Chapter 1058: Chapter 1058 atonement!
You are evil.
This is my young mistress’favorite saying.
But I think I am innocent, because my life is different from theirs, and as a weapon, I think my fate should not be a decoration.
But my young mistress says I am quibbling.
It doesn’t matter, as an old man, I don’t care what a little girl thinks, but for some reason, when she says I am evil, I am a little unhappy, so I think… I will not eat her first, i want to see her holding me, step by step towards the same evil as me.
I will definitely succeed.
But… compared to her saying I was evil, I didn’t like her eyes more, those eyes were very pure, like a mirror, let me see myself from the inside… at the same time, those eyes were filled with pity, this made me feel more uncomfortable, I hate pity, hate purity, I want to eat her.
But I resisted, I wanted to see, the day she became like me, would there still be such pity in her eyes, would there still be such purity in her eyes as the stars.
In the first year, I failed.
I did not think that after she became my master, she did not use any of my power, nor did she slaughter any life, even if this year, she was not happy.
The second year was the same. It wasn’t until the fifth year that I couldn’t stand the days without food. There was an indescribable thirst for blood in my body. It turned into hunger, causing me to go crazy and destroy everything, i once again saw purity in her eyes. I saw pity, but I couldn’t forget what she said to me at that time.
“Must I Kill?”
“I’m Hungry!”
“I understand.”
After our conversation, my master cut her own wrist and dyed my body red with her blood. I greedily sucked on her blood. The sweetness in it made me infatuated, when I looked at her withering face and her unchanging gaze, I suddenly felt a little afraid.
What was there to be afraid of… I didn’t know, but for the first time in my life, I restrained my instincts. I fell silent. I hated this kind of purity even more. I told myself that I would definitely see the day when her gaze would change.
I originally thought that I would be able to bring back this day soon, because in the ninth year after she became my master, her sect was invaded by a group of devil cultivators who ma.s.sacred the entire sect.
When she brought me back, she trembled as she looked at the ruins and the remains of countless familiar people. She cried. At that moment, I told her that I could help her take revenge. As long as she allowed me to unleash my power, I could help her kill everyone.., i could even go to her small world and die with countless lives.
I continuously tempted and guided her, but I didn’t understand why I had failed.
She didn’t choose to use me. Instead, she left silently. However, for a moment, I felt a strong wave of emotions from her body.
The following days were the same. In the 37th year, one of her pet beasts was brutally killed. She remained silent. In the 65th year, an old friend of hers died tragically. She remained silent.
Life and death parted time and time again. Unfair treatment. The world was dark time and time again. She had been exhausted along the way, but her eyes had never changed.
In fact, there had been too many times over the years. If it wasn’t for my force field instinctively dispersing, which saved her from some danger, she would have died already.
I didn’t understand, so I finally couldn’t help but ask her.
“Why are you doing this?”
“Because I owe you, so I don’t want you to kill anymore. Even if I’m very sad, even if I really want revenge, even if I feel that living is a form of torture, to me, the most important thing… Is You,”she replied, i didn’t believe her.
However, my desire to see the change in her eyes became stronger, so I restrained my hunger. Every ten years, I would let her dye me red with her blood. Just like that, with such determination, we traveled through the starry sky.
Perhaps it was an accident, perhaps it was my guidance, or perhaps it was her fate. In the following years, her life was very miserable. Time and time again, she was helpless, and time and time again, she was at a loss. Every time at this time, i would tell her that as long as I was allowed to make a move, I could change everything about her.
However, until her hair turned white, my wish still did not come true.
Until one day, she died.
Looking at her corpse, I should clearly be happy, should be happy, because from then on, I was free, I could continue to kill, continue to devour, no one would bind me, and I wouldn’t be able to see that gaze of disgust and pity.
But… why did I seal my memories of that day.
I didn’t know why, but after she died, I became silent. My heart seemed to have an emotion that couldn’t be sealed. It was very heavy, very heavy, and it pressed down on me.
Under this kind of emotion, I was a little uncomfortable with killing. I didn’t want to admit it, but I had to admit that that girl, in her short few hundred years of companions.h.i.+p, she influenced me. Even though I met countless masters later on in my life, more and more masters abandoned me on their own initiative.
Because I no longer killed, because my blade had curled up, because my mood was low, because my power… also gradually dissipated along with my emotions.
Ten thousand years later, I was no longer a demon soldier, but an ordinary iron.
My body began to be covered in rust spots, and my inauspicious past became the past. My body began to rot, and my life… seemed to gradually disappear.
I didn’t understand why it was like this. Until the moment my life completely disappeared, the memory of the day that I sealed and let myself forget appeared before my eyes.
On the Red Mountain Peak, she lay there, stroking me while looking at the starry sky. Even though her hair was white and her face was filled with wrinkles, her eyes were still pure.
“What are you looking at?”I asked.
“Looking at the starry sky.”
“It’s pitch black. What’s there to look at?”
“In my heart, the pitch black is this world, and the starry sky has the brightest light.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Then look at it more. Look at it for a hundred years, look at it for a thousand years… you won’t be able to finish it in this life. Continue to look at it in your next life. One day, you’ll understand.”
“I have an afterlife? I don’t know if my afterlife will be an even stronger army!”
“Do you know zombies… They’re born from resentment and live in darkness forever. I’ll accompany you. This is my atonement.”
“Atonement… why do you always say that you owe me?”I asked after a long silence.
However, I didn’t have an answer. Her blood dyed my body red. This time, she didn’t hold back. Perhaps… I had forgotten to restrain myself.
Perhaps… not perhaps.
It was me who had killed her.
I looked at her corpse and remained silent for a very, very long time… I finally realized that I hadn’t sealed her, but that sentence.
“I’ll accompany you.”
I finally understood that I had always been… very lonely. From the moment I was born, I had been lonely to this day.
I also finally understood that she was the person I had been waiting for all this time. At the moment I killed her, my own life was already gone.
As my memories surfaced, I tried my best to raise the decaying blade and look at the starry sky..
Tears flowed down unknowingly. They weren’t on the devil blade that surfaced in my memories. Instead, in w.a.n.g Baole’s eyes, his eyes had opened unknowingly while he was sitting cross-legged in meditation.
As he opened his eyes, an endless devouring intent exploded in his soul. The devouring seed in his body was completely suppressed at that moment. The Devouring Dao amongst the nine laws instantly increased in resonance, it reached ninety-seven to eighty percent of the level of the Dao of light!
However, none of this gave w.a.n.g Baole any feeling. At that moment, he lowered his head in a daze and looked at his hands, muttering to himself..
“In my previous life… does all of this really exist? Why did my previous life… contain karma… and the existence of her…”
w.a.n.g Baole was silent. He suddenly raised his right hand and waved it. Instantly, a blurry black shadow appeared on his right hand. The demon blade from his previous life… was faintly discernible!