Tears of self-commiseration came into her eyes, and they appeared to him exceedingly pathetic. She made as if she would speak but could not, then retreated hastily to her room. Once in seclusion she dashed the drops away, her eyes glittered with anger, and she stamped her foot on the floor and muttered: "It is indeed an abominable position.
I might accept Graydon any day, any hour, now, and dare not. Yet if he gets an inkling of my real att.i.tude he"ll be off forever. He is as proud as Lucifer about some things, and would be quick as a flash if his suspicions were aroused. Even the belief that I am humoring Arnault for papa"s sake tests his loyalty greatly. If I have to refuse him at last I shall be placed in an odious light. The idiots! why can"t they find out whether Henry Muir is going to fail or not! That horrid Madge Alden is not his sister, and knows it, and she is gaining time to make impressions. I know how she felt years ago, when she was a perfect spook. I don"t believe she"s changed. With all her impulsive ways she"s as deep as perdition, and she"d flirt with him to spite me, if nothing more. Papa said last night that I had better accept Arnault. I won"t accept him till I must, and he"ll rue his success if he wins it." Then the mirror reflected a lovely creature dissolved in tears.
Again she soliloquized: "I can"t accept a horse from Graydon; Arnault would never submit to it. The receiving of such a present would compromise me at once. It does not matter so much what I say or look in private; this proves nothing to the world, and I see more and more clearly that Arnault will not permit his pride to be humiliated. He will endure what he calls a fair, open suit philosophically, but the expression of his eyes makes me shiver sometimes. Was ever a girl placed in such a mean and horrible position! I won"t endure this shilly-shally much longer. If they can"t prove something more definite against the Muirs, I"ll accept Graydon. Papa is just horrid! Why can"t he make more in Wall Street? There must be ways, and any way is as respectable as the one I may be compelled to take. Well, if I do have to accept Arnault I"ll make Graydon think that I had to do so for papa"s sake, and we"ll become good friends again before long. Perhaps this would be the best way in the end, for papa looked wildly, and spoke of a tenement-house last night. Tenement! Great heavens! I"d sooner die."
CHAPTER XX
"VEILED WOOING"
"Graydon, when do you think I can have my first ride?" Madge asked at dinner, with sparkling eyes.
"At about five this afternoon. I have found a saddle that I can borrow in case yours does not come till the late train."
"Oh, I"m so glad that I"ve lost my appet.i.te! You can"t know how much a horse means to me. It was after I began to ride that I grew strong enough to hope."
"Why, Madge, were you so discouraged as that?" he asked, feelingly.
"I had reason to be discouraged," she replied, in a low tone. Then she threw back her head, proudly. "You men little know," she continued, half defiantly. "You think weakness one of our prerogatives, and like us almost the better for it. We are meekly to accept our fate, and from soft couches lift our languid eyes in pious resignation. I won"t do it; and when a powerful horse is beneath me, carrying me like the wind, I feel that his strength is mine, and that I need not succ.u.mb to feminine imbecility or helplessness in any form."
"Brava, Madge!" cried Henry Muir.
"You were born a knight," added Graydon, "and have already made more and better conquests than many celebrated in prose and poetry."
"Oh, no," cried Madge, lifting her eyebrows in comic distress. "I was born a woman to my finger-tips, and never could conquer even myself. I have an awful temper. Graydon, you have already found that out."
"I have found that I had better accept just what you please to be, and fully admit your right to be just what you please," he answered, ruefully.
"What a lovely and reasonable frame of mind!" Mrs. Muir remarked.
"Truly, Miss Wildmere is to be congratulated. You have only to stick to such a disposition, and peace will last longer than the moon."
"Oh, Miss Wildmere will prove a rose without a thorn," Madge added, laughing, while under Mr. Muir"s eye her face paled perceptibly.
"There will never be anything problematical in her single-minded devotion. She has been well and discreetly brought up, and finished by the best society, while poor me!--I had to fly in the face of fate like a virago, and scramble up the best I could in Western wilds. Oh, well, Graydon, don"t be alarmed. I"ll be a good fellow if you"ll take me out riding occasionally."
He began to laugh, and she continued: "I saw you frown when I began my wicked speech. We"ll tick off tabooed subjects, and make an _index expurgatorius_, and then we"ll get on famously."
"No need of that," he said. "As far as _I_ am concerned, please consider _me_ fair game."
"Consider you fair game?" she said, with her head archly on one side.
"That would be arrant poaching. Don"t fear, Graydon, I shall never regard any man as game, not even if I should become a fat dowager with a bevy of plain daughters and a dull market."
