"Search for Threal--why, is it so hard to find?"
"I have told you that my whole life has been spent in the quest."
"You said Faceny, Leehallfae."
The phaen gazed at him with queer, ancient eyes, and smiled again. "This stream, Maskull, like every other life stream in Matterplay, has its source in Faceny. But as all these streams issue out from Threal, it is in Threal that we must look for Faceny."
"But what"s to prevent your finding Threal? Surely it"s a well-known country?"
"It lies underground. Its communications with the upper world are few, and where they are, no one that I have ever spoken to knows. I have scoured the valleys and the hills. I have been to the very gates of Lichstorm. I am old, so that your aged men would appear newborn infants beside me, but I am as far from Threal as when I was a green youth, dwelling among a throng of fellow phaens."
"Then, if my luck is good, yours is very bad.... But when you have found Faceny, what do you gain?"
Leehallfae looked at him in silence. The smile faded from aer face, and its place was taken by such a look of unearthly pain and sorrow that Maskull had no need to press his question. Ae was consumed by the grief and yearning of a lover eternally separated from the loved one, the scents and traces of whose person were always present. This pa.s.sion stamped her features at that moment with a wild, stern, spiritual beauty, far transcending any beauty of woman or man.
But the expression vanished suddenly, and then the abrupt contrast showed Maskull the real Leehallfae. Aer sensuality was solitary, but vulgar--it was like the heroism of a lonely nature, pursuing animal aims with untiring persistence.
He looked at the phaen askance, and drummed his fingers against his thigh. "Well, we will go together. We may find something, and in any case I shan"t be sorry to converse with such a singular individual as yourself."
"But I should warn you, Maskull. You and I are of different creations. A phaen"s body contains the whole of life, a man"s body contains only the half of life--the other half is in woman. Faceny may be too strong a draught for your body to endure.... Do you not feel this?"
"I am dull with my different feelings. I must take what precautions I can, and chance the rest." He bent down, and, taking hold of the phaen"s thin and ragged robe, tore off a broad strip, which he proceeded to swathe in folds around his forehead. "I"m not forgetting your advice, Leehallfae. I would not like to start the walk as Maskull and finish it as Digrung."
The phaen gave a twisted grin, and they began to move upstream. The road was difficult. They had to stride from boulder to boulder, and found it warm work. Occasionally a worse obstacle presented itself, which they could surmount only by climbing. There was no more conversation for a long time. Maskull, as far as possible, adopted his companion"s counsel to avoid the water, but here and there he was forced to set foot in it.
The second or third time he did so, he felt a sudden agony in his arm, where it had been wounded by Krag. His eyes grew joyful; his fears vanished; and he began deliberately to tread the stream.
Leehallfae stroked aer chin and watched him with screwed-up eyes, trying to comprehend what had happened. "Is your luck speaking to you, Maskull, or what is the matter?"
"Listen. You are a being of antique experience, and ought to know, if anyone does. What is Muspel?"
The phaen"s face was blank. "I don"t know the name."
"It is another world of some sort."
"That cannot be. There is only this one world--Faceny"s."
Maskull came up to aer, linked arms, and began to talk. "I"m glad I fell in with you, Leehallfae, for this valley and everything connected with it need a lot of explaining. For example, in this spot there are hardly any organic forms left--why have they all disappeared? You call this brook a "life stream," yet the nearer its source we get, the less life it produces. A mile or two lower down we had those spontaneous plant-animals appearing out of nowhere, while right down by the sea, plants and animals were tumbling over one another. Now, if all this is connected in some mysterious way or other with your Faceny, it seems to me he must have a most paradoxical nature. His essence doesn"t start creating shapes until it has become thoroughly weakened and watered....
But perhaps both of us are talking nonsense."
Leehallfae shook aer head. "Everything hangs together. The stream is life, and it is throwing off sparks of life all the time. When these sparks are caught and imprisoned by matter, they become living shapes.
