"It was not all out of a spirit of contradiction," said Anne, "though she said this morning, that she was very tired and very cross yesterday evening. But, Mamma, she also said that she thinks the time she spends in company wasted, and she really believes that no one dares to talk sense, or that if he does, everyone dislikes him."
"That is only a little unconscious affectation of being wiser than other people, a.s.sisted by living in a place where there are the usual complement of dull people, and where her father"s situation prevents him from a.s.sociating only with those whom he would prefer," said Lady Merton; "her good sense will get the better of it. I am much more anxious about this spirit of contradiction."
"Yes, it certainly led her to be very unjust, as she acknowledged this morning," said Anne, "and rather unkind to Helen. But then it was no wonder that she was mad with the Hazlebys."
Anne then told the history of poor Dora"s trouble, and was quite satisfied with her mother"s displeasure at Mrs. Hazleby, and her admiration of little Dora.
"And what do you think of Helen?" asked she presently.
"I can hardly tell," said Anne, "she is still very demure, with very little of Lizzie"s sparkling merriment; indeed, she does not seem in the least able to enter into a joke. But then she said some very sensible things. Lizzie said she wondered what we should think of her.
She thinks her very much improved, but complains that she has lost her home feelings, and cares only for d.y.k.elands; I scarcely know what she means."
"I think that I can guess," said Lady Merton, "from knowing a little more of Mrs. Staunton"s character. She is a very amiable person, and has in reality, I believe, plenty of good sense; but she has allowed herself to fall into an exaggerated style of feeling and expression, which, I dare say, bewitched a girl like Helen, and now makes her find home cold and desolate."
"Like the letter which Mrs. Staunton wrote to you about Rupert, and which Papa called ecstatic," said Anne.
"That is an instance of Mrs. Staunton"s way of expressing herself,"
said Lady Merton; "now I will give you one of her acuteness of feeling, as she calls it. Your Aunt Katherine was her greatest friend when she was a girl, though I believe the kind epithets she lavished upon me would have been enough to stock two or three moderate friendships. We all used to walk together, and spend at least one evening in the week together. One evening, your aunt, who had a good deal of the same high careless spirit which you observe in Lizzie, chanced to make some observation upon the rudeness of sailors in general, forgetting that Helen Atherley"s brother was a sailor."
"Or if she had remembered it," said Anne, "judging by Lizzie, she would have said the same thing; she would have taken it for granted that the present company was always excepted."
"Captain Atherley was not of the present company," said Lady Merton, "he was in the Mediterranean; and it happened that he had not had time to call at Merton Hall in due form, the last time he had been at home, so that poor Helen thought that this speech was aimed at him. She said nothing at the time; but next morning arrived a note to me, to entreat me to find out what her darling Henry could possibly have done to offend dearest Katherine Merton, for she should be wretched till she understood it, and Katherine had forgiven her and him. She a.s.sured me that she had lain awake all night, thinking it over, and had at last come to the conclusion that it must be this unfortunate omission, and she promised to write to dear Henry immediately, to make him send all possible apologies."
"Poor Captain Atherley!" exclaimed Anne; "and what could my aunt say?"
"Unfortunately," said Lady Merton, "both she and I had entirely forgotten the speech, and could not guess what could have given rise to Helen"s imaginations. After a consultation, I was deputed to Helen with many a.s.surances that Katherine was very sorry, she could not exactly tell why, but for whatever had grieved Helen; and after a good deal of kissing and lamenting on both sides, which, I believe, Katherine considered as a punishment for her inconsiderate speech, things were set right again."
"Inconsiderate, Mamma?" said Anne; "that seems as if you blamed my aunt, when it seems to me that Mrs. Staunton deserved all the blame for her excessive folly, and what I should think want of confidence in her friend"s affection."