Grave and silent Mr. Muir leaned back in his chair and laughed so heartily that he attracted attention at the Wildmere table across the room.
"That man doesn"t act as if on the brink of failure," thought Miss Wildmere. "It"s all a conspiracy of Arnault with papa."
"You are making game of me in one sense very successfully," Graydon admitted, laughing a little uneasily.
"Oh, in that sense, all men are legitimate game, and I shall chaff as many as possible, out of spite that I was not a man."
"You would make a good one--you are so devoid of sentiment and so independent."
"And yet within a week I think a certain gentleman was inclined to think me sentimental, aesthetic, intense, a victim of ideals and devotional rhapsodies."
"Oh, ye G.o.ds! Here, waiter, bring me my dessert, and let me escape,"
cried Graydon.
"Did you say I was to be ready at five?" she asked, sweetly.
"Yes, and bring down articles of a truce, and we"ll sign them in red ink."
An hour later she heard the gallop of a horse, and saw him riding away. "She shan"t mount the animal," he had thought, "till I learn more about him and give him all the running he wants to-day. She has a heavy enough score against me as it is, and I"ll not employ another brute to make things worse."
He learned more fully what he had discovered before, that she would have her hands full in managing the horse, and he gave him a run that covered him with foam and tested his breathing. At four he galloped back to the station to see if the saddle had arrived, but found that even his skill and strength were not sufficient to make the animal approach the engine. Shouting to the baggage-man to bring the expected articles to the stable, he was soon there and made another experiment.
A hostler brought him a blanket, which he strapped around his waist, and mounted again in a lady"s style. It was at once evident that the horse had never been ridden by a woman. He reared, kicked, and plunged around frightfully, and Graydon had to clutch the mane often to keep his seat. Madge had speedily joined him, and looked with absorbed interest, at times laughing, and again imploring Graydon to dismount.
This he at last he did, the perspiration pouring from his face.
Resigning the trembling and wearied horse to a stable-boy, he came toward the young girl, mopping his brow and exclaiming: "It will never do at all. He is ugly as sin. No woman should ride him, not even a squaw."
"Bah, Graydon! he did not throw you, although he had you at every disadvantage. I"m not in the least afraid. Has the saddle come?"
"Yes; but I protest, Madge. Here, Dr. Sommers" (who was approaching), "lay your commands on this rash girl."
"If Dr. Sommers says I"m rash he doesn"t understand my case, and I refuse to employ him," cried Madge. Then she added, sweetly: "If I break any bones, doctor, I"ll be your very humble and obedient servant. It"s half-past four, and I"ll be ready as soon as you are, Graydon. No backing out. You might as well warn me against the peril of a rocking-chair;" and she went to put on her habit.
"Heaven help us!" said Graydon to the doctor. "We"re in a sc.r.a.pe.
She"s so resolute that I believe she would go alone. What would you do? Hang it all! the people of the house have got an inkling of what"s up; some are gathering near, and the windows are full of heads."
"Put the saddle on one of the quiet livery horses, and you ride this brute," said the doctor.
"You don"t know her. She wouldn"t stand that at all."
"Then give her her head. After yesterday I believe she can do what she undertakes. You have tired the horse out pretty thoroughly, and I guess she"ll manage him."
Leaving orders to have Madge"s horse sponged off and dried, and the best animal in the stable prepared for himself, he said, "Well then, doctor, be on hand to repair damages," and went to his room to change his dress.
The doctor did more. He saw that Madge"s horse was saddled carefully, meanwhile admiring the beautiful equipment that Graydon had ordered.
He also insured that Graydon had a good mount.
When at last the young man tapped at Madge"s door she came out looking most beautiful in her close-fitting habit and low beaver, with its drooping feather. Mary followed her, protesting and half crying, and Mr. Muir looked very grave.
"Madge," said Graydon, earnestly, "I should never forgive myself if any harm came to you. That horse is not fit for you to ride."
"Good people, see here," said Madge, turning upon them; "I am not a reckless child, nor am I making a rash experiment. Even if I did not fear broken bones, do you think I would give you needless anxiety?
Graydon has kindly obtained for me a fine horse, and I must make a beginning to show you and him that I can ride. If Mr. and Mrs. Wayland were here they would laugh at you. Don"t come out to see me off, Mary.
Others would follow, and I don"t want to be conspicuous. I do wish people would mind their own business."
"No danger of my coming out. I don"t want to see you break your neck,"