There was a roar at my voracity, but their own appet.i.tes were too vigorous for them to disbelieve me. I remember clearly only this of our final departure for the station: that Fabian turned up late, dashing after us down the drive in fact, and leaping up on to the Norfolk cart beside me. And that his eyes were dry, but that the front of his coat, just below the collar, was wet, perhaps with the dew.
Nevertheless, if Edgar had not been behind us, I should have felt much inclined, when we drove along the road by the Dee, just where the bank is nice and steep, to give a jerk of the reins to the left, pitch my artistic friend out into the river"s stony bed, and take my risk of following him.
CHAPTER XVI
Life seemed to move in a somewhat slow and stagnant manner for several days after the departure of my guests. I scarcely saw Babiole, and never spoke to her, a great shyness towards each other having taken possession of both of us. Mrs. Ellmer, upon whom I made a ceremonious call when I could contain my anxious interest no longer, was stiff in manner, haughty and depressed. She had evidently been informed of my opposition to Fabian"s intention of extending his stay, and I soon learnt, to my great surprise, that she considered me responsible for the destruction of Babiole"s first chance--"and the only one she is likely to have, poor child, living poked up here," of "settling well."
"Oh," said I, raising my eyebrows, and putting into that one exclamation as much sardonic emphasis as I could, while I kept my eyes fixed upon the cat and my hands much occupied with my deer-stalker, "and may I be permitted to learn how I have done this?"
"It is useless to put on a satirical manner with me, Mr. Maude," said the lady with dignity; "I am perfectly aware that it was you who objected to Mr. Scott"s remaining here long enough to make proposals for my daughter, and that, in fact, you interfered in the most marked way with his courtship of her."
"And are you ignorant of the fact, madam, that to interfere with a man"s courtship is the very way to increase its warmth, and that if my interference, as you call it, could not screw him up to the point of proposing, nothing ever would?"
Mrs. Ellmer dropped into her lap the work which she had s.n.a.t.c.hed up on my entrance, and at which she had been st.i.tching away ever since, as a hint that she was busy and would be glad to be left alone; at the same time being, I think, not sorry to vent her ill-humour on some one.
"You are using very extraordinary expressions, Mr. Maude," she said acidly. "If her mother was satisfied with the gentleman"s behaviour, I really don"t see what business you had in the affair at all."
"Do you forget that her father has made me responsible for the care of her? that she is certainly under my guardianship, and nominally engaged to me."
"Nominally! There it is. To be engaged to a man who acknowledges that he never means to marry you! There"s a pretty position for a girl, as I"ve said to Babiole scores of times!"
My heart leaped up.
"You"ve said that to Babiole!" I echoed, in a voice of suppressed rage that brought the little slender virago at once to reason.
"Well, Mr. Maude, with all respect to you, the position is something like that," she said more reasonably.
"It is not at all like that," I answered in my gravest and most magisterial tones. "If your daughter could by any possibility overcome a young girl"s natural repugnance to take for husband such an unsightly object as accident has made me, I should be a much happier man than I am ever likely to be. But she could not do so; there is such a ghastly incongruity about a marriage of that sort that I could scarcely even wish her to do so."
Mrs. Ellmer"s eyes had begun to glow with the carefully but scarcely successfully subdued interest of the match-making mamma. This, however, gave place to uneasy disappointment as I went on--
"All the same I take an interest in your daughter"s happiness quite as strong as if it were a more selfish one. It was that interest which prompted me to prevent the prolonging of a flirtation which might have serious consequences for your sensitive and impressionable little daughter."
"Serious consequences!" stammered Mrs. Ellmer. "Do you mean to say that Mr. Scott, your friend, is a dishonourable man?"
"No," said I, "I would not say anything so severe as that. But I am certainly of opinion that Mr. Scott had no more serious intention than to fill up his time here pleasantly by talks and walks with a pretty and charming girl. Lots of pretty and charming girls accept such temporary devotion for what it is worth, and their regrets, when the amus.e.m.e.nt is over, are proportionately light. But I know that Babiole is not like that, and so I did all that my limited powers of guardianship could do to lessen the danger."
"But he may still write and propose," murmured the dismayed mother.
"Even if his intentions were not serious while he was here, he may find he cannot get on without her!"
I wanted to shake the woman, or to box her ears, and ask her how she had dared wittingly to expose her daughter to the misery of hanging on to such a hope as this.
"I don"t think it"s likely," I said drily; and questioning my face with doubt in her eyes, the match-maker tried another tack.
"After all, Mr. Maude, it may be for the best," she began in a conciliatory tone. "It was I, rather than Babiole, that was so hot upon this match, not understanding that my poor child had any chance of a better husband. For my part, I don"t see that you have any reason to talk about yourself in the disponding manner you do, and if you will only trust for a little while to my diplomacy, and speak to her when I give you the word that it"s the right moment----"
I interrupted her by standing up suddenly, and I can only hope my face did not express what I thought of her and her miserable diplomacy.
