"I"m a man, but not a married man, remember. Don"t impute to me the misdemeanours I have had no chance of committing. Now what was it?
Fabian wrote unkindly, I suppose."
"Oh, _dear_ no. It was very much the kindest letter from him I have ever seen."
"Did he put off his coming then?"
"Not at all. He made an appointment to meet his darling in Edinburgh."
"Edinburgh!" I echoed in amazement. "Why Edinburgh?"
"Why not, Mr. Maude?" said she, in a harder voice than ever. "It"s a very pretty place, and two people who are fond of each other may spend a pleasant enough time together there. Only Mr. Scott spoilt his nice little plan by a stupid mistake. Into the envelope he had addressed to his wife he slipped his letter to another woman!"
With a glance of disgust at me which was meant to include my whole s.e.x, Mrs. Ellmer, with the best tragic manner of her old stage days, left me stupefied with rage and remorse, as she sailed out of the room.
CHAPTER XXV
At the time when the mind is oppressed by a long-gathering cloud of pa.s.sionate yet scarcely defined anxiety, the awakening crash of an event, even of an event tragic in its consequences, is a relief. This miserable letter, therefore, exposing as it did in unmistakable terms Fabian"s infidelity, shook me free of the morbid imaginings and unwholesome yearnings to which I had lately been a prey, and set me the more worthy task of devising some means of helping both my friends out of the deadlock to which I myself had unwittingly helped them to come.
For the first time I was sorry for Fabian. A serious fault committed by a person whom accidents of birth or circ.u.mstance have brought near to one"s self sets one thinking of one"s own "near shaves," and after that the tide of mercy flows in steadily. How was I, who had never been able to conquer my own love for an unattainable woman, to blame this man of much more combustible temperament, whom I had myself induced to form a marriage with a girl whom I had no means of knowing to be first in his heart? I would take no high moral tone with him now; I would speak to him frankly as man to man, hold myself blameworthy for my own share in the unlucky matrimonial venture, and appeal to the sense and kindness I knew he possessed not to let the punishment for my indiscretion fall upon the only one of us three who was entirely free from blame. There crossed my mind at this point of my reflections an unpleasant remembrance of the manner in which Fabian had received a somewhat similar appeal from me years ago, and down at the bottom of my heart there lurked a conviction that he would hear whatever I might say without offence, and neglect it without scruple. However, it was impossible to be silent now; and as the gray day dissolved into darkness, and the only light in the study, to which I had retreated, came from the glowing peat-fire, I got up from the old leather chair which was consecrated to my reveries, and with one glance through the eastern window out at the great woolly flakes of snow that were now falling thickly, I left the room and went in search of Mrs. Ellmer.
I heard her voice in her daughter"s room, and knocking at the door, called to her softly. She came out at once, and by her gentle manner I judged that she was already contrite for having treated me so cavalierly at our late interview.
"How is Babiole?" I asked first.
"She is quiet now and much better, Mr. Maude. Would you like to see her?"
"Well, no; I couldn"t do her so much good as you can. I wanted to speak to you. I"ve been thinking; of course Fabian wrote two letters, and put them into the wrong envelopes. Then the letter he intended for his wife told her when he was coming, while the other letter made an appointment on the way. Can you find out by the letter which has come to your hands when he expects to arrive here?"
"It was written the night before last; the appointment was for last night," answered she with a fresh access of acidity.
"Then he probably meant to come on here to-day. I think I"ll go to Ballater and meet the six o"clock train; I shall just have time. And if he doesn"t come by that I"ll telegraph to Edinburgh. What address does he give there?"
"Royal Hotel. But you don"t suppose that he will dare to come on here when he finds out what he has done?"
"I don"t suppose he will find out till he gets here."
"I hope, Mr. Maude, if he does come, you will persuade Babiole to show a little spirit. She seems inclined at present to receive him back like a lamb."
I was sorry to hear this, because it suggested to me that her feeling for her husband had declined even below the point of indifference. I left Mrs. Ellmer and went downstairs to put on my mackintosh and prepare for my tramp in the snow. The lamp in the hall had not yet been lighted, and I was fumbling in the darkness for my deer-stalker on the pegs of the hat-stand when I heard my name called in a hoa.r.s.e whisper from the staircase just above me. I turned, and saw the outline of Babiole"s head against the faint candle-light which fell upon the landing above through the open door of her room.
"Mr. Maude," she repeated, trying to clear and steady her voice.
"Where are you going?"
"Only as far as the village," said I in a robust and matter-of-fact tone.
"Are you going to meet Fabian?"
"Yes, if he is anywhere about."
"Ah, I thought so!" burst from her lips in a sharp whisper. She came down two more steps hurriedly: "You are not to reproach him, Mr.