"It was certainly very silly," said Lady Merton; "but you know, Anne, that when people have once accustomed themselves to get into a habit of making mountains of mole-hills, they cannot see anything as it really is. I thought Katherine quite in the right, as you do now, but I believe she considered that, knowing as she did the over-sensitiveness of her friend, she should have been more cautious in what she said."
"That was the right way for her to take it," said Anne; "but I still think Mrs. Staunton must be an excessively silly person. Of course one would wish to keep from hurting people"s feelings, but it really is hardly possible to help it, if they will ride out to meet offence in such a way."
"Yet, Anne," said her mother, "you may comfort yourself with knowing that as long as you do what is commanded, set a watch before your lips, you are not likely to wound the feelings of others, however sensitive."
"I know, Mamma," said Anne, "that would correct every fault of that kind; but then I hardly know how to do so thoroughly. And I think sensitiveness is a good thing--at least, it makes people know better what will hurt others."
"Be sensitive for others, without being ready to take offence for yourself, then, Anne," said Lady Merton. "And now that you have fitted the moral to my story, I must go down and help Mrs. Woodbourne to entertain Mrs. Hazleby."
"I pity you," said Anne. "If everyone, or indeed if half the world were like her, I should be more violent in my opinions than Lizzie is."
"And what are you going to do?" asked Lady Merton.
"I am going to sit in the school-room," said Anne; "I had a special invitation from Dora this morning."
On going down-stairs, Anne found that Katherine and Harriet had gone to spend the morning with the Mrs. Turner mentioned during the walk to St.
Austin"s, as her daughter, Miss Wilhelmina, had engaged to teach Harriet to make wax flowers. Lucy was up-stairs, writing to Major Hazleby; and Helen was sitting in the school-room, where Elizabeth was teaching the children. Little Winifred had just finished her lessons, and was skipping off in high glee with her medal round her neck, to tell her mamma that she had gained four good marks. Dora was perched on a high stool, at Elizabeth"s desk, with a broadly ruled paper before her, on the top of which the words, "My dear Horace, St. Austin"s Church was consecrated yesterday," were to be seen in fair round hand.
No more was visible, for the little girl laughingly laid down her rosy cheek, and all her light wavy curls, flat upon the letter, as Anne advanced and made a stealthy attempt to profit by the intelligence she was sending to her brother. Edward was standing by Elizabeth, reading Mrs. Trimmer"s Fabulous Histories, for, though five years old, he made very slow progress in English literature, being more backward in learning to read than any of the others had been, excepting Helen. He did not like the trouble of spelling, and was in the habit of guessing at every word he did not know; and on his very composedly calling old Joe the gardener, "the old gander," Anne burst into an irrepressible giggle, and Helen, sedate as she was, could not help following her example. They had just composed themselves, when Edward made another blunder, which set them off again, and Elizabeth, who when alone with the children, could bear anything with becoming gravity, also gave way.
Edward, finding that he was diverting them, began to make absurd mistakes on purpose, so that Elizabeth was forced to call him to order.
Anne thought it best to leave the room, and Helen followed her, saying, "We had better leave Lizzie to manage him by herself; she always does better without me."
"You have never shewn me your drawings, Helen," said Anne; "I should like very much to see them, if you will let me."
"If you please," said Helen. "Will you come up to my room? I keep all my own things there, out of the way of the critics."
"What critics?" inquired Anne.
"Lizzie, to be sure, and Papa," said Helen; "I think them the severest people I know."
"Do you indeed!" said Anne.
"Do not you?" said Helen; "does not Lizzie say the sharpest things possible? I am sure she does to me, and she never likes anything I do.
If there is any little fault in it, she and Papa always look at that, rather than anything else."
"Well," said Anne, "it is a comfort that if they like anything you do, you are sure it is really very good. Their praise is worth more than that of other people."
