Some people rose and left the car. She sat apparently buried in colorless reverie. Twice her voice failed her; he bent nearer; and--
"I love you," she said.
[Ill.u.s.tration: ""I LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO WAIT A MILLION YEARS!""]
A PILGRIM
I
The servants had gathered in the front hall to inspect the new arrival--cook, kitchen-maid, butler, flanked on the right by parlor-maids, on the left by a footman and a small b.u.t.tons.
The new arrival was a snow-white bull-terrier, alert, ardent, quivering in expectation of a welcome among these strangers, madly wagging his whiplike tail in pa.s.sionate silence.
When the mistress of the house at last came down the great stone stairway, the servants fell back in a semi-circle, leaving her face to face with the white bull-terrier.
"So _that_ is the dog!" she said, in faint astonishment. A respectful murmur of a.s.sent corroborated her conclusion.
The dog"s eyes met hers; she turned to the servants with a perplexed gesture.
"Is the brougham at the door?" asked the young mistress of the house.
The footman signified that it was.
"Then tell Phelan to come here at once."
Phelan, the coachman, arrived, large, rosy, freshly shaven, admirably correct.
"Phelan," said the young mistress, "look at that dog."
The coachman promptly fixed his eyes on the wagging bull-terrier. In spite of his decorous gravity a smile of distinct pleasure slowly spread over his square, pink face until it became a subdued simper.
"Is that a well-bred dog, Phelan?" demanded the young mistress.
"It is, ma"am," replied Phelan, promptly.
"Very well bred?"
"Very, ma"am."
"Dangerous?"
"In a fight, ma"am." Stifled enthusiasm swelled the veins in the coachman"s forehead. Triumphant paeans of praise for the bull-terrier trembled upon his lips; but he stood rigid, correct, a martyr to his perfect training.
"Say what you wish to say, Phelan," prompted the young mistress, with a hasty glance at the dog.
"Thanky, ma"am.... The bull is the finest I ever laid eyes on.... He hasn"t a blemish, ma"am; and the three years of him doubled will leave him three years to his prime, ma"am.... And there"s never another bull, nor a screw-tail, nor cross, be it mastiff or fox or whippet, ma"am, that can loose the holt o" thim twin jaws.... Beg pardon, ma"am, I know the dog."
"You mean that you have seen that dog before?"
"Yes, ma"am; he won his cla.s.s from a pup at the Garden. That is "His Highness," ma"am, Mr. Langham"s champion three-year."
She had already stooped to caress the silent, eager dog--timidly, because she had never before owned a dog--but at the mention of his master"s name she drew back sharply and stood erect.
"Never fear, ma"am," said the coachman, eagerly; "he won"t bite, ma"am--"
"Mr. Langham"s dog?" she repeated, coldly; and then, without another glance at either the dog or the coachman, she turned to the front door; b.u.t.tons swung it wide with infantile dignity; a moment later she was in her brougham, with Phelan on the box and the rigid footman expectant at the window.
II
Seated in a corner of her brougham, she saw the world pa.s.s on flashing wheels along the asphalt; she saw the April sunshine slanting across brown-stone mansions and the gla.s.s-fronted facades of shops; ... she looked without seeing.
So Langham had sent her his dog! In the first year of her widowhood she had first met Langham; she was then twenty-one. In the second year of her widowhood Langham had offered himself, and, with the declaration on his lips, had seen the utter hopelessness of his offer. They had not met since then. And now, in the third year of her widowhood, he offered her his dog!
She had at first intended to keep the dog. Knowing nothing of animals, discouraged from all sporting fads by a husband who himself was devoted to animals dedicated to sport, she had quietly acquiesced in her husband"s dictum that "horse-women and dog-women made a man ill!"--and so dismissed any idea she might have entertained towards the harboring of the four-footed.
A miserable consciousness smote her: why had she allowed the memory of her husband to fade so amazingly in these last two months of early spring? Of late, when she wished to fix her thoughts upon her late husband and to conjure his face before her closed eyes, she found that the mental apparition came with more and more difficulty.
Sitting in a corner of her brougham, the sharp rhythm of her horses"
hoofs tuning her thoughts, she quietly endeavored to raise that cherished mental spectre, but could not, until by hazard she remembered the portrait of her husband hanging in the smoking-room.
But instantly she strove to put that away; the portrait was by Sargent, a portrait she had always disliked, because the great painter had painted an expression into her husband"s face which she had never seen there. An aged and unbearable aunt of hers had declared that Sargent painted beneath the surface; she resented the suggestion, because what she read beneath the surface of her husband"s portrait sent hot blood into her face.
Thinking of these things, she saw the spring sunshine gilding the gray branches of the park trees. Here and there elms spread tinted with green; chestnuts and maples were already in the full glory of new leaves; the leafless twisted tangles of wistaria hung thick with scented purple bloom; everywhere the scarlet blossoms of the j.a.panese quince glowed on naked shrubs, bedded in green lawns.
Her husband had loved the country.... There was one spot in the world which he had loved above all others--the Sagamore Angling Club. She had never been there. But she meant to go. Probably to-morrow.... And before she went she must send that dog back to Langham.
At the cathedral she signalled to stop, and sent the brougham back, saying she would walk home. And the first man she met was Langham.
III
There was nothing extraordinary in it. His club was there on the corner, and it was exactly his hour for the club.
"It is so very fortunate ... for me," he said. "I did want to see you.... I am going north to-morrow."
"Of course it"s about the dog," she said, pleasantly.
He laughed. "I am so glad that you will accept him--"
"But I can"t," she said; ... "and thank you so much for asking me."
For a moment his expression touched her, but she could not permit expressions of men"s faces to arouse her compunction, so she turned her eyes resolutely ahead towards the spire of the marble church.