Maude, you are not to plead for me, do you hear? What good can you do by interceding for a love which is dead? I was jealous when I read that letter, but not so jealous as shocked, wounded. And now that I have thought a little I am not jealous at all; so what right have I to be even wounded? This lady he wrote to he has admired for a long time, and though I never knew anything before, I guessed. She is a beauty, her photograph is in all the windows, and a little fringe of scandal hangs about her. She has dash, _eclat_, brilliancy; I have heard him say so. So he is consistent, you see, after all. I can acknowledge that now, and I don"t feel angry."
Her voice was indeed quite calm, although unutterably sad. But I noticed and rejoiced in the absence of that bitterness which had jarred on me so painfully in London.
"I do though," I said gruffly.
"But you must not show it. You cannot reconcile us through the heart, for you cannot make him a different man. You must be satisfied with knowing that you have made me a better wife. I am just as much stronger in heart and mind as I am in health since I have been up here; I wanted to tell you that while I had the opportunity, to tell you that you have cured me, and to--thank you."
As she uttered the last words in a low, sweet, lingering tone, a light burst suddenly upon us and showed me what the darkness had hidden--an expression on her pale face of beautiful strength and peace, as if indeed the quiet hills and the dark sweet-scented forests and the two human hearts that cared for her had poured some elixir into her soul to fortify it against indifference and neglect.
A little dazzled and befooled by her lovely appearance, I stood gazing at her face without a thought as to where the idealising light came from, until I heard at the other end of the hall a grating preliminary cough, and turning, saw that it was Ferguson, entering with the lamp, who had brought about this poetical effect. He had something to say to me evidently, since instead of advancing to place the light on its usual table, he remained standing at a distance still and stiff as a statue of resignation, as his custom was when his soul was burning to deliver itself of an unsolicited communication.
"Well, Ferguson!" said I.
"Yes, sir," said he, with another cough.
But he did not come forward. Now I knew this was a sign that he considered his errand serious, and I moved a few steps towards him and beckoned him to me.
"Anything to tell me?" I asked; and as he glanced at Babiole I came nearer still.
"Jock has just been in to say, sir, that a gun has been stolen from his cottage."
Babiole, who had not moved away, overheard, and must have guessed the import of this, for I heard behind me a long-drawn breath caused by some sudden emotion.
"When did he miss it?" I asked in a very low voice.
"Just now, sir. He came straight here to tell you of it. It must have been taken while he was out on his rounds this afternoon."
I did not think the poor crack-brained creature whom I guessed to be the thief was likely to do much mischief with his prize. But I told Ferguson to put all the keepers on their guard, and to take care that such crazy old bolts and bars as we used in that primitive part of the world should be drawn and raised, so that the unlucky fugitive should not be able to possess himself of any more weapons. I also directed that the search about the grounds should be kept up, and that if the poor wretch were caught, he was to be treated with all gentleness, and taken to the now disused cottage to await my return.
It was now so late that if Fabian had come by the four o"clock train he must by this time be half way from the station. But it was possible that he had already discovered the mistake of the letters, and had felt a shyness about continuing a journey which was likely to bring him to a cold welcome; so I stuck to my intention of going to Ballater either to meet him if he had arrived, or to telegraph to him if he had not. When I had finished speaking to Ferguson, I found that Babiole had disappeared from the hall. I was rather glad of it; for I had dreaded her questioning, and I hurried the preparations for my walk so that in a few moments I was out of the house and safe from the difficult task of calming her fears.
It was already night when I shut the halldoor behind me and stepped out on to the soft white covering which was already thick on the ground. The snow was still falling thickly, and the only sound I heard, as I groped my way under the arching trees of the avenue, was the occasional swishing noise of a load of snow that, dislodged by a fresh burden from the upper branch of a fir-tree, brushed the lower boughs as it fell to the earth. I am const.i.tutionally untroubled by nervous tremors, and I was too deeply occupied with thoughts of Fabian and his wife to give much grave consideration to possible danger from the unhappy lunatic who was now in all probability hidden somewhere in the neighbourhood with a weapon in his possession; but when in the oppressive darkness and stillness the tramp of footsteps in the soft snow just behind me fell suddenly on my ears, I confess that it was with my heart in my mouth, as the dairymaids say, that I turned and raised threateningly the thick stick I carried. It was, however, only Jock, gun in hand as usual, who had run fast to overtake me, and had come upon me sooner than he expected, the small lantern he carried in his hand being of little use in the darkness.
"What made you come, Jock?" I asked, not, to tell the truth, sorry to have a companion upon the lonely forest road which seemed on this night, for obvious reasons, a more gloomy promenade than usual.
"Mistress Scott bid me gang wi" ye, sir," answered he. "She said the necht was sae dark ye might miss the pairth by the burn."
We walked on together in silence until, having left the avenue far behind us, we were well in the hilly and winding road which runs through the forest from Loch Muick to the Dee. At one of the many bends in the roadway Jock suddenly stopped and stood in a listening att.i.tude.
"Deer?" said I.
"Nae," answered he, after a pause, in a measured voice, "It"s nae deer."