Helen sighed, but made no reply, as by this time they had arrived at the door of the room which she shared with Katherine. It was a complete contrast to Elizabeth"s; it was larger and lighter, and looked out upon the bright garden, the alms-houses, and the church tower. The upper part of the window was occupied by Katherine"s large cage of canary birds, and below was a stand of flower-pots, a cactus which never dreamt of blossoming, an ice-plant, and a columnia belonging to Katherine, a nourishing daphne of Helen"s, and a verbena, and a few geranium cuttings which she had brought from d.y.k.elands, looking very miserable under cracked tumblers and stemless wine-gla.s.ses. On a small round table were, very prettily arranged, various little knicknacks and curiosities, which Elizabeth always laughed at, such as a gla.s.s ship, which was surrounded with miniature watering-pots, humming-tops, knives and forks, a Tonbridge-ware box, a gold-studded horn bonbonniere, a Breakwater-marble ruler, several varieties of pincushions, a pen-wiper with a doll in the middle of it, a little dish of money-cowries, and another of Indian shot, the seed of the mahogany tree, some sea-eggs, a false book made of the wreck of the Royal George, and some pieces of spar and petrifactions which Helen had acquired on an expedition to Matlock with the Stauntons. The book-shelf, however, was to Anne the most attractive object in the room; and whilst Helen was untying the strings of her portfolio, she went up to it.
"What a beautiful little Bishop Wilson!" exclaimed she, taking out one of the books.
"Yes," said Helen with a sigh, "that was dear Mrs. Staunton"s last present to me before I left d.y.k.elands. She said that perhaps she should not see me again before I was confirmed, and it was the fittest G.o.dmother"s gift she could find."
"And is this pretty Lady of the Lake yours too?" said Anne; "what a pretty binding, with the Douglas arms on it!"
"Yes," said Helen, "that was f.a.n.n.y"s present; and Jane gave me the pretty forget-me-not brooch I wore yesterday. You see I have plenty of keep-sakes from the dear people."
Anne then turned to the portfolio on the table. Helen shewed her, in the first place, a rather stiff and formal looking forget-me-not, painted by f.a.n.n.y Staunton, and a carelessly sketched but neatly shaded head drawn by Jane, both which specimens of art Anne tried hard to admire for Helen"s sake, but could not find it in her heart to do so.
Helen"s own drawings, which were landscapes, gave more promise of improvement, and displayed a good deal of taste and freedom of hand, though some were by no means correct in the outline. Helen pointed out several faults which she candidly acknowledged to be wrong, and some others which she said "Lizzie called blunders."
"There," said she, "is the house at dear d.y.k.elands; there is my window with the Banksia roses cl.u.s.tering round it, so that I could gather them as I stood in my room. That room is still to be called Helen"s. But now, Anne, do you think that line ought to be straight? Lizzie says it should, but I think the perspective alters it; I am sure I saw it so."
"Indeed, Helen," said Anne, "I think the shadow must have deceived you." And with a little trouble she proved that Elizabeth was right.
"Ah!" said Helen, "if Lizzie would but have shewn me patiently, instead of saying, "Why, Helen, cannot you draw a straight line?" I should have understood her." Then she continued, while taking out India-rubber and pencil to rectify the mistake, "I used to draw a great deal at dear d.y.k.elands; we had a sketching master, and used to go out with him twice a week, but it was very delightful when we three went alone, when one of us used to read while the others drew. I am sure these sketches will for ever remind me of those happy days."
"Why, Helen," said Anne, smiling, "you speak as if you never meant to be happy again."
"Do I?" said poor Helen; "I am afraid I do seem rather silly about dear d.y.k.elands. The other day I was singing
"My heart"s in the Highlands, my heart is not here, My heart"s in the Highlands, gone chasing the deer,"
when in came Lizzie, and said, "No, Helen,
Your heart is at d.y.k.elands, your heart"s in the bogs, Your heart is at d.y.k.elands, gone chasing the frogs,"
for she is always laughing at it for being so damp, dear place. And it was before Horace went to school, and he would do nothing but sing it at me all day, and make Winifred do so too."
Anne could not help laughing.