret should ever change her mind. Had she changed it now? But she was not going to leave him in doubt upon this point.
"You have only just forestalled a similar announcement on my part," she said, smiling bravely. "I dare say you will hear all about it soon--and I hope that you will wish me joy."
He looked up with evident relief.
"I am exceedingly glad. I may congratulate you then?"
"Thank you. Yes, we may congratulate each other."
She still smiled--rather strangely, as he thought. He wondered who the "happy man" could be? But of that, to tell the truth, Margaret was as ignorant as he. She had invented her little tale of an engagement in self-defence.
"Ah, Margaret," he said, with a sudden impulse of affection, "if only you could have seen as I saw--two years ago!"
"But that was impossible," she answered quietly. "And I think it would be undesirable also. I wanted you to know, however, that I agree with you about Janetta--I think that you were right."
"And you have nothing more to tell me?"
For the moment he was willing to throw up his appointment in Australia, to fly from the wealthy and sensible Miss Adela Smithies and incur any odium, any disappointment, and any shame, if only Margaret Adair would own that she loved him and consent to be his wife. For, although he liked and esteemed Miss Smithies, who was a rather plain-faced girl with a large fortune, he was perfectly conscious that Margaret had been the one love of his life. But Margaret was on her guard.
"To tell you?" she echoed, as if in mild surprise. "Why no, I think not, Sir Philip. Except, perhaps, to ask you not to speak--for the present, at least--of my own prospects, they are not yet generally known, and I do not want them mentioned just now."
"Certainly. I will respect your confidence," said Sir Philip. He felt ashamed of that momentary aberration. Adela was a very suitable wife for him, and he could not think without remorse that he had ever proposed to himself to be untrue to her. How fortunate, he reflected, that Margaret did not seem to care!
"Will you come in?" she said graciously. "Mamma will be so pleased to see you, and she will be glad to congratulate you on your good fortune."
"Thank you very much, but I fear I must be off. I am very busy, and I really have scarcely any time to spare."
"I must thank you all the more for giving me some of your valuable time," said Margaret sweetly. "Must you go?"
"I really must. And--" as he held out his hand--"we are friends, then, from henceforth?"
"Oh, of course we are," she answered. But her eyes were strangely cold, and the smile upon her lips was conventional and frosty. The hand that he held in his own was cold, too, and somewhat limp and flabby.
"I am so glad," he said, growing warmer as she grew cold, "that you have resolved to renew your acquaintance with Miss Colwyn. It is what I should have expected from your generous nature, and it shows that what I always--always thought of you was true."
"Please do not say so," said Margaret. She came very near being natural in that moment. She had a choking sensation in her throat, and her eyes smarted with unshed tears. But her training stood her in good stead. "It is very kind of you to be so complimentary," she went on with a light little laugh. "And I hope that I shall find Janetta as nice as she used to be. Good-bye. _Bon voyage._"
"I wish you every happiness," he said with a warm clasp of her hand and a long grave look into her beautiful face; and then he went away and Margaret was left alone.
She stole up to her room almost stealthily, and locked the door. She hoped that no one had seen Sir Philip come and go--that her mother would not question her, or remark on the length of his visit. She was thoroughly frightened and ashamed to think of what she had done. She had been as near as possible to making Sir Philip what would virtually have been an offer of marriage. What an awful thought! And what a narrow escape! For of course he would have had to refuse her, and she--what could she have done then? She would never have borne the mortification.
As it was, she hoped that Sir Philip would accept the explanation of the little note of summons which she had despatched to him that morning, and would never inquire what her secret motive had been in writing it.
She set herself to consider the situation. She did not love Sir Philip.