The nearer the stream is to its source, the more terrible and vigorous is its life. You"ll see for yourself when we reach the head of the valley that there are no living shapes there at all. That means that there is no kind of matter tough enough to capture and hold the terrible sparks that are to be found there. Lower down the stream, most of the sparks are vigorous enough to escape to the upper air, but some are held when they are a little way up, and these burst suddenly into shapes. I myself am of this nature. Lower down still, toward the sea, the stream has lost a great part of its vital power and the sparks are lazy and sluggish. They spread out, rather than rise into the air. There is hardly any kind of matter, however delicate, that is incapable of capturing these feeble sparks, and they are captured in mult.i.tudes--that accounts for the innumerable living shapes you see there. But not only that--the sparks are pa.s.sed from one body to another by way of generation, and can never hope to cease being so until they are worn out by decay. Lowest of all, you have the Sinking Sea itself. There the degenerate and enfeebled life of the Matterplay streams has for its body the whole sea. So weak is it"s power that it can"t succeed in creating any shapes at all but you can see its ceaseless, futile attempts to do so, in those spouts."
"So the slow development of men and women is due to the feebleness of the life germ in their case?"
"Exactly. It can"t attain all its desires at once. And now you can see how immeasurably superior are the phaens, who spring spontaneously from the more electric and vigorous sparks."
"But where does the matter come from that imprisons these sparks?"
"When life dies, it becomes matter. Matter itself dies, but its place is constantly taken by new matter."
"But if life comes from Faceny, how can it die at all?"
"Life is the thoughts of Faceny, and once these thoughts have left his brain they are nothing--mere dying embers."
"This is a cheerless philosophy," said Maskull. "But who is Faceny himself, then, and why does he think at all?"
Leehallfae gave another wrinkled smile. "That I"ll explain too. Faceny is of this nature. He faces Nothingness in all directions. He has no back and no sides, but is all face; and this face is his shape. It must necessarily be so, for nothing else can exist between him and Nothingness. His face is all eyes, for he eternally contemplates Nothingness. He draws his inspirations from it; in no other way could he feel himself. For the same reason, phaens and even men love to be in empty places and vast solitudes, for each one is a little Faceny."
"That rings true," said Maskull.
"Thoughts flow perpetually from Faceny"s face backward. Since his face is on all sides, however, they flow into his interior. A draught of thought thus continuously flows from Nothingness to the inside of Faceny, which is the world. The thoughts become shapes, and people the world. This outer world, therefore, which is lying all around us, is not outside at all, as it happens, but inside. The visible universe is like a gigantic stomach, and the real outside of the world we shall never see."
Maskull pondered deeply for a while.
"Leehallfae, I fail to see what you personally have to hope for, since you are nothing more than a discarded, dying thought."
"Have you never loved a woman?" asked the phaen, regarding him fixedly.
"Perhaps I have."
"When you loved, did you have no high moments?"
"That"s asking the same question in other words."
"In those moments you were approaching Faceny. If you could have drawn nearer still, would you not have done so?"
"I would, regardless of the consequences."
"Even if you personally had nothing to hope for?"
"But I would have that to hope for."
Leehallfae walked on in silence.
"A man is the half of Life," ae broke out suddenly. "A woman is the other half of life, but a phaen is the whole of life. Moreover, when life becomes split into halves, something else has dropped out of it--something that belongs only to the whole. Between your love and mine there is no comparison. If even your sluggish blood is drawn to Faceny, without stopping to ask what will come of it, how do you suppose it is with me?"
"I don"t question the genuineness of your pa.s.sion," replied Maskull, "but it"s a pity you can"t see your way to carry it forward into the next world."
Leehallfae gave a distorted grin, expressing heaven knows what emotion.
"Men think what they like, but phaens are so made that they can see the world only as it really is."
That ended the conversation.
The sun was high in the sky, and they appeared to be approaching the head of the ravine. Its walls had still further closed in and, except at those moments when Branchspell was directly behind them, they strode along all the time in deep shade; but still it was disagreeably hot and relaxing. All life had ceased. A beautiful, fantastic spectacle was presented by the cliff faces, the rocky ground, and the boulders that choked the entire width of the gorge. They were a snow-white crystalline limestone, heavily scored by veins of bright, gleaming blue. The rivulet was no longer green, but a clear, transparent crystal. Its noise was musical, and altogether it looked most romantic and charming, but Leehallfae seemed to find something else in it--aer features grew more and more set and tortured.
About half an hour after all the other life forms had vanished, another plant-animal was precipitated out of s.p.a.ce, in front of their eyes.
It was as tall as Maskull himself, and had a brilliant and vigorous appearance, as befitted a creature just out of Nature"s mint. It started to walk about; but hardly had it done so when it burst silently asunder.
Nothing remained of it--the whole body disappeared instantaneously into the same invisible mist from which it had sprung.