"You will oblige me by saying not one word to your daughter on the subject of me and my impossible pretensions," I said authoritatively, but with a sickening knowledge that my demand would be disregarded. "I am sensitive enough and humble enough on the score of my own disadvantages, I admit. But I am not a miserable wreck of humanity who would take what perfunctory favours a woman would throw to him, and be satisfied. I am a man with powers of loving that any woman might be proud to excite; and no girl shall ever be my wife who does not feel of her own accord, and show, as an innocent girl can, that I have done her a honour in loving her which she is bound to pay back by loving me with all her might."
And much excited by my own unexpected burst of unreserve, but somewhat ashamed of having rather bullied a poor creature who, however she might a.s.sume the high hand with me, was after all but an unprotected and plucky little woman, I held out my hand with apologetic meekness and prepared to go. Mrs. Ellmer shook my hand limply and showed a disposition to whimper.
"Don"t worry yourself and don"t bother--I mean--er--don"t talk to the child. It will come all right. She"s hardly grown up yet; there"s plenty of time for half-a-dozen princely suitors to turn up. And what do you say to taking her once a week to Aberdeen and giving her some good music lessons? It will distract her thoughts a bit, and do you both good."
This suggestion diverted the little woman"s tears, and her face softened with a kindly impulse towards me.
"You are very good, Mr. Maude, you really are," she said in farewell as I left her.
And though I was grateful for this _amende_, I should have been more pleased if I could have felt a.s.sured that she would not, in default of Mr. Scott, tease her daughter with recommendations to get used to the idea of myself in the capacity of lover.
Of course after this interview I was more shy than ever of meeting Babiole, and even when, on the second evening afterwards, I saw her standing in the rose garden, apparently waiting for me to come and speak to her, I pretended not to see her, and after examining the sky as if to make out the signs by which one might predict the weather of the morrow, I turned back to finish my cigar in the drive. But the evening after that I found on my table a great bowl full of flowers from her own private garden, and on the following afternoon, while I was writing a letter, there came pattering little steps in the hall and a knock at my open study door.
"Come in," said I, feeling that I had gone purple and that the thumping of my heart must sound as loudly as a traction engine in the road outside.
Babiole came in very quietly, with a bright flush on her face and shy eyes. Her hands were full of tiny wild flowers, and among them was one little sprig carefully tied up with ribbon.
"I found a plant of white heather this morning on one of the hills by the side of the Gairn," said she quickly. "You know they say it is so rare that some Highlanders never see any all their lives. It brings luck they say."
"Why do you bring it to me then?" I asked, as she put the little blossom on the table beside me. "You should keep luck for yourself, and not waste it on a person who doesn"t deserve any."
She had nothing to say to this, so she only gave the flower a little push towards me to intimate that I was to enter into possession without delay. I took it up and stuck it in the b.u.t.tonhole of my old coat.
"It has brought me luck already, you see, since this is the first visit I have had from you for I don"t know how long," I said, looking up at her, and noticing at once with a pang that she had grown in ten days paler and altogether less radiant.
She blushed deeply at this, and sliding down on to her knees, put her arms round Ta-ta, and kissed the collie"s ears.
"Ta-ta has missed you awfully," I went on; "she told me yesterday that you never take her out on the hills now, and that her digestion is suffering in consequence. She says her tail is losing all its old grand sweep for want of change of air."
Babiole smoothed the dog"s coat affectionately.
"I haven"t been out much lately," she said in a low voice; "there has been a great deal to do in the cottage, and here too. I"ve been hemming some curtains for Janet, and helping mamma to make pickles.
Oh, I"ve been very busy, indeed."
"And I suppose all this amazing superabundance of work is over at last, since you can find time to come and pay calls of ceremony on chance acquaintances."
She looked up at me reproachfully. My spirits had been rising ever since she came in, and I would only laugh at her.
"I"m sure it is quite time those curtains were hemmed and those pickles were made, so that you can have a chance to go back to Craigendarroch and look about for those roses you"ve left there."
"Roses! Oh, do I look white then?" And she began to rub her cheeks with her hands to hide the blush that rose to them.
"Has your mother said anything to you about Aberdeen and the music lessons?"
"Yes." She looked up with a loving smile.
I had turned my chair round to the fireplace, where a little glimmer of fire was burning; for it was a wet cool day. Babiole had seated herself on a high cloth-covered footstool, and Ta-ta sat between us, looking from the one to the other and wagging her tail to congratulate us on our return to the old terms of friendship. The sky outside was growing lighter towards evening, and the sun was peeping out in a tearful and shamefaced way from behind the rain-clouds. The girl and the sun together had made a great illumination in the old study, though they were not at their